Blood Behind The Tears

Chapter 5; The Deepest Secret

Every guy always asks me:

"What does he have that I don't?"

&& I reply; my

[ H E A R T ]

-Kagome

Kagome woke up the next morning with a million things on her mind; Inuyasha, her friends, and her life. All three of them seemed so far off from the other, but mixed and balanced rightly together everything could and would be perfect. If only it were that simple. Her friends were made at her because of Inuyasha, picking him over Bankotsu. It wasn't her fault, or Inuyasha's, that they cared for each other so much. Yet her friends obviously didn't understand or see it. Kagome wished that she would just crawl back under the covers and remain there for the rest of her High School days, but then it would make her seem weak and a coward.

With a groan she pulled the covers off of her and slide out of the bed, she noticed something navy blue in the corner of her room. She slowly stood up, scratching her head and rubbing her eyes as she walked over to the unfamiliar object. Picking it up, she realized it was Inuyasha's shirt. She laughed, and clutched it in her hand. She through it over onto her bed and then left her room with a door slamming shut. Walking down the hall, she could smell her mother making breakfast, but Kagome took a stop at the bathroom first.

Turning on the taps, she grabbed a large towel for her body and a smaller one for her hair; setting them both on the floor beside the shower. She starting to pull her clothes off, tossing them into the hamper before stepping into the blazing hot water. The warm liquid splashed against her skin. She began to get lost in her thoughts, and memories of certain moments from the day before started to emerge into her mind. Inuyasha kissing her lips, and going farther down her body; Kagome and him moving in ways that were so fluid and unimaginable to her. She couldn't explain the feelings she was having towards Inuyasha, and maybe she didn't want to.

Kagome snapped out of her thoughts and turned off the hot water. She drained her hair as best as she could, before stepping out onto the shower mat. Picking up the big towel she wrapped it around her body, tucking it under her arm. She snatched the smaller one from the floor, throwing her hair over her head and wrapping that towel around her hair, to make it look like a cone shape on her head. After she was certain her towels wouldn't fall off of her, she opened the bathroom door and stepped out, a cold breeze hitting her bare legs as she tip toed back to her room.

She scanned around her bedroom, righting to decide what to wear. She spotted a pair of her ripped jeans and through them onto her bed to put on later, and searching for a top to make. Finally, she found her black shirt with gold, silver and white designs all over it, and tossed that over with her jeans. She picked out some makeup to wear, and hung a pair of silver hoops through her ears. She poured foundation onto her hands and rubbed it around her face, adding a dark powder on afterwards. Taking eyeliner, she traced the edges of her eyes and adding thick mascara to every lash on each eye; carefully.

She quickly blow dried and straightened her hair, flipping it over and behind her head a few times to get some body out of it. She combed it through one last time, and sprayed a shiner through it. She pulled her jeans through her legs and up to her belly button, zippering up the zipper and buttoning the button. She picked up her shirt and pulled it over her head, fixing it so it sat perfectly on her hips. She walked around her room, picking up anything she would need for school; she grabbed two of her binders and a few mechanical pencils that laid on her desk. She picked up Inuyasha's shirt and pressed it down into her backpack, not wanting anyone to see it. Just in case.

She raced down the stairs, not wanting to talk to anyone in her house at the moment. She took her keys and left the house without eating anything, she decided she would eat something at school. Walking around the side of the house, she clicked a button that opened up the garage and revealed her car. She through her backpack in the passenger seat and walked around to the driver's side. She opened up the car door and slide into the seat, she took her keys and stuck one into the car and turned it. Reeving the engine, she turned beside to her back pack.

Kagome dug through the pockets looking for her cellphone. She finally found it at the bottom, buried underneath pencils and pens. She tossed them into the corner of her bag and pulled out her phone, turning it on in the process. As it slowly turned on, Kagome switched gears and started to pull out of the driveway, down to the street. Kagome turned onto the road and the tired squealed at she drove towards downtown. She flipped open her cellphone and dialed Sango's number, while listening to the dial tone she passed a few friends from school; she casually waved and went back to listening for Sango to answer.

"Hello," Sango's voice echoed through Kagome's ear, as she sounded as if she just woke up.

Kagome laughed at her, usually Sango never got up before ten o'clock and arrived at school late for lunch, if you can be late for lunch. And some days Sango would amaze Kagome and actually be there before she was, today was a late day. Kagome moved the phone around on her shoulder, while changing intersections, "Morning sunshine," Kagome laughed. "You wanna drive to school, I'm on my way to your house."

Sango yawned and Kagome could hear she scratching her hair through the phone, Sango grumbled out something under her breath, possibly a curse or two at Kagome for waking her up, and then she sighed. "Guess so," she accepted, as she rubbed her eyes. "When are you gonna get here?"

Kagome paused for a moment as she signaled for her to turn left. After making the turn and driving down the street for a few feet, Kagome then replied; "I just turned down Ohai street, I'll be there in about five minutes." Kagome saw a few more people walking to school, they hollered her name and she waved yet again as she passed them.

"Alright," Sango yawned once more. "Just walk right in when you get here, I'm try to get ready quick. See you when you get here." And before Sango hung up, Kagome could hear her curse at something after a loud thud. She probably stubbed her toe off of her bed post. Kagome laughed at the face she would've made and snapped her phone closed, tossing it into her pouch in front of her backpack.

Kagome round the turn to go onto Sango's street, she looked around and noticed that everything was the exact same from before the summer. It was the last time Kagome had been at Sango's house in a while. Kagome pulled up to Sango's house, driving up into her round turn driveway. She turned her car off, and pushed the driver door opened, stepping out and walking up the set of stairs to the front door. She grabbed the handle and pressed the door forward to open it. Kagome stepped in and looked around, looking for Sango.

Sango came running out of the side bathroom wearing only a pink bra and jeans on, as she blew past Kagome and rushed into her room. Kagome shook her head and tried to understand what she just saw. She leaned back on her heels and then decided to grab a quick drink, she took a glass from the counter and placed it under the tap as the water ran into the glass. Kagome turned the tap off, and brought the glass up to her mouth, taking a huge gulp of water before swallowing it.

After waiting a few more minutes, Sango came back out of her room with a shirt over her bra, and walked over to Kagome while holding one of her many purses. She smiled at her and gave her a hug, "I'm sorry about yesterday." she recalled the day before when she flipped on her for picking Inuyasha over Bankotsu. Kagome pulled her arms around Sango too, as she continued on. "-I just didn't want to see you get hurt again, after last time with him. I only was looking out for you."

Sango pulled back from the hug to look at Kagome, "You never know with you, first it's one guy and than it's another. I never thought you would still have feelings for Inuyasha again," she smiled at Kagome, and sighed. "But I won't hold you back if you do still care about him. Just don't come to me if he breaks your heart again!"

Kagomelaughed at her friend, pulling her back into a hug. "I know, Sango. And I never thought I would ever," Kagome paused, thinking over what she had said to Inuyasha the night before; she pulled away from Sango to look at her. "It's just when Bankotsu asked me to marry him, and when I pictures my wedding.. all I could see was Inuyasha standing there at the alter. And even if my heart breaks a million times until that happens, I know he cares and he is the onefor me. Not Bankotsu."

Sango nodded, as she squeezed her arms. "Now tell me everything. What did you guys do after you left yesterday?"

"Aha, I'd rather not tell you." Kagome giggled, both at the thought of Sango's face if she told her and at the thought of even saying it out loud, the very image in her mind was embarrassing to think about enough, let alone say it face to face to her best friend. "I thought you wouldn't want to know?" Kagome tried to weasel out of telling her.

Sango shook her head, and let go of Kagome's arms. She placed her hands on her hips, "I am your best friend, I need to know these things. I have the right to know!" she laughed at her attempt of trying to seem fearful. "Now tell me!" she began to whine like a two year old.

"Alright, I'll tell you." Kagome surrendered and tried to think of the perfect way to tell her, but there was none. How could you tell your best friend that you just slept with your ex the day before? There was no easy way to put this, and Kagome knew about her feelings towards Inuyasha.. she just didn't know Sango's feelings towards him. Either she liked him for Kagome, or despised him with a passion, and this would be a key factor for either one.

Sango began to tap her foot on the floor, becoming impatient. "Well?"

Kagome rolled her eyes, and decided to whisper her it instead of saying it out loud. She took Sango's hand and pulled her closer to her, she grabbed her ear and began to whisper what had happened into Sango's ear. Everything that Kagome had wanted to keep a secret had now been exposed, and she had told her best friend with hopes of no one else accidentally finding out. Kagome didn't want anyone to know she was back with Inuyasha already.

When Kagome was done whispering it to her, Sango pulled away from Kagome slowly with her mouth hung low with a shocked look on her face. Sango was flabbergasted and didn't know what to say or how to react to this. All she did was scream at the top of her lungs. Kaogme held her ears as if to push them into her skull. After the dreadful scream, Sango put her head on her forehead and tried to calm down, but she couldn't. She looked at Kagome and shook her head. "You slept with him!?"

Kagome nodded, and thought that Sango needed to calm down a little bit more, so Kagome joked about her excuse to sleeping with him; "Have you ever seen Inuyasha naked? He is very persuasive." Kagome giggled at the thought, but Sango didn't find it that funny. Kagome rolled her eyes and sighed. "I couldn't help it; he started talking about the old times and how much he wanted them back and how much he wanted meback, and.. I don't know. I guess a part of me wanted him back also."

Sango sighed at the lack of Kagome's will power, but shrugged it off with a quick shoulder roll. "Well, I can't change the past. And I do like Inuyasha, but he's on my list!" she winked at me, and pulled her into a tight embrace. Sango's chin rested between Kagome neck and shoulder, as Kagome's head rested on par tof Sango's back.

Kagome laughed, "I wouldn't have it any other way."

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After Kagome and Sango finished their heart filled make-up, they both got into Kagome's car and started on their way to school. Sango turned up the music and tried to rock out to some of the tunes that were playing on a radio station, Kagome just rolled her eyes and acted like she didn't see what Sango was doing. When they pulled up to the school parking lot, Kagome's car was immediately surrounded by other people in High School, all asking her the same question; were her and Inuyasha back together?

It seemed foolish, but yet they were the perfect couple two years ago. Like a football star and the captain of the cheer team, they were meant to be. But everything fell apart, and it was a break up that would go down in history. Neither of them could have lived without having the other by their side, so they decided on a friendship. They just couldn't handle being away from each other, if they dated someone else or liked someone different, they couldn't stray far from each other. It was literally fate, and they both knew it; they just didn't know if the other did also. And it was quite clear the day before that they did, but everyone else didn't have to know now.

Kagome parked her car and pushed her door opened, hitting a few people out of the way. Sango jumped over her convertible seat and landed beside her, pushing and tearing through a few people to get to the side walk. Kagome's backpack hit her back hard from the speed she was walking to the school, while Sango kept up the pass by her side. Every few feet Kagome would look back to see if Sango had survived the horde of raging teenagers, and every time she looked she was there.

When they finally had it into the school, there were a million more people inside waiting to ask Kagome too.

Kagome just stopped and starred at them all as she tried to calm them down, but it didn't work. They wanted an answer, they wanted to know if the greatest couple in Shikon High had risen from the ashes to live again. Kagome sighed, "Here." She told Sango as she pulled her backpack off and pasted it to her. Sango barely managed to catch it within the two second notice, but evidently caught it; holding on for dear life. Kagome took someones hand and stood up on a bench, waiting for everyone to stop hollering and yelling.

Kagome waved her arms up and down, as everyone started to stop talking. "Alright, now everyone has been asking me for the total ten minutes I have been here if Inuyasha is the reason why I broke up with Bankotsu," Kagome caught her breath. As she did, Inuyasha walked into the school through the front door and heard the start of her speach. He pushed his way through the crowd to get behind Kagome, as she continued on. "And you guys are also asking me if we're back together, so I just want to say that-"

Inuyasha grabbed Kagome's hand and pulled himself up beside her, a few people cheered but silenced shortly after to hear what he had to say. He cut Kagome off and continued with his own speech, "Kagome denied Bankotsu because he wasn't the one she wanted to spend the rest of her life with, the one she wanted to be withforever. That has nothing to do with me," Inuyasha through his arm around Kagome's waist and pulled her closer to him, Kagome looked up into his eyes and smiled. "But that doesn't mean it won't be me."

And after he spoke the last word, his lips crashed down on Kagome's as people clapped at the reunion of the two. Kagome pulled her arms around his neck to bring him closer to her, making the kiss deeper as she moved, Inuyasha wrapped his arms around her waist and lift her off her feet, holding her against his chest. Neither of them wanted to let go, but they eventually did. They stayed linked in arms as they got down from the bench, first Inuyasha and then he grabbed Kagome's hand and helped her. As they walked away from the now seperating crowd.

Inuyasha took Kagome over to the side, to talk to her alone. He gave a quick glance at her nervous expression and laughed. "You didn't want anyone to know, did you?" Kagome instantly looked up at him, her eyes were swimming with confusion and nerves.

Yes, she wanted to be with him every second of the day. Yes, she wanted to be the one that he thought of when everything was wrong in the world, and when he thought of her, everything was a little better. And yes, she wanted to be the only person that could touch his heart, body and soul. She wanted to be and do all of those things, but she was afraid she wouldn't beable to meet the expectations. She simply hide those anxious feelings away and gave him a quick kiss on the lips, pausing for a moment and then moving away. "I'm fine, go. You'll be late for class."

She pushed him away, but he only came back to give her a final embrace goodbye until third second class. The only had one class without each other this term. Kagome was pulled into his tight embrace, and she never wanted to let go; wanted to stay with him forever. There were strings that ached and yanked at her to stay with her, and she wished that were as easy as breathing. Sadly, she knew she had to leave him. He brushed her hair down, and ran his fingers softly through her long black threads. "I'll see you in History," Inuyasha let her go and picked up his books.

Sango came over out of nowhere and handed Kagome her backpack, Kagome took it and swung it around her back- adjusting it on her shoulders- and then watched Inuyasha walk away. He turned around and blew her a kiss, and she pretended to catch it and sent one back. He smiled and then disappeared into a class room door. Kagome sighed, and realized Sango was starring at her.

"What?" Kagome barely managed to get out, her voice cracked and it sounded like a low whisper.

Sango rolled her eyes as she locked her arm with Kagome's and started to walk off to their first class. Sango looked beside her friend, "You know, not every guy is like that." she murmured under he breath so no one else could hear their conversation. Sango looked over her shoulder, and then turned back. "If I were you, I wouldn't let anyone get him. Not even her."

And Kagome suddenly froze in realization.

How come she never thought of it? The thought has never crossed her mind in the last twenty four hours, and know it finally dawned on her. Kikyo, Inuyasha's ex-girlfriend who he had been off and on with for months, would probably start something with Kagome sometime during the day, and Kagome knew it would be something to talk about later. She wasn't afraid of Kikyo, nor did she care what Kikyo thought of her and Inuyasha, she was just worried about what she might do if she couldn't get Inuyasha back. Which she wouldn't.

Kagome pressed yet another thought and emotionfrom her mind, "Oh. It's Kikyo; like she would try anything. Let alone with me." she gave Sango a quick wink and pulled her into their Drama class.

The hour went by slow for both Kagome and Inuyasha. Even thought they were both in their favorite class, they couldn't stop thinking about each other. Kagome messed up on her performance, and had to re-do it because all she could focus on was him; not the lines, the vision, or even the emotion behind the act itself. And Inuyasha, being a basketball star, couldn't even hit one basket because she was all he could care about, and nothing else.

When the bell finally rang, Kagome darted out of her classroom and raced up the hall to save her and Inuyashaa seat in History. Sango followed shortly after when Kagome entered the classroom. Sango slowly walked over to Kagome, trying to catch her breath. "Did you have to run?" She rolled her eyes and took a seat behind Kagome and almost passed out on her desk.

Ayame cheerfully skipped into the class, and smiled when she saw Kagome. "So, I heard." she sighed, "And I'm not surprised." She laughed. Kagome didn't know if she was happy or mad, but then she raised up a hand to her and Kagome took her own and high-five it.

Kagome nodded, "Yeah." she mumbled. Ayame took her seat beside Sango and Kagome twisted around to talk to them both. "Just because I'm dating Inuyasha now, doesn't mean I'm gonna forget you guys." Kagome gave them a wink and laughed.

They joined in and all leaned back in their seats. Ayame cleared her throat and whipped her eyes from laughing so hard. "I wouldn't blame you, Inuyasha is fine!" Ayame gave Kagome here own wink, and bit her bottom lip. "Hold on to him or I might try to get some of that."

Kagome's mouth flew opened, as she gasped. "Thought you were in love with Kouga?" Kagome teased her about her elementary old crush on him. Ayame stopped laughing, and her face turned into a serious line. She turned around and dug through her backpack, ignoring them two for the time being.

Kagome looked at Sango and raised an eyebrow to Ayame, and then laughed. Kagome turned back around and began looking through her things to get her books out. She heard the clicking of heels on the tiled floor and then they suddenly stopped. Kagome didn't take noticed and continued looking for a pencil to use.

Then someone slammed a book on top of Kagome desk, Kagome jumped in her seat being caught off guard. A prep like giggle could be heard, "Wow. Inuyasha picked a keeper. She is probably scared of her own shadow." Kagome bit her bottom lip to control herself but she couldn't, she slammed her stuff on the desk and stood up.

"Who the hell do you think you-" she was stopped short of her sentence when she saw Kikyo standing in frontof her. That fake black hair, and nose, Kikyo starred down her nose at Kagome. "-are? What do you want, Kikyo?" Kagome rolled her eyes and sighed.

Kikyo's two side kicks waited in and flagged her, one of each side. When Sango and Ayame saw this, they too stood up to back Kagome.

Kikyo looked Kagome up and down and smirked, before looking at her again. She glanced beside her at her two followers and then spoke again. "Pfft. Your the one Inuyasha picked? What has gotten into him?" Kikyo laughed as her friends, Rin and Kagura, laughed with her. "You must have some nerves to go out with him when you know I am."

Kagome narrowed her eyes on her, as she pretended to think on that for a moment. "No," Kagome replied, shacking her head. "I believe he broke up with you about two months ago; your over." Kagome smiled and rolled her eyes. "Get out of my face."

Kikyo gasped at Kagome, covering her mouth with one of her hands. "Oh Kagome, I think you have it wrong, dear." Kikyo laid a hand on Kagome's shoulder and squeezed it tight. "Inuyasha is just in a mood right now, and the moment he realizes what a mistake it was for dating his best friend, he will be back with me." Kikyo smiled, and began to walk away.

Kagome stepped out from behind her desk and put out an arm to stop Kikyo, she walked into it, hitting her and the stomach. Kikyo took a step back as Kagome walked up to her, "You better rethink that. Why would someone like a cold blooded snake like you?" Sango and Ayame laughed behind Kagome, and Kikyo narrowed her eyes in on Kagome. Kagome smiled. "You know, I didn't believe him when Inuyasha called you a bitch, but I finally get it now."

Kagome was right in Kikyo's face, almost nose to nose, starring at her with hate filled eyes. Kikyo rolled her eyes and leaned away from Kagome, "You don't want to know what I'll do to you, so I'm gonna let you off easy this time. The moment he breaks up with you, I'll be there to help him forget you. Remember that."

"Do it, I dare you." Kagome spoke through gleenched teeth. The tension in the room was starting to flare up, as the bell was about to ring within a few seconds, and other students came in to take their seats, and took a second glance at the two fighting. "You think your better than me, show me." Kagome pressed her on, seeing how far she could make her go. Kagome knew she could take Kikyo if she wanted to fight her, she was just worried about what Inuyasha would think about it. But right then, she just wanted to shut her up.

Kikyo grinned, "After school. I will tear your head off; dont be late." Kikyo went to pass her and Kagome stepped out of the way. Kikyo looked back and Kagome gave her a quick wink before turning around and dropping down into her seat.

"Hi Inuyasha!" she heard Kikyo squeel as Kagome glanced up to see Inuyasha walking in with Miroku. Inuyasha completely ignored her, giving her the cold shoulder, and continued walking towards Kagome. He gave her a kiss when he finally got to their seat, "How are you?" He smiled as he opened up his History binder and flipped it to a clean page.

Kagome shrugged her shoulders, "Nothing really. I missed you." Kagome leaned her head on Inuyasha's shoulder as he brought his arm around her waist. Kagome took a quick gaze back to see Kikyo starring holes into the back of her head. Kagome laughed and Inuyasha looked down at her in guestion.

"I'm apparently fighting Kikyo after school. Nothing big." Kagome teased and played with a button on his shirt.

Inuyasha opened his mouth to object when the teacher came in and began to the lesson. For a few minutes Kagome and Inuyasha sat in silence, not paying attention to the other, their hands slowly made their way down under the table as they interlocked them together. Kaogme smiled at him as he rubbed her hand with his thumb. Inuyasha doodled on a piece of paper for her, and wrote the words; "I love you," over and over on it. Kagome could only giggle at how cute he was.

Kagome didn't know what it was, if it was just pure happiness or dumb luck. A day ago her and Inuyasha were in a fight and now they were dating again, and Kagome just wondered how long it would last, and what would happen to them this time.

A/N- Another chapter, and this one is really long compared to others! Hope you all enjoyed this chapter and I will start right away on another one. If you have any questions or concerns about my story, please let me know. R&R !!:)