He saw colours he couldn't describe. He heard noises he couldn't identify. Unknown aroma's penetrated his nostrils while he was not in state to define them. He dared to state he had eaten different delicacies without being aware, since their aftertaste was still in his mouth.
Now and then Alyssae's face appeared, where by her violet eyes glittered like gems. Her long, dark hair waved over her shoulders like a waterfall that was lit up by the moon. She smiled lovely to him and offered her hand, but suddenly she disappeared because a bright coloured wave washed her away. In vain he searched for a sign of her.
Sometimes he heard her voice and at times it shifted in the voice of his brother. Kili…
Why was his brother not with him? Where was he? Often he tried to raise himself, but he had no control of his own body. Sometimes he ran across green fields, sometimes he floated like an eagle above a huge sparkling lake. Other times he fell on his knees in the dust, respectfully looking to an enormous lonely mountain, while the tears run down his cheeks without a reason.
Fili however kept the feeling the colours started to fade and that the noises silenced, as if he was dying. On the one hand it frightened him, on the other hand the impressions were so overwhelming he felt exhausted. Sometimes he believed to see things which could impossibly be from this world, because of which death suddenly made him very curious.

Fili knew for sure. There was an elf talking to him. He opened his eyes and screamed her name. Somebody looked him in the eyes, but it clearly was not Alyssae. He fell back in the pillows and looked around disorientated.
Somebody gave a short order and someone else left the room. Timidly he looked at the two elves who stood beside his bed. Both looked like a woman, but he didn't dare to bet they actually were female.
'You've left this world for a long time, mister dwarf,' the one to the right spoke. From his voice Fili concluded he was a man after all. 'Drink this. You will feel much better.'
In silence Fili drank from the cup that was offered to him. His attention was led away by his rumbling stomach.
'How long?' he asked confused.
'We have found you in the forest five days ago.'
A door was opened and a tall elf with snow white hair stepped towards him. He took place at the edge of his bed and gave him a penetrating look, as if he wanted to intrude his brain. Fili tried to look the other way, but when the man started to talk his voice was soft and far from unfriendly.
'During your sleep you often said the name Alyssae.'
The hearing of her name put a smile on his face.
'Who is she?'
'She is an elf,' he answered dreamy, hoping the elves wouldn't hurt him as they heard what he had done for her. 'My brother freed her from a goblin dungeon.'
A relieved sigh escaped from the lips of the elf.
'Are you her brother?' Fili glanced curiously at him and tried to find a similarity between Alyssae and him, but his eyes were as blue as the sky and his hair was as bright as the sun.
He wasn't very surprised when the man shook his head. 'No. She is my fiancé.'
Fili got the feeling someone beat him against the chest. 'What?' he murmured in disbelief. He shook his head, as if that could save him from the truth. It felt like his heart was torn apart, as if he discovered he was holding on to a lie his whole life. His breath speeded up and he felt a lump in his throat.
The elf kept looking into his eyes and Fili clenched his fingers to fists, although he missed the strength to raise his arms. His heart bounced painfully in his chest.
The elves spoke to each other in their own language and his eyelids fell down again. The dreams which followed, were much darker now and he wanted to be delivered from them. What had these elves done to him?
'I am her fiancé.'
Those were the words which kept chasing him, no matter how far he ran. He pushed his hands against his ears so he didn't have to hear them anymore, but the words slipped between his fingers. No matter what he tried to do, the sentence became harder and harder, more aggressive, so that he shrunk down and could do nothing but accept that there was no way to silence the speakers.