You & I

Nine

ELIZA'S POV

What the hell am I doing? Arizona is at my place and I've asked her to stay. She shouldn't be here. We shouldn't be together. Just…I struggle. To pull myself away from her, I struggle. I know deep down that continuing this with Arizona is a mistake, but I don't know how to detach myself from her. I mean, life would've been easy if she'd been a bitch who didn't care about me, but she does…she cares more than anyone in this world ever has. She cares and she made the effort to come here tonight, apologising on behalf of her wife. It takes a special kind of person to do that. At least, that's how I feel.

She's standing in my kitchen, looking unsure, but I feel the same. I feel like the moment I kiss her, touch her, it'll all fall apart again. It's going to happen, I can feel it. I can feel that undeniable fear in the pit of my stomach, churning, the bile almost rising in my throat.

I want to touch her. I want to hold Arizona and never let her go, but I can't. I may have asked her to stay when she was about to leave just moments ago, but now I'm back to the beginning. Feeling unsure. Feeling worthless. Feeling like the cancer victim I'll always be. Survivor or not. The things Suzanna said to me cut deeper than anything any other woman has ever said to me, and I know that's not on Arizona, but the fact still remains…she's her wife and she's never going to allow this to happen.

"Talk to me…" Arizona says, breaking me from my thoughts. "Eliza?" She steps closer but I hold up my hand.

"D-Don't." I shake my head, my voice trembling. "Please, just stay where you are. I can't do this when you're here and looking like that…"

"Looking like what?" She asks, her forehead creasing.

"Gorgeous." I smile. "Like you could be mine."

"I want to be yours." Her voice breaks. "You asked me to stay, Eliza…"

"I know but this isn't right." I drop my gaze. "Suzanna will be here before we know it and I'll be the one left looking like a fool again."

"Those things she said." Arizona's eyes close. "They were unforgivable."

"It's nothing I haven't heard before." I give her a sad smile. "But it's not the reason I was attracted to you. I-I don't want your money, Arizona."

"I know that." She steps closer, her perfume almost causing me to drop to my knees. "I've never thought that."

"But now?" I find her eyes. "Now that she's said it…it'll be in the back of your mind."

"You really think that?" Her voice shaking, Arizona takes my hand in her own. "You think I'm that kind of person?"

"I don't know." I shrug. "It's not like I know anything about you…"

"But does it feel that way?" She laces our fingers together. "When we're alone, in our own world, does it feel like I think of you that way?"

"N-No." I sigh. "I've never felt like that around you."

"Exactly." She gives me a heartbreaking smile. "You know me, Eliza. You know I'm nothing like Suzanna."

"I-I know." I nod slowly. "It doesn't change anything, though."

"Please…" Her eyes hold unshed tears. "Please, don't end this."

"It ended last night, Arizona." I give her a sad smile. "You know how much I wanted this with you, but she's always going to be there. In the background. Giving me fucking hell."

"I won't let that happen…" Her soft fingers curling around the waistband of my sweats, Arizona pulls me in close. "You know I'll always want to be with you…not her."

"This is too hard." Our foreheads press together. "This isn't how I saw my future."

"How did you see it?" Arizona asks, her thumb trailing my bottom lip.

"Alone." I breathe out. "I always thought I'd be alone…"

"You should never be alone." Arizona's eyes close, her lips inching closer to mine. "You…god, you deserve so much, Eliza."

"Being alone is easier…"

"Maybe…" Those blue eyes bore into my soul, her body connecting with the kitchen counter as she steps back. "But I don't do easy, and neither should you."

"Arizona…" Lifting herself up, her ass rests on my counter, silky smooth thighs now resting either side of my body. "T-This has to stop…"

"Everything around us has to stop…" She curls her fingers under my chin as her legs wrap around my waist. "But this? Us? This should never stop."

Fuck. How does she do that? Pull me in time and time again…

"I want to spend every waking moment with you…" Her voice certain, nothing but honesty radiating from her eyes, I find myself entranced with her words. "I want to fall asleep holding you. Protecting you."

"I-I…"

"When I arrive home from work every evening, it's your face I want to see." Cupping my face, my eyes close as I lean into her touch. "That beautiful face…smiling."

"I want that, too," I admit. "I want that more than anything in the world…"

"So, let's just do us." Leaning down, Arizona's lips press against mine. "Fuck the rest of the world. Lock ourselves away forever and just do us…"

"Mm…" It's all I can give her. Her lips are the sweetest thing I've ever tasted. The softest, most enjoyable sensation in this world.

"She knows I'm not playing her games anymore…" Her breath washes over my face. "And if she so much as looks at you ever again, I'll rip her fucking head off."

"You've got me?" I ask, my voice quivering. "For sure?"

"I've so got you." Arizona's lips curl into a smile. "I promise you, Eliza."

My hands settling on her thighs, a low moan rumbles in Arizona's throat as she captures my lips, hard. Slipping them further up, they disappear beneath her dress, her heels pressing into my ass. I'm not sure I've ever witnessed anyone as hot as Arizona Robbins. I mean, this dress? These heels? They're killing me. They're completely ruining my life. In a good way, though.

"Fuck…" I pull back for air, taking my bottom lip between my teeth.

"What do you want, Eliza?"

"Y-You." Her black lace panties on view as my hands disappear up her stomach, my nails drag back down her skin, my fingertips gripping the soft material. Slipping them down a little, Arizona lifts her ass and her panties drop down her legs and to the floor. "Shit…"

"E-Eliza…" She moans, sitting back on her hands.

"Y-You just…" Pressing my lips to her stomach, she shudders and groans. "You drive me crazy." Making my way down, my teeth nip at her hipbone before my mouth drops lower, pressing a kiss to her inner thigh as those gorgeous legs spread.

"Feels so good when your mouth is on me…" Her head thrown back as I glance up, Arizona has her bottom lip firmly between her teeth. "You've no idea…"

Pressing my thumb to her clit, I can feel the heat radiating from her. I can feel the throbbing between her legs and I haven't even touched her. Not truly. Spreading her soaked folds, pure arousal has my mouth salivating. I could survive on Arizona alone and I suspect she knows that. She knows that she only has to look at me in a particular way and I'm a complete mess.

Dipping my head, I lift Arizona's right leg up, her heel now digging into the kitchen counter. "Fuck…" My eyes focusing on her arousal, I've never seen a wetness like it in my entire life. "Shit…" Trailing a single finger up the length of her dripping sex, Arizona hisses in pleasure, her hips lifting slightly.

"E-Eliza, please…" Her tone pleading, a smirk forms on my mouth as I tease her entrance. "Oh, fuck." Her mouth falling open as I dip my finger inside, her walls squeeze me, her orgasm clearly approaching. "Y-Yes, more."

"I wanna taste you…" Blowing gently against her swollen clit, a gasp falls from Arizona's mouth, leaving me feeling pretty damn good about myself. "Mm…" Taking a long, firm lick up her sex, her arousal coats my tongue. "Perfect."

Whimpering, she grips the counter with one hand, desperately trying to gain a little friction. Pushing deeper inside her, I add a second finger and suck her clit into my mouth. I know she's barely hanging on, but that's the effect I always want to have on her. I always want her to crave me like this.

Suddenly removing her dress from her body, Arizona throws it to the floor, my eyes taking in her perfect naked breasts. Honestly, they're the very definition of perfect. Her hardened nipples drawing me in, I release her clit with a pop and trail my tongue up her stomach. Taking a nipple between my teeth, the moan she releases is like music to my ears. Everything about her body is perfect and I wouldn't have her any other way. There is no jealousy for her incredible body on my part, just complete admiration. Lust. Fuck, she's a masterpiece.

"Fuck, I'm close."

The sound of a sudden hammering on my front door, I pull back, my movements stilling but my fingers still buried deep inside Arizona.

"OPEN UP!" More loud banging and the sound of Suzanna's voice putting the fear of God in me, I'm about to slip out of Arizona when she grips my wrist, shaking her head.

"Don't you dare stop." She gives me a knowing look, licking her lips. "I want you to make me scream, Eliza…"

Narrowing my eyes, I know exactly what she's doing. She wants Suzanna to know exactly what she thinks of her. Their relationship. She wants me to make her come hard and I'd love nothing more.

"ARIZONA, I KNOW YOU'RE IN THERE!"

"Baby…" She grips my jaw. "She's my past. She isn't my concern."

Wow…

"You know exactly what I want…how I like it." Pulling me in, Arizona's lips crush into mine, sending a sensation straight to my core. "Now, fuck me like you mean it…"

Pushing deeper, my mouth returns to Arizona's gorgeous breasts, giving them the attention they deserve. "That's it." She moans. "Fuck, right there." Curling my fingers, my thumb rolls over her clit and her back arches, her head falling back on her shoulders. "Fuck, yes."

"Fuck, you're so tight." Struggling to move inside her, Arizona matches my every trust. "And soaked…"

"M-More." She pants. "I want more of you…"

Pushing deep, a third finger slipping inside, Arizona grips the back of my neck, focusing on my eyes. "I-I'm falling for you, Arizona." My words slip out but I'm not concerned. If this is going to end again tonight, I need her to know how she makes me feel. My honesty, it's all out on the table right now.

"I already have." She smiles against my mouth.

"OPEN THE FUCKING DOOR!"

Pounding Arizona hard and deep, all breath leaves her body and her mouth falls open, her jaw almost hitting her chest. Our eyes, they're focused on one another's. Our skin, touching. "S-Shit, I'm coming…"

"Yeah?" I moan. "You feel good?"

"Fucking amaz-" Her words cut off, Arizona's orgasm rolls through her, her body shaking against my counter. "O-Oh, shit!" A scream ripping from her throat, she shudders, slumping against my body. "Eliza, oh god." Her words more of a moan, she holds me close. "Fuck, I need you to never leave me…"

The sound of someone shoulder barging my apartment door, I grip Arizona's body tighter, prepared for whatever is about to happen. "Come with me." Pulling her down from the counter, I drag her into my bedroom, throwing some clothes her way. "Put them on…"

"W-Why?" She smirks.

"Because she may still be your fucking wife, but I won't allow her to see you naked. Not ever again."

"Mm, I like this side of you." Arizona's arms wrap around my waist, her teeth nipping at my ear. "I love all sides of you…but this? Fucking hot."

"We'll continue this later." I whimper, my own sex throbbing, begging to be touched. "I have the small matter of some fucking crazy woman to deal with."

"Let me handle it." She says.

"Nope." Shaking my head, I leave my bedroom. "It's my turn."

Crossing the open plan space, I look through the spy hole, finding Suzanna standing back against the wall and ready to run at my door again. Gripping the handle, I watch her push off the wall and open the door, her body falling through and hitting my floor.

"The hell is your problem?" I furrow my brow, feigning any knowledge of her being here. "Are you always this crazy, or?"

"Where is she?"

"She?" I ask. "Pretty sure she has a name."

"My wife!" She spits, climbing to her feet. "Don't fucking mess with me, Eliza. I'm warning you."

"Oh, what are you going to do?" I laugh. "Insult me with your perfect tits?"

"Where. The. Fuck. Is. She?" Suzanna approaches me but I stand my ground. "You want to go another round, fine!"

"Don't waste your time." Arizona interrupts, leaning against the frame of my bedroom door.

"What the hell was that?" She turns to face Arizona. "Do you have any idea what you did back at the gala?"

"I do, yes." Arizona nods, pushing off the wood and approaching me. "I believe I was telling people the truth."

"I want the entire business." Suzanna spits. "Every last dime."

"Whatever." My blonde shrugs as she wraps her arm around my waist, barefoot with nothing but an oversized shirt covering her body. "Will that be everything?"

"You wouldn't dare hand it all over…"

"Honestly, I couldn't give a single fuck about the business." She laughs. "Without me, it will dive anyway."

"You sound pretty confident." Her wife says, a smirk forming on her mouth. "Is this your way of getting an amicable divorce? An easy way out?"

"You and amicable don't go together, Suzanna." Arizona rolls her eyes. "I've known you long enough to know that this will never end amicably."

"Then what?" She furrows her brow. "You're not prepared to fight?"

"Nope."

"Bullshit!"

"No, it's really not." Arizona picks Suzanna's purse up from the floor and heads for the door. "Now…" She grips the handle and opens it, throwing her purse into the corridor. "Follow your shitty Chanel and get the fuck out of my life."

"You're a fool." She laughs, shaking her head. "And you!" She points at me. "She'll get bored soon enough."

"Goodbye, Suzanna." I roll my eyes, a sudden surge of confidence coursing through me. "It's no surprise she wants out of your relationship." I laugh. "You're one shitty human being."

Stepping towards me, I take a step forward myself and Suzanna flinches. She isn't so tough when someone stands up to her, I realize that now. Had I known that sooner and had I not allowed my own fears to consume me, Arizona and I never would've worried about this day coming.

"I hope you're happy." She focuses on Arizona. "You met me when you had nothing and now you're going to leave me the same way." A look of disgust in Suzanna's eyes, they trail Arizona's body. "I didn't think you were so fucking stupid."

"Nothing?" Arizona laughs, her arm tightening around my waist. "I've got more than you'll ever have."

Watching Arizona's soon to be ex-wife leave my apartment, the door slams shut and I lock up for the evening. I don't know when I became the confident one, but thank god I did. Maybe now, Suzanna will back off and leave us be. Maybe…just maybe, the day will come when I have Arizona completely to myself.

"Well…" I clear my throat.

"I'm staying the night." Arizona grips my tee, pulling me against her. "I'm so fucking staying the night."

"Yeah?" I smile against her lips.

"That…that deserves some incredible sex." She moans into my mouth. "You may just be the hottest woman on this planet."

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