I will survive

3. I love you

Megan woke up feeling groggy and tired. In a white room. Where the hell am I? she thought.

Suddenly, she was aware that someone was holding on to her hand and she looked down. Her Dad – she recognised the ring Sirius had given him the year before when they got married. Megan smiled as she remembered that day – she and George had danced all night, her mum was there, her dad seemed to be happy.

'Megan?' a sharp voice asked.

'Sirius get a healer. She's awake.' Another voice said – she recognised her dads voice now.

Suddenly, the room was noisy. There seemed to be lots of people coming in.

'Ms Lupin, can you hear me?'

Of course, I can hear you, you're shouting in my ear you fucking moron' she thought. She couldn't say anything though. She could move – she started grasping at her dad's hand, and then the hand on the other side – Sirius. Why couldn't she talk? What was going on?

Megan's eyes widened as she looked at her dads and the healers. Help me! She was thinking – she still couldn't say anything though.

'Sweetheart you're ok. You were knocked out three days ago and you've been unconscious since – you're going to be ok though. Just relax baby – just relax.' Her fathers soothing voice said.

Relax? Relax? She couldn't talk!

She started to feel herself getting sleepy again and then everything went dark.

'What's going on?' she asked, in a hoarse, groggy voice that wasn't hers.

'Oh, thank god!' both her dads said, and they threw themselves across her.

'Ow, ow, ow….' She moaned.

'Sorry sweetheart – we've just been so worried about you.'

'What happened? I remember duelling Dolohov and I was about to beat him – to stun him – when I collapsed.'

'Someone attacked you from behind we think. They stunned you, but the impact was from the fall – you hit your head. We didn't know if there was permanent damage.'

'What were you thinking Megan? Getting involved like that?

'I'm 17 dad, I need to be able to help.' She scoffed at him.

Remus was about to argue back when Sirius held up his hand. 'Why don't you go and get us a coffee?' he said to his partner.

Remus nodded and left the room.

'Dad, my baby, is it ok?' Megan moaned at Sirius.

'They haven't been able to do any tests yet. You need to tell your dad though – before tests are done.'

Megan nodded. 'I will. Can you ask him to come back in?'

Sirius stalked out the room and sent his partner back in.

'You ok?' Remus asked, a little stiffly. He was mad at her for joining in.

'Dad, I'm sorry. I have to tell you something and I have to beg you please don't be mad at me or disappointed in me' she pleaded.

'You're pregnant.' Remus blurted out.

'How did you know?' she cried 'How long have you known?'

'Megan, you're my daughter. I notice when you change. I heard you throwing up as well. You look like your mother you know? She was young when she had you. I loved you both so much.' He whispered, sitting down and holding her hand.

'Do you know what you want to do?' he asked.

She shook her head, tears falling. 'I'm so sorry Dad. I'm such a disappointment.' She wailed.

'No, no you're not.' He answered, hugging her. 'Accidents to happen and I am a little sad that this is how you're starting your after-school life, if this is what you want, I – well we, including Sirius - will stand by you.'

Megan curled up and cosied into him. Her dad was amazing and gave the best hugs.

'I'm going to ask you a bit of a sensitive question' he said and proceeded when she didn't answer 'Is it George's?' he asked.

Megan was about to retort something smart, when she realised it was a valid question, so she nodded. 'Does he know?' he asked quietly.

This time she shook her head. 'Dad, two weeks ago he broke up with me VIA LETTER, in that letter he said the reason was he was too young to settle down. Two weeks won't have changed that. He was too young then and I'm sure he will be too young now. Also, breaking up with someone in a letter just shows how immature he is' She cried.

'Megan – George has been here everyday since the battle. His brother, Bill, was attacked by Fenrir Greyback but as soon as he heard you were injured and brought here, he came, and he hasn't left. I think that shows he's changed, no?'

'He probably feels guilty or something. Probably thinks I got myself injured because of him' she spat, bitterly.

'Look, let me bring him in here to speak to you. You're going to have to tell him at some point.'

Megan sighed and nodded her head. Remus left and the next thing a tall ginger man was standing in the doorway.

'Hi.' She said.

'Are you ok?' he whispered. He was pale and looked like he hadn't slept.

'Yes. But also no.' she said. He raised his eyebrows and looked at her, confused. 'George, I have to tell you something.'

George came over and sat by her bed. Megan sat up so she could speak to him better.

'George, I'm really sorry to tell you this. I'm pregnant. It is yours. I don't expect anything from you, in fact I don't even know what I am going to do, but I had to tell you.'

George sat forward in his chair. 'You're pregnant?' he asked, his voice quivering. She nodded at him. 'I'm so sorry' he said, crying. 'I take it, it was the last time we were together? We were reckless that day.' He muttered, not looking at her.

'You have nothing to be sorry for George. Well you do but getting me pregnant isn't something you need to be sorry for. We were both responsible. I can do the protective spells just as well as you and I didn't.'

'Megan, I am sorry. For everything. I should never have broken up with you – I was being a stupid selfish git. The last two weeks weren't what I expected.'

'Not enough women for you out there.'

'Megan, it wasn't like that' he argued.

'That's exactly what it was. You couldn't stand the thought of not being with anyone else or not being able to 'party' like your friends. Hope it was worth it.' She said, crossing her arms and looking away from him.

'Megan, I slept with one person while we were apart and believe me, she was not worth it. I was a dick – I'll admit that – but can you believe me when I say I was thinking of you too? I could see where we were going – finish school, build careers, engagement, marriage, babies, growing old. That made me happy, but so scared too. I was scared for you too – I didn't want you to regret being with me and never getting the chance to be with anyone else. I was wrong though and the last two weeks have been miserable – especially the last three days. Megan Lupin, I do love you and I hope you can forgive me one day. I wish I could turn back time, but it's not possible.' He finished.

'George Weasley, I love you too, but I don't know if I can trust you.' She responded, crying. 'What if we get back together and this time next year you break my heart all over again?'

'I can only ask that you trust I wouldn't do that to you again.'

Megan didn't say anything, so George took the opportunity to move closer to her and he sat on her bed. He placed a hand on her stomach 'Our baby.' He smiled at her.

Megan struggled to smile back. 'George, I haven't had any tests done since I got injured – they need to do some tests to make sure the baby is ok.'

George paled a bit more 'Can I stay withy you?' he asked, 'It's ok if not, but I would like to be here.'

She nodded at him. 'George…I love you.' She said to him, and he grinned at her. 'Kiss me now please.' She laughed. He obliged and she whispered 'God I have missed you' when he had finished.

'Dads, can you come in here?' She called, knowing they would just be outside the door.

'Everything ok?' Sirius asked, eyeing George.

'Yes, could one of you get the healers, we need to know that our baby is ok.' She said, smiling at them. Sirius left the room to find a healer. He would be having a word with George Weasley later.