A/N: Okay I'm about to make you sad so make sure to have tissues handy. ;(
In Annie's POV
I've Never Broken a Promise.
I'm in District 13 waiting for Finnick to come back. He left a few days ago to go on some mission with Katniss. He told me it wasn't dangerous but, I'm not stupid I know there's a war going on out there. I just hope he keeps his promise.
I see Johanna walking towards me. Apparently she didn't pass the test to be a solider so she stayed here. She gets more information then I do so she usually gives me updates. Johanna has taken more of a liking to me in District 13. I don't know why but, I am liking it.
"Annie" Johanna says once she reaches me.
"What?" I ask smiling.
She doesn't say anything she is barely meeting my gaze.
"What's wrong? Did you hear something? Something bad?" I ask.
"F-Finnick" She says shakily.
"What about him?" I ask concerned.
She purses her lips.
"They said you should probably get told this by a friend. I think I am the closest to you here." She says.
"What is it?" I ask worried.
"Annie, Finnick isn't going to come back."
"What do you mean?" I ask confused.
"Annie." She says her voice full of sorrow.
"What?" I say again.
"Annie he… he isn't gonna come home."
I think I know what she is saying but I can't really comprehend it. I need her to flat out say it so I know what I'm thinking is correct. I'm praying it isn't though
"I need you to say it." I whisper and can feel the first of many tears fall from my eye.
"Annie." She says and puts her hand on my shoulder.
"I need you to say it." I say again angrily.
"Annie, Finnick isn't going to come back. He isn't coming to see you again"
"Just say it! I need to hear you say it!" I shout and people are looking over here. I can see the sorrow in her eyes. "Just say it." I whimper.
"Annie… Finnick isn't coming back… he died. He was protecting-
Johanna keeps talking but all I hear is a muffling sound. My hands move to my hair and I grip it tightly as if I'm trying to pull it out.
Someone takes my hand and takes me to a room. I think it is my compartment. It doesn't matter because all I see is black. I'm not even sure what I'm doing. I don't know how long I cried until a thought occurs to me. When my vision come back I see I am in my compartment and Johanna is the person with me.
"I want to see him." I whisper.
"Annie he's dead." She says sadly.
"I know but I want to see him one more time. I need to see his body! I need to see him!"
"Annie it's still on the battlefield and I don't think they are going to get him. Besides Annie… I don't think you would want to see him."
"Why not?" I sob.
"The report is that." She swallows hard.
"What!" I shout.
"There were these mutts Annie and they said he was… mauled by them. Annie if you did see him again he would be all bloody, probably flesh missing. I don't think that is the last memory you want of him."
I lay on the bed and press my knees to my chest and sob.
Johanna stays and rubs my back.
"It...was...probably...really...painful... then." I sob.
"Don't think about that Annie." Johanna says.
"That…was… the… last… thing… he… felt." I start sobbing and saying things that are incoherent and unintelligent.
"Mmmmmmh." I whimper.
"It's okay Annie."
"How will it be okay!" I shout.
She doesn't say anything.
"I'm waiting!" I shout.
"It just will be... when we win this thing and Snow will be dead the new world will-
"You said you'd give it a month!" I shout.
"Give what." Then her face goes pale. "Oh." She whispers.
Johanna told me jokingly on my wedding day that she gave it a month before it ended. She was right it didn't last a month. It lasted a few weeks.
"Annie, I'm sorry I didn't think-
"No you didn't! You never do!" I shout.
"Annie." She says sadly.
"It was supposed to last forever. He broke the promise."
"Promise?" Johanna asks confused.
I think of the last conversation I had with him.
"Hello Mrs. Odair." He smiles.
"Are you gonna call me that forever?" I smile.
"Just until I get bored with it." He says and smiles.
"So yes."
"Quite possibly."
"I'm gonna miss you saying Annie." I tease.
"Fine, from now on I will call you Annie Odair until it gets boring." He says and kisses the tip of my nose.
"I like that." I smile. "You said you got passed in that solider thing."
"Yup I'm in the star squad because I'm so special." He says and kisses my cheek.
I smile but it doesn't meet my eyes.
"What's wrong?" He asks.
"I know you're leaving today to go on some… mission."
"Don't worry Annie it's not dangerous."
"That's what you say but, a war is going on out there something could happen to you."
"You worry so much Annie Odair." He says.
I hug him and he rocks us back and forth.
"You know nothing is going to happen to me." He whispers
"Finnick-
"Don't you remember the promise I made on our wedding night?" He asks.
I pull back and smile at him.
"That I get to go first."
"Yes, because I don't want you to be sad. I don't want you to be without me so you get to go first, it's almost a law Annie."
I kiss him.
"Okay." I whisper
"And what have I done with all of my promises?"
"You've always kept them." I smile.
"So everything will be fine."
I lean back into his chest.
"Okay."
"Also do you remember what you said before I went in that arena?" He asks and kisses the top of my head.
"You asked if I had any requests and I said only one."
"And that was?" He smiles.
"Don't die."
"Exactly and I fulfilled that request." He says and kisses me he keeps rubbing my back. "Besides, Annie when this is all over and Snow is dead and there are no more Hunger Games we can start our life together." He kisses me.
"And what would our life together entail?" I ask smiling.
"Whatever you want Annie Odair."
"Well stay with you forever."
"Check." He says and kisses my cheek.
"Be extremely happy that you will never go to the Capitol again."
"Almost check." He kisses my forehead.
"Maybe after a few years we could start one of those families because their would be no more games."
He smiles.
"Whatever you want Annie Odair I will give you. Besides, you'll be a great mom."
"You really think so?" I whisper.
"No, Annie." I look at him confused. "I already know." He kisses me.
"I think you would make a pretty good dad." I say and kiss him.
"Thank you." He says and hugs me. He holds me for a long time.
"Finnick." I whisper.
"Yes." He says.
"All that other stuff sounds great but, I really just want you."
"Like I said I'm not going anywhere."
I rest my head on his chest and listen to his heartbeat.
Thump. Thump. Thump. Thump. Thump.
It's steady like a beating drum.
"Finnick?"
"Yes?" He says.
"When are you leaving?" I whisper.
Finnick smiles.
"Soon." He says and kisses my forehead.
My grasp around him tightens.
"Don't worry Annie like I said we aren't doing anything dangerous."
"Like I said it's a war."
He pulls back and puts both hands on my shoulders and looks me dead in the eyes.
"Annie, I'm gonna come back and when I do we are gonna go home because everything will be better. Okay?" He says.
"Okay." I whisper.
He kisses me.
"I should probably be going." He says and pushes hair behind my ear.
"Okay." I whisper.
He kisses me and it's one of those long passionate kisses that I never want to end but unfortunately I know they will.
He breaks the kiss and then kisses my forehead.
"I love you Annie."
"I love you Finnick." I say and grip him tightly. I know saying don't leave won't help, besides I know he is doing the right thing.
"I'm coming back, remember because I don't break my promises." He kisses me again.
"Okay." I whisper.
He starts to head for the door and stars to walk down the hall probably to the armory.
I go outside to see him one more time.
"I love you Finnick!"
He turns around and smiles.
"I love you too Mrs. Odair." He says and winks.
My breathing is all irregular and I feel like I want to throw up. I stop crying I think it's because I can't produce anymore tears.
My chin is trembling like the last leaf on a tree in fall.
I pick up the pillow and push it to my chest.
I breath in and out deeply. I close my eyes but then soon feel disgusted by the pillow and throw it across the room.
"What's wrong Annie?" She asks other than the obvious reason.
"It smelled like him." I sob. "I'm never gonna get that smell again. I'm never gonna feel his warm body against mine or his gentle touch or hear his dumb jokes or see those green eyes or see his crooked teeth or feel his arms wrapped safely around me or feel his delicate lips again. But most importantly Johanna I will never hear his voice again. That sweet gentle voice that could always calm me down. Who's going to do that now!" I shout and sit up to look at Johanna. It looks like her eyes are holding in tears. "What's the point of even doing anything anymore." I say.
"Annie killing yourself is not the answer. Finnick would not have wanted that he would want you to live in the new world he was fighting to create. Annie I know this is sad but I think you know he did the right thing and if you kill yourself your making his death vain."
I know she is right but I don't want to think about that now. I just want him here or for me to wake up from another hellish nightmare. I just want to be in his arms with him running his fingers through my hair and telling me everything will be alright but that's not going to happen because this is no hellish nightmare this is my hellish reality.
"I want to be alone." I whisper.
"Annie you just can't tell me you want to kill yourself-
"I want to be alone!" I scream.
"Fine but I will be checking on you every ten minutes." She says and walks out.
I roll over and start to draw small circles on the thin sheets.
I shiver from all the tears.
I close my eyes and see it, well all the important things.
"Finnick Odair." I hear him say I don't know why, I know who he is everyone does.
"I know who you are." I say annoyed.
"Well it's the polite thing to introduce yourself." He smiles. "My Mother taught me right."
I smile.
"I guess but you're a little bias."
"Well, yes but you're still the person who hasn't introduced themselves."
"They just said my name." I say.
"Yes but you knew my name too Annie Cresta." He smiles.
"If I say my name now it would be stupid wouldn't it." I mutter.
"Only a tad." He smiles.
"Time to shine." Finnick smiles.
"Don't you mean time to die." I mutter I'm about to go into the arena.
"Nope, I mean shine because you are a star and you're gonna win." He impersonates our escort.
"Oh yes I am." I say sarcastically.
"Seriously Annie you're one of the tributes I'm going to be sorry if you die."
"Gee thanks for deciding my fate already Finnick Odair." I mutter.
"You're the only person who controls your fate." He smiles "And Annie there aren't many tributes like you well… mostly because most of them are volunteers but, I will remember you if you die." He smiles and starts to walk me to the tubes.
"You ever wished you died in there?" I mutter as he wipes the tears from my eyes.
"You're asking the wrong person Annie." He smiles.
"Why?" I ask.
He looks around making sure no one else is around.
"What?" I ask.
"I should have probably told you this before your Victory Tour because I'm sure Snow is going to ask you." He says.
"Ask me what?"
"Annie you know all those things people say about me."
I scoff.
"Of course I do." I mutter. I don't want to add that's who you are. I don't know him that well but, Finnick does seem like a decent person.
"Well that's because I have to do those things. Snow holds things over my head, if I don't he will kill people, people I think are important. People I love." He whispers.
"Oh." I whisper "Is that gonna happen to me?" I ask.
He looks at me sadly.
"I want to say no but I don't like lying."
I breathe in and then back out.
"But to answer your previous question yes I do." He says
"Huh?" I ask confused.
"Sometimes I wish I died in that arena, that way I wouldn't be in so much pain and I wouldn't put the people I love in so much pain."
"Well at least we have that in common." I smile.
"I always knew there was something." He smiles.
You need to tell him. I think to myself.
It's been almost a year since I met Finnick and I just realized I am starting to fall for him. I think I am on the road to loving him.
I hear a knock on my door.
"You, me, beach, now." He smiles and takes my hand and starts dragging me somewhere.
"Where are you taking me?" I say.
"Bond fire on the beach, it's a blue moon tonight. Don't you want to see that?" He smiles.
"I-I guess." I say.
He takes me to a spot on the beach and starts to light a fire. I sit on a near by branch and stare at the flames.
I clear my throat and Finnick looks my way.
"You're many things Annie but subtle is not one of them." He smiles and flashes his teeth. While people think Finnick is perfect in appearance he does have crooked teeth.
"Shut up." I say and toss a shell at him.
"You clearly wanted to say something."
I look at the fire and not at him.
"Finnick I like you and not in the oh my god I like him. I like you as in I want to be with you. I have had these feelings for a long time and I don't think they are going to go away. I needed to tell you." I turn toward him and he is looking at me very strangely. "Because I think I'm falling in love with you."
"Oh." Is all he says.
"Annie." He says and picks me up by the waist and spins me around.
"Woah head rush." I say when he puts me down.
"Oh I'm sorry." He smiles.
"Why are you in such a good mood?" I ask.
"I had an epiphany today."
"Oh god." I say.
"What?" He asks confused.
"Coming from your mind that can't be a good thing." I smile.
He rolls his eyes.
"Well I'm glad you said that because the epiphany was about you."
"Oh god again." I smile. "What was it?"
"I do too." He smiles.
"Huh?" I ask confused.
"Remember how you said you loved me? Like almost a year ago?" He asks.
"Yes." I say and can feel my cheeks getting red from embarrassment. Then I remember. "You do too?" I say.
"Yes but I don't know if it is just a friend way or more."
"Okay?" I say confused.
"There's only one way to find out."
"What is-" I can't finish because his lips meet mine, my body was probably stiff but I soon close my eyes and wrap my arms around him.
He breaks the kiss.
"So what's the verdict?" I ask hoping it is what I am feeling.
"I don't know, I have to check again." He smiles and kisses me again. I know the answer then, it is yes I love you and not like a friend.
"Annie." I hear Finnick say in a strange tone.
"Finnick?" I say.
"I have been thinking a lot recently."
"There's a first." I smile and he rolls his eyes.
"Annie you spend a lot of time here."
"No way! I'll alert the presses." I say sarcastically.
"Annie." He says and sits next to me. "I don't want you to leave." He says.
"Well I kind of have to Finnick all my stuff is at my house." I say confused.
He smiles.
"No, Annie maybe you should just stay here forever." He says.
"Then I would have to go back and forth."
He laughs.
"Annie why don't you live with me so you understand what I'm saying."
Annie" He says after a few minutes.
"Yes! Yes!" I say and hug him.
"I hoped you would say that." He says and kisses me.
"Okay Miss you can put this sheet to cover you as you get in a hospital gown." I hear a nurse say but I'm not really listening I'm looking for him. Looking for Finnick.
I was told after I was rescued that we were being taken to District 13 and that Finnick was there. Hearing that Finnick was there was enough for me to not even ask questions about District 13.
I'm looking around the room hoping I can find him.
"Miss." I hear the nurse say.
I don't hear her or anything else I just see a glow and it's coming from Finnick.
"Finnick!" I shout my legs start moving before I tell them too. "Finnick!" I say and slam into him. He runs into the wall hard but he doesn't care and neither do I.
Our grips on one another tightens. I pull back so I can look at his face
"Let me look at you." I say and put both of my hands on his face. Finnick's arms are still gripping me tightly almost too right but I don't care. His grip is helping keep the bed sheet around me which is the only thing I have for coverage but, I don't care about right now.
"Are you okay?" I ask because he doesn't look it.
"I'm fine now." He says and moves his hands to my face.
"Are you okay? They didn't hurt you did they?" He asks worried.
"No, because someone didn't tell me anything." I look up at him and smile.
He grips me tightly.
"I'm not even sorry." Finnick says.
"I'm not even mad." I say.
We kiss for a long time and then hold one another. Until we hear a 'Miss'
We both turn to the nurse.
"You do need to get checked up and I can get you some clothes." She says.
"Okay." I say. Finnick grabs my hand.
"I'm never letting go of you." He whispers.
"I never want you to." I say.
"Where do you live?" I ask.
"Mostly in the hospital." Finnick says as we are walking through the hallways. To actually get assigned somewhere to live.
"I thought you said you weren't hurt." I say worried.
"I wasn't physically it was all mental." He says. "I was just worried about you so much."
"Is that why your hands are all rough where you knot tying?" I ask.
"Yes it wasn't as successful as it usually is. I needed something Annie, I was going crazy."
"You're not the only one." I say and hold out my hands. I kept chewing on my nails there is almost nothing left, all bitten down to the nub. It was so bad they started to bleed.
He takes my hand and examines it.
"Does that hurt?" He asks.
"Not anymore." I say and smile. He brings the hand he is holding, the one he hasn't let go since I've gotten here, to his lips.
"I love you." He says.
"I love you too." I say and kiss him.
He heads to our compartment and it is nothing special but I don't care because Finnick will be here.
I kiss him. I kiss him for a long time.
When we stop both of is are breathing heavily.
I lean against his chest.
"I love you." He says.
"I love you too." I say and kiss him again.
I stop and look at him.
"Finnick you need to let go of my hand." I say.
"Why?" He asks.
"I love you so much." I say.
"I love you so much too." He says and kisses me.
I break the kiss again.
"Finnick I love you."
He opens his mouth.
"I love you so much and I like telling you that but I think… I think I want to express it… physically." I whisper because I've never done anything with him. I thought I was going to die and I wanted nothing more than to see Finnick and now I want nothing more than to share the physical act of love with him and only him.
"Of course Annie." He smiles and kisses. "You're the only person I want to do this with."
I kiss him and the rest of the day is a blur because I'm stuck in that land when I am just with Finnick. Finnick stays with me and holds me all day and night. I'm sure he had somewhere else to be but he wanted to be with me.
The whole time I was with Finnick it didn't feel like two people it felt like one person. One soul. It felt natural. It felt right.
"I love you Finnick." I say and kiss his cheek.
"I love you too Annie." He says and rolls over and kisses me and I start to giggle. He is getting our limbs and sheets more tangled but I don't care and neither does he.
"Finnick what am I supposed to talk to her about?" I whisper.
"I don't know whatever girls talk about, you're picking out your wedding dress that's a built in discussion." He smiles and kisses my cheek.
"I've never met her besides I bet she thinks I'm." I move my hand in a spiral motion.
"Katniss won't judge Annie."
"I don't like being around new people." I whisper.
Finnick takes us towards the bed so we can sit down. I don't have to say he took my hand because he hasn't let go of it since I came here. He only has when I get dressed or shower. I don't mind I don't really want him to let go.
"Annie you're gonna be okay." He kisses my forehead. "Like I said Katniss doesn't judge and she knows I love you more than the air I breathe so even if she did think you're." He does the same spiral motion I did. "She won't say anything." He kisses me. "Okay?"
"Okay." I whisper.
"Besides. don't stress about this Annie because today I'm gonna marry you."
"Actually I think I get to marry you first."
"It doesn't matter because by the time the sun goes down you will be my wife." He smiles.
"Okay." I smile.
"I can lead you to Katniss." He says and stands up and leads me down the corridors of the strange place known as District 13.
He stops outside a compartment I'm assuming Katniss'.
She does come out he doesn't even have to knock.
"Oh Finnick I was just coming to get you well actually you." Katniss says and motion towards me.
"Well it is a safe bet that I would be with her." Finnick smiles.
Katniss does too she doesn't look sad she can tell we love each other.
"Are you ready to go Annie?" She asks.
"Yes." I whisper.
"Okay we can go when you… say goodbye." She says.
Finnick leans in and whispers.
"Don't worry Annie you'll be fine and she won't think your." He does the swirl motion again. I wonder what Katniss is thinking right now.
"Okay." I say and he kisses my forehead.
I start to head towards Katniss but then look down.
"Finnick." I say at a normal tone.
"What?" He asks concerned.
"You're gonna have to let go." I look down. "Unless you wanna chop it off." I smile and Katniss does too.
"Sorry." He says and lets go he flexes his hand and so do, I the muscles are getting locked in that place because we hold hands almost 24/7.
"I'll see you in a few hours." I say.
"I will be counting the minutes." He says and then I head to where Katniss and her beauty team are taking me.
We make small talk and I'm not very good so I just stop and stare off into the distance.
I try on multiple dresses leftover from her Victory Tour. Cinna was better than my designer because everything was too tight and it was either squeezing something in or pushing something up.
"This one." I say as soon as it is on. I don't care what the prep team is thinking or even Katniss because this is the dress I want to marry Finnick in. The green will match his eyes which I know will be glowing.
"I don't know Annie the blue one-
Katniss cuts them off "This is the one she wants. This is the one she gets." Katniss smiles and so do I.
We get back and the wedding happens in a blur .I just remember being up there with Finnick and saying I get to spend forever with him. The rest of the night we just held each other. I think we only let go to eat the cake.
We head back to our compartment and Finnick kisses me.
"Annie." He says seriously.
"Yes?" I ask.
"When we were promising stuff when we were getting married I wanted to add something to that list." He says.
"What?" I ask confused.
"They said till death do us part but I want to change it."
"What to 'as long as you both shall be'?" I smile.
"No, because that doesn't fit with what I am going to say.
"Okay." I say getting more confused.
"You get to go first." He says and smiles.
"What?" I ask confused.
"When we die, which we will because nothing lives forever, I promise you that you will get to go first."
"Finnick you can't really-" I get cut off by his lips meeting mine.
He breaks the kiss
"Yes I can Annie and I've never broken a promise so you're never gonna know what it's like to be without me." He kisses me again.
"I'll hold you to that." I say and kiss him and we eventually fall back onto the bed.
The movie theater that is my mind goes black because that is it. That's all of the important parts and that's all it wanted me to see. I will remember all of my memories with Finnick or will try too.
Then it's just the last memory the last conversation I ever had with him. My throat gets tight thinking that, that will be the last conversation. That I actually have a last conversation with him.
I remember the very last thing he said to me. I'm glad it wasn't something stupid like one of his dumb one liners. I will miss those though, I loves those cheesy one liners.
I love you Mrs. Odair.
I open my eyes.
"I love you too." I say and another round of crying starts.
Two Months Later.
The war is over and society has started to put itself back together. District 4 is pretty fixed up.
I don't really do anything, all day I just say with my parents. They make sure I don't stay in bed crying all day and am eating. I don't talk much I just keep wishing he was here.
I couldn't even go inside my house. I made it to the living room but then saw everything and just fell to my knees and started crying. I only lasted five minutes. I want to be able to live their again. My Mom suggested that if I go a little each day it won't be so bad but I don't want to leave the house yet.
"Annie." My Mom knocks on my bedroom door and sits down next to me and strokes my hair.
"What?" I ask.
"Annie." She kisses my forehead. "You're going to have to leave the house today."
"What no!" I shout.
"Annie I made you that doctors appointment because you keep getting sick."
"I'm fine. It's probably just a part of the grieving process."
"Annie that's not normal, something could be wrong." She says and kisses my forehead.
"So." I whisper hoping she didn't hear that.
"Annie, I don't want anything to happen to you. You're my only child and I love you. I don't like seeing you in this much pain but, I know you will eventually get better." She kisses my forehead. "I'm not saying you will ever get over it but, I'm saying it will get easier a little each day."
I hug her. I want to cry but I've cried so much I just make whimpering sounds now. I think you have 'x' amount of tears in your life and I think I used all mine up.
My Mom gets me to shower, get dressed, eat, and then leave.
She holds my hand as we get to the doctors office.
I can feel stares on me and it's not because I'm the crazy girl it's because I'm one of seven victors left. Out of all 75 only seven remain.
I pick at a loose seam on my shorts. I start to pull and twirl it over and over again.
"Annie." My mom says and rubs my shoulder.
"What?" I snarl.
She smiles. She doesn't really care how I talk to her. I could call her terrible things and she wouldn't bat an eyelash. I just wonder how long that will last.
"It's your turn." She says and strokes my hair.
I look up and see a nurse with a clipboard smiling at me.
I sigh and stand up.
She checks my height, weight, blood pressure, takes some blood, and then takes me to an exam room.
"The doctor will see you shortly." She smiles and leaves. I sit in a chair and sigh.
"Annie I think you're supposed to sit there." My mom says and motions towards the bed like thing with wax paper on it to prevent germs.
"I like it right here." I say.
"Annie-
"I like it right here! I don't even want to be here!" I shout.
"Okay." She says.
After what seems like forever the door finally opens.
It's a man probably in his late forties and has just started to bald. He has been here at the doctors office for as long as I can remember.
I sigh.
I just want to go home.
He looks confused as to why I'm not sitting on the bed thing but I don't care like I said I don't want to be here.
"Hello Annie." He says cheerful.
I sigh
"Hello." I say unamused.
"Now you said that you came in here for nausea and vomiting is this correct."
"Yes I think I'm fine but, my Mother over there thinks I'm dying."
"Annie." She says gently.
"Well you aren't dying Annie."
"See." I say. "Can I go home now?"
"Annie you aren't dying but we found something out from your blood tests."
"What do I have some blood disorder now. Does my body not have enough water in it because I cried it all away." I say angrily and look at the ground.
"No blood disorder, but we did discover that you are pregnant which can explain-
My head snaps up.
"What?" I say confused and about a dozen other things.
"You're still in the first trimester which is usually when the acid reflux is most present but-
"You're wrong." I say.
"What?" He asks confused.
"You're wrong… I can't be that it's impossible." I say slightly angry.
"Have you had unprotected sex?"
"I-I yes but-
"Then it's possible." He says. "Now we want to do an ultrasound to see-
"No, no because I'm not."
"Annie." My mom says.
"No I'm not, let's just go home."
"Annie." She says again.
"Why don't I just give you two a few minutes. I need get a few things anyways." He says and leaves the room.
My mom comes over and rubs my back.
"Mom, no he's wrong."
"Annie he isn't wrong you are pregnant."
I move my hands to my hair.
"No I'm not because he is dead."
"Annie he doesn't need to be alive for this to happen." She say and smooth my hair.
"Well he should be but, it doesn't matter because I'm not, I'm not." I say and can feel my eyes filling with tears.
I make a groaning noise.
"Annie." She says worried.
"Make it stop."
"What?" She asks.
"The tears." I whisper.
She wraps her arm around me.
"Annie it's okay this is a good thing, a child is a blessing and-
"Mom I'm not I can't be."
"Annie, Finnick doesn't need to be alive for this to happen because-
"Yes he does." I almost shout this time. I breathe in and out so I don't cry. "Because he would have seen his child and known that he was going to be a father because he is… he was a good person. Him… dying is not fair him not seeing his child or evening knowing he was going to be a father is just cruel and the universe isn't that cruel. Whatever this blood test said isn't true it's wrong."
My Mom looks at me sadly.
"Annie, that is all true but, if you were pregnant the universe wouldn't be mean to you because then a part of him gets to live on. Your child will be a result of your love."
"No, no just take me home I want to go home." I almost sob.
"We can go home, just as soon as they give you an ultrasound."
"No." I say.
"Annie why are you do hell bent against this? I know it wasn't in the plans but-
"Because he should be here." I whimper. "He should be here. He is supposed to be here for this moment." I mutter and put my hands over my face and cry.
My Mom hugs me and rubs my back. I hear the door open but she makes some hand motion and it closes.
"I think so too Annie but, you can't change that." She kisses my forehead. I start crying and not a nice cry, a hard cry with snot and everything. I know I can't keep this room occupied forever. So I calm myself down. My Mom gives me a tissue and then holds me.
A few minutes later the door opens again and stays in the open position for a few seconds probably making sure it is alright to enter.
The doctor come back in. With the machine. He isn't looking at me strangely he probably knew I was crying and he probably knew why.
"Alright Annie I need you to lie down up here and then pull your shirt up so I can get access to the area." He says but I don't move
"Annie just do this and if you think you aren't pregnant so badly then this will prove it." My Mom says gently.
"Okay." I say and get up there and do what he instructed.
"This will be a little warm." The doctor says and squirts some goop on me. I stare up at the ceiling not caring what he is doing.
I hear him rummaging with something and then he puts something on my stomach and rolls it into the gel and all around my stomach.
"Here's you baby Annie." He says and motions towards the screen.
"Annie look at the screen." My mom says gently.
"No." I whisper.
"Your baby looks to be healthy. You are around ten weeks. Usually you can hear the heartbeat." He takes the thing off of me and then presses a button and puts it back on and I can hear a distinct thumping sound. I can hear the heartbeat. I turn my head towards the screen.
"Where is it?" I whisper.
He points on the screen and I can see it and still hear the thumping of it's heartbeat.
There it is a new life growing inside of me.
I turn my head and look back at the ceiling, I can feel a tear roll down my cheek.
You're gonna make a great Mom. I hear Finnick's word ring in my head.
I hope he's right because this kid is his too, it has his DNA and if Finnick had more dominant traits it will probably resemble him too. This kid… My child might not have Finnick but they will be loved and it will always be a reminder of the person I loved because like my Mom said that's what my child is, a result of mine and Finnick's love.
A/N: If you were like me when I wrote this you probably cried. I tried to make the ending happy which I think I did a little. Originally the ending was her crying in District 13 so it is better than what it could've been.
I had to write this in small intervals because I kept crying. (I don't mean balling my eyes out but I did shed a few tears.) It's just so sad. I always wondered who told Annie and how she would've reacted because when they voted to have one more Hunger Games she didn't seem like she was in hysterics.
Also about Finnick dying on lots of websites they say he was decapitated. I don't think it came across that way and neither do my friends. I have read mockingjay more times than I would like to admit and all Katniss said was something about the final death blow. That doesn't mean his head rolled off. I just thought multiple mutts attacked him and he died. Does anyone else think he was decapitated? It's not like I can call up Suzanne Collins and be all 'did Finnick get decapitated?' I would also be like whyyy did you kill him! Whyyyy!
I don't like talking about Finnick dying or thinking about his head coming off :(.
Thanks for reading and I promise the next chapters will be fluff and Finnick will be alive in all of them. If you have a request of some certain fluffy event I would be happy to write about it or a request at all, but if it's sad you will be on the waiting list for a while.