Lucy knew Alex wasn't going to be leaving Kara's side anytime soon. The only thing that would tear her away would be Lena needing her help in the lab to save Kara, Lucy decided she would check on Maggie. She placed a kiss on the top of Alex's head and said, "I'm gonna go check on Maggie, let me know if anything changes."
Lucy turned to leave and felt a hand clasp her wrist. She turned back toward Alex and was struck by the many emotions displayed on Alex's face. She didn't say anything just stood there waiting for Alex to say whatever it was she felt she needed to say.
It took Alex a minute to organize her thoughts. One of the things she had done with Maggie was put Kara first more often than she should have. Before the relationship fell apart it had gotten better but still needed some work. She didn't want to make the same mistake with Lucy. Tonight, was definitely an exception but she did have the habit of shutting people out whenever Kara gets badly injured. She didn't want Lucy to feel like she was doing that.
"I'm sorry our date got ruined. I really was looking forward to tonight and finally getting some quality time with you without fear of something crazy happening. I know you know how much Kara means to me, but I also don't want you to think that she trumps us. Trumps you in anyway. I know I did that with Maggie and that wasn't fair. I don't want you to think that Kara is always going to be more important than you. Because she isn't. No one is more important to me than you."
Lucy was surprised by the statement Alex just made but was more surprised by the kiss she received after Alex made said statement. It took her breath away. She didn't completely understand why Alex felt the need to say what she did, but Lucy appreciated it.
"Alex you are just as important to me and I know Kara is a huge part of your life. You've been doing so much for me since I've come back if you want to spend all of tonight and tomorrow at Kara's bedside, I won't question it. I was looking forward to our date as well but your sister almost dying takes precedence. I definitely want a raincheck though. You looked exquisite tonight and I didn't get to appreciate it fully."
Alex chuckled, "I can say the same about you. You did say the dress would make me forget the English language and might have me drooling. I did forget how to speak for a minute and I think it is safe to say we should put in an open vacation request with Pam. We are going away after this mess with your dad and CADMUS is over and I might send Kara back to Argo City just so nothing can get in the way of us spending time together."
It was Lucy's turn to chuckle, "I like the way you think Danvers." Lucy looked at the monitors saw some minor improvements, but it still looked grim. "You really think Lena can come up with something to get the kryptonite completely out of her system?"
Alex became very somber again. "If it was anyone else, I would have my doubts but it's Lena she always comes through in the end."
Lucy knew Lena was a miracle worker in the lab, but this was a situation that was much more dire than any attack on Kara before. Then an idea struck her. "You said you wanted to send Kara to Argo City when we went away to ensure nothing would come up and we could vacation in peace."
Alex looked at Lucy slightly confused. "I did. Do you think that's too much?"
For someone so smart she sometimes failed to see the simple answers to many problems that were right in front of her. One of 1,000 reasons Lucy loved this woman but right now she wasn't going to comment on Alex's complete lack of brains. Her sister was improving but still closer to death than she was to living. So definitely not appropriate.
"Do you have a way to contact Argo City. Specifically, Kara's mother?" Lucy watched as the wheels in Alex's head began turning and what Lucy was implying finally sunk in.
"Shit, why didn't I think of that. Lucy you're a genius. I'm not sure if Alura has any experience in kryptonite poisoning but she would know more about kryptonian medicine than I would. Or at the very least would know someone that would know more than I do. I know Winn and Vasquez have been working on the transmat portal to make it easier to travel to and from Argo City maybe we can even get Alura here herself or someone that could help Lena come up with a solution."
Alex pulled Lucy in for a kiss, "What would I do without you?"
Lucy couldn't help the blush that crept up her face, "You would do just fine without me Danvers, but we are two pieces of a puzzle that fit. Without each other we are amazing people but together we are extraordinary. Go get ahold of Alura I'll go check on Maggie and give her an update."
"I love you Luce. I'll have someone get you if anything changes."
"I love you too Alex."
Maggie knew this wasn't her fault, but she couldn't help but beat herself up about it. Kara may be Supergirl, but she was Alex's little sister. Everyone knows that Kara is the most important person in Alex's life. Even with Lucy in the picture now. Maggie always knew Kara would take priority over her in many situations and it had always gotten under her skin, but she let it slide. Her family had abandoned her, and she had been an only child so there might be something that she didn't understand. Kara wasn't Alex's sister by blood but that didn't matter. Anyone that saw those two together knew they were sisters. She wondered if Lucy would fall second like she had. Or if Lucy would let it slide because she had known them longer. Knew more about Kara and Alex's relationship than she could have ever understood.
Lucy and Alex's friendship had always fascinated her. They always seemed to move as a unit. When Maggie and Alex started dating, they had only been friends for 8 or 9 months. They never acted like they had only just become friends. It wasn't until a few months into her relationship with Alex that she realized Lucy had feelings for Alex. She never said anything because it didn't seem like Alex felt the same.
She'll never forget the night she realized how Lucy felt about Alex. It had been a long week for all of them. Maggie had already been scheduled off that Saturday but J'onn forced Lucy and Alex to take the whole weekend off. Originally Maggie had wanted to just spend the day with Alex but decided that they needed a girl's day. Lucy had been through the same shit Alex had and probably needed to unwind as well. She had called Lucy after Alex had come home and jumped in the shower. She saw the dead, drained look in Alex's eye and knew it was a hell of a week. Alex had only been able to tell her a few details but that look had said it all. While Alex was in the shower, she told Lucy she had no choice but to come over and spend the night with them and the next day if she wanted.
Lucy had agreed and arrived at Alex's 30 minutes later looking just as beaten down and worn out as Alex had. Despite that Lucy had helped Maggie make dinner while Alex was in the shower. Lucy was good in the kitchen. She only had to give her a few instructions and she could figure out the rest. She had never disliked Lucy. Once she had gotten over the initial shock of Lucy letting herself into Alex's apartment whenever she felt like it.
When Alex had gotten out of the shower, she came up behind Maggie wrapped her arms around her, rested her head on her shoulder and thanked her for making dinner and inviting Lucy over. She watched as Alex walked over to Lucy and took her in her arms. Lucy had been holding the emotions of the day, hell the entire week in. Alex knew she needed to let them out and Alex was the only person Lucy would willingly open up to. She watched as Lucy cried in Alex's arms.
Once Lucy had cried herself out, they all piled onto the couch. Alex sandwiched in between herself and Lucy. They ate their meal in silence for the most part. Maggie had put on a really dumb romantic comedy that she knew were Lucy and Alex's favorite movie to watch when they needed to escape life. Maggie only agreed to the rom-coms after she heard the wonderful commentary they gave. The movie Maggie had chosen that night wasn't the best choice for Lucy.
Maggie had noticed 30 minutes into the movie that Lucy was quieter than she normally was. Maggie began watching Lucy out of the corner of her eye. She saw the longing glances she gave to Alex and the heavy sighs that escaped her lips whenever one of the characters acted like Alex when she was still in the closet and assumed was oblivious to Lucy's flirting. At the time she wasn't worried that Lucy was going to try and take Alex from her. Because Alex was completely oblivious to how Lucy felt about her.
When she and Alex had ended their engagement, it was one of the things that had kept her awake at night. If it hadn't been the kids' issue would Lucy have eventually been the reason for their demise? Maggie always arrived at the conclusion that she wouldn't have been because both Lucy and Alex were loyal to a fault. She wasn't mad at Lucy, but she knew that if she and Lucy were going to continue to be friends they needed to talk. If she and Alex were ever going to be able to move forward as friends, they would have to talk as well. The conversation with Alex was the one she really didn't want to have she wasn't sure which way it would go.
"If we weren't friends, I would say you look too lost in your thoughts and don't want to be disturbed and I would say I'd come back later but we both know what is on your mind right now and I think it's time we talk. Unless you really don't want to because I would never pressure you into doing something you don't want to do or aren't ready for."
Maggie contemplated sending her away but from that meeting in the grocery store weeks ago they both knew deep down this conversation would have to happen eventually. In all honesty Maggie didn't want to have it now but neither of them had anything better to do considering the assassination attempt on Kara.
"Your right we do need to talk and neither of us has anything better to do right now. How is Kara?"
Lucy took a seat across from Maggie, "Still not good but Alex and Lena have gotten her into a much more stable state. Alex isn't worried that they're going to lose her which is a good sign."
"Good to hear. I know realistically this wasn't my fault, but it happened on my watch and if Kara had died, I would never be able to forgive myself."
"This was in no way your fault. Hell, it wasn't even really Kara's fault. She will always have a target on her back because she is the girl of steel and Alex is always going to over react when Kara gets hurt."
Maggie just nodded her head. She finally turned her head toward Lucy and was glad Lucy was looking at her with her usual stoic look. Any other look and Maggie would be worried how they would fair after this conversation.
"And that is why we need to talk. Well that and the elephant that is still in the room from when Alex and I were still together."
Lucy had known this conversation was going to happen eventually she just hadn't expected it to be tonight. Neither of them were going anywhere, anytime soon. Lucy reached for a pen that was on the edge of Maggie's desk and began twirling it between her thumb and index finger. Somehow in thinking about Kara almost dying Maggie had started wondering about her relationship with Alex while they were still together.
Up until now she had just assumed Maggie had simply thought that they would make a good couple based on how well they meshed together as friends. Lucy had now idea that Maggie had known that she had feelings for Alex. She tried her best to hide them. It was hard in the beginning and it got easier over time.
"When did you realize I had feelings for Alex?"
"Do you remember that week that was so emotionally draining that J'onn told the two of you to take the weekend off?"
Lucy remembered that week all too well and the day after. "Let me guess the hug Alex gave me planted the seed but the longing glances I gave Alex during the move solidified it?"
"That and the sighing. To be fair it didn't help that I picked that movie. I had no idea that the main character would turn out to be so much like Alex."
"That definitely wasn't your greatest movie choice for that particular time. Why didn't you say anything at the time?"
Maggie had to really think about this. She knew the answer, but this was also Lucy. She would see right through her if she tried to sugar coat this. "I was so sure about my relationship with Alex and I guess deep down knew Alex was oblivious to her feelings for you that she wasn't going to do anything about it or ever realize that she had feelings for you in the first place."
"You weren't even around when I flirted with her heavily at the DEO and it all flew over her head. Now that I think about it, I cut out most of the flirting when you walked into Alex's life."
"Vasquez has been telling me stories while you've been away. Would you have ever said anything to Alex if we had gotten married."
Lucy really had to think about this. On the one hand it wasn't a complicated question but on the other it was. "When Alex told me, she had asked you to marry her I was floored. Part of me was holding on to the idea that you and Alex would break up and I could eventually make my move. At the same time, I was happy for both of you. When I left for that mission, I was genuinely sad that I wasn't going to be there for the wedding.
"If it hadn't been for your disagreement on kids you would be together now and happy. I would be a bit jealous, but I wouldn't have said anything to Alex about my feelings. Or at least I don't think I would have. We'll never really know because you guys didn't get married. Would you have ever said anything to me about my feelings for her?"
After talking with Lucy Maggie now sees that she and Alex never would have worked. Maggie never would have said anything to Lucy and Lucy never would have said anything to her or Alex about her feelings. "No, I wouldn't have and that would have been the nail in our coffin. Alex and I wouldn't have made it. I know everyone thought we would have spent the rest of our lives together if we hadn't disagreed on kids but after this incident with Kara, I started thinking about how Alex always puts Kara first which lead to me thinking about the night I realized you had feelings for Alex.
"Talking all of this out now has made me see things differently where Alex is concerned. We would have gotten into a fight and out of anger would have said something about her not knowing how in love she was with you. Or something along those lines point is Alex and I would have fizzled out eventually."
"We'll never really know though. I do want you to know that I never would have intentionally done anything to hurt you. Accidentally sure, I'm human I make mistakes."
"I know you wouldn't have. You Lucy Lane have a heart of gold. Total badass but just as mushy on the inside as Alex."
Lucy threw the pen she had been playing with at Maggie. Which made Maggie roar with laughter which was a good sound to hear. When she had walked into her office, she hadn't been expecting the somber faraway look in Maggie's eyes. She was glad they had talked about this. Her feelings for Alex really had been the elephant in the room and talking things out would hopefully mean Maggie could truly move on.
"I hate that your right but just so we're clear I'm not as mushy on the inside as Alex is."
"Whatever you say Lane."