Bella's Pov:

Waking up in the arms of my mates was the best feeling. I never wanted to leave the bed. I shut my eyes tighter and snuggled back snuggled closer too. We spent most of the morning just enjoying being together. And I have to say I really did love seeing them kiss and cuddle. They didn't know if I would be ready for anything more serious.

I wasn't ready for sex but I would like a chance to see them in action or something. But I wasn't sure that seeing them really in that state of mind would be safe for me. I would ask them later before I changed.

Today Alice, Edward, and Angela was coming. And the plan was for me and her to be changed tonight. I wasn't scared about being changed I was more worried bout what it would to to my mates. Jasper was an empath after all.

Peter would know what I was doing because he had seen it. I didn't care though. I was going to shut off any emotion to my self and try to feel or scream. I didn't want my mates suffering because of me. I would talk to Angela about that too. Edward was worse than my mates when it came to watching a mate suffer.

After we finally got out of the bed, we got in the shower. We dressed and ate and made our way to the stable. My men were looking so hot if I must say. Jasper had a black short sleeve shirt. Tight I might add. Tucked in to his dark wash jeans, so his belt buckle could be seen. And on his feet he had black leather Cowboy boots. I mean to tell you yum. Peter was wearing a red long sleeve shirt. The sleeves rolled up. It was form fitting. Not as tight as Jaspers was but still wasn't loose. His jeans were a light wash kinda worn in. He had his shirt tucked into the belt buckle like Jasper. On his feet was just plain brown leather boots. They both were so hot.

One of my last wishes was to ride a horse while I still clumsy human me. So my boys took me to the stables. I picked out a dark brown colored horse . Her name was brownie. On her legs she had spots of white. She was magnificent.

After we mounted our horses, we took off into the woods that surrounds the house. After trotting along for awhile we stopped.

The made me a picnic. We kissed, laughed and talked.

"We have a few things that we would like to talk to you about." He was using his serious tone. He continued. " I know we have previously talked about the change, but I would like to talk more about it today because there are things that hasn't been gone over." He took my hand in his as Peter took me into his lap and hugged me close to him.

"First I'd like to go over the pain. The pain will be excruciating. It's like being set on fire. You are burning from the inside out. You will be screaming and thrashing. Begging to die. I will take away as much of the pain as I can but you still will feel most of it."

"And for the love that is whole don't keep silent. It may hurt to hear you scream, but we need to hear. It helps to know your still with us. It will scare us." Peter the all knowing yoda ass said.

I took his hand in mine and Jaspers. Looking between the two of them I spoke. "But I don't want you to be hurting. If I don't say anything know I am doing it because you both mean the world to me. I don't want you hearing my pain when I know that jasper will be feeling it."

We went back and forth talking about things and although they were upset at my choices on things. They agreed not to argue any more about it.

"There is one thing I want to ask you before we go back to the house." I said nervously. "Was wondering if well I could maybe um see you guys like... In... Action... Naked..." "You don't have to be nervous to ask that bit. But we get naked you my love will have to too. It's only fair." I gulped. "Um... Fair... Right..."

We spent the next hour exploring each other. I even got to watch them in the heat of passion. Let me tell you I've never been so hot before in my life. I could wait to see all my mates like that. I loved my rough Cowboys.