Blood Behind The Tears

Chapter 4; Overwhelming Desires

You cant change your mind when its set,

You cant find a way out when there is no other way,

You cant unsay words you never meant,

You cant make your heart love someone when you dont.

I love you..

-Kagome

The engine cut lose as Kagome and Inuyasha pulled up into Kagome's driveway. Kagome grabbed her backpack from the past seat and quickly jumped out of the car. Inuyasha, with his wonderful smooth personality, took a double take in the rear view mirror before pulling the door open and getting out. Kagome through her backpack around her shoulders, and looked up the huge set of stairs they were about to tackle. Inuyasha sighed at the effort of walking up the stairs, "I cant believe your parents make you walk up those steps every day," he shook his head.

Kagome shrugged her shoulders, and punched Inuyasha lightly on the arm. "Its not that bad, once you get use to it." She giggled and started on the journey up the treacherous stairs. Inuyasha hung his head low for a moment, and with a heavy sigh he started to follow Kagome up the stairs to her house. Kagome was a good ten or more steps ahead of Inuyasha, he was huffing and puffing to try to get up the next step while she was running up them.

Inuyasha gave out and laid across the steps, the sun shining down on his face, with his mouth opened and sucking in fresh air. Kagome appeared above him, and cast a shadow over him, blocking his eyes from the bright sun. He slightly opened an eye to look up at her, he sighed. "Maybe you added a few more steps," he suggested. "I can't remember you having this must!" he heaved, and almost coughed.

Kagome shock her head at him laying there, she offered him a hand and he gratefully took hold of up and pulled himself back up onto his feet. He brushed himself off then set his hands on his hips, looking at Kagome. She rolled her eyes and laughed, "You haven't walked up these steps almost 2 years," she retold the story with one word. "Remember?"

Inuyasha did remember. It was the day she went away to visit her father a few summers ago, re-hashing the past, Inuyasha slipped into his memories and was brought back to the day when she left for her father's for the summer.

The wind was making the trees sway back anf forth as the leaved rustled in the slight breeze. Kagome had on her tight jean shorts with pieces of white thread hanging from them, and a yellow tank top on to make. Inuyasha only hand on a pair of his swim trunks, since he had run from his house where he was swimming to say goodbye to her. Inuyasha helped load Kagome's suitcase into the trunk of Kagome's mother's car, and slammed it shut. He tossed her bags into the backseat and also shut the door behind him.

Kagome's mom forgot her purse and ran back into the house to get it, as Kagome and Inuyasha went and sat under the old tree, the wooden bench hot from the sun, but cooling down from the breeze. Inuyasha leaned back, as his muscles tighten into a perfect shape, while his abs could be seen. Kagome fiddled with her fingers, turning one over the other and then going in a different direction. She didn't want to leave Inuyasha for the entire summer, nor did she want to say goodbye to him, even if it was only for a few short weeks.

Inuyasha cleared his throat while laughing, Kagome's head shot up in the process as she starred at her best friend. He gave her a bright smile, maybe almost brighter than the sun itself that glowed with pearl white teeth, and then was gone when it turned into a slight frown. Kagome gazed into his eyes, wanting to know what to say, or what to do. But there was nothing either of them could do, for the first summer since they were five, they were going to be apart. Inuyasha put his hand on her shoulder, "It's only a few weeks." he told her. "-when you get back, we'll be starting High School."

Kagome laughed at the thought of them going to High School, at the thought of being together and lasting long enough for that. She nodded her head, and smiled back at him. "Try not to get into too much trouble when I'm gone," she teased him. Pulling her hand out for him to grab it. For a second, Inuyasha froze. He had never thought of Kagome anything more than his best friend, and now with her going away from the entire summer, he didn't think he wanted to have her leave without a proper goodbye. He took her hand in his, and pulled her into a tight embrace.

She was pushed into his chest, her head resting on his shoulder and her hands slowly pulling around him to pull them closer together. For that moment, Inuyasha nor Kagome wanted to let go, physically and mentally. Didn't want to let go of the embrace that combined both of them together, or to let go and be apart for the summer. Inuyasha's hand travelled up to Kagome's hair, as he pulled her ear over to his lips. He whispered; "Kagome, even if your going away for the summer, and that we are best friends, I can't help but feel.." he stopped. He pulled out of the embrace to look at her, and for the first time in the years they knew each other, he saw Kagome as simply pure perfection.

Kagome bit her bottom lip, "Inuyasha." she sighed, knowing what was probably going to follow after. "-we don't have to talk about this now, let's just wait til I get back and everything and then talk about it." She looked down at her feet, not wanting to face him. Kagome cared about him too, for months now she had hidden the fact that she liked him more than her best friend, and she didn't want their friendship to be ruined or sacrificed because of something as stupid as 'love'. She couldn't and wouldn't lose someone so close to her over this. She wouldn't.

Inuyasha pulled his hands up and grabbed her shoulders, forcing her to look at him. She could tell she had a scared yet caring look on her face, while he had a hurt and confused one. He said; "I can't help but feel that this could be more than a friendship, that we could be more than friends. If you don't feel the same way I get it, but if you do than great." Kagome felt like her world was spinning, and her eyes were whelling up with tears, "Kagome, all I'm asking for is a chance. Will you give me that chance?"

Kagome didn't know what to say, everything she had wanted to say to him just disappeared and focused on the question he had asked. Did she love him? No, but she knew that she could in time. She liked him more than a friend so she knew she could love him eventually, if they did date. Kagome smiled, not knowing what else to do, Inuyasha waited for him answer and he got it. "You've had a chance all along, Ive been just waiting for you to take it." She laughed, and pulled him into another hug.

Inuyasha pulled free from the embrace and brought their lips together, in a small but perfect kiss. Kagome heard her mom call her name and they jumped up from the bench. Her mom was waving at them to come over, as she got into the driver's seat. Kagome looked at Inuyasha and motion him to follow her to the car. They walked until they got to the passenger side door, before Kagome opened the door, she gave Inuyasha a quick kiss on the cheek, "Again, try not to get into any trouble." she laughed, and turned to open the door.

His hand pulled out in front of her and stopped her hand in mid pull, he looked into her eyes and smiled, "Not when your around," he grinned. "I'll miss you, call me the moment you get back." Kagome could feel herself ready to cry, so she pulled him into another embrace, trying to soak up the tears that fell out in his shirt. "Goodbye," she whispered to him, "I'll miss you, too." she pulled away, and wihout looking at him she got into the car. She buckled her seat belt and they pulled out of the drive way, Inuyasha waved to her as she disappeared into the busy traffic.

Inuyasha stood on the step as his memories started to fade away, he heard Kagome shout his name and he looked up to see Kagome standing at the top of the staircase, his past had carried him away to somewhere else and now he had to tackle the stairs. Kagome waved to him as he started to climb the tremendous amount of steps. By the time he got to the top of the stairs, Kagome was jiggling the key in her front door and trying to get it opened.

Inuyasha looked around and noticed that everything was the exact same as before when he was here; the little bench under the old tree, a perfect size to fit two people, while cherry blossoms flew around in the breeze. Inuyasha could have imagined everything on that summer afternoon, and a part of him yearned for that day again. To smell the sweet fragrance of tangerines off of Kagome's hair, and to move his hands over her soft skin, and hold her in a tight embrace forever. He wished everything could be like that day, so perfect and no chance of failures.

Inuyasha ran over to the house when he saw Kagome finally step inside, she left the door opened for him to follow after her. He pushed the door opened a little more and stepped inside. The house, too, was the same as he remembered. Almost nothing had moved and he knew where almost everything was, he saw Kagome looking for something in the fridge. And something came over him, after today at school seeing Kagome turn down Bankotsu's proposal and now remembering the past with her, he wondered a few things. "So," he stated to get her attention. "Why didn't you say yes to him?"

Kagome spun around to quick she could have gotten whip lash, "What do you mean? Bankotsu?" Inuyasha nodded, and Kagome just rolled her eyes. "Come on, I'm not even 18 yet, like I want to be tied down for the rest of my life. I just don't want to get married now and maybe I don't love Bankotsu enough for 'forever'." She traveled across the room in a fluid motion. As she grabbed a glass and started to poor a drink for her self, "Want anything?" she hollered over her shoulder.

When he didn't answer she turned around to stare at him, she raised an eyebrow, and instead of answering her question, he asked her one. His face was serious and his lips moved in strange ways to him, "Would you want things as they were?" She laughed, and he didn't think she knew what he was talking about at first, so he continued. "As in, two years ago when you left for your fathers. Would you want that again?" Kagome slammed a glass on the counter, and spun around in anger.

She eyes shot through him like daggers, and her face twisted into a storm of anger. "What?" she rolled her eyes and turned back to pouring her drink. She mumbled as she walked around the kitchen, "Okay, you know what I'll admit it. Bankotsu was right, the only reason why I wouldn't marry him is because of you," She stopped as she went and put something back into the fridge. "I want everything the way it was, perfect. Me and you and just everything. I don't want to hide my feelings for you again, Inuyasha."

Inuyasha's mouth fell opened, he was flabbergasted and confused, yet thrilled that she felt the same way as him. "You want everything the way it was?" He started to walk towards her, she set down her glass and nodded to him, also taking steps in his direction. "What if it ends our friendship this time?" he didn't want to even think let alone ask that question, and she simply replied; "That won't happen, it would end. Us or our friendship."

They finally stopped only a foot away from each other, he looked down at her and smiled. "Well, looks like we have some catching up to do then." He laughed at his own thoughts, Kagome rolled her eyes and sighed. Her arms slowly made they way around his neck pulling him close to her as she bit her bottom lip. Inuyasha closed his eyes for a moment and re-opened them, "Do you remember where we left off two years ago?"

Kagome pretended to think for a moment, and then gasped in surprise. "You know what, I think we were right here;" she trailed off as Inuyasha brought his lips down on hers, crushing any chance for her to continue speaking. Inuyasha's hands made their way down to Kagome's hips as she moved them back and forth. Kagome's hands trailed down his collar bone to his shirt, and started to unbutton the top one. Inuyasha pulled away from the kiss, and eyes her. Kagome still continued to un-do his the buttons to his shirt, "You broke up with Bankotsu an hour ago and now wanna sleep with me?" He laughed.

Kagome shook her head, and kissed him again. She pulled his shirt off and through it over her shoulder onto the kitchen counter, "No. I thought of nothing but you for a while, and about breaking up with Bankotsu for you. Him proposing just made it easier for me, and sooner for us." A grin came across her face as she traced over his belt to his already low jeans, he too attempting to pull her own shirt off. He laughed as he pulled her up onto his waist, "Guess we're getting into trouble now, huh?" he said as he staired to carry her up the stairs to her bedroom.

A/N - BAMMMM ! I didd ittt :D another chapter, and I am beyond sorry. hereee you go Sassy! :) hope you like ittt ;), Ill try to update sooner for the next chapterrr.