This part gets a little spicy but they don't too much. Also mentions of self harm and depression in the next few chapters. Chapter 5 takes place right after this and I only have up to chapter 6 ready. The other chapters will take longer to release but hopefully I stay focused. Will give warnings.
Sensei handed me a cup of tea when I reached his room. "Give this to Levyanno, will you? It's healing tea." I nodded silently before shaking my head.
"Wait why me?"
"Because you and him trust each other. Remember that one day you were upset?" Oh he just had to bring that up, didn't he?
Flashback
I was outside on the railing of the Bounty. It was the anniversary the day Jackalo burned down, with my mother. I was speaking to her while tears ran down my cheeks. All of a sudden, I hear the strumming of a guitar with a familiar voice.
Feeling my way through the darkness
Guided by a beating heart
I can't tell where the journey will end
But I know where to start
They tell me I'm too young to understand
They say I'm caught up in a dream
Well life will pass me by if I don't open up my eyes
Well that's fine by me
So wake me up when it's all over
When I'm wiser and I'm older
All this time I was finding myself, and I
Didn't know I was lost
So wake me up when it's all over
When I'm wiser and I'm older
All this time I was finding myself, and I
Didn't know I was lost
I tried carrying the weight of the world
But I only have two hands
Hope I get the chance to travel the world
But I don't have any plans
Wish that I could stay forever this young
Not afraid to close my eyes
Life's a game made for everyone
And love is a prize
So wake me up when it's all over
When I'm wiser and I'm older
All this time I was finding myself, and I
Didn't know I was lost
So wake me up when it's all over
When I'm wiser and I'm older
All this time I was finding myself, and I
I didn't know I was lost
I didn't know I was lost
I didn't know I was lost
I didn't know I was lost
I didn't know"
I looked over at Lee while he played. He smiled at me and chuckled as he stood next to me leaning against the railing.
"Lee... I-I have no words. I didn't even know you could play guitar."
"I have many secret talents, but you know that you're not alone in this. I miss my parents as you do your mother." We stayed silent for a few seconds as we let the wind flow past.
"Plus, I know that look you give him. I've worn that look many times myself." Wait, Sensei knew? And he was fine with it?
"You're not mad or disgusted? I'm a guy, he's a guy. Isn't it at least, I don't know, weird?" I couldn't keep my mouth shut could I?
"We don't understand algebra but you still accept learning about. The same is with love, whether it be two males, two girls, more than one partner, or simply two without gender. Love can't be explained, just like life and death. Why worry about people loving each other when you can worry about more important things like helping others discover the rights of life." Sensei turned to look out the window as clouds grew dark.
"Wow, I never, just wow. And here I thought all elders and adults were closed minded as-" Sensei interrupted me with a whack to the head using his staff.
"No cursing when I'm around."
"Oh, sorry Sensei. I may have forgotten."
"No worries." I looked at the tea in my hand stared at my reflection. "And Cole?" I peered up at him. "I may or may not have had my liking for another sensei." Sensei Wu, having a crush on another guy? Wait Seriously?
"Wow. That, that's something, Sensei."
"Now go, your teammate is in pain." Oh shit that right.
"Thank you Sensei. I appreciate the short life lesson." I finally left the room with the tea. I couldn't help but stare at my reflection, it soothed me. It calmed my soul down. As I got closer to the medical bay, I could here music playing. I could recognize the song as Wake Me Up by AVICII. I took a deep breathe and knocked on the door as the song continued.
"Come in." I open it and walk over to Lee, who was staring at his phone.
"Sensei made me bring you some Healing Tea." He wrinkled his nose.
"Great. I absolutely love healing tea." I set the cup on the bedside table so I could help him sit up. He grunts and tenses up every little inch he moves up. When we get him sitting up he sighs and I hand him the tea. "Cheers, mate." He held it up before tipping back his head and drinking it. He gags before setting the cup down on his lap.
"So... AVICII?" He starts laughing nervously while rubbing the back of his neck. I sit down on the edge of the bed as he looked away blushing.
"Uh, yeah." I start laughing.
"Kid, you are such a fan." He looks up at me and starts laughing too.
"You heard my playlist?"
"Playlist?" I ask as Young Volcanoes by Fall Out Boy came on.
"Uh yeah. It's the one I'm listening to right now." He handed me his phone to let me scroll through the music.
"We have too much in common. You even have Adam Lambert in here! He's like, really awesome!" I reached over and ruffled his hair. He growled while looking at me like death warmed over. I raised my eyebrows twice and he cracked up laughing. "So, I take it that your ribs are better?"
"Eh, the tea works faster than my healing abilities do." I smiled as the next song came on. Last of the Real Ones. I decide to scroll through one more song before coming across Simon Curtis' Flesh. I stop and stare at it for a bit. Lee must've noticed as he cleared his throat. "So, um, Cole. I'm going to ask this again and I want a plausible answer." He looked me right in the eyes. It becomes silent as he waits for me to say go ahead.
"Look, before you say anything else, I need to tell you something." I swallowed hard and could feel my nerves acting up in my stomach. Even if I didn't want to, I had to force myself to look into his eyes. "Levyanno." I met his eyes just to make sure he knew I was serious. "I care about you. There is nothing to make me stop caring about you." My hands started sweating and it felt as though I was going to puke. I might as well say it fast and get it over with.
"Cole-"
"I love you, Levyanno. I have since I first met you in that coffee shop. I can't stop thinking about you and you're always on my mind. There I said it." I closed my eyes trying to swallow the stupid butterflies. God, I hate them so much.
"Cole. I-I don't know what to say." We met eye contact but he looked away fast.
"It's alright. I wasn't expecting you to reciprocate my feelings." I sighed and stood up. "But at least you know how I feel."
"I may know your feelings for me," I turn around and see him getting up from the bed. "But do you know mine?" I was stuck where I was as he walked towards me, staring me down. "I'm not that good with words." I snapped back into reality as he stands before me. He's short so I have to look down. "I don't like you Cole." Wait, why is he saying this? I can't help myself but look down at his lips. I met his eyes again, staring like cold stone into me. Before I could react, he grabbed the collar of my shirt and pulled me into a kiss.
IT'S GETTING SPICY NOW SKIP (OPTIONAL)
I closed my eyes and placed my hand on his hips. I could feel his arms around my neck. Tilting my head to the side, I deepened the kiss and before I knew it, I had his back up against the wall. I finally open my eyes and pull away and he does the same. "I don't like you. I love you." Oh. I start feeling my face heat up again as the song switches. I lean down ti kiss him and it's like autopilot. I pick him up and lean him against the wall. I don't do it on purpose but I kiss him again as he wraps his legs around my waist. I can't control myself as I leave a trail of kisses down his chin and just to the side of his throat. My ears pick up the song that's playing which is Flesh.
"Oh, a little crazy huh." I can hear his heart beating faster.
"Just shut up and do it already." I close my eyes and start sucking his neck. After a few attempts to find his sweet spot, I hear his breathe hitch as he grasps my shoulders. Bite into me harder, sink your teeth into my flesh. I bite down and he gasps before it turns into something else. What was I doing? Whatever it was, it was scary. I immediately stop and pull my head away to see a red and purple bruise. Oh shit. Lloyd's definitely killing me now.
"Lee, on my god, holy shit. I didn't mean to do that. I- I didn't know what got into me and now Lloyd's going to probably kill me and-"
"Cole, he won't." I stop ranting. Lee's face is red and my stomach is feels as if it's doing cartwheels.
"What do you mean?" I ask as we untangle from the wall. He hangs onto me as we walk back to the bed.
"I mean he won't kill you because I won't let him. I let this happen too so it's on me as well." He let's go of me and we sit down. We're both breathing hard but at least we didn't go too far, right?
"I still didn't mean this." We sit in silence as I slid to the end of the bed, far away from him.
END OF SPICY SKIP- START OF DEPRESSION
"God my throat is dry, but I guess that's what I get for having that song on my playlist." I watch as he laughs slightly but something catches my eyes. Scars.
"Lee? What are those?" I asked, pointing to his arms. He stops laughing and looks at where I'm pointing. I can see him pale and throw on a smile.
"They're nothing. Just training scars." He pulls down his long sleeve to hide it, but I know what those are. This was what I was afraid of.
"Lee... those were not training scars." I say, putting a firm grasp on his arm. He looks away but doesn't pull away his arm.
"They're memories of the past."