You & I

Sixteen

ELIZA'S POV

Arizona seems better after her dream last night. I can understand why she struggled to sleep after it, but I need her to know that I'm okay. The dreams...they crippled me at one time. That uncertainty as I lay awake after receiving the all clear, worried that they'd missed something, was at times, too much to handle. Some days, I resembled a zombie. When I should've been celebrating and getting back to my normal, I was worn out. I was crumbling, locked away at home.

That was one of the worst times of my life, so I need Arizona to believe that I'm okay. That I plan to remain okay. Of course, words are not enough at times, but that's all I can give her. The only reassurance I have...is my words. I know she wouldn't and doesn't expect me to be there reassuring her, but I have to do it for my own sanity. If I suspect she's holding it all in, it'll be more hurtful to the both of us.

"Hey, so I'm making dinner tonight." Arizona startles me, creeping up behind me and wrapping her arms around my waist. "Anything you want in particular?"

"Surprise me." I glance over my shoulder. "I'm sure anything will be good."

"Mm, you know what looks really good to me?" Her breath tickles my ear, sending a shiver down my spine. "You. Always."

"Real smooth." I laugh. "But if you don't remove yourself from this kitchen, we will never get anything done today."

"Mm, I could do you..."

"Classy." We both laugh, Arizona's face suddenly turning more serious. "What?"

"Nothing." She furrows her brow. "Just wanted to look at you."

"You're okay, though?"

"I am." Arizona smiles softly. "I'm sorry I worried you yesterday."

"You didn't." I take her hand. "But I need you to be okay. If you have things on your mind, I need you to tell me. The dreams won't stop otherwise..."

"How bad were they for you?"

"Bad," I state. "Really bad."

"How did you stop them?" Arizona asks. "I just...I've had more than one."

"Why didn't you tell me?" I pull her in close. "Don't hold it in..."

"This isn't your problem. My dreams are my dreams, Eliza."

"But you are the woman I love and I don't want you upsetting yourself over something that isn't likely to happen."

"I-I know." She drops her gaze. "Sorry."

"Don't apologize." I lift her head, curling my fingers. "Don't ever apologize for caring and being worried." My lips press against hers. "God, I love you."

"I love you, too." Arizona's hand settles on the side of my face, her thumb caressing my cheek. "And I would spend my life lay awake, worrying about you, if it meant that you would be okay…"

"I feel good." My smile widens. "I feel better than I have in as long as I can remember, Arizona. You know why that is?"

"N-No." Her forehead creases.

"Because of you." I give my girlfriend a knowing look. "Because I have you by my side, loving me and making me feel like the only woman in the world."

"You are the only woman in the world." Arizona pulls me flush against her. "In my world, at least."

"I know." I agree. "And I always will be…so, stop worrying and move your hot ass."

"To where?" She eyes me, a smirk curling on those soft pink lips. Lips I could spend my entire life kissing. "Bed?"

"Nice try, Robbins." My hand dips beneath her shirt, my fingertips teasing her skin. "We have plans."

"Fine." My girlfriend groans. "Just…Ugh!"

"Huh? Excuse me?"

"I'm standing in a very quiet house with the hottest woman on the planet…and there is nothing I can do about it." Arizona sighs, backing up and creating a small space between us. "That sucks."

"Oh, no." I hold up my hand, shaking my head. "There is plenty you can do about it…tonight."

"Is that right?" Arizona sinks her teeth into her bottom lip, those cobalt eyes darkening with every breath she takes. "Mm, I can hardly wait."

"Then we should get to it." I gently push her through the kitchen and towards the front door. "You know…" My arms wrap around her waist from behind. "…being here, alone and naked with you, it's all I could ever want."

"Y-Yeah?" Arizona asks, her voice low.

"Mm, so don't ever think differently."

"God, that food was too good." I push my plate away and slump back into my seat.

"Glad you enjoyed it." Arizona simply smiles as she sips on her glass of wine.

Silence falling between us, I glance around her parent's home and smile. This place really is the very definition of home. Comfort. Happy times. This home is the kind of home I always imagined myself growing old in. I know that's not likely to ever happen but to have Arizona sitting across the table from me while I'm having these thoughts, it's mind-blowing. Everything about my life recently has been more than I can comprehend.

"You're thinking…"

"Sorry." I glance back at my girlfriend. "Just admiring this place. It's beautiful."

"Mm, not as beautiful as you." Arizona sits forward, planting her elbows on the table and resting her head in her hands. "Something about you leaves me completely breathless."

"You really have a way with words." I sigh, taking in my girlfriend's remarkable beauty. "And you know exactly when to say things like that."

"The truth." She slips her hand across the table. "Everything I've ever told you is the truth, Eliza."

"I know." I nod, a blush creeping up my neck, our fingers entwining.

"You think I should keep this place?"

"Here?" I raise an eyebrow. "You're thinking of selling your parents house?"

"Six months ago, yes." Arizona shrugs. "I wanted it to go to someone who could build a world of memories here. Me, I had nothing close to that in my life. I was just trying to get through each day with Suzanna."

"And now?"

"Now…" Arizona stands, holding out her hand and pulling me up to my feet. "Now I never want to leave this place…while you're here."

"I think you'd be crazy to give it up." My eyes never leave my girlfriends. "This…it just makes me feel at ease. I don't even live here, and I feel comfortable here. Like I belong." Careful, she'll think you're wanting to stay. "It would be nice to escape here when possible. That's all I'm saying."

"I think you would benefit here." Arizona wraps her arms around my waist. "Being in the city can't be good for our health. Yours more so than mine."

"I don't follow…"

"I want you to always be safe and healthy, Eliza." Soft pink lips ghost over my own. "And if I can help to keep you healthy, we should move out of the city…to here."

"You're not serious." I laugh. "I mean, why would you want to?"

"Y-You don't?" Arizona pulls back, studying my face. "Wow, I got that completely wrong, I'm sorry."

"N-No." I grip her waist. "I just…you want to move out of the city and live here? With me?"

"I'd move to outer fucking space if that was what you wanted."

"Wow, well…" I take a deep breath. "You don't think it's too soon?"

"Possibly." She shrugs. "Maybe."

"And you're not concerned about that?" I narrow my eyes.

"I'm not concerned about anything I may have with you, Eliza." Arizona guides me away from the oak dining table and through the open space. "If you want to be here with me, I'll make it happen. In a heartbeat."

"This isn't me." My voice breaks as we approach the huge window. Arizona's arms are wrapped around my waist from behind and everything feels unbelievably perfect. Too perfect, some may say. I've never been the kind of person who worries about my future, but with Arizona, I do. I do because the thought of one day losing her terrifies me more than anything else I've been through. "None of this is me…"

"Focus your eyes on the darkness." Her hand settles against my stomach. "That, out there, is as peaceful as it gets."

"This, in here, is as peaceful as it gets." I counter. "But I see where you're going with this."

"I always wanted this life," Arizona admits. "Just here…with the woman I love. No interruptions. No worries. I just wanted to live my life here, in love."

"Sounds like the perfect life." I breathe out. "And it's kinda tempting."

"But?" Arizona's lips work the skin of my neck. "You don't want this life with me?"

"More than you could ever begin to imagine…" A whimper slips from my mouth. "It's you I worry about. Whether you really want a life here with me."

"Damn right I do." Arizona's hand slips lower, my reflection staring back at me in the window. "And if we want this life, we can have it. Right now. Tomorrow. A year from now. Whenever you want it, Eliza…you just say the word and I'll give it to you."

"I love you." My breath catches as Arizona's smooth hand slides past the waistband of my sweatpants. "O-Oh." My back arching when she cups my sex.

"I love you, and I want us to move our life here." She whispers against my ear. "No exes. No fighting. No divorces. Just you and I, Eliza."

"Y-Yes." My eyes close and I bite down hard on my bottom lip. Arizona's hands have a magical way of working my body perfectly, but I'm not complaining. How could I? She has me in this position, holding me, but making me throb at the same time. It's like going from one extreme to the other. "Whatever you want, Arizona."

"I want you to be happy." She smiles against my neck, her hand dipping lower and gathering my arousal. "Mm, and I believe you're more than happy right now."

"Mmhmm…" My head falls back on her shoulder. "Hard not to be when I'm alone with you."

"You feel so good beneath my fingers." Arizona grinds against my ass, forcing me forward, my hands now pressed against the window. "If only you knew."

"Tell me…" My head falls between my shoulders. "Fuck, I need you to tell me."

"You feel…" Arizona moans. "…fuck, you feel like heaven." Her pace increasing, she presses her fingertips against my clit that little bit harder. Giving me exactly what I want. "And in this moment, I could come just watching you."

"Oh, god." My eyes close and my mouth falls open.

"But I need more." She suddenly slips my sweats from my legs, dragging them away from my body. "Perfect." She drops to her knees. "Everything you are is so fucking perfect."

"T-Touch me."

"Gladly." Arizona purrs, sending my body into overdrive.

Running her hands up the backs of my legs, my thighs, and spreading them, I can feel my body already falling over the edge. It doesn't take much when Arizona touches me, but this? This is way sooner than I would've liked. I know this evening is going to continue long into the night, but still…I want to savor every minute I spend with her. Every breath. Every touch. I want to appreciate every second I have her in my life, and I don't ever want to miss a single moment.

"This is all for me?" Arizona trails her fingers through my slick folds before bringing them up to her mouth and sucking gently. "Mm…"

"Shit." My stomach tightens at the mere sound of her. "Y-You…oh, god."

"What's that?" She presses a kiss to the inside of my thigh, suddenly plunging two fingers deep inside of me.

"Fuck!"

"Y-Yes." My right hand desperately grabs at the glass in front of me, needing something to keep me grounded. Something that is going to hold me together. "H-Harder." Bending more at the hip, Arizona moans in appreciation and does exactly what I ask. She gives it to me harder and deeper than ever before. "O-Oh!" My hand clenching into a fist, my knees weaken and tremble, unable to hold the weight of my body in this moment. "Arizona…"

"Let go, Eliza." Her free hand weaves between my legs, the tips of her fingers pressing against my swollen clit. "Come for me…"

Relaxing my body, my orgasm courses through me at the speed of light. Every nerve, ignited. Every sensation, heightened. Nothing and nobody in this world has ever got this reaction from me, but Arizona does it so damn well. She does it…and then some.

"You." She presses a kiss to my lower back as she stands. "You are everything and more."

"Whoa." Unsteady as I attempt to stand upright, my girlfriend catches me in her arms and holds me close. "T-That…"

"How about we take this to the bedroom?" She husks, knowing exactly what she is doing to me. "Because quite frankly, I cannot get enough of you…and I'm not nearly finished with you."

"You really want this?" I ask, turning in her arms and looking her straight in the eye. "Here? Us?"

"More than anything." She whispers against my mouth.

"Yes." I smile, feeling a huge weight lift from my shoulders. A weight I didn't know I was carrying. "Sharing a life here with you…just yes."

"Bedroom, now!"

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