I don't own the characters, and the letter in bold are from the song '100 Suns' of Thirty Seconds to Mars.

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I believe in nothing

Chris doesn't know what to think.

He is a traitor, for the camp and for Kronos's army.

Not the earth and not the stars

He is a traitor for his friends, those who left the camp as he did, and for those who stayed at the camp. He is a traitor for those who are destined to roam the earth and fight with monsters to their death, as he is.

He is a traitor for those who never take care for him or his friend: those who live upon their heads, and that never look down.

I believe in nothing

In the labyrinth, he didn't know what to believe.

What was real, what wasn't. All was the same.

Turn to right, he had no more place to go.

Turn to left, he had no more place to go.

Somebody was shouting. It wasn't going to stop.

Somebody was calling for him.

Wait, he was the one shouting.

And nobody was calling for him.

Not the day and not the dark

In the labyrinth, he couldn't differentiate the night from the day.

When he was still insane, he couldn't either.

But, now that he is out of that place of Hades, and in his mind, other things are more important.

For example, which is the right side?

Which is his side?

I believe in nothing

Where does he belong?

To the gods' army?

To the Kronos's army?

But the beating of our hearts

All he can trust is that he is alive now.

He can fix any mistake, any wrong decision.

Because he has another opportunity.

I believe in nothing

But, was it a good decision to follow his heart? He follow it when he left, and he was following it when he decided to stay...

And the gods were doing so many things wrong, that he really thought that they needed to be put in

their place…

One hundred suns until we part

I believe in nothing

The gods deserve to be putting in their place...but, it wasn't a god that cured him, was it?

So, maybe, they care for them, for him. In their own way, but they care after all.

And maybe that place they deserve is not the place Kronos used to thinks.

Not in sin and not in God

It's not until after he followed Clarisse when she has gotten angry because of him commenting that perhaps Percy was right saying she and her cabin needed to fight in the war, that he realized.

I believe in nothing

He doesn't belong to the Kronos's army

He doesn't belong to the gods' army

Not in peace and not in war

He isn't going to the war. Yes, he doesn't want Kronos to destroy the Olympus or the camp, and he wants to help his friend, but he doesn't belong to any army.

Therefore, he is not going to fight for the gods, or against them.

I believe in nothing

For some time, he was really confused. He didn't know what to think, what to believe.

What was right, what was wrong. What was the side he preferred to fight for.

To him, the gods weren't right, they didn't care for their kids, they only remembered them when they need help.

But Kronos's way wasn't right, neither, as he can see now. The titan was just too cruel and selfish.

To him, none of the armies were right.

But the truth in who we are.

But now he knows. He doesn't belong to any army.

Maybe he is still a little confused- but he can say with all security that the only thing that matter to him, the only thing that he believes, is that he is alive.

He is alive and on the right side:

Clarisse's side.

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Forgive me for the long wait, but my life was a big mess, with all of those exams that I had (and that I still have until December, 7-7... ) so I didn't write a lot.

And I know that this one is short, but, there is another one that is longer and just needs to be corrected on the way ;)

Thanks for every review, follow and favorite, and for those who are still reading this!

About the chapter... well, I always wondered what I would do if I was in the same situation that Chris was (you know, he was on the Kronos's army for a reason, and then, he is on the camp one more time, with all his friends, friends that he betrayed, and all that...) and this came to me. All that confusion, repentance, all that indecision.

That is what the chapter is about: That he can't make a decision, that he doesn't know what to thinks, what to believe, but at the end of the day, the only things that he knows, that he believes, is that he loves Clarisse.