Yoooooooooo, It's been over a year since I posted anything here. My excuse is that life is a bitch, and I'm lazy as fudge. Also I've been co-writing with Leven The Valkyrie on AO3. However, as I am too lazy to transfer all my fics over I will still post here. Though this one will eventually go over there lol. Anyway I don't know when I'll post again but I do think I will finish this one before I do Mates and Mayhem...if I can get out of the writers block for it. So I do hope you guys enjoy this, I also changed the summary of this fic. R&R if you'd like.

The week after Axel gave Roxas a ride to work was uneventful. The two tried to make small talk only to go into an awkward silence. The blond was still pissed about the night before while Axel pretended it never happened. He was different, is what Roxas decided. The air around the man had changed from friendly college student to something along the lines of serious or was it an air of authority. The blond never did ask what Axel did for a living. He almost regretted being stubborn in the car ride. As he lay in his bed, staring up at the ceiling above; the ceiling which housed Axel, Roxas thought that he should try to talk to him. At least one more time anyway.

"Hey, Roxas?" Sora poked his head into the blonde's room, holding a couple bottles of beer. Said brunet had been staying with Roxas and Hayner since he got there. He wasn't ready to go back home since he shared an apartment with Riku. Things between them still haven't cooled down. Sora even wondered if things would ever be the same for them. It saddened him to the point that he couldn't talk to Kairi about it. Though she was sure to let him know that Riku told her about the break up. If only she knew the reason behind it. Sora and Roxas both had a feeling it would make things more complicated than it needed to be.

"Yeah?" Roxas sat up, his attention leaving the sound of Axel's footsteps from above. "What's up?" He asked, curiously eyeing the beer.

Sora wondered over to the bed and sat himself down beside the blond. He handed Roxas a bottle while taking a big gulp of his own. "Well, I was thinking. I'm probably not going to be sharing a space with Riku anymore and apartment hunting is kind of hard. But if it's too much of a problem then don't worry about it. But I was wonder, if you guys don't mind...could I stay here with you guys until I can get back on my feet?"

Roxas took a moment to comprehend what Sora had asked him. The blond could only chuckle at how nervous his friend had become. Sora was crazy for thinking that Roxas would say no in the first place. The blond shook his head, reached out and smacked Sora on the back. The brunet winced, almost spilling his beer on the bed. He stared at the blond in confusion. "What was that for?"

"Of course you can stay here you idiot. And don't worry about asking Hayner, he's just a couch bum who's over staying his welcome." The blond laughed, causing Sora to join in.

"Hey! I'm still paying some of the rent!" Hayner yelled from the hallway.

"Yeah but you eat up all the food within a week of me buying it." Roxas called back.

Hayner came into the room, snatched Roxas' untouched beer and chugged it down. "Yeah well, maybe you should be quicker about eating."

"And maybe you should just propose to Olette already and move in with her." Roxas shot back, frowning at his now empty hand.

"Well maybe you should grow a pair and talk to your fancy looking redhead." Hayner stuck his tongue out earning a hard glare from Roxas.

"Says the guy who doesn't have a pair anymore. How long has Olette had your balls in purse now?"

Sora snorted at that, causing Hayner's face to go red. "Yeah well, at least I have someone who will touch my balls. Lefty and righty don't count for you Roxas."

Roxas grit his teeth, trying not to let that stupid comment get to him. "Yes, that maybe, however, you never used to complain about my hands back in high school."

Hayner stutter words of no coherency. He simply shut his mouth and crossed his arms. This in turn caused Sora and Roxas to burst out laughing. "How do you guys remain such good friend after everything you've been through. You're still on good terms with Pence too."

"I don't know man. I honestly don't think about the past. Pence is just a good friend I guess. Even though we both broke his heart. Man, we need to find him someone." Hayner rambled out.

"Yeah, anyway Sora, I think you should just talk to Riku. You guys have been best friends since before you were in school. I'm sure things will be okay."

"Yeah. I guess I'm just scared that I'll lose him. I need to think about things a little more before I can confront him." Sora replied. "Thanks, you guys."

"Ahhh enough of the depressing shit. Let's get wasted you guys."

Roxas rolled his eyes. Kicking Hayner off of his bed. "You're going to go buy more beer then. I'm not drinking unless you do that."

"Ass hat." Hayner grumbled. "Let's go Sora. You need to get out of the apartment."

Sora laughed, nodding his head while getting off the bed. "See ya in a bit Roxas."

"See ya."

Roxas went back to his staring as soon as the two were gone. He loved his friend's he really did but sometimes he just wanted to be left alone with his thoughts. Even if they were of some redheaded jerk bag. A really hot redheaded jerk with a nice-looking body and beautiful eyes that could make the blond melt from just a stare.

"No, no, no, no, no. Dead puppies, hairy old ladies with thongs so far up their own ass they leave shit stains. Ugh mom and dad naked." Roxas quickly ranted out anything and everything to get his sudden hard on to go away. He did not want to get an erection thinking about how Axel seemed to have gotten sexier than the last time he saw him. No way in hell was he going to think about how he saw him straight out of the shower or how Axel was so gentle with him the first and only time they had sex. "Son of a bitch." Roxas moaned, trying his best to keep his hands away from his groin. "I will not- not to him-"

"Ohhh." The blond moaned as one of his hands found its way down his pants and applied pressure. "N-No!" Roxas panted, pulling his hand away. "No." He got up and quickly ran to the bathroom where he turned the water onto the coldest setting. Too bad for him it didn't work the way he wanted it too. He was still rock hard. "Fuck it."

Roxas closed his eyes, stroking himself the whole time he imagined it was Axel touching him, whispering in his ear and playing with one of his nipples. The blond moaned, pumping himself faster while squeezing his member in the ways he liked. Roxas panted, he felt close but this wasn't enough for him. He looked about the shower searching for anything he could use. He stepped out of the tub and looked in the cabinet under the sink. There he found his toy, still new and unused. Roxas felt himself blush at the thought of putting the big thing inside of him. He cursed Hayner for the joke gift but right now he needed it for once. Roxas opened the box and went back into the shower, laid in the tub and fingered himself until he was sure he could put the thing inside of himself. "Oh fuck!"

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Roxas stepped out of the bathroom full of shame and guilt. He felt so dirty touching himself like he did all because of Axel. He swore to himself that he would never do such a thing now that the redhead was back in his life. He felt sick because he didn't want Axel to be the reason for his future alone time. He felt disgusted because not even the thought of his naked parents could stop how hot he got from just picturing the redhead. "I'm such a scumbag."

Roxas was pretty sure his neighbors might have heard him since he wasn't bothering to be quiet. At the time he just needed release. It wasn't like he really cared if they did or not just as long as Axel didn't hear the blond moaning out his name. "There's no way I was that loud." Roxas decided, going back to bed to bury his face in his pillow. "If he did by some chance, I'll just play it off and say he must be hearing things or it was another neighbor."

"Roxas we're home!" Sora called from the front of the apartment. "Also, Hayner is doing something you're not going to like."

Roxas groaned, got up and walked down the hall to see what was going on. He saw Sora putting beer in the fridge but no sign of the other blond. "What's he doing?" Roxas questioned with a raised brow.

"Oh, I guess it's a good thing you showered. Not that you stunk or anything."

"Sora, what's he doing?" Roxas asked again feeling a little impatient at the moment. Sora glanced up and then at the door as the sound of footsteps descended the stair case outside. Roxas stared at Sora horrified. "He didn't" But before Sora could make so much as a peep, the front door swung open, revealing Hayner and a very bored looking redhead.

"Hey, Roxas, Axel here is going to join us in getting wasted." Hayner said causally, smirking at the glare Roxas was sending him.

Hayner was so getting kicked out in the morning.

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An hour went by and in that time only Hayner had reached the point of no return. He was rambling about the time he saw his high school gym teacher getting head from his math teacher inside of the school pool, the night of prom. He complained that old people like that should go to a hotel while young people like him used the pool for that kinda shit. Sora on the other hand was passed out on the floor cuddling a pillow while mumbling about Roxas taking away his chocolate bunny. Where he got the idea Roxas would do that the blond would never know. He simply covered his friend with a blanket and told Hayner that it wasn't his math teacher it was his history teacher.

"Same difference." Hayner slurred, reaching for the bottle in Axel's hand.

"I think you've had enough and besides, this one is mine." Axel mocked, downing the bottle back. "I think I'm going to head back. No offense but this was boring as hell."

"Why'd you bother to stay as long as you did if you feel that way?" Roxas asked annoyed.

Axel glanced at Hayner whom passed out the second he was denied more booze. "Your friend here promised a good time." Roxas rolled his eyes at the lame excuse, placing a blanket on Hayner this time. "You know, you seem to be the responsible one here or is that just a front because of me?"

"I thought you were leaving?"

"I was, or am. No need to get so testy." Axel finished up one last beer before standing up, stretching his arms out to let his back crack from sitting so long. "You don't drink?" He noted that Roxas never touched a bottle the whole time he was there. Either Roxas really was the responsible one in the group or he wasn't drinking because Axel was there. The redhead figured it was the latter.

Roxas faced Axel, expression showing just how frustrated he was having Axel still there. "If you're leaving then why are you asking me questions? Just leave already, I want to go to bed." Axel frowned at that. The older man marched toward Roxas, startling the blond. Roxas backed away from the taller man until his back hit the far wall. Roxas gulped gazing up into piercing emerald hues. Axel practically had him cornered with no room to escape. "What?" Roxas weakly managed to squeak out.

"What exactly is your problem with me? I haven't done anything to warrant this damn attitude from you. So what, are you still mad about the whole door thing because I thought we were passed that." Axel asked irritably.

Roxas turned his face away from Axel's view. He felt embarrassed for behaving the way he was. Just earlier today he wanted to try to talk to Axel like the adults they were and here he was being an asshole. He didn't know why he was being one in the first place. The whole time Axel was there Roxas either ignored him or gave the man a dirty look when he tried to talk to one of Roxas' friends. What was wrong with him? Roxas' train of thought soon turned to his time in the shower. "Not now." He muttered under his breath.

"Not now what? You don't want to talk about things or are you trying to tell me that right now you are being a prick?"

Roxas shook his head, tried to push passed Axel only to have his wrists pinned beside his head. He refused too look at Axel while his heart pounded faster than a speeding built trying to hit Superman. "Axel please just leave already." Roxas said miserably.

"Not until you tell me what your problem with me is." Axel sighed, the alcohol finally getting to his head from all the blood rushing to it. He really wished Roxas would stop beating around the bush.

"Listen, I'm sorry I've been acting like an ass and treating you like you kicked my puppy into next week. You don't deserve it and I'm a dick weed for being such a child. You've done nothing wrong so I'm sorry." The blond glanced up at Axel, eyes meeting the older man's.

Axel sighed again, let go of Roxas' arms and took a step back. "Apology accepted, but I would still like to know why."

Roxas groaned, ran a hand through his messy hair while moving away from the wall, turning so his back was to Axel. "I don't know okay? I guess I'm still nervous to be around you after all this time. And being a prick is just a defense mechanism to protect myself. I feel so stupid."

Axel put a hand on Roxas shoulder, giving it a soft squeeze. "You don't have to be nervous around me. I'm not going to do anything."

"Well, what if I want you to?" Roxas felt his heart jump into his throat. Like he would really say that to Axel. What was he, a moron?

Axel removed his hand and chuckled. "I still wouldn't do anything. Not now anyway."

Blushing darker than a baboon's butt, Roxas stared wide eyed at his feet. He wasn't sure if he should be excited, disappointed, or embarrassed. Probably all three at once seen as how Axel didn't sound like he was joking. Or, at least Roxas hoped he wasn't joking around. The blond hesitantly glance behind himself only to see Axel watching him. Their eyes met and that was all it took for Roxas legs to give out on him.

"Woah there." Axel caught the blond in his arms before Roxas could hit the floor. "Are you feeling alright?"

"Leave me here to melt into a puddle of mush with whatever dignity I have left."

Axel chuckled and helped the blond back to his feet. His face was mere meters away from the younger man's. If either Sora or Hayner woke up, they would tell you how much tension was in the room. A knife wouldn't be able to cut it let alone a chainsaw. As the two stared at each other, their faces had gotten closer to point where their lips were almost touching. Axel was the first to pull away. He let go of Roxas and ruffled his hair as if they were still teenagers from long ago. The redhead cleared his throat and said his good byes. "See ya later Blondie." Axel chuckled and took his leave all the while Roxas remained in a daze.

'We almost kissed…' He thought to himself, his face hot and mind dizzy from the blood rush. Roxas wandered back to his bedroom, laid in bed, curling up with his pillow pulled flush against himself. Axel said he wouldn't do anything whether Roxas wanted him to or not. But by George did he want the man to touch him again; to kiss him, hold him, fuck him into the wall or better yet, his mattress. Roxas could himself getting hard just thinking about it. The blonde got up, went into the bathroom, grabbed his toy, went back to his room and locked the door. He didn't care who heard him, in fact he was hoping Axel would ever single thing as the blond stripped down and began to tease himself, moaning softly at first from the feeling of his hand on his cock.

Roxas reached behind his bed for his lube, squeezing some onto his palm and going back to teasing himself. His other hand played his nipples, sliding down his body and massaging his inner thighs, moaning quietly still. The blond began to pump himself, guiding his other hand to fondle his sack before parting his legs as far as they could go. He groaned, pumping a little fast, eyes locking on the ceiling as he teased his already sensitive hole. "Mmma, Axel." Roxas lubed up his finger and stuck in three fingers, trusting them against his prostate, moaning louder from the feeling, eyes shutting as his back arched the longer he played with himself. Before he could get any closer to edge, Roxas grabbed his dildo, lubed it up and shoved it inside of himself with a loud wanton moan that he was sure anyone on the other side of the walls could hear him. It wasn't long until Roxas was withering from the ecstasy of his own pleasure, calling out Axel's name every chance he could right until the moment he cam. "A-Axel, fuck ah ha Axel mmm Axel!"

Panting, trying to come down from his high, Roxas felt himself blushing for the millionth time that day. He knew he was going to regret it in the morning but at the moment he didn't care. He felt so satisfied in the after math that he wished Axel was really there doing the things he wanted to him. Pulling the toy out of himself, Roxas rolled over, groaning and wiping his hands on his sheets before slowly falling into a deep sleep while the man upstairs was staring wide eyed at the floor. Axel had heard it all as soon as Roxas cried out his name to the moment of his finish. The man took a very cold shower that night.

Hey again, I know this was short but I hope you forgive me and enjoyed. I'm rusty hahaha
Thanks for taking the time to read