AN: Hello! It's me again! One more chapter after this, perhaps an epilogue if you guys want. I'll leave that up to you in the reviews :) Anyways, hope you like this chapter and as always thanks for reading!
Emma can't remember exactly what went through her mind the minute she heard Spinner's confession. She recalls dropping her jaw at the shocking revelation, but she's not quite sure what happened after. Currently sitting behind the steering wheel of her car, she couldn't tell you how she got there, or where she's going. Nevermind the fact that she had broken several laws of the road. Her brain, seemingly on autopilot, deep down she knew what she had to do. When she reached her destination, she automatically turned off the car, pulled open the handle and stepped out onto the pavement. The once worn down autoshop was now vibrantly covered with a bright blue hue. The very same blue that streaked Sean's forehead on that fateful day when she let herself be consumed by her desire for Sean. A neon sign hung above one of the garages read 'Cameron's Custom Cars', below it sat a much smaller one. Black paint on a scrap piece of wood read 'Residence at Back'.
Navigating her way around the deserted lot, Emma made it to a small black door on the other side of the building. The entryway was adorned with a basic welcome mat and a potted plant that, upon further inspection, turned out to be plastic. She took a step towards the door, her heart racing and palms sweating.
This is it. This is the moment she was waiting for. It was time to confront the love of her life, a moment she had waiting for forever. But when she raised her hand to knock on the door, she just couldn't do it. What if Spinner was lying? What if Ellie answered the door? Dear God, she had completely forgotten about Ellie! How could she forget that Sean had a girlfriend! Besides, even if he didn't have a girlfriend why would he still care about some missing letter from years ago. Maybe it just wasn't meant to be, they've both changed a lot since the times they spent at Degrassi. Sean had moved on, he finally seemed happy. He achieved his dream of owning his own garage, had a girlfriend and somehow got over Emma. Fuck, Sean was right, she really was "too late".
She felt her eyes start to water as she realized not everything works out like in a movie. The world didn't revolve around her, not everything was going to magically fix itself for a happy ending. There was no way she could possibly face him now, she couldn't just waltz in and expect him to drop everything so they could pretend like they were back in High School. Turning back towards her car, she feels the first tear roll down her cheek. When she makes her way back to the entrance of the newly renovated garage, she's greeted by an unknown vehicle. Upon further inspection, she noticed its inhabitants: The boy she's been in love with since the seventh grade and his beautiful girlfriend. Suddenly unable to control the couple tears running down her face from evolving into complete waterworks, her slow pace quickly escalated to a sprint towards her car. If she thought facing him alone would be hard, there was no way she could face him in front of Ellie. They were a reminder of the mistakes she wasn't aware she made.
-O-O-O-
Emma had spent the past year sending letters that were never reciprocated. After nearly breaking into tears anytime she would pour her heart into every letter she wrote, only to have Jay shake his head whenever she would hopingly look up to him. She couldn't put herself through that anymore. Maybe it was time to move on, Sean obviously had. It wasn't the first time he forgot about her when something better came along, you think she would learn something after her tumultuous relationship history.
She stopped writing letters, but Jay kept coming to her apartment once a month to share the news, or lack thereof, of any mail. After another few months, she couldn't stand to see the look of guilt on his face whenever he said there were no new letters. She always wondered why he looked so guilty about not having a letter, despite it not being his fault. Realizing the intense hurt that even looking at his best friend gave her, she wondered how she could ever confront Sean. Before she knew it, she was telling Jay not to come by anymore. Told him that she doesn't care anymore and that when Sean gets back, she doesn't want to hear about it. A clean break is the only option, she couldn't be constantly looking forward to something that wasn't going to happen or being reminded every month that her feelings for Sean were anything but mutual. As she slammed the door in Jay's face, telling him to cancel his monthly visits, she burst into tears. Her back against the, now shut, door, she sunk to the ground as she sobbed. That was the day she promised herself that she would never cry over Sean Cameron again.
-O-O-O-
She had given up on Sean and just assumed that he didn't want her anymore. She should have had more faith in him, or suspect something other than him not wanting to talk to her. But she was young, she let her emotions take control of her and now it was too late. Nearing her car, she wiped some of the tears she swore she wouldn't let control her. Her running becoming gradually more frantic, blocking out the world around her. She just needed to make it to the car and get as far away from the boy she abandoned nearly ten years ago.
Suddenly, there was a hand tugging on her wrist, pulling her back towards the memories and feelings she tried so hard to escape. Whipping her head around, she's greeted by the same blue eyes and deep voice she could never forget.
"Wait!"