Lena stood by the window of Alex's apartment, cradling a cup of hot chocolate as fireworks lit up the night sky. Whilst going into the new year was supposed to be a celebration of all things great that had happened over the past year and looking toward the future, Lena couldn't help but think about that very day she begged Kara to save the woman that she knew to be her daughter. A bright purple reflected in her face as a firework exploded outside. She then thought some more, "Sam was there."
Alex, who was in her own world a moment ago, heard Lena speak. She didn't quite make out what it was as she was stuck in a daze, "I'm sorry?" She asked. It was then, Lena looked down into brown eyes. Her lip trembled slightly as she thought more and more about the incident, "Sam was there that night. If that girder was so big, the both of them would have seen it. Kara isn't the only one to blame here. Sam is too."
Alex hesitated for a moment, "If Sam knew about the girder, I doubt she would have let the incident happen. Lena, you need to start letting this go…It will consume you otherwise." She then moved over on the sofa, "Lena, come here." She said softly. She could see that Lena was very hesitant.
"I only bite when people piss me off and right now, you need someone. Please, let me help you." Alex said in a calm tone. She then watched as Lena gave in. The Luthor walked over and sat beside her, "There is one question I want to ask Kara…Just one, and if I'm being honest, I don't think I'd ever want the answer." Tears filled the Luthor's eyes and Alex could hear the hurt in her voice. She waited a moment before speaking, "What would you ask her?"
Lena hesitated for a moment, "I-" She paused as she looked down at her steaming mug of hot chocolate. She then laughed nervously, swallowing the lump in her throat. Her face seemed full of hurt, "I'd ask her, why did you let your own child die in such a cold way?" She then shrugged as Alex's features seemed to fall, "I mean, I get, the wrong timeline stuff, but even so, she was-is her daughter. Nia is our daughter and yet, she let her die. She had the choice to save her and she chose not to. Did you know that drowning is the worst way to die? It hurts way more than burning alive because you can feel your body fighting to stay alive and you can't do anything. While you can't do anything, your lungs fill with water and you suffocate." It was a moment before Lena met Alex's eyes again, "For anyone to die that way is horrific. Forget that she is our daughter for a second, she let someone suffer like that and that is what is unforgivable on top of the fact that she is our daughter." There was a moment of silence, "I don't…I don't want to talk about this anymore. If I can at least move on, I can do it. I don't need Kara's help. I can be a good mother, single or not."
Alex was going to reply, but Lena stood before she could say anything.
"I'm going to check on my daughter and then go to bed. Thank you, Alex, for everything." She smiled sheepishly, "Honestly, I don't know what I would have done without any of you. Your mom is amazing and so are you."
Alex smiled slightly, "Happy New Year Lena."
"Happy New Year, Alex." She smiled before leaving to go and check on Nia.
AN: Short, I know, but I will not be back until after Christmas. Please leave suggestions or just general comments. I wish everyone a very happy Christmas and hope it is full of happiness and love.