Restricting Me
A/N: I realy need to write a fleshed- out oneshot with dialogue and all that stuff. Unfortunately my AP homework requires SO MUCH OF MY TIME! D:
So here's this for now!
. . .
I don't know what made you so special. But we've been fighting with each other for almost a year now and somehow you've become this dominant figure inside my head. You're one of the only things I can think about ever. Images of your face just float in my head as if they belong there.
And I know for a fact that they don't. I'm 14-I'm supposed to like a guy my age and in Junior High who will break my heart in a matter of weeks before I move on and find a different boy to be in crush with. But no. Here you are, in my head. You're 17 and about to move on from high school. I don't know-
How did you get all this power over me? It doesn't make any sense. I pull through the day determining how you would react to the things I do despite the fact you would qualify my actions stupid. Maybe childish even, if you are having a bad day. I cannot go anywhere within a walking proximity to your apartment building without my stomach going into haywire.
Butterflies are starting to feel like killer bees.
Without you being here with me, you are controlling me-restricting me to live freely. I cannot have a crush on a nice boy my age. I cannot date freely (not that my father would ever allow that). And I cannot stop seeing your face. Even if I'm in the safety of my own home.
I just love you too much.
And even if I can somehow get over it I just know I will end up with a broken heart worse than if I were to go out with a boy at my school. You've somehow become my everything. And I'm not going to give you up.
. . .
A/N: Right! I got an Instagram under the pressure of one of my best friends. I'm ncisduckie there! ^_^ I'll follow back!