I made my way back to my room after my vent session with Craig, the story he told me about Tweek still rocking me to the core. I entered my room and sat on my bed. Craig told me something really personal to him and I'm not strong enough to tell him the truth. I remember it like it was yesterday, I was on the state senate floor after I won the senate seat from my racist, homophonic uncle. None of the other senators of course took a high schooler seriously but I didn't let it get to me. I had just returned to my office to find two members of Project UA waiting for me. Their organization has been hounding my office for weeks now.

"What do you guys want this time" I asked.

"The same thing we've wanted since we first came to you, young senator" the UA official answered.

"Senator" I said, "not young senator."

"My apologies" he said, "but if you will indulge us we would pitch project UA to you again."

"Again with this," I said "I told you I'm not interested in becoming the Ultimate Politician, I have my people I need to worry about, I can't just abandon them after becoming there representative."

The members of project UA refused to stop hounding me even going so far as to disrespect my staff to my face, accusing them of going against my agenda behind my back. If only that turned out to actually be a false statement. It turned out that my staff had still been taking orders from my uncle, the man who I defeated fair and square. Once I confronted my staff, they went out of their way to tarnish my name as a senator. My title was taken and since my family believed my uncle over me I was disowned.

My only choice was to join up with project UA and become their Ultimate Politician, a choice that I didn't think I would end up regretting. When I joined them, it was a week or so before they made their move on the South Park students they had their eyes on. This was the group I was to be trained with and eventually lead in missions to accomplish Project UA's true objective. Project UA also known as Project Ultimate Army, was a project designed to turn fifteen high school students into influential members of society this was done in order for Project UA to begin phase two of their plan, political, militaristic, social, and economic control of the country.

I didn't agree with their ideas but at the time I damned my morals, a regret I would have for the rest of my life. It was the night that UA decided to stop taking no for an answer from the South Park targets, I was placed on the extraction team, I went in grabbed the target and got out nice and easy. At least it was supposed to be however the time spent following the extraction made me hate myself more and more.

That night, the night of the gas and grab, my target, was the Ultimate Astronaut Craig Tucker. I was ordered to extract him using the gas that had enveloped the town as a cover. To this day Craig doesn't know that I was responsible for his being forced into project UA. It wasn't just him either, there was an incident during the extraction and as a result I had to sweep every house and grab all of my soon to be friends. The gas knocked them out completely and they believed they all were brought to headquarters at night in order to not attract any unwanted visitors, mainly the Project's number one enemy, the Remnants, more commonly known as the Remnants of Despair. They were the people we were supposed to snuff out when we took over but of course that never happened.

I remember the last time I was in headquarters. We were all there, our last stronghold, the gamma site. The remnants had gotten our other bases and had us on the run. I was called into a meeting with the higher ups and was told that an attack was imminent and it would be one that would either capture or kill us all. The next thing I remember was waking up in my cabin on the ship, along with all of my friends who I'd forgotten thanks to the memory wipe.

It wasn't until after Butters's execution that I began remembering all of this. I put two and two together pretty easily after that, the reason they captured us was because we were at a Project UA facility. None of the others would've been there, if I hadn't extracted, no kidnapped them all that night. If they weren't there they wouldn't have had to play this killing game. Yes, the project was compromised by Eric but it was my fault he was there in the first place.

Wait what was it the director said, it's been the one memory I haven't been able to recover, come on Mike think, you've remembered everything else, what was it the director said to you in that last meeting before your capture.

"Project Ultimate Army has been compromised by the Remnants of Despair. Two of their people have managed to get onto the team and have been communicating with their handler in the Remnants. This attack will provide us with a cover in order to exterminate the problem before any more of our intelligence is taken. Mike you must kill Eric and…," that name, that one name, why can't I remember it.

Wait if there were two spies does that mean that two deaths were faked? Eric has been confirmed to be dead, but does the mastermind have another spy working in the shadows? I need to find out to be sure, and I need to tell my friends the truth. At the very least Craig deserves to know the truth and if it results in his despising me for the rest of my days then so be it, I've been condemned by my family, my coworkers, even my oldest friends. If they condemned me too it would be an emotion I'm already use to, pain, and despair, I should brace myself for the fallout but for now I need to rest.

Rest would be the one necessity I did not get that night. I had a nightmare, one I've had before but this time it was more traumatizing. This nightmare had me surrounded by all the blackened and the victims, their eyes as soulless as the night and their hands reaching out to me, the same phrase repeated over and over again.

"You killed me, you killed me, you killed me Mike."

I woke up in a cold sweat three times that night, the worse part about it wasn't the dream itself, it was the fact that, in a way, it was true. I caused all this, I brought them all to UA and as a result they were all captured and now twelve of them are dead. Their blood will forever be on my hands.