Summer- Middle of my year (Mature)
Is it possible to have your entire world revolve around one person?
Ever since that time at the ice cream shop, I don't help but be completely self conscious around Jungkook. This feeling is eating me...Leaving me helpless around him. Everything I do, I want it to be with Jungkook.
He came over again today, bringing snacks and he also came with Taehyung. My mom wasn't home again because she'd gone on a business trip so we had the house all to ourselves.
"Jimin, can we watch a movie?" Jungkook had suggested we'd watch a thriller, knowing perfectly well that I was afraid of them. I can't stand them, but it maybe my chance to get closer to him.
As the movie had started, we are all on my couch with a blanket. The house was dark due to the lack of light and shadows lurked near the window. As we sat close to each other, I, once again, made my way on sitting next to Jungkook. I wanted him to protect me as I was afraid to watch this movie which he had picked out for us. I laid my head on his shoulder since he didn't seem to mind me at all. I scooted closer to him, smelling his scent so close to me excites me, to the point where the movie isn't was it scaring me anymore. It's what is trying to conceal itself within my pants.
I need help. I need to take care of it. I need to conceal it. I need to hide it but at the same time, I want to touch it.
"Jimin-ah..." He turned to me with a slight concern in his face, "Are you okay??" No, I'm not okay. Not at all. But, I felt like I couldn't tell him. "Y-Yeah, just a little uncomfortable.."
As I said this, he moved his arm and wrapped it around me. I blushed and picked up the blanket to my face. He pulled it away playfully, as if we were playing a game. I tugged it back, and from there began our tug of war. Meanwhile, Taehyung had sat there, staring at his phone and laughing a bit. He was texting Bam Bam.
Jungkook had given the blanket one last tug, taking it away from me, and as I had recently tucked the blanket between my legs, he had managed to spread them as well. I flushed in embarrassment as Jungkook's eyes widened. He did see it.
I turned from him, taking the blanket with me. I pouted and blushed, as the embarrassment was practically killing me.
"Jimin-ah, what was that? Are you..." His voice was cut off by a scream in the movie. He looked at me once more. I finally turned to look back at him and I was a bit scared of him at this point. He smirked.
"Jungkook...?" I got up slightly while his arm reached out to grab mines. He sat me down and looked at me. With eyes like that, you just want him to take you already...
As I took the blanket over me, I just wanted to rub a bit...And so I did. I never did this around him, and he seemed to know I was doing it too since he looked away as I started. It felt so good, being next to him made it even better. Never has this felt so good...it didn't feel real. But what does he think of me? What would he think if he knew why I was doing this? Would he come to hate me? Would he think I'm strange? Will he think I'm disgusting...?
I took my hand out and ran into the bathroom. Turing on the water, I washed my hands roughly, not wanting to leave a trace of what I just did. The feeling of everything, the way his eyes stared at me...It felt so good. Would I be considered naughty? Probably. Is it strange to do this because of a boy? Probably. Did I love it? Yes. I want him to touch me as well. His hands are already bigger than mines so to feel them all over me...
Snap out of it. Get yourself together. Jungkook is your friend. Nothing more, nothing less. Even though you may love him, forget about your temptations. All of them.