John Watson shaved the Victorian beard but kept a Victorian hairstyle.
Just like Mary Watson's hairstyle has changed, changed to a curly one just like mine. Even her clothes have been more and more like my style.
I can't remember when their images had been changed no matter how hard I tried. Just like being in a dream, although everything seems so real, you can't find the way how you got into the situation - it started from the middle of the scene, you can't find a hint what happened at the beginning.
There were many mirrors and reflections.
The continually repeated plots always could find subtle differences.
John was widowed again.
He blamed me this time and said it was my fault.
He said I killed his other half.
Obviously, I just committed suicide. For his safety, I could only commit suicide.
Is Mary Watson an enemy or a friend? She shot me at my heart, but end up was shot dead by the bullet which aimed at me...
If the same person shot and was shot, what would it call? Suicide.
Suicide. Like me. I had been thought it was the only way could save John at that moment.
But Mary told me to save John.
How?
Go to hell.
I am already being in hell.
Why Mary's looking becoming more and more like mine? Because "Mary Watson" is "marry Watson"? - Marry Watson, my most frightening thought, afraid that one day a woman will appear and marry Watson, this idea is so painful like shooting my heart.
Marry Watson, also my most longed dream, a dream that I dare not to imagine, that even at a fictional wedding banquet, I only dare to be his best man although wearing the groom's costume standing next to him.
It's ridiculous to think about the murder plot at the wedding. Would anyone plan to kill by such a stupid method - a blade that delays bleeding? But if it is a metaphor, let someone got into your heart when you didn't realise, so when that person pulled out, you would hurt to die - that sounds reasonable. (So that is a romantic relationship?)
Everything about Magnussen and Appledore is very real but unlikely in a way. Did I imagine a super version mind palace just because I have a similar one? A transparent screen floating on the air (playing the video which I rushing to John, who was under the fire at that moment) - is that invention exists? It's impossible to wear the hospital gown and walk with the IV bag to the restaurant to meet Magnussen, everyone knows that the hospital gown can't cover patient's back, which makes you like naked wearing it. (Although I'd only weared a sheet in Buckingham Palace)
Seems real but illogical when you think about it, just like dreams.
Too many unlikely things. Such as the lost train and the terrorist attack on the abandoned station, both would be too stupid to plan. Heart-shaped bomb with a simple switch to turn off the explosion? it sounds like a prop from a reality TV show. And the countdown stayed at 1:29...
January 29th is our anniversary.
So everything is for you.
I came to hell, for you.
In order to save you, I must go back!