Giant thanks to Sherry and Paige for finding time in their busy schedules to beta! If I don't update again before the holidays… Happy Holidays!
It's amazing how your life can change in one fleeting moment. I never thought I could feel this way about anyone. I never thought a simple kiss could feel so… so…. Heavens, I can't even think of a word to describe the way he's making me feel. My head is in the sky while my body is with him. I don't want to seem like a hussy-we did meet when I was running away from my wedding, after all-but I don't know how much longer I'll be able to last like this. He wants to go back to our hotel room, and while my mind is hesitant, my body wants to race him there.
"You ready to get out of here?" Edward asks again.
He smiles at me and is probably wondering where on Earth my mind is at. Goodness, I'm wondering the same thing. I can't focus with him looking at me like that. The way he licks his lips as his gaze roves over my body has me quivering in my boots with anticipation. I try to catch my breath as I search for the words to answer him.
It takes a moment, because I'm still finding it hard to think, let alone breathe. I can only blame Edward for that. He's holding my hand in his, but hasn't moved to leave until he's sure that I'm ready.
"I'm ready," I finally answer, giving him a shy smile. Which is strange, considering I'm not a shy girl, at all. It must be Edward. He has me blushing and rambling like a lovesick teenager, yet I love it.
Edward smiles at my answer and leads me toward the door of the bar. I can't help but giggle as I follow him, willing my feet to keep up with my overeagerness to get out of this place and into a bed with him. As soon as the crisp night air hits us, Edward pulls me to the side of the building, away from the bar door and presses me against the wall. He gives me a cocky grin before his hands roam down to my ass, grabbing a handful before he pulls me against his crotch as he smashes his lips against mine. I'm delirious as my lips move in sync against his. He tastes so good. He feels so good. And I never want this night to end. All of this feels like a dream. A dream I hope to never wake up from. Kissing has never felt like this before. Heavens, he can do more for me by just kissing me, then my ex-fiance could manage after an entire night in bed together.
Edward pulls away to breathe and when he sees my expression, he chuckles. I must look drunk because I feel drunk off of his kisses. I feel boneless and almost languished as I slouch against the wall behind me.
"How you feeling, Bells?"
"Wonderful," I admit with a sated grin. Who knew he could satisfy me with just a kiss? However, I'm sure once I've tasted the whole package I'll never be sated with just a kiss ever again. I'll want all of him. "Can we get going?"
"You seem eager, Bells," Edward teases as he gives me one of his signature smirks.
"Why don't we hop in your truck and head back to the hotel for the night and you can find out just how eager I am?"
Edward's eyes rake over my voluptuous curves before he grabs ahold of my hand and guides me toward his truck. I hadn't planned on moving so quickly, physically with him, but everything about this feels right to me. Even if I tried, I don't think I'd be able to hold back for very much longer. I've always enjoyed sex, even if it was sanitary and absolutely mediocre. Even when I didn't get off, I always found pleasure in watching the man I was with come. It was freeing for me in a way. I always thought it was so incredibly sexy that they found so much enjoyment from my body. Come to think of it, most of the sex I've engaged in has been lackluster. It's been soft, clean, and easy. Three words that never describe amazing sex. I can already tell that sex with Edward will be anything but soft, clean, and easy. I want it to rock my world. I need it to rock my world. I want to wipe my slate clean and start a new life in El Paso. I feel like by opening myself up and starting over with someone like Edward could be exactly what I need.
The hotel we planned on staying at is too far away-well, it's only ten miles away but we're too impatient to endure that-so, we stop at the nearest hotel we can find with a vacancy. It's a generic chain hotel, which is perfect because that means we'll know just what to expect. Usually hotels like these are clean. Which is a good thing considering I don't want to spend my first night with Edward in some grimy hotel room with a filthy mattress that's been around for God knows how long.
During our drive, Edward keeps one hand gripping tightly onto the steering wheel while the other sensually rubs its way up and down my thigh. It makes the ride painfully long and nearly unbearable. My clothes feel tight, too tight, and I just want to strip them off. I don't understand what this man is doing to me. I don't understand the power he apparently has over me. He's not my usual type, but he's what I should've been looking for all along. Never has anyone felt so right for me. Which is a scary thought, considering I don't know much about this guy. He could have this established life in El Paso I know nothing about. He could transform into a different person entirely when he gets back to his hometown.
Maybe that's just my fears talking. Maybe that's just my mind trying to talk my body down. My head is trying to be practical, all the while my body is fighting not to rip every stitch I have on off and jump on the sexy fucker next to me. I think after years and years of boring, run-of-the-mill sex, I deserve something exceptional. Even if it doesn't result in a long-term relationship. Tonight, I don't need the promise of something more on the horizon. Tonight, I just want to enjoy myself while he loses himself by using my body. Tomorrow, I'll deal with the consequences, but tonight he's mine.
A/N: I'll be posting a teaser in my facebook group for the next chapter! I know the UST is out of control!