Here Goes Everything Chapter 9: Hold on to your past, a south of nowhere fanfic

A/N: Okay I know I'm about to sound like every student who writes fic, but it's hard out here for a student, especially a Dean's list student like myself (dust shoulders off).Anywho,only two more weeks and I'm done for now; However, busy is my middle name so no type of free time but after this update I should be able to get the next one to you guys by next week since it's done. All I have to do is edit it. I want to thank all of those who haven't messed reviewing a chapter...you gals are the reason I continue to write :). I know I been slacking on my PM Pals but I have not forgotten you... I will reply as soon as I pass this math final. Well I hope you gals enjoy this chap as much as I enjoyed writing it. Shout out to my Beta! ;)

How I Met Her Mother

Hold on to your past. Don't let it hold on to you
*Spencer*

"Can you just put Clay on the phone?!" I drop my forehead into my hands.

"Okay? But I'm staying on Skype." He smiles like a little kid taunting their older sibling.

"You know what I mean Glen, can you please hand Clay the laptop? I need his advice on something." I blow out a puff of air.

"Oh trouble in paradise?" He winks. I shake my head wishing he was in person so I could punch him right now. "Where is the little lady anyway?" He gets closer to the web cam looking around then sits down.

"She's on the roof with mom-"

"Oh my God Spence you sent Ash to murder mom? We just lost dad do you really want to off another parent?" His smile widens.

"You are sick you know that?" I question this time moving my face closer to the webcam.

"Yeah maybe but all the girls love me." He smiles and nods slowly. "You might as well tell me what's going on Spence because I'm not getting off Skype until you do." He folds his arms across his chest getting comfortable in his seat.

"Fine!" I huff slamming back into the coach.

"Ashley and I are having some real problems and I am digging myself into a bigger hole. I don't mean to it's just every time mom questions me about my love life I get angry and say really horrible things. Ash is great and pretty forgiving but there's only so much a person can forgive. I want to apologize but I just can't bring myself to do so. I think deep down inside I know I don't deserve it. I'm not even sure if I deserve her." I finish all in one breath before dropping my head down.

"Spence why don't you just tell mom the truth? It's not like she can send you away."

"She can end up going away." I say in a whisper.

"Huh?" He questions with a confused look on his face. He clearly didn't hear me.

"You're one to talk. Mom doesn't even know you moved in with Clay to save money because you pretend to be well off. Plus the fact you been working at the abortion clinic for six years. You don't dare to tell mom because you know how she is. Why must I tell her my secret?"

"First off all I do is paper work at my job and second your secret is a person and people don't like to be kept in the dark."

"Whatever." That's all I got as I roll my eyes.

"You better start acting right before Ashley throws you back in the sea." He puts his hand behind his head and leans back.

"We wouldn't want that because that would make me free to date your girlfriend." I lick my lips and smile.

He leans forward fast "Spence you-you need to stop playing." He stutters out.

"I have to go Glen mom and Ash are coming. Bye." I close the laptop faintly hearing him scream 'quit playing.'

"Oh my, it's such a beautiful view up there." My mother expresses. "I don't know about you two but I am beat. I had a great time today at the Promenade and then seeing the roof. Now I am going to take a hot shower and go to bed." She grabs her pjs she laid out on the couch and walks to the bathroom.

"Spence?" Ashley calls me while looking at her phone.

"Yes?" I reply.

"Why is Glen talking about keep you away from his girlfriend?" I giggle and reach for her hand that she pulls away. "What are you doing?" She looks up giving me a glare that tears me apart.

"I thought- I thought." I stop because I don't know what to say.

"You thought what? You think because we shared a few weak smiles and held hands to a song that made me feel nostalgic that all the issues between us have gone away? Spence today you didn't just deny us you denied love like you have a vendetta against it or something." She shakes her head. "How can your mother respect us if you don't?" I see the tears begging to fill her eyes and I feel like less of a woman.

"It's been a long day." She stops to catch her breath as her lips tremble. "I am going to go in what's now my room and wait until your mother gets out the shower to take one." She wipes the tears that are now falling freely down her cheeks.

I wrap my arms around myself as I drop down to my knees and sob into my shirt. "Hey you…up there." I sob out. "I know you and me haven't been on the best speaking terms with me being upset at you for giving me a mother who takes everything I love away from me." I giggle sarcastically. "Then I became really upset with you for taking away my biggest support…my father." I swallow down my tears. "They say you may not come when we want you but you'll be there on time. Well, I need you now." I wipe away a few tears. "Dear God grant me the strength to tell my mother. I know everything you do is to work in our favor even if we don't see it. But please, I beg you to not let me lose either one of the women I love. Amen."

*Ashley*

"I am excited to see where you work." The older blonde beams from the passenger seat. I return a much smaller smile.

Last night's shower and sleep didn't help at all. I woke up with a bitch of a headache after crying myself to sleep then waking up crying wasn't pleasant either. This morning I was greeted by Spence's puffy eyes offering a bagel and fruit. This meal would be ideal for most...not Spence and I. I don't know what's becoming of us all I know is I don't like it.

"We're here." I announce pulling my car up to one of three parking spaces. One for me, my manger, and the codes marshal, who happens to be my ex. I roll my eyes at the thought of her visits.

She always wants me back and at this rate I might just consider it. What the hell am I thinking? I love Spence just having some rough times that's all. It will get better right?

"Ash are we going in?" The older blonde snaps me out of my thoughts.

"Oh yes." I jump out of my seat.

We walk in the café from the back entrance and Spence offers to give Paula a tour, knowing I need a second with my best girlfriend.

"Hey… sexual chocolate." I let the words roll off my tongue finishing it with my signature smirk.

"Ash you are crazy.' She giggles. Mmmm, that enticing giggle that made me hook up with her in the first place.

10 years earlier

"I think I like girls." I say wiggling my toes in the pool. I always come to the school pool to talk to my best girl whenever I'm feeling down and with parents like mine… that's often.

"Really? Why?" she questions placing her cheek against her shoulder.

I shrug my shoulders. "I don't know it's just every time I'm around them I want to lick their face."

"Ewww." She pushes my shoulder causing me to fall into the pool

"Oh my god Ash are you ok?" She giggles and I cross my arms and pout. "Don't pout; you know it's irresistibly cute."

"Really?" I cheese hard "Help me." I reach my hand for hers.

"Ok, but don't pull me in Ash." She pleads.

"I won't. How could you think I would do such a thing?" I mock offense

She gives me her hand and I start to step out. I stop before I get all the way out giving her a devilish grin as I bite my lip. She starts to shake her head as she mouths 'no, no, no' and I pull her in.

"Ash! You promised." She whines while splashing me.

"I had my fingers cross." I say through a giggle while splashing her back.

"You don't mess with a black girl's hair." She splashes me again and I splash her back. "Wait, wait I got something in my eye."

"Stay still let me get it." I open her eye a little and begin to blow in it. "How does that feel?"

She opens it slowly. "Fine."

"Fine?" I lick my lips.

"Fine." She swallows the lump in her throat as we continue to stare at each other.

I move closer to her causing her to back up until she can't any more. "Chelse?" I look at her lips then back in her eyes.

"Yeah." She mimics the action.

"Do you like girls?" We stare hard into each other and I hope she says yes because it's taking every ounce in me not to take every ounce of her.

She begins to breathe heavy while I hold my breath. She slides her hands out the water up to both sides of my face then kisses me.

We're lying by the side of the pool wrapped in each other's naked wet skin while facing each other.

"I definitely like girls." I lick her face.

"Ewe Ash" She makes a yuck face.

"So what… you don't like me?" I tease.

"You're alright." She giggles.

"You weren't saying that a few minutes ago." I slide my tongue ring against her ear lobe.

"Ash?" She says my name soft and slow as she runs her finger across my jaw line.

I close my eyes "Mhm?" I moan.

"Maybe we should get dressed." She smirks. "You think the clothes are dry yet?" She wiggles her brows.

"You're such a tease." I open my eyes giving her a wide grin.

She shrugs."Maybe but I can please too." She winks.

I look her up and down licking my lips. "That you can Ms. Lewis. That you can." I smirk.

"I'll go check on our clothes." I stand up watching her watch me as she nibbles her bottom lip." Then you're coming home with me." She looks away getting lost in her thoughts.

"You can't stay inside the school's gym forever. I joke but when she doesn't response I become serious."You know my mom's never there anyway." She nods looking in the opposite direction.

"What about Aiden?" She questions softly finally looking at me.

"What about him?" I retort as if I have a bad taste in my mouth.

"He is your boyfriend." She rolls her eyes.

"I'm not seeing the problem." I quirk a brow.

"I don't know Ashley" She looks nervous as I hand her her shirt that still damped.

"Do you regret what we did?" I rub the back of my neck becoming a bit nervous myself. She shakes her head.

"Never." She gives me a reassuring smile.

Chelse and I were always down to do any and everything. I think it's because we shared the same birthday and zodiac sign. Everything was great between us. Well, until I started getting sick in the mornings.

"We can't be together." I whisper.

"What?!" She shouts.

"I-"

"You what?!'

"I'm pregnant, damaged goods." I blurt out in one breath. She pauses for a second clearly drowning in my words.

"How did this happen?" She questions still at a lost.

"It must of happen when he stuck his di-"

"Hey!"

"Sorry." I say in a small voice staring at my Chucks. "Aiden and I had sex for the last three days before me and you did our first time." I breathe out dropping my head becoming drained from the thought. "I felt if I continue to sleep with him maybe I'd start feeling for him what I feel for girls…that never happened." I smile at her "Especially when what I feel when even thinking about you is more than I ever felt near him. That's why I ended it when we got together but-"

"But, you can't end this" She says in a small tone finishing my thought while place a hand on my stomach.

"Then we're going to have a baby." She smiles. I look at her with eyes of disapproval shaking my head.

"No. I can't ruin three lives." She looks hurt and I hate that I'm the cause.

"What?! That is not your decision to make!" Tears start to build in her eyes.

"Yes it is. This last month has been great Chelse…but maybe that's where it stops." I walk away not daring to look back.

End FlashbackI didn't see Chelsea again until she came in the cafe looking for a manger's position. It was so great to be near her again. We would mess around between girlfriends, she was great at helping me get over an ex. Chesle and I loved screwing each… we just weren't in love with each other.

"Hey vanilla vixon." She giggles bringing me out my thoughts. "What brings you by?" she questions raising a brow.

"What? I can't stop in to see my favorite girl?"

"Hmmmm." She lifts her eyebrow even higher."You never stop in the café between Christmas and New Years. What's going on?" She crosses her arms in front of her chest waiting for me to continue.

I let out a deep breath. "It's Spence-"

"What has that she devil done now? I always knew she didn't deserve you. Do I have make her disappear-"

"Chelse woosah!" I inhale lifting both hands above my head before exhaling while bringing them together down in front of my face all the way to my stomach. She softens a little shaking her head and I smile. "Now can I finish?"

"No" She rolls her eyes while crossing her arms over her chest.

"Really? You ask me what's wrong then when I try to tell you-"

"Ok fine. Tell me"

I give her a big grin that always makes her soften up. I tell her everything that has been going on between Spence, Paula, and I.

"So let me get this straight you are allowing your girlfriend who you support finically, emotionally, and lay a good pipe have her mother come in control your life?" She smacks her lips

"Lay the pipe down… really?" I raise a brow.

"Don't act like you don't talk about your tongue and strap as if it's a dick." She rolls her eyes. "All lesbians do." She adds starting to laugh.

"I plead the fifth." I choke out through a giggle.

She stops laughing and becomes serious again. "Seriously Ash what are you thinking?"

"Me?" I point to myself shocked.

"Yes you." She points at me. "Spence might be fucked up for treating you like shit but you are allowing her too."

"I don't know. I love her and I want to support her-"

"Bull shit." She cuts me off harshly. "That woman doesn't need support what she needs is a reality check."

"Maybe you're right, but the song came on and I crumbled." I sigh placing my forehead on my folded arms on the counter.

"What song?"

"The one I love by Lighthouse?" I lift my head up to show off a smile.

"Lighthouse?" She gives a confuse look.

"Yeah you know. 'Hanging by a Moment'?"

"Oh you mean Lifehouse?" I lift myself all the way up.

"No I mean Lighthouse." She grins.

"Then you mean wrong boo. Look." She shows me the playlist on her phone." I look at it

"I'll be damn. All this time I thought it was Lighthouse." I shake my head in disbelief. "What the fuck is a Lifehouse anyway?" I question. She looks off in the distance clearly thinking about
it.

"It's that place where people grow they plants right?" I laugh a little at her reply.

"Girl, that's a greenhouse." I say laughing hard and she joins in.

"Then I don't fucking know." She says through her giggle. I always love talking to my best girl since Spence is anti profanity it's nice to have someone to freely curse with.

"What the fuck you thinking about?" She teases.

"You've been around me too long." I smirk at her

"Care to explain what you mean by that?"

"You never cursed until you started hanging around me and it got worse when you started working here."

"Whatever bitch." She rolls her eyes. "You are not getting off the hook that easy by confusing me with band names." I laugh and shake my head.

"Seriously Chelse, I'll never be able to listen to that song the same. I use to image the band on a boat heading to a lighthouse when I heard it. I look off into the distance as if I'm picturing it. "I can't imagine them heading to a lifehouse. I don't know if you need a boat to get there or what the hell it is." I try to hold in my laugh but fail miserably.

"Shut the fuck up!" She falls back against the bar. "I can't breathe." She places her hands on her knees continuing to laugh before she becomes serious again. "Really Ash if you won't tell mother and daughter to get their selves together…I will." She gives me her 'I'm not fucking around look'

"No, no that's fine I'll just grab a few containers of rice cream to go and be on my way."

"Hold up. You usually take one container and be fine until Jan 2." She narrows her eyes while twisting her lips.

"Yeah about that…" I stretch the word before biting my lip.

"Oh hell no! Now mother- mooch- a lot is eating your food." She starts taking off her earrings.

"Really, mother- mooch- a lot? Where do you get these things?" I smirk trying to calm her.

"I guess I have been around you too long." She places her earrings in front of her and smiles.

"I toss my hair back then dust off my shoulder. "I do rub off on people."

Her smile disappears as soon as it came and she looks pissed again.

"Please relax. I don't need to break up a fight right now." I try and plead with her.

"Fine." She says placing two containers of rice cream in front of me.

"Fine?" I bite my lip picking them up.

'Fine." She giggles.

"The café is really lovely." The older blonde pats my shoulder

"Thank you." I look over to Chelsea who's giving Paula and Spence the death stare. "Let's go." I try to push them along.

"Wait Ash I haven't met your friend." She looks at Chelsea

Bad move-

"Hello I'm Paula, Spence's mom." She puts her hand out and Chelsea takes it with a smile.

Okay maybe this won't be so bad.

"Hi I'm Chelsea and I love pussy." She stretches the word and all our mouths drop. "What's your diet of choice?" She smirks. Paula continues standing there with no words.

I snap out of it. "Okay lets go." I remove Paula's hand from Chelsea's pushing her and Spence towards the door.

"Ashley." I hear a voice from behind me.

"Yes-"I turn around to stand there mirroring a deer in headlights. "Helen Houston." I say slowly.

"In the flesh." She gives me a wicked grin.

"Ash are you coming?" Spence asks and when I face her I see the worry in her eyes.

"You can go and I'll have one of the girls give me a ride back. Can you take this" I hand the rice cream to her and turn back to face Helen as I faintly hear Spence and her mom walk out.

"Ash you look like you've seen a ghost" Her grin widens

"It's been a long time Helen." I cross my arms.

"Too long." She licks her lips seductively.

"What are you doing here Helen?" I narrow my eyes.

"What? No smile for an old friend?" I scrunch my face. "Is it a crime to come in for some tea?" She giggles "Of course it isn't. I'm a lawyer so I should know."I roll my eyes.

"You hate tea and the only water you drink is FIJI." I narrow my eyes at her.

"Why so serious Ash?" I raise a brow. "Maybe I wanted to see you."

"Why?" I scoff.

"Why do you have to play so tough?" She comes closer to me and I hold my breath. I don't know why but I can't seem to breathe regularly with her this close. "We both know if you get into any trouble you'll drop my name like it's hot." I stifle a smile.

"Is that a smile trying to form?" I remember you use to smile all the time." She winks.

'That was then this is now." I roll my eyes.

"I would think you would have a smile from ear to ear with those two blonde beauties that just walked out of here" I suck my teeth. "Who were they anyway?" She questions with a sense of awareness in her tone.

"That's none of your business." I spit at her.

"Whoa…down tiger." She rubs her finger against my clenched fist. I shake my head while giggling in disbelief.

"Now that's the smile I'm used to." She smirks.

I quickly wipe the smile off my face. "What's the real reason you're here Helen?

"What do you mean?" she fakes ignorance.

"I know you well enough to know you only make an effort when you want something. I also know you love your espresso and that's why you have a top of the line machine at home."

"It's nice to be known." I roll my eyes. "Okay you got me. I'm retiring and finally have time for a love life." She lets out a deep sigh.

"Ok." I say in a 'whatever tone'.

"I miss you Ashley and I want you back." She gives a smile I'm not used to…a nervous one.

"Well that's too bad because the two ladies that walked out of here are my girlfriend and her mother."

She puts her head down and shows a look I never seen on her face before…defeat. " How does it feel?" she says in a low tone.

"How does what feel?"

"Finally having a girlfriend to be out and open with?" She lifts her eyes to mine. I lick my lips and look away.

"Ash?" She calls me and I can hear the smile in her voice.

"Her mother doesn't know about us." I say disgusted

"Excuse me?" She perks up even more.

"My girlfriend's mother doesn't know me and her daughter are together Helen." I say her name harshly.

Her face lights up the way it does when she has just found that small piece of evidence that will help her win an impossible case.

"Funny the 20 year old I used to know had so much more spunk then the 26 year old that's standing in front of me." She shakes her head. "You let love soften you." She rubs her finger across my bruise. "Love has made you strong in some areas but weaker in others." She comes closer to my ear. "Baby Dyke."

2 years and six months earlier

"When are you going to acknowledge that this is my room also?" I pull her closer to me.

"Ummm never. We are roommates and roommates don't share a room or bed."I lean back and laugh.

"I don't know what's so funny?" She pouts and I kiss it away.

"Babe did you not just hear what you said?"

"What?" She questions with the cutest wide eyes and agape mouth.

"Awe you are the cutest." I kiss her cheek. "Babe look around." I widen my arms for emphasis. "We are naked in the same bed in the same room. I don't think roommates do this sort of thing. I place my finger to my chin and look up at as if I'm thinking. She playfully smacks my finger away.

"Shush." She crosses her arms, huffs, and pouts. Giving me her knock out brat combo. I giggle

"Babe I didn't say nothing." I steal a hint of her lips.

"You didn't have too. I know you very well Ms. Davies." She rubs her nose against mine and smiles.

"Do you Mrs. Davies?" I wiggle my brows and her smile widens.

I lay back and she rests her head on my breast. I moan at the touch of her fingers on my abs down to my V-cut. She makes circles across my pantie line. I bite my lip closing my eyes as I enjoy her soft strokes.

"Are you trying to get something started?" She lifts her head and gets on top of me.

She starts straddling me placing her hands on both sides of my head. She gives me a flirty smile I reach up and pull her unruly hair she moans at the touch. She wiggles out my grips and dips her head to start kissing down my breast, stomach, then brushes her lips against my bruise. I stiffen opening my eye at the contact of her lips on my bruise. She notices my discomfort and kisses her way back up to my breast and stops to look at me.

"Baby?" She tilts her head.

"Yes babe?" I smirk at her.

"Why do you always tense up when I get near your bruise?"

"Because it's ugly." I turn my face away from hers.

She begins to kiss on the side of my neck and I smile and turn back to face her. "Stop it you know that's my spot." I roll my tongue ring against my bottom lip.

"How can it be ugly when it's apart of you?" Her face is the most serious I've ever seen it. "It may have come from an ugly place but it's nothing to hide."

"Babe can you just let it go?" I whine.

"No, Ashley we been together for six month and every time it comes to your bruise you get insecure. I smile hard at her.

"What?" She furrows her brows together.

"So we're together now?" She rolls her eyes.

"I'm willing to bet you if we go out with your bruise showing you will get as much attention as you do when it's not."

"A bet huh?" She raises a brow knowing I'm up to no good."Since I'm a gambler what is the wage?" I question with a wide grin.

"Hmmm. If I'm wrong I finally let you strap me anally." My eyes widen in excitement. "But if I'm right I get to do you."

"O00o0, so it's a win win? Deal!" I wiggle my brows and she shakes her head.

After getting showered, dressed, and traffic we're finally walking from the parking lot to the sand of Venice beach. I wipe my right hand on my shorts and inwardly apologize to Spence who's holding my left sweaty hand. If it wasn't for the purple backless sleeves halter showing my bruise I would think I look good in my H&M gold short shorts, with my purple Coach shoes with gold shoe strings.

"Ugh! Why are we here?" I whine. No one comes to the beach in January. She looks around before looking back at me.

"Do you not see all these people?" She waves her arms for emphasiis and I roll my eyes. "Okay I'm going to sit over there." She points to table outside of small food shack. I hold on tighter to her hand. She looks into my nervous eyes before kissing me on the lips. "You'll be fine baby. I don't want to cock block."

"Clam jam." I smiles which she gladly return.

Before Spence could even sit down a girl on her beach cruiser brakes so fast to talk to me she almost flips over.

I decide to relieve Spence from her post after telling the tenth girl in twenty minutes I was happily taken. I give a big smile as I walk over to Spence who's flashing me her pearly whites.

"What did you say to all those girls to make them walk away so sad." She teases as I stop in front of her. I kneel down and grab her hand.

"I said thanks but no thanks because I'm happily taken." She blushes.

"Now why would you say that?" She tilts her head.

"Spence you make me better and only a fool wouldn't want to be with someone who makes them shine…please be mine." I finish with my signature smirk.

"You are such a poet." She teases. Her smile widens and she nods her head "Of course I'll be yours." I grab her out of her seat and spin her around listening to the melody of her laugh play in my ears.

Later that night it was a win win since she let me cash in my part of the bet along with hers.

End of flashback.She takes me out of my thoughts by placing her card in my hand before placing my hand to my chest. She comes close to my ear. "When you're ready to be with someone who knows how to appreciate you." She licks her lips. " You know where to find me." She begins to walk away as I watch. She turns around. "You're girlfriend better wise up because 20 year old Ashley is still in there and she…don't take no shit." She smirks.

Six years Earlier

"Helen I'm tired of this!" I half way shout.

"You don't have to shout." She sips her Scotch. "What's the problem?" She takes another sip.

"This is the problem" I stir my finger in the air in no particular direction. She looks at me continuing to drink her Scotch. "You sleep with me but then you don't care if your friends try to sleep with me too." I shake my head trying to stop the tears that are threatening to fall. She continues to sip her Scotch. "I don't know what I am to you. Am I your client, partner, lover, or your whore?" I stretch out the last word and she continues to sip her Scotch. "Say something." I smack her cup out her hand.

"Baby dyke you just spilled a 30 year old Scotch on a $3000 rug. It's going to cost a bitch to get it out." She says sternly.

"That's all you care about is material." I shake my head. "You're just like my mother." I whisper. "You didn't even say anything after I told you your friend wanted to fuck me right there in her publishing office. What did you do whore me out?" My lips begin to tremble.

"Don't be foolish. However, I don't see anything wrong with giving a little to get a little." She chuckles.

"What the fuck!" I begin to pace the room. "Is that what this is? I point between me and her. She doesn't move a muscle in her face as she stares at me.

"Baby dyke you are the only person I sleep with purely off of desire and not for a benefit. She stands up to pour herself another drink. "I slept with you way before you said you would do business with me or not." She softens. "I wanted you." Her face goes back cold once the words escape her lips.

"Thank you. I feel so privilege." I say sarcastically. She sips her drink

"I had to suck a few dicks to make my way up the ladder; it doesn't make me any less successful or strong. My mouth is an extension of my skills and my pussy is an extension of my talents." She downs the rest of her drink and pours another one.

"That's the difference between us I don't suck dick and when I eat pussy it's only for desire." I begin to pace again. I stop and fold my arms as I look at her. "I don't even think I'm going to take the publishing deal." I begin to pace again.

"Don't be stupid she thinks you are an amazing writer. I sent her an email of your work and she pushed to meet with you ahead of people who've been waiting for months because of how much she believes in your work. She wanted you as a client before she even seen you." She gulps her Scotch. "Once she did see you she let her pussy control her. Ash you've been running Egocentric for a year and a half now you should know better than anyone women lose their good sense when it comes to you." She downs her second drink and turns her back to me to pour another.

"I don't want to be your secret." I shout and she stops pouring to look at me. "Either we're doing this for real or not at all." I say firmly. She doesn't acknowledge me. She just continues to pour her drink.

She finally faces me "I am a black and Italian women in a men's game. I can't add lesbian to the equation." She takes a gulp of her third drink.

"I'm not saying come out to the world but at least to your close friends." A tear escapes my eye. "At least give a damn if your friends try to fuck me." I shout. "At least act like you care if you lose me." I whisper the last part. She downs her last drink and stumbles to her chair before flopping down saying nothing. I walk off coming back with my purse in hand.

"What's that?" She slurs then hiccups.

"Here's ten percent of the money you invested into the café to start it. I'll have the rest to you soon as I can." I place the check on her table. I go pack my bags and grab my jacket.

"Where are you going?" She asks as I walk out the bedroom with my bags in hand towards the door.

"Since you're never at the café or care enough to ask me how my day was. My days have consisted of me having an apartment built on top of the lounge… and it's finally done." She just smiles like a damn fool.

"That's alright she'll be back. Another Quaalude and she'll love me in the morning." She quotes Scarface. I continue walking out the door.

I turn to look at her. "I'll send payments to your back account until it's paid off. I close the door faintly hearing her giggle.

End of Flash back.

Ugh! I flop on the stool in front of Chelse.

She continues drying off the coffee mug in her hand not paying me any mind. I groan again and she giggles.

"Is something bothering you?" She puts down the mug and picks up another one to dry.

"That was Helen." I pout.

"No shit, really?" I nod my head yes. "Wow, she's been lurking around here for weeks. I figure she was looking for you but I just thought she was another groupie." She puts down the mug and picks up another one.

"Ugh! I paid her off two years ago through her bank account so I wouldn't have to see her ass again."

"So why is hot tamale here?" I raise a brow at her. "Hot tamale I'm sweating." She begin to dance.

"Please stop… I'll tell you." I try to control my laugh.

"Spit it out!" She playfully rolls her eyes.

I let out a heavy sigh. "She wants me back. I know she knew I had a girlfriend because she is not one to not do her research." I nod slowly.

"You have to respect a woman who knows what she wants." She teases.

I cross my arms in front of my chest and pout. "Too little too late."

"When is it going to be too little too late with Spence?" She grabs another mug.

"Seriously Chelse?" I whine.

"I'm just saying."

"Well don't. You are supposed to be my best girl and make me feel better…you're slipping." She puts down the mug that's now dry and places the towel over her shoulder. She leans next to my ear.

"I can take you upstairs and we can…mmmm reminisce." She pulls back licking her lips. I smirk hard at her.

"I have a girlfriend."

"So?"

"You have a girlfriend." I roll my eyes at the thought. She shrugs.

"You never forget your first." She winks. I smirk even harder before biting my lip.

"How is the slut anyway?"

"She's not a slut." She rolls her eyes and picks up another mug." When are you going to stop hating her?"

"I don't understand why you stopped? She made our lives hell and you said she was worse when I left."

"She still was figuring herself out Ash. She was just projecting her self- hate on us." She gives a small smile.

"I still don't like her."

"Let's not get on girlfriends we don't like." She counters. I tilt my head to the side and let out a deep sigh. She stares at me a bit before twisting her lips. She smiles.

"What you smiling about?" I smirk. "Stop thinking about me naked Chelse." I scream causing everyone to look at us.

"You're an ass." She tosses the towel at me and I catch it.

"You love me. I give her a toothy smile.

"Anyway, before you decide to be an ass I thought of something to make you feel better."

"Chelse, I told you I have a girlfriend."

"Not that." She walks over to her phone that's connected to the café speakers.