„Speaking"

„Thoughts"

„Neah talking telepathic"

Scarlet-Nin: I am very sorry! I knew it was mean to not update for so long, it´s just recently I had no motivation to write on this ff. The Chapters are going to be a bit shorter, but a Chapter will come up every month. Thank you for staying with me, and over 80 followers, You guys are awesome! ^^

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Chapter 20

It was strange, Allen decided as he looked around in his mind. He had been here before, but it always creeped him out a bit, if he was honest with himself. It was seriously disturbing to find out that your mindscape was something out of a horror movie.

White trees without leaves, a big moon with a smirking face on it, a half-frozen lake with cracks in the ice, some kind of throne with chains lying around, blood red sky that changed color sometimes. He didn´t have to continue, did he? You get his point.

Allen sighed as he sat down in front of the lake, watching the water in interest. He wanted to sleep, where did that end up? In his mind of all places! Why did luck hate him so much? Was it something he did in his past life?

"I wonder what Lenalee and Lavi are doing right now…" Allen muttered bored as he gazed into the water. It was clear, but at the same time dull. Allen couldn't even see his reflection, but he supposed that was kind of normal.

It began to clear up and instead of seeing nothing, the water showed him something different. There where flashes of a few people and then he saw the ship of Anita.

Allen´s heart stopped for a second when he saw Lenalee and Lavi leaning on the boat railing, he saw other people too but didn´t pay them any mind.

Lenalee had her hair open, her Green locks falling down her back, straight like waterfall. She had a few bandages here and there, but seemed fine, same for Lavi. What Allen bothered were the red puffy eyes of Lenalee.

She…She had been crying, hasn´t she? But surely not because of him, right? They just knew each other for a month at max!

Allen felt guilt swell up in him as he watched them talk. They seemed okay, but he knew when somebody was prepending. After all, he had been a clown, who was better at pretending than he was?

Allen hesitantly reached out a hand to the water, it hovered above the water afraid to touch it. "L-Lenalee? Lavi?" Allen called out unsure if they could hear him.

It shouldn´t be possible for them to hear him. Hell, it should be impossible for Allen to see them right now! He was after all in his mind, he could see his memories or something like that and nothing more!

He watched how the two didn´t move, they just stood there and talked, not that Allen could hear a word of it. So, they haven´t heard him…

It made Allen kind of sad, but he quickly shook his head and continued to gaze almost longingly at the two. He missed them…

Why was he getting attached? He knew he shouldn´t, it would only end bad if they found out about him, not to mention Lavi was a Bookman.

Allen watched them for an hour or so, but as time went by he felt himself yawn more often, the water kind of got blurrier too.

Allen blinked a few times when he saw the water clear again, he now could no longer see Lavi or Lenalee, only that dull water again. He sighed and brushed his hair back with his hand.

He had given up talking to them after 10 minutes. Not only did it feel creepy to talk to himself, but now he felt like a stalker. Well, at least now he could guess what Neah felt like all the time.

Allen smirked at the thought. Speaking of Neah, it was strange that he hadn´t appeared now. He usually would show up when Allen was inside his mindscape, because that was rare enough. He really had to be busy after all.

Allen gently touched the water, it didn´t move like normal water at all. It was like gripping air. It felt cold, but hot at the same time.

The water pulsed and Allen felt himself get pulled into it. He panicked a bit when he found out he couldn´t breathe. Gasping and struggling, Allen tried to push himself up to the surface, but it was no use. He sunk lower and lower in the water watching with wide eyes as it got darker and darker. It was a mixture between the colors Black, Purple and Green.

"Hah!" Allen sat up in his bed, huffing for air, griping his chest with one hand. He felt a stab of bitterness at the thought and reminder. He calmed down and got out of bed. He was still in the medical ward much to his distain.

"I am hungry…" Allen muttered to himself as he tried to forget what just happened. As he walked to the door he felt a wave of dizziness hit him, he almost fell over.

He gripped the wall with his hand, balancing himself before he could face first to the floor. Eyes tightly shut as he tried to push the pain into the back of his head. It felt kind of like a headache, but they don´t come out of nowhere!

He felt his chest squeeze in pain as he gasped in pain. Sweat started to form on his forehead. He felt his back hit the stone wall as he slid down to the ground. A cough escaped his lips and he covered his mouth to quieten them. No need to be loud and have Narain fussing over him again.

Allen´s coughing stopped rather quickly and his headache if you could call it that began to lighten up. As he pulled the hand away from his mouth the felt a chill.

…Blood…

There was blood on his hand, he coughed up blood! But why?! Allen hastily wiped the blood of on his pants, hoping that nobody would notice because his pants were dark.

He panted lightly as he felt the chest pain vanish completely together with his headache. Mentally sighing in relief. Whatever that was, it was definitely not normal, even Allen knew that much. He sat there for a few minutes, trying to get the shaking of his legs to stop.

"…Could it be?" Allen felt his stomach drop. If his Noah awakened here…it would be a Disaster. Thankfully he had hope. He just had to get his Innocence back, it could help suppress his bloodlust and all that. The only question was how much time he had and how exactly he was going to get his Innocence back.

Allen´s face hardened in determination. He would get his partner back and then help his friends! But first, where did Narain say was the Cafeteria?

Allen whimpered at the thought of getting lost and not getting to eat anything at all. He walked out the door, careful not to overdo it once in his life and smiling at every person he walked by.

He found the Cafeteria…after an hour. Well, better late than never, right? Allen quickly got himself something to eat not bothering with the looks he was getting as he scarfed down his precious food.

"Allen there you are! What did I tell you? Rest is not eating all the food this place has to offer!" Narain walked into the Cafeteria with a scowl as he scolded Allen who only smiled at him cheeky.

"Why not? Food always make me feel better!" Allen retorted playfully, praying to the god he didn´t believe in that Narain would not notice the red spots on his pants. It seemed this was one of his lucky times, because Narain was too busy with rolling his eyes and nagging him.

"Come on now! Fou is waiting for you and she is getting impatient!" Narain informed him as he pulled him out of the Cafeteria. Allen chuckled nervously. He had a feeling she would be extra harsh on him.

They soon came to the Training room, where Bak and Fou were waiting. Narain cheerfully skipped over to Fou. "Don´t hurt him too much, oh great Lady Fou!" Narain joked with a smirk. Fou growled at him, while Bak backed away.

"No promises, now get out of my way brat!" She hissed at him. The whole time she was watching Allen with narrowed eyes, like a predator hunting down his prey.

"Ready? Good!" Fou didn´t even wait for a reply as she lunged at Allen with her sharp axes. Allen stumbled out of the way, not expecting such a sudden attack. He narrowed his eyes and tensed up gracefully dodging her attacks.

"That was not nice!" Allen hissed at her with a smug smirk as he watched her fume in anger. She was not hitting him! Why was she not? He couldn´t possibly have avoided ALL of her attacks!

"Tch, Shut it you-! You SHORTSTACK!" Fou shrieked in anger smirking as she watched him glare at her with anger. So, she finally hit a nerve. "What? Did I hit a sensitive point? Do you want me to kiss it better?" Fou sneered in amusement. Her mocking getting to Allen.

Allen´s glare deepened as he finally began to hit back. She smirked in satisfaction at getting him all riled up. He finally got serious!

Bak and Narain sweatdropped at the hardcore beating going on.

"Hopefully Fou doesn´t hit something important." Narain muttered with a tried expression. Bak only nodded. "...not the face…to pretty…" Narain almost chocked on his own split at hearing that from Bak. Wasn´t he head over heels for some Lenalee chick? Maybe he shouldn´t stay up so late to read medical books anymore. Least he heard something he didn´t want to hear.

At least that´s what Narain told himself while he pointly ignored Bak´s light blushing. No way. Maybe he could try to tell Cross? He would always tease Allen with something. Narain didn´t want to admit it, but it was always funny to see Neah, Cross and Allen together.

He smirked darkly. That would show Allen to stay in bed if your ordered to! He would just tell "Mother-Marian" as Neah dubbed him, that there were male interest for Allen. It certainly would be interesting to watch.

Narain chuckled darkly as he continues to watch the fight with Bak backing away from him. No need to get involved if Narain is cracking up like that.

"Stand still already!"

"What? Can´t hit me?"

Bak only sighed. Getting Walker´s Innocence would take a long time it seemed.