Love is War

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Chapter Sixteen

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I took longer in the bath than I probably had ever taken in my life, but by the time it was over I felt much calmer and at peace. I don't know why I was stressing so much anyway… it wasn't like I didn't want to have Sasuke in every way possible, it was just that I was afraid. I was unsure… I'd never done anything like that before. But, I decided after a long time of thinking that if and when it did happen, it would be meant to be. Until then, I was going to just be myself and enjoy our time together.

Because… I was definitely enjoying our time together.

Once I left my bathroom and went into my room, I dressed in a plain white T-shirt and a soft pair of pajama shorts. I brushed my hair and my teeth and sighed to myself when I finally looked at my bedroom door and knew I was about to face him again. I don't know why I had the feeling that he was just going to jump me or something. I shook off all my worries and opened my bedroom door, walking quickly on my way into the living room before I could chicken out and run back into hiding.

I found Sasuke on the couch, all damp headed and shirtless. My mouth fell open at the sight of him and I continued to gawk at him like an idiot even long after his head turned in my direction and he started watching me.

This was the first time I'd ever seen so much of him. Even staying alone with him all this time, never had I happened across him with him being shirtless. My eyes raked over him, taking in his lean, muscled form and then his tattoos. I had no idea he had any, but they looked damn good. I first noticed the one that started on his upper left arm and ran up his shoulder and down his back. It was a variety of tribals, with his last name worked into it. I found it sexy as hell.

It wasn't until he leaned forward that I noticed the next one, just across his right shoulder blade where there was an abstract blackwork piece that looked really fitting on him. His chest and far too noticable abs were bare, unmarked, and I found myself easily absorbed in the sight of his front as well. I wouldn't deny though, that I had a thing for tattoos… only I didn't know how attracted I was to them on other people until I saw them on him.

"You have tattoos?" I asked stupidly, still gaping at him like the idiot I was quickly turning into.

He lifted a drink I hadn't known he had to his lips and had a sip before answering. "I do."

"Oh." I muttered, averting my eyes in my embarrassment before I forced myself to go and sit on the couch with him, keeping a fair amount of distance between us.

I'd only had two tattoos, and both of them were gang related and both of them had been skinned clean off of me… but, eventually I would get them back. Probably before too long. The thought of this had me looking at my thigh where one of them had been… now there was only a nasty scar in place… but that scar was a part of me just like all the rest of them. Most of the other areas weren't as noticeable as they used to be, but I knew if the one on my thigh was so bad, that the one on my shoulder had to be just as bad.

They felt better now, so I didn't really care. If I could still have Sasuke and he didn't mind my body being scarred then why should I care? I would always remember the incident either way, but I was at peace with the whole situation. I didn't look at my scars as the worst things in the world. I thought more of them in the way Sasuke would… they only proved that I was a survivor. I'd made it through a horrible situation and I'd pushed forward… and I always would.

"You okay?" He asked, seeming a bit worried about it. I supposed it was to be expected with the way I'd acted earlier.

"Yeah… I'm fine." I promised, staring down at my legs instead of looking back at him. "I'm sorry about dumping all that on you earlier."

"You don't need to apologize. It was nice learning more about you and talking to you about the things you're feeling. I'm always here for that sort of thing."

He really was sweet… and on some level… I felt more comfortable with Sasuke than I did with any of my other men. It may have been the attraction, the romantic interest… I honestly wasn't sure what it was, but it was nice to feel so at ease with someone.

I didn't talk about my past with anyone… not even Naruto. These things were never brought up, and not even really thought about up until recently. There had just been so much on my mind and it was nice to have Sasuke, who would listen to me without complaint or judgement. For reasons unknown to me, I wanted to tell him things and talk to him about things I didn't normally bring up… and I wanted to know more about him as well.

I wouldn't question him though, or ask him anything. No matter how much I wanted to know, I would only learn about him if and when he decided he wanted to tell me something. I felt this way because this is how I preferred things. I didn't want to be questioned. If it came to a point of me wanting someone to know something, then I would tell them. Until then, I'd rather just keep it to myself.

Really, I didn't know much about Sasuke and I knew there had to be a hell of a lot more to him. There was a lot of time for me to get to know him better though, and I looked forward to that. I was looking forward to many things and most of them at this point involved him. I hoped more than anything that I wouldn't scare him off with my annoying infatuation but I just couldn't help myself.

"Thank you… for everything." In the short time he'd been a part of the family, he'd been through and done a lot for me and I respected him a great deal for it. I'd always owe him, always feel indebted to him for him saving my life and killing the enemy, which just so happened to be his brother.

"You don't need to thank me for anything, Sakura. Ever."

"But, I do. I want to."

He sighed, his head leaning back and turning towards me then. "Always so difficult."

"Always." I agreed with a nod and then we both starting laughing and the atmosphere felt much lighter. "I should really be thanking Naruto…"

"What for?" He asked curiously and I laughed again.

"For bringing you to me."

Sasuke's lips pulled into a smirk then and in the blink of an eye he had me pulled onto his lap. I squeaked in surprise as this, my entire face turning red as I met his eyes shyly. I didn't understand how he could make me feel like an entire different woman, but he did. Being with him like this… I felt like any ordinary girl. Excited, but nervous. My stomach was full of butterflies and it was suddenly hard to breathe… but I wasn't sure if I'd ever been happier.

His hands cupped my face, his fingers sliding into my hair as he pressed his forehead against mine. His lips were so close. The feel of his breath had me shuddering, along with the close proximity. My hands pressed against his naked chest and I inhaled shakily, craving the touch of his lips. Without even kissing, just being so close to him felt so sensual and in a way electric. For him to make me feel so much, so easily… it just drove me crazy.

Being that he made no further moves, I initiated the kiss. I wanted to taste him and feel those surprisingly soft lips against my own. The first touch was hesitant, since I wasn't very sure of myself but after that Sasuke's fingers tightened in my hair and he held me firmly in place, his lips dominating mine in a way that had me melting against him instantaneously.

My hands moved from his chest, my arms winding around his neck as my mouth opened, granting his tongue access to meet mine. Once his tongue flicked across mine I felt my insides coil with arousal. Never had I felt such a way, yet Sasuke made me feel it effortlessly. My tongue pulled back as I gasped at the alien feeling. A soft hum sounded from him at this and I suspected he knew better than I did how he was making me feel.

Though I was at a loss and unable to move, Sasuke kissed me again, his right hand releasing my hair, fingers caressing my face and neck at once. I shuddered against him, a soft groan vibrating out of me. Head tilting, Sasuke deepened the kiss even further, tongue dancing across mine and each sweep. Soon enough I was on my back on the couch, Sasuke's much larger body looming over me as he continued to kiss me so deeply.

My hands roamed up his arms, over the back of his neck and into his hair. It was still slightly damp but I grabbed two handfuls anyway, my lips breaking away from his with a soft moan as his hand gently ran over my t-shirt across my breast. My nipple perked instantly under his touch and it surprised me at how sensitive my body was. But before I could come to terms with this revelation, the gate's alarm went off.

"Ah, shit… Sasuke… someone is here."

"Damn it." He growled, sitting up. "Who the fuck-"

"It has to be one of the guys." I grumbled, getting to my feet and going to check the camera. "Fucking Gaara and Neji. What the fuck?" My mood took a nosedive and I was already pissed at Gaara anyway.

"What the hell are they doing here?" Sasuke asked, more annoyed than he normally was. I unlocked the gate and sighed.

"I don't know. Better be a good damn reason though."

Sasuke got up and walked to the door. I swallowed hard at the way his muscles flexed as he walked. He was only wearing a pair of black sleeping pants. It was late and time for bed for normal people, so I didn't know what the guys could be stopping by for. They weren't even supposed to leave the club.

I sat back on the couch and waited. Only a moment later Sasuke was walking back towards me, Gaara and Neji right behind him. I scowled at both of them, mainly for the way their eyes were looking over Sasuke so coldly.

"What the fuck are you two doing here?" I snapped, demanding answers.

"We've been calling and can't get an answer from you, so we came to check on you ourselves." Neji stated. "I'm glad we did." He added then as his eyes raked over Sasuke.

"I don't need to be checked on. None of you are supposed to be away from the club for any reason." I scolded them. "Taking unnecessary risks is foolish and could jeopardize the entire clan."

"Fuck the feds." Gaara snarled. "You're more important than anything."

"He's right. The Uchiha may be capable, but I can't say I think he's right to guard you alone this whole time. We should stay with you as well."

I stood then, outraged. "Have you lost your fucking minds? I need you both at the club, not here."

"With our jobs on hold, there's nothing much for us to do." Neji shrugged.

Gaara nodded. "We've been sitting around for too long now. It couldn't hurt for you to have more protection. We'll stay."

The way both of their eyes raked over me then had my blood boiling. "Tell me just who the hell gives the orders around here? I'm here to rest, relax and have some peace and fucking quiet. You two annoy the hell out of me."

"We won't be any trouble." Gaara told me, smiling sweetly. "We'll be good to you."

"No. Hell no. I want you both to return to the club at once." I seethed. They were ruining everything.

"Maybe you should have a drink." Neji suggested. "I'll fix you one." He said, turning and walking into the kitchen.

"No wonder you were such an alcoholic before." Sasuke muttered, plopping down onto the couch.

Gaara turned to him with narrowed eyes. "You should watch your tongue, Uchiha."

"No, you should fucking watch yours. Don't piss me off any more than you already have." I hissed.

My hands ran through my hair as I sat next to Sasuke with a groan, and only then did I notice how tense Sasuke was. Glancing at him, my stomach pulled in knots at the way his dark eyes glared coldly at Gaara. Gaara glared right back, seemingly unafraid of the Uchiha. Neji returned and slapped Gaara in the chest with the back of his hand before bringing over my drink. I damn sure needed it.

"Watch it." Neji told Gaara quietly, his voice threatening.

Gaara turned his glare to Neji. Any second and those two would probably be at each other's throats. I rolled my eyes at this and downed my entire drink before standing up and grabbing Sasuke's hand. With a sweet smile, I gave his arm a tug.

"Come to bed with me?" I asked, meaning I would put Gaara and Neji both in their place. Sasuke knew exactly what I was doing and he had a devilish smirk on his face as he stood. I pulled him down the hallway eagerly, ignoring the curses from our two unexpected visitors.

I knew things were bound to end in the worst way possible, but I was going to do whatever the fuck I wanted to do for once. Which was why as soon as I had him in my room, I kicked the door closed and moved my hands to his naked chest. I wanted him. I knew I did. A part of me was afraid of taking that step- of experiencing something new for the first time. But I knew there was no sense in putting it off.

There wasn't much time to mull over my thoughts and insecurities. All was easily forgotten as Sasuke leaned down to capture my lips in a soft kiss. My arms wrapped around his neck as I kissed him back. It was almost ridiculous how quickly I could lose myself to him. A shame how badly I wanted him- how badly I wanted this. I craved this moment with him and everything that was about to change for me, just as I had already accepted all the changes I'd already made.

And the changes that had just happened themselves.

The kiss was heating up quickly. I groaned when Sasuke grabbed a hold of my hair and pulled, his other arm wrapping around my waist. He held me tight as his tongue found mine. Just as I was getting used to the kiss and felt like it would never end, he pulled away, his hand around my waist moving to my back and sliding down to my ass. I gasped when he grabbed me. In the next instant he hoisted me up and then I was on the bed and he was on top of me.

I stared into his eyes, recognizing the way he was silently questioning me. The feel of him between my legs and his bare torso pressed against me. Shit. I was sure he was going to be the death of me and I was more than willing for it. My legs wrapped around his waist and I pulled his head down to me for another kiss- silently giving him permission to do whatever he wanted.

Sasuke kissed me again, his hips grinded down against me and his hand cradled my face. Before I knew it my clothes were gone and so were his. I couldn't bring myself to look at all of him, but I was entranced with the sight of the bits of him I could handle seeing. His face was so outrageously gorgeous, his body was absolutely breathtaking and fuck the way he felt against me-the way he was making me feel-this need, it was too great.

"Sasuke," I gasped when his fingers touched my sex. My thighs were shaking and I was so wet. I was rendered helpless, unsure what to do-if anything.

There was no need nor any opportunity for me to worry about doing anything. Sasuke's hands and mouth were all over me, giving me a high unlike anything I'd ever experienced before. He went down on me, the feel of so overwhelming. It was impossible for me to contain my voice as he drove me higher, bringing me to the peak or ecstacy and beyond.

When he was finally inside of me, I was blown away. The only thing muffling my screams was his kiss. But even Sasuke was struggling, his breaths heavy. Every groan that escaped him drove me more insane. He moved slow, but it was still intense and after what seemed like forever, he gave it to me hard and quicker. My nails dug into his back over and over as I tried to ground myself and with every scratch, he gave me more.

It really did hurt to begin with, even with me being as turned on as I was but with each thrust it felt better. I couldn't believe I'd waited so long to feel such a sensation. As soon as he pulled out and stroked his member through his orgasm-his seed spurting out all over my stomach-I knew I needed this. Forever. Again and again. I could have never tired of it.

I had never been in a daze like the one I was in now. Sasuke had went into my bathroom, come back and cleaned me up and still, I was laying around like I didn't know what the fuck had just happened to me. I just stared at the ceiling, blinking slowly as I thought back over every touch, every kiss, every sensation. I was a little sore, but I actually wanted more. I assumed all that was just inside my head.

My eyes threatened to close, the sweet serenity I felt lulling me to sleep. Sasuke was suddenly in bed next to me, pulling the covers over me before snuggling close. I breathed deeply, finding myself stupidly happy. Could this last? Could I stay happy like this forever… with Sasuke?

I really hoped so.

A/N:

It's been sooooo long since I updated this fic, but only because I was struggling with what I wanted to do. I finally made a decision after writing this chapter three different ways.

Sorry for keeping you lovely readers waiting. I hope you enjoyed the update!

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