Author's Note: I would like to dedicate Blood Behind The Tears, and the rest of the series I will surely write, to my #1 fan, Sassybratt, for showing me that I am a talented writer and that I should continue on with me amazing stories. This one is for you! 3
Blood Behind The Tears
Chapter 3: I'm Sorry...
You know that feeling?
The feeling you get when you think something will happen
You dream about it. Hope for it
And as soon as that moment comes
It's nothing what you expected
You never even wanted it in the first place
You wanted something completely different
You wanted someone else
-Kagome
The ring shined brighter in the sunlight than ever before. Her eyes were set on the breath-taking diamond in her boyfriend's hands. She could hear people whispering, and she could see people watching them out of the corner of her eyes, but she didn't care about them. She couldn't keep her mind off of the face she saw only a few moments ago when Inuyasha walked in the school, that pitiful sympathetic expression that stabbed at her heart.
Bankotsu cleared his throat after 5 long minutes of complete silence between them, waiting for an answer.. Kagome finally blinked her eyelashes and glanced over her shoulder at Inuyasha. All Inuyasha did was stare at her with a sad look on his face, his lips making a permanent frown embedded into Kagome's brain. Inuyasha pulled out of her stare and looked at the ground, also waiting for her answer.
Looking at Inuyasha, she went numb and couldn't feel anything at all. She felt like she was holding her breathe for a long time and she was out of breathe, and there was a painful stabbing feeling in her chest. She wanted to run to him, comfort him, make him see that she wanted him. But she couldn't.
"Well-" Bankotsu broke the silence, and all of the emotions came flooding back into Kagome, she could feel her arms again, she could breathe again. But her heart still stung. Her eyes trailed from Inuyasha's helplessness in the middle of the room, to Bankotsu's anxious eyes.
"I'm sorry,-" she began, but had to stop for a moment to catch her breath. Inuyasha's head picked up and stared at her, while Bankotsu sighed in remorse. Kagome then spat the rest of the words out. "I just think that we should finish school, that's all. We have only been dating for 6 months, and we shouldn't have to rush into anything stupid."
Bankotsu's eyes went wide, his mouth opened in shock and his face looked like a tomato ready to explode. "What do you mean, Kagome? We love each other. Isn't that enough?" His hand still held the ring he presented to her only a few moments ago.
Kagome looked down at the ring, and pushed it back into his jacket pocket, shaking her head. She took a deep breath in and sighed. "I'm sorry, Bankotsu. But, I can't marry you when...-" She cut herself short, at she quickly glanced over at Inuyasha. His expression was shocked, and full of question. Kagome smiled at him and turned back to Bankotsu. Standing up, she looked down at him. "We are just way too young, we are only in grade twelve, we are graduating in the spring and going to college in the fall-"
She cut herself off again to look around her, but paused when she saw a grin creep across Inuyasha's face as he watched. Kagome smiled to herself but then got right back into her conversation. "You don't know how your gonna feel after all that. I don't want you to give up your life for me."
Bankotsu shock his head back and forth, he grabbed Kagome's hands and held them in her own. His eyes stared into her own as he leaned closer to her, "I only want you, Kagome. I only love you." He paused, as he flashed a smile at her. "Forever."
Kagome's head fell. Her heart felt like it was going to burst, that her legs would give out and she would be on the floor in a matter of seconds. Her ears became numb and her cheeks were burning. She shock her head, looking at Inuyasha she spoke. "I'm sorry, but I don't know if I want you forever." Inuyasha's eyes drowned her in a world she always knew, always wanted, and, at a time, once had. And she wanted that world back, she couldn't have a world with Bankotsu when her heart belonged to Inuyasha's world.
Bankotsu looked in the direction of Kagome's glance. He saw Inuyasha looking at her, not in a normal way but in a way that... that someone who loved you would look at you. And then, Bankotsu knew everything. In that small but perfect moment of silence and defeat, he put all the pieces of the puzzle together, and was letting go of Kagome's hands. His eyes went wide, and then he roared. "Are you serious?! HIM!? He is the reason why you won't marry me? He is the one you wanna be with!?" His long muscular fingers pointed at Inuyasha.
Inuyasha looked between both Kagome and Bankotsu, and then turned around to face Kouga and Sesshomaru. He mouthed the words: "Help me," and then turned around to face Bankotsu again. Kagome's eyes filled with tears, as she looked at the confusion and happiness in Inuyasha's eyes, and at the fury and revenge in Bankotsu's eyes. What have I done?
Inuyasha took a few steps towards Kagome, trying not to anger Bankotsu any further. As he approach her, he could feel the weight of the world lift off of his shoulders. He knew that now Kagome and Bankotsu would be broken up after this, and he could be with her. Finally, us again. He shock himself out of his thoughts. He smiled at Bankotsu as he finally stopped only about a foot away from Kagome. "Bankotsu look, there are probably a million reasons why Kagome doesn't want to marry you. Not me though!" He lied through his teeth, he knew that Kagome wanted to be with him and not Bankotsu.
Bankotsu growled at Inuyasha, as he ignored his arogant comments and looked back to Kagome. "Kagome..." he whispered, her eyes turning to him as she sighed. "Come on, love. We can work through this. A few evening jobs after High School, a small apartment at first maybe, but we can make it work. We can do it." His smile was fake, he knew the answer to his already answered question.
"No," she answered softly. "I can't be with you anymore, Bankotsu. Please understand that." Kagome whipped a small excaped tear that ran down her cheek, Inuyasha sighed at her sadness. Kagome swiftly turned to him, "Inuyasha..." she smiled.
Inuyasha looked at her in shock, his eyes searching her own for answers, but he couldn't find any on the surface. "Yes."
"Can you drive me home? I don't feel well, and I just want to be in my room. Please?" she sounded so weak and helpless.
Inuyasha smiled at her and nodded. "Sure. Go get your things from your locker and I'll meet you out at my car. Okay?" She nodded to him and turned to walk away to her locker.
When they were alone, Bankotsu pushed Inuyasha in the shoulder and growled once more. Inuyasha narrowed his eyes at him, and waited for Bankotsu to speak. "If you even think that this is your oppertunity to get with her, think again. Me and Kagome will be back together before you can even try anything."
Inuyasha snickered, shaking his head he walked toward Bankotsu, until they were only noses apart. "What makes you think Kagome will go back with you? She needs someone who will respect her and love her like a human being, and not a piece of meat." He narrowed his gaze at him as he turned and started to walk over to his brother and Kouga, still standing in the door way.
"She will never love you." Bankotsu shouted. "You are just wasting your time!"
Inuyasha stopped only a few feet away from Kouga, he turned around and smiled at Bankotsu. "We'll see. She might even accepted my ring," he laughed as he pulled Kouga and Sesshomaru out of the school doors with him.
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Kagome turned the dial on her locker half a dozen times before it finally opened. She grabbed her purse and backpack and through her Biology and Canadian History books into her backpack, too. She grabbed two pencils from her shelf and slid them into the front pouch. Looking in the mirror, she adjusted her hair and checked her makeup over.
"You gotta look pretty for him, huh?" her heard a voice behind her. She spun around and saw Sango and Ayame sitting on one of the pod benchs. She took a deep breath and let it out slowly.
"Oh, it's only you guys. I thought it was Suki for a minute there." Kagome turned back around and took her lock out and twisted it through the hole and locked it again. She set the first two numbers for the next day, and then leaned her back on her locker. "So, what do you gossip queens want?" Her voice was annoyed but sarcastic all at once.
This time, Ayame was the one to speak. "We just want to know why you turned Bankotsu down. He is smart, funny, romantic, and completely gorgeous. Woo!" Ayame fanned herself with her left hand as she fell on Sango. Sango laughed at her acting skills.
"Yeah, Kagome. How come you turned him down?"
Kagome shrugged her shoulders. Her eyes looking all around her, but at her friends. "I just don't want to marry him. There's nothing else to it."
Sango nodded, but didn't let go of finding the truth that easily. She stood up and walked over to Kagome. "Does this have to do with a certain half-demon we know, mhm?" Her eyebrows perked up.
Ayame gasped, "KAGOME!" She shouted. "Don't tell me you are actually thinking about dating him. After then night with... well, you know." Ayame eyes were boulging out so far they were going to pop out of her head.
Kagome rolled her eyes, and sighed. "I know Ayame. That was back in the summer though, and Inuyasha had no idea what happened. It's fine." She started walking down the hallway but was stopped by Sango's annoying questions.
"What, are you going to date him now?" her voice sounded more like a fact then a question.
"How could you, Kagome? When were you planning on telling us? Huh? Your bestfriends!" Ayame seemed a little more ticked than before.
Kagome shrugged her shoulders, looking from Sango to Ayame. "I'm sorry. I would have called you guys later on or something. I just have to get out of here, and away from Bankotsu. I going to probably go hang out with Inuyasha for a little bit."
Sango sighed, than joined back into the conversation, after her question got ignored. "Bankotsu really likes you, no loves you, and you going to leave him because of Inuyasha! Please. Please tell us you won't kiss him."
Kagome shook her head, "I'm sorry. I just can't. I kinda told him I wanted to hang out with him tonight."
Sango shooked her head. "I knew it. Same old Kagome. Always wanting the guys."
Ayame sighed in defeat, "Yeah. Always wanting to be in the game," she shook her head, her eyes narrowing in Kagome's direction. "You'll never changed."
Kagome bit her lip, anger building up inside of her. "Well I'm sorry if I want to have a little fun for a change. Bankotsu never wanted to do anything fun, at least Inuyasha has a sense of adventure. I wanted to say yes to Bankotsu, but I just...-"
Sango cut her off, her voice raising and soundsing more cruel. "But you did, Kagome. Even if you wanted to say yes, you still said no to him."
Kagome nodded to her friends, and for the first time since she met them she finally realized she was wrong. "Your right."
Kagome began to walk down the hallway, leaving them behind her. Sango decided to ask her again, "What, are you going to date him now?"
Kagome stopped dead her tracks, her feet felt like they were stappled to the floor and couldn't move them. Without looking at them she commented, "Maybe. You never know." She smiled to herself. "I want to though,-" She added, but then began to walk again. "Call me later and tell me what I missed in class. Bye." She walked faster down the hallway to get away from the voices inside and outside of her head.
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Inuyasha sat in his car, holding the steering wheel and watching the school doors. Waiting to see Kagome walk down those steps and come into his car. Wanted to talk to her and see what her real reasons were for breaking up with Bankotsu, and he also couldn't wait until he could leave Kouga and Sesshomaru's constant questions.
Kouga was puzzled, he walked back and forth: taking three steps forward and then taking five steps back. Inuyasha hoped that if he continued that pattern that he would be at the other side of town by sunset. Kouga asked him again, "Do you like she wants to be with, Inuyasha?"
Inuyasha rolled his eyes, he turned to them as he sighed. "For the millionth and two time, I have no idea why she broke up with Bankotsu." He shock his head, seeing the eyes Kagome stared at him with were engraced into his mind. They ached at his heart, those eyes only showed pain when he saw them.
Sesshomaru was sitting on the hood of Inuyasha's car, and finally commented after five minutes of complete, but beautiful, silence. "Maybe she has finally realized that she wants to be with you."
"Feh," was all Inuyasha could manage to say. But, even thought he didn't say it out loud, he was hoping the reason for Kagome rejecting Bankotsu was that she finally realized that she wanted to be with him instead. He felt in leg jiggle at his phone vibrating. He pulled it out and it was Suki, asking what he was planning on doing for their date. Inuyasha texted back saying that he couldn't make it and that he was sorry.
He then thought of Kagome; the reason why he cancelled his big date the next evening. All of his thoughts were whipped out when he heard Kagome yell his name as she walked down the three flights of stairs infront of the school entrance.
Sesshomaru jumped off of Inuyasha's car and Kouga stopped dead in his pacing and watched Kagome approach the car. Kagome stopped only two feet from the passenger's door, she looked at Kouga and put a fake smile on. "Hey Kouga."
Kouga smiled at her, his too was fake. "Hi Kagome. Haven't seen you much since the summer. Fun times, huh?"
Kagome could feel her cheeks beginning to redden and she nodded, "Oh, yeah. Alot of fun. Well, I'll see you guys around." She pulled the door handle and opened it. Slidding in the seat she put her purse and backpack in the back seat. As she bend over to put them in the back, Inuyasha noticed a small tattoo on her chest, just below her shirt line. Kagome sat up straight in the seat and smiled at Inuyasha. "So, do you wanna take me home... or go do something fun?"
Kouga and Sesshomaru were already a few feet away and he yelled to them before answering Kagome, "I'll talk to you guys later. Remember, twelve o'clock at the corner of Volture and Hellen. I'll see you tomorrow." Sesshomaru waved at him as they entered the school.
He then turned to Kagome, he could feel the pressure seeping in already. "I told Suki I wasn't going on the date after all. Are you still mad at me?"
Kagome shock her head, as she looked out the window. "Nope. Now, what do you wanna do?"
Inuyasha shrugged his shoulders as he turned on the car, and pulled the lever into drive. "I don't know. Anything you wanna do is fine with me."
Kagome nodded in agreement, "Alright then." she thought for a moment, she thought of a great idea, and then spoke again. "Let's go to my house and get a few things. My mom is still at work so she won't hollar at me for skipping school." Within a few seconds, Inuyasha was racing down the road to Kagome's house, unaware of the plan Kagome had up her sleve.
A/N : Hope you like this chapter, the next one is going to be a real scream! Lolz, don't worry though. It will be really good, and interesting. It took me a while to update up hopefully it won't take me nearly that long to update my other stories and this one again. I love you all ! 3:) - LoversKagXInu