Christmas Morning

Kara woke on the sofa, hearing the screaming of a baby. That's when it all came back to her, Lena made up with her and they were both on the right track. Nia was just across the room, crying. As Kara came back to consciousness properly, she heard Lena comforting their child, hushing her to sleep again.

"I didn't mean to wake you, I've been trying to keep this one quiet all morning." Lena smiled as she sat beside Kara. She was wearing the softest baggy pants that Kara had ever seen and a wonderful Christmas sweater. As Lena sat on the end of the sofa, Kara moved her legs, so she could sit closer, "It's okay." Kara managed, before frowning, "What time is it?"

"Just past ten." Lena said softly, as she comforted Nia, rocking her gently, and that was a sight to behold. Anyone would think that Lena had been at this before. Kara sat up slowly, "Ten?" She asked as she gathered her thoughts, "She slept that long?"

Lena chuckled, "No, she was awake five hours earlier." She glanced at Kara as Nia began to fall to sleep again, "I also had Alex on the phone worrying about you at two this morning. Why must your sister think the worst of me?"

Kara put her hand on her face, "Lena, I am so sorry. I was meant to call her back last night and I didn't."

"It's fine, I told her how things happened last night. She seemed satisfied enough." Lena smiled, "It's also snowing out. It's been snowing all night."

Kara looked out of the window and noticed it was still dark out. She frowned, "Lena, honey, if it's ten in the morning…where is the sun?" The Kryptonian got to her feet and grabbed her phone from the coffee table and checked the time, 2:30am. Kara swallowed a lump in her throat, "Lena…It's two-thirty in the morning…Are you sure you didn't have a weird dream?"

Lena's own brows furrowed, "What do you mean?"

"You could have had one of those dreams that felt real. I have them sometimes. They happen to the best of us. You probably didn't sleep well last night. Let me look after Nia, you go and get some proper sleep. I need less sleep than you." Kara smiled sheepishly, "Lena, I won't take her, I promise you."

Lena seemed frozen to the spot, "I know you won't, I just…I don't want to let her out of my sight." She clutched Nia a little tighter, being protective. Lena noticed Kara's face soften, and she knew Kara was going to try and break down her walls and boy, did that work. Kara knelt beside her, "I won't let anyone take her. I'm Supergirl, remember?"

"But Supergirl couldn't even save her. Do you remember that?"

Kara lowered her head as she had a flashback to when Nia had been kidnapped by Lilian.

Flashback

The tank was getting fuller of water by the minute. Nia's face was one of terror and utter, utter fear. Kara felt frozen and yet she couldn't even go near the tank or she would die too. She was ignoring every single instinct of her own, she wanted to turn and run, but she refused to do so. Her daughter was in front of her, and she needed her. Tears filled her eyes as she looked back at the girl. She could see that she was freezing cold, but nothing would be able to stop this. She couldn't believe what she was doing. That's when she made up her mind, it was the both of them or one of them. Selfishly, Kara chose that Nia had to die in order for things to happen properly. She didn't let anyone know, but she knew of one way in which she could have saved her, but the internal battle she had told her not to. That's when she stepped away from the tank and spoke out loud, both to the headset and Sam, "I can't save her."

Present

Kara lifted her head to meet Lena's eyes, "That won't happen again, you know it won't. I'm here now. She won't be harmed, ever." She said resolutely, "Please, let me take her and you get some sleep. She probably needs feeding. I'll feed her and then I'll join you in bed and if you would feel better, I can bring in the crib too." She smiled sheepishly.

Lena nodded slowly, "I'll do that…I'm sorry for being over protective." She laughed sheepishly, "I shouldn't." She shrugged, "Because I have you to protect us, but you…I keep thinking, if you couldn't protect her the last time, how will you this time?"

"I'll be ready." Kara said resolutely, "No one will hurt us. I promise you that." And she did. She made a mistake the last time, she will not repeat that again. If anything, she murdered Nia because she chose not to save her even though she had a way of saving her. If that truth ever got out, she knew that she could possibly be rejected by everyone that she knows.

Lena could see on Kara's face that there was something going on inside her head but didn't question it. She thought it was just her tiredness making her paranoid. After a moment, she handed the infant over to the Kryptonian, "Make sure you bring the crib into the room once you're done." Lena said softly. She watched as Kara nodded slowly, followed by Nia groaning slightly to the change in arms which she was being held in. Lena crouched down and kissed Kara softly on the lips, "I love you Kara."

Kara smiled slightly, "I love you too Lena." As Lena walked off, Kara sat on the sofa and got herself ready to start feeding Nia. Guilt began to consume her as she sat there, thinking about the events that lead everyone to where they were now, "I screw up your life." Kara whispered to Nia, "Twice…I'm not there for you in the near future and then…" Her sentence drifted off, "No, I'm not going to let that happen. Not again. I should never have let it happen in the first place."

As the daylight began to come through the sky, Kara stared out of the window having not slept at all for the rest of the night. As she looked at the clock next to her, she saw that it was 7am. Christmas was officially here. She got up slowly, being careful of the crib next to her as Nia slept peacefully. Lena too was blissfully unaware of the day. This was the first Christmas hadn't had alone. That's when it hit Kara, Lena had no decorations, not even a tree in her apartment. The Super quickly changed that. Fifteen minutes later after a few stops to a few different time zones around the world, she picked up a tree and lots of tinsel, making small stops in between. Pretty soon, the apartment was ablaze with colour and the smell of hot chocolate and pancakes. The blonde stood at the stove in her fluffy pyjama's as Lena walked in with Nia ten minutes after that.

Lena hadn't noticed the decoration until she noticed. As she looked around, she was taken aback, "This place didn't look like Santa's Grotto seven hours ago." She said as she looked around, even smiling at the tree, "Wow."

Kara smiled sheepishly as she watched Lena taking in her surroundings, "Is it okay? Do you like it? I just thought that perhaps this is the first Christmas you've ever had and…I don't know if I overstepped-"

Lena then looked at Kara properly, "No, no you didn't…I love it. You really didn't have to." She beamed, "Kara, thank you."

"I made breakfast too!" Kara said excitedly, "With hot chocolate too. You can eat and stuff whilst I go and change Nia."

"Oh." Lena gasped, "Um, thanks Kara, but I think that you have done enough…I think I should change her. It's not that I don't trust you. It's far from that, I just…"

"She's your baby, I get it. You're super protective, but Lena, you have to let me have some responsibility. Last night for instance, you were so tired, you didn't function properly. Let me take some responsibility. Please."

Lena went silent for a moment, closing her jaw, she then nodded, "I'll change her for now. You can do it for the rest of the day."

Kara smiled sheepishly, "That's fine. Alex wants us at her place for two this afternoon. Everyone will be there, but don't worry, they are all nice." She beamed before she realised, "You haven't even met the rest of my family. Rao, I'm so sorry."

Lena chuckled, "It's fine. I'm sure they are wonderful. I'll have breakfast soon." She smiled before walking off.