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How I met Her Mother
Mather-mares
*Ashley*
I remove my face from the pillow and lay on my back as I touch my stained cheeks. I close my eyes wishing today was a nightmare instead of reality but whishes don't always come true. After a moment of lying there I decide to sit up and walk to the dresser. I take out my pen and writing pad then start a poem.
Forget Me
I want you to know
one thing.
If little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.
If suddenly
you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.
I place my pen on my pad and lay my head at the foot of the bed. I lift up my legs, wiggling my toes as I stare at them. I sigh heavy dropping my feet. I grab the pen placing it in-between my teeth thinking of my next lines. I turn the page and begin to write something else.
Taste
My throat is so dry it begins to crack as it burns. I reach for my water to cool it sadly the wetness that guides across my lips never reaches my lungs….maybe that's why I can't breathe. I sip my tea and I feel the steam from the heat yet my insides still feel cold. I miss the taste that use to fill every part of me. Love use to taste so sweet now all I taste is bitter drops of empty.
I throw the pad against the wall watching the pen fly in opposite direction. I cover my mouth and eyes with my hands before screaming into them. I lie on my stomach thinking of the events from earlier today wondering if love really is enough. I yawn before turn back on back and begin to feel my body melt into the sheets.
*Spencer*
"You and Ashley doing ok?" She question as I walk into the living room.
"No mom we're not." I look her straight in her eyes. "What is wrong with you?" I half way shout.
"Excuse me? You better watch your tone young lady."She orders firmly.
"You are a guest in this house yet you come in here disrespecting everyone and everything. You stole Ash's French Toast and then her car. What kind of person does that?!" I shout at the top of my lungs. My body is shaking I have never talked back to my mother let alone yell at her.
"I didn't know you would be so upset." She spits with no sign of remorse in her tone.
"Are you serious?!" I squat down then bounce back up. "You are about to come between me and my girlfriend." Tears are falling freely now.
"You mean your friend who happens to be a girl… right?" She asks uncomfortably.
"No mother my girlfriend, lover, person I am sleeping with." She holds her chest.
"Spencer. I can't breathe." I roll my eyes.
"Can you stop being so dramatic for once?" I shake my head.
"Spence I can't do this anymore." I turn around to see Ashley with a packed suitcase in her hand.
"Baby wait no! I told her about us don't go!" She shakes her head.
"Too little too late." She whispers. I hold on to her leg. "Ashley no." She drags me until I lose my grip. She's out the door. I stand up to run after her but I fall back because I am being dragged by my hair from the living room to the hallway.
"You are not gay! You hear me?!" My mother yells in my face. She begins to spit on me as she pulls me across the floor. I close my eyes to shield them from all the spit. She wraps my hair around the bed post and begins hitting me in the face. I start to scream for my girlfriend who's far from here by now.
"Ashley! Ashley! Ashley!"
I shoot up from the bed.
"Ashley!"
"What's going on?!" My mom sits up next me clearly startled.
"Oh my God it was just a dream." I whisper while holding my chest.
"Huh?" My mom asks while nodding off.
"Nothing." I give a small smile even though she can't see it with her eyes completely closed. "Go back to bed." I whisper gently pushing her back down. Once her head touches the pillow I hop out the bed to walk to Ashley's room.
Once inside I stop at the wall by the door and watch her sleep. She's so beautiful I smile as I listen to her light snoring. She swears she doesn't snore but I think it's the cutest thing along with her drooling. I slide down the wall and wrap my arms around my knees. As I think about how bad things are.
Earlier that day
I walk out of Ashley's room to look at my mother who's giving me a look I can't quite read. I go to the kitchen and pour some bleach and water in a bucket. Once the bucket is full I place the rag inside. I wring out the rag and begin wiping the already spotless counter. I have been cleaning nonstop since my mother's got here.
"Spencer?" She calls me and I continue to dip my hand in and out of the water wringing the rag out in the process. "Are we going to talk about this?" Her voice begins to sound shaky.
I throw the rag in the bucket and grab the broom and dust pan. I begin to sweep around her feet as she stands in the middle of the kitchen floor.
"Waffle?" I feel my whole body tense up as my face turns red.
I turn around so fast making her step back. "Don't call me that." I grit my teeth." How dare you stoop so low to use his word." I shake my head as tears sting my eyes. I will not allow myself to cry because of her. I close my eyes and breathe in deep.
"I'm sorry I just needed to get you to talk to me."
"Mom you can't keep doing things and ignoring how it will affect other people just to get your way." I shake my head.
I dump out the garbage in the dust pan inside the trash before putting it beside the broom. I go to the sink to fill up another bucket with water and bleach before I place a mop in and start to mop around her feet.
She walks out the kitchen to the living room. "Did you really walk across my clean floor dragging water marks into my living room?"She looks at me with a small smile. "I'm sorry."
I say in a low voice.
She sits on the couch and pats the seat next to her. I mop the areas she walked across before putting the mop and bucket up. I go sit down next to my mom and let out a heavy sigh.
"You want to tell me what's wrong?" She crosses her legs placing her folded hands on her knees.
"Please don't treat me like a patient." I give her a sad look.
"You know I don't have patients… just case studies." She teases
"Mom." I say in a sad tone giving her an even sadder look.
"Okay. I'm sorry." She gives a weak smile.
"I don't know how to feel about you leaving me with a stranger like I mean nothing to you." A single tear escapes my eye and I hate myself for it.
"Spence. I don't know what to say. I honestly don't know why I do the things I do sometimes. She places her hand on my knee. "Is that all that's bothering you?" She's giving me a 'you can tell me anything look'. I open my mouth but close it just as fast and look away shaking my head at myself.
"Yeah that's it." I lie not even looking at her.
"I'm so sorry honey. I never meant to make you feel as if you meant nothing to me. You mean everything to me." She turns my face to face her. "I am truly sorry for my behavior." She starts to cry softly that turns into heavy tears. I look at her not sure what to feel towards her tears or apology for that matter.
We sit in silence the rest of the day with me on one side of the room with my psychology book and her on the other side with hers. I keep staring at Ash's door hoping she comes out, but she never does.
End of Flashback
I sit there holding onto my knees tighter watching her sleep. After a countless amount of time I finally decide to get up and leave.
*Ashley*
I lift up from the bed rolling my neck back trying to get out all the tension. I grab my right arm with my life placing it across my chest stretching it out before switching arms and doing the same. I lean my head back and let out a heavy sigh before standing up and walking into the living room.
"Hey Ashley." She smiles at me and if looks could kill she would be lying where she's standing. How dare she think it's ok to speak to me as if last night didn't happen.
She clears her throat before looking behind me "Hey honey." I look out the corner of my eye to see Spence walking next to me. She is slowly shuffling towards her mom with her hair all over her head making non audible noises.
I decide to continue to move next to where Spence is and have a seat. Once Spence and I are on the stools next to each other staring at Paula at the other side of the bar she smiles brightly.
"I realize I was out of line for last night, so I woke up early to get us breakfast." She places one empty bowl with a spoon in front of Spence then one in front of me before pouring cereal and milk into them.
I look at her shaking my head. I'm used to having gourmet meals for breakfast before she got here. Now she's trying to make things better with cereal? I roll my eyes at the sad excuse of a gesture.
"This is just a little something until my surprise gets here." Her smile spreads across her face.
I put my head down staring at the bowl. I can't deal with any more Paula surprises.
"This is a good one I promise." She tries to assure us as if she can read my thoughts or maybe its Spence's 'Night of the Living Dead' facial expression.
After watching my once crispy frosty flakes turn into saggy unrecognizable shapes of their former selves. I stop swirling my spoon in my bowl of untouched cereal and go take a shower and get ready for whatever this day brings.
"Not hungry?" She asks and I scream jumping back holding my chest and she giggles at my dramatic behavior.
"OMG Spence! Why are you waiting by the bathroom door?" I ask with my hand still over my chest.
"My mom went to her Spa day and at first I thought about joining you, but I wasn't sure if I was still welcome to so, I decided waiting for you to get out is the next best thing." She gives a small smile.
"You didn't think to wait for me by the couch or something?" I walk past her towards my room to put my dirty clothes away and I can see her face fall. I turn around and give her a small smirk that she returns with a soft smile.
I walk out of the room and sit Indian style on the couch facing the empty cushion next to me that she fills. We are staring at each other softly watching our brows moves, lips twitch, and chests lift and fall with every breath. I swallow deeply before licking my lips and she follows suit. I clear my throat before getting up and grabbing two herbal waters. I walk back to my spot on the couch and sit back the way I was before handing Spence one of the waters.
"Thank you." She says softly never easing her stare.
"You're welcomes." I reply with my eyes still on hers as I open my bottle of water and take a sip as I continue to stare back.
We take turns taking sips of our water as we stare at each other. Once I get to the bottom of my bottle. I sigh and close my eyes as I try to think of a way to cut the awkward tension. Once I open my eyes I'm greeted by a pair of nervous blue ones that don't look like they have blinked once. I exhale deep before scrunching my nose to my lip before I spit out.
"Ewww Spence are you going to take a shower?" I fall back from the blow of the pillow connecting to my face.
"Shut up you jerk!" She screams over me with her hands around my neck. "Imma kill you." She gets out through her giggle.
"Not unless your breath does it first." I barely get out because I'm laughing so hard. Spence leans back and pokes out her bottom lip while placing her hands across her chest. "Awe." I lean in and kiss her pout away."
I've kissed Spence's pouts away a countless number of times but this time it's different because so much has come between us that even the smallest kiss seems strange. I lean back and she does the same before uncrossing her legs and heading to what use to be our room.
Things are still pretty awkward between Spence and I but we starting to fit back into our mold after watching a few hours of 'The Walking Dead' on the DVR after her shower.
"Seriously the drama of it all." She shakes her head before leaning in more into the couch. I rub her legs that are on my lap. "I mean who would think people have time, to lie, cheat, and go crazy when a zombie apocalypse is going on?" She asks genuinely intrigued.
"The Walking Dead and all other zombie movies, TV shows, and books, for that matter are not about the zombies, as much as we love them, but about human interaction and the monsters we become."She gives me a big smile. "What?" I give her the side eye.
"You're brain is just so sexy Ashley Davies." I shake my head at how corny that was but before I could look away to try and hide my blush. "Are you blushing?" She teases.
"Pfff no." I keep looking away not wanting her to see through my fib.
"She places her finger under my chin and turns my face to her." My brown eyes melt into her blue ones and we breathe in each other. She releases my chin and I run my thumb slowly across her bottom lip, her eyes are begging me to kiss her. Not just any kiss… no, a kiss that tells her I'll still be here after all this. I slide my hand to her cheeks and cup them as I debate if I will be? I lick my lips and swallow around the lump in my throat. I close my eyes leaning towards her and she does the same. I feel my lips brush against hers.
"Spencer!" I jump back before the kiss got a chance to deepen. I stare at blonde woman that looks to be Spence's age. "I'm not interrupting something am I?" She questions with a sneaky grin that means nothing good. "The woman swallows thick when she catches the look I'm giving her.
I hear a thud and look over to where Spence is sitting and notices she is no longer sitting there because she has fainted and is now lying on the floor. I rush to her side placing her head on my knees fanning her.
"Spence you always have been so dramatic." My eyes shoot up filled with venom at the new blonde mumbling under her breath. She clears her throat and lets out a nervous laugh.
"Oh you guys have seen my surprise- Oh my God Spence!" The older blonde stops in her tracks from waking in the door to running and sliding on her knees to the other side of a passed out Spence.
*Spence*
I hear my mother and Ashley voice calling out to me, both sound a bit panicked. I open my eyes to see their worried face kneeling over me. I start to form a small smile until I see the sight of the woman leaning over my mom and I almost pass out again. Ash and my mom lift me up I know this because I feel support on both sides of my body but my eyes are focused on her.
"Mom what is she doing here?" I question my mom but never taking my eyes off of the girl in front of me once I'm too my feet.
"Spence is that any way to greet an old friend?" the girl smirks and I have to hold down my cereal from earlier.
"I think I 'm going to be sick.'' I hold my stomach and mouth and run to the bathroom. It's proving that mental stress can cause changes in the body and I am feeling those changes as I lean over the toilet.
I walk out the bathroom after brushing my teeth with my eyes closed hoping that when I open them it was all just a dream and that she won't be standing there. I open my eyes very slowly and close them fast shaking my head realizing this is not a dream but a real life nightmare.
"Spence honey?" I feel my mom's hand rubbing my back. I take in a sharp breath before I slowly open my eyes again. I look over to Ash who has a mixture of confusion and anger on her face I try to force a smile to relax her but I fail miserably.
"Spence are you ok." I face her and her false concern. Seriously why is she even here? "I hope you don't mind me coming but your mom told me when she left that she wanted us to see each other and maybe a friendly face would help you in this difficult time with the loss of your father…I'm sorry by the way." Oh that's what her sincere face looks like. I never saw it until now.
"Well I couldn't take off work any earlier than today. On the bright side at least we'll be able to spend New Year's Eve together." She beams. "Since it's tomorrow and all." She walks over to the couch eating the rest of Ash's and my popcorn.
"Mom she's the surprise you were talking about?' I finally find my voice to speak again. My mom gives me a proud smile as if she has done well.
"Yeah this is your Christmas gift I told you I was waiting to have it delivered." I smile weakly.
"Spence?" I look over to a still very angry and confused Ashley. "Can you show me were you returned my shirt you borrowed in my room because I can't find it?" I nod grateful for the lie to have a moment away from this overwhelming madness.
I excuse myself as Ash pulls me to the room she's been sleeping in. Crazy I never thought she would sleep here. It looks so unlike her with no colors on the walls. I don't know how she survived in here for the past five days. I honestly don't remember Ash ever stepping foot in this room let alone sleeping in it.
"Spence." I'm taken out my thoughts by Ash's voice that's full with wonder. "Who is that?" Her face seems a bit worried now.
I begin chewing on the tip of my thumb trying to figure out how to say this. I know Ash is not going to like it and I really don't want things to be any more tense between us.
"Spence?!" Okay, not answering the question is starting to be just as bad as answering it as I hear the irritation in her voice.
I try to make the girl's name come out of my mouth but it won't. I close my eyes and try to will myself but the thought of her name is tearing me apart.
"I thought I left her behind me." I mumble out shaking my head never once opening my eyes. Even though I'm not looking at Ashley I know her eyes are growing wide with confusion. I clear my throat."I can't believe I thought that if she wasn't in front of me the pain would go alway." I'm choking back tears."Now I know the pain was always here… just hidden." I feel a supportive hand on my shoulder and I grab it giving it a gentle squeeze. I open my eyes to be greeted by worried eyes and a weak smile.
"Spence babe, talk to me?" She pleads and it's nice to hear her call me babe. As I look at her I finally find the confidence I need.
"That's Debbie." I say in a shaky tone.
Ash steps back shaking her head as she clearly tries to choose her words carefully. "Debbie?" Her mouth drops in disbelief. "The Debbie who made your life hell and the reason you left Ohio?" She shouts in a harsh tone. I nod my head yes. "On one hand I owe her." She paces as I look at her with a shocked face. "Wait let me finish." She faces me holding her hand up. "I owe her because if she never ran you out here I never would have been able to catch you." She smirks.
"You smooth talker." I blush a little forgetting for a small moment about the mess in the living room.
"But on the other hand."She hurt you badly to the point that after all these years she still gets to you and I have a problem with that." Her face becomes angrier than before. "She's not staying here." She walks towards the door.
"Ash wait!" I call after her in a hush tone and she turn around to face me.
"What is there to wait for Spence?" I move both of my hands down signaling for her to keep her voice down.
"Baby I just need some time?" I grab her hand trying to plead with her. The look on her face is one I never seen before and it scares me.
"You can't be serious?" She raises a brow. "What do you need time for? What is there to think about?" I look down at my feet. "Oh so you'd rather let someone who made your life unbearable stay here than her telling your mother about us?" She points her finger between the both of us. "Spence it's been five days and you haven't even tried to hint about us. More importantly it's been three years." All the emotions are starting to consume me. I feel her yank her hand away and I look in the direction that her footsteps are heading to see her grab her keys and her purse.
"Where are you going?" I ask in a small voice and now it's her turn to look down before looking back up at me with sad eyes.
"I can't do this." I jump in front of the doorway blocking her path.
"Ash you can't leave me…I need you." I say all through tears and the last part in a whisper.
She cups my face."Prove it… tell your mother about us." Two long tears run down her cheeks as her lips quiver.
I let out a heavy sigh. "I will I just-"
"Need time" She finishes my sentence. She releases my face and pushes me to the side as she walks out the door. I hear the bedroom door close behind me then the front door. I stand there letting my tears hit the carpet.
"Spence honey, where is Ashley going? Spencer honey!? Spencer!?" I hear my mother voice echo through the room. I wipe my face and try not to sound shaky.
"I'll be out in a minute mom." I choke out.
"Okay." She says worry evident in her voice.
I wipe the tears from my face as I clear my throat before I walk out the room after some time. I scan the living room hoping that Ashley has come back, but instead I see Debbie grinning like a fool and my mother sporting a proud smile.
"Spence I know this is so overwhelming being reunited but I thought-"
"You thought the way to make up for leaving me with a stranger yesterday is to bring a different stranger today." I spat harshly.
My mother giggles in disbelief leaning her head back a bit. "I arranged for Debbie to come out here way before Christmas and she's not a stranger you've known her forever." She rubs my shoulder and I give a barely there smile.
Realizing I don't have the nerve to ask Debbie or my mother for that matter to leave I opt for us to watch 'Once Upon a Time' on the DVR. I wouldn't dare continue "The Walking Dead' without Ash. She would have a fit when she comes back, if she comes back. I feel my heart sink to my feet and I let out a heavy sigh.
"You ok honey?" My mother asks and I give a weak nod.
The show is ruined in a matter of minutes by Debbie telling us parts of the show before they come on. I bite my lip before turning the TV off.
"I don't understand why you want to watch this show anyway? It's just a bunch of restored fairlytales." She rolls her eyes.
"Haven't you already seen this episode meaning you watch the show?" I counter.
"I watch it when there's nothing else better to do. Ohio is boring you should know that, but this is Lala land let's have fun." She squeals.
I feel my nerves get to me as my hands begin to shake. I try to calm them by getting up and heading into the kitchen to wipe down the counters. I stare at the living room door looking for Ash as I wipe but she doesn't walk through. I miss her so much already. I feel a pang in my heart and I close my eyes from how unbearable the thought of losing her is tearing through me.
"I didn't come all the way from Ohio to sit in the living room watching some show I already seen." Debbie whines before throwing her head back letting out a groan. I continue whiping the counter. "Let's go out and do something." She says with excitement and my mom joins in and they start clapping their hands before high fiving each other.
I close my eyes trying to slow down my heart rate. This has to be another nightmare this can't be happening. I pinch myself and sadly this is very real. I let out another heavy sigh as I continue to wipe the already spotless countertops.
It's useless…no matter how much bleach I use it won't clean up the mess between Ashley and I or get rid of the mess in the living room.
A/N: Poetry 'If You Forget Me' by Pablo Neruda. 'Taste' by Yours truly.
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