To the guest reviewer, I now know as Leah, thank you very much for your support and kind words. I'm glad you have enjoyed the last couple of chapters. When I first started this story, i had a clear direction in where i was heading but then as I began to write and added Casey, it led me in a whole other direction. I'd written 18 chapters before deleting them and returning to my original plan. I then wrestled with myself over the story but i am glad you're enjoying it as it is, and hopefully you'll enjoy this chapter

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"Talk to me Liv" Alex gently commanded, as the brunette's tears gradually stopped falling "You can trust me"

Olivia sighed as she shifted to look at the blonde "I've never told anyone Alex, and I do trust you, it's just, I'm worried about how you'll react"

"You can tell me anything Olivia, you know you can"

Olivia nodded, she was so frightened of how Alex would react, she had never shared the information she was about to, but going against her instinct to run she blurted, "My Mom was raped and had me"

Alex was silent as she took the information she had received in, so Olivia was the product of rape. She hadn't expected that, of course it made sense why Olivia always apologised for being a little rough, asking if she'd hurt the blonde but it didn't change how Alex saw her, she was still Liv

Olivia watched as her words sunk in and her heart was thudding inside her chest at the silence, her panic rising "If you don't want anything to do with me…"

Her words were cut off by the blonde's fingers linking with her own and a gentle squeeze of the hand stopped her from running "Thank you for telling me" Alex began "I know that was hard for you, but it doesn't change anything about how I feel about you"

"You're not repulsed by me?"

Alex squeezed the brunette's hand once again; her heart breaking at the thought that Olivia was worried that's how she'd feel "Oh Liv, of course I'm not. How you were conceived doesn't have any impact on who you are"

Olivia nodded, she'd always worried that she would turn into her father, worried that being his spawn she would become him "I have half his DNA"

"You do Olivia, which means you might have his eyes, the same colour hair, but it doesn't mean you're a rapist, you are a wonderful, kind, caring human being and you have morals and you know what's right and wrong"

"You believe that?"

Alex nodded "Yes, I do"

"I was always scared I'd be like him, you know?" Olivia explained "I always worried that I'd do something bad and then my Mom would be right"

"What do you mean?"

Olivia sighed "My Mom was an alcoholic, when she was drinking she would always tell me that I was my fathers daughter. I know it was the drink talking but I still worry she was right"

Alex nodded "Can I hold you Liv" Alex asked, wondering whether it would be too much for the brunette

"You want to hold me?"

"Yes, Liv. I love you, and I'm here whenever you want to talk, and if you don't then I'll hold you until you are ready"

Olivia nodded, her body sinking into the blonde's outstretched arms. She sighed as she felt the blonde's warmth and her arms envelope her in a hug

"My Mom died drunk" Olivia said after a few minutes "She fell down the subway steps"

Alex stroked the brunette's cheek, her fingers dancing over the flesh, feeling the tears that had escaped; she squeezed the woman gently, letting her know she was there

"I didn't get to see her before she died" Olivia choked out "I was too busy being a whore"

Alex was shocked at the crudeness of the brunette's words, she didn't know what to say, so instead placed a kiss to the brunette's hairline

Olivia allowed the tears to fall freely now, the simple act of kindness from the blonde finally opened the floodgates, and she shook with her emotion

Alex began to grow worried, when after 10 minutes the brunette's sobs hadn't slowed, she gently lifted the brunette from her chest, a sad but comforting smile on her lips as she said "Liv, you're going to make yourself sick if you don't breathe"

Olivia's nodded, willing her tears to stop, and after a few deep breaths and a final gasp she gave a small smile to the blonde "Sorry"

Alex shook her head "No Liv, no need to apologise"

"I must look a mess"

"You do" Alex chuckled lightly as Olivia feigned hurt "But a beautiful mess"

"Oh hush you"

A silence filled the air before Alex asked "What did you mean when you said you were too busy being a whore?"

Olivia sighed "I...you know I keep saying I'm not gay?"

Alex nodded, she'd heard the brunette say those words over and over for three years and was worried where this conversation was headed "I told you..."

"You didn't care about labels" Olivia finished the sentence "I know and I know you mean it. It's not so much the label that scares me, i guess I use that as an excuse not to stay"

"I thought as much"

"When I was little whenever my Mom drank, I would stay hidden in my room, she could be nasty sometimes and she would hit me"

"Oh Liv"

Olivia shook her head "I know it was the alcohol, when she wasn't drinking she was a great Mom, we'd talk and laugh and she'd cuddle me. When I got older, she told me I looked like him"

"Your Father?"

Olivia nodded "She drank more then, the older I got the less she was sober. I began truanting, I was a bit of a tearaway, a handful at school, and I was 14 when I lost my virginity"

"14?" Alex asked, her voice a whisper

"Yeah" Olivia nodded "He was a bit older, local bad boy"

"How much older?"

"Oh no, he was only a couple years older" Olivia explained, noting the concern on the blonde's face "Anyway, it didn't last, he chucked me a couple days later. But after that I found sex intriguing, and i've been with a lot of blokes since then"

"How many?"

"I've lost count, but over 50"

Alex was shocked, while she understood that Olivia had had a rough childhood she wasn't sure how this reflected her adult life "But how does this relate to us?"

"Up until I met you, sex had been used as a punishment, it was never more than a quick fuck and they never stayed over and I never stayed over. I've never had a relationship Alex, and then I met you"

Alex nodded, motioning for the brunette to continue

"When I kissed you in the park, it was because I wanted to, I finally felt an attraction to someone, not just a sexual attraction but an emotional one"

"You hurt me, I think I'd already fallen for you"

"What I did was wrong Al, I was your teacher, ethically it was wrong and I had to ask to change classes"

Alex nodded, she'd come to terms with what had happened all those years ago but she was still at a loss "But when we met again"

"I was scared Alex, scared of hurting you again. But I was also scared of getting hurt, I've never been loved, I've never really enjoyed sex until you"

"So..."

"So, I don't know why it feels different with you, but I was scared"

Alex nodded, she did understand where Olivia was coming from, a silence settled over them. A few minutes had passed when Alex asked gently "How are you feeling now?"

"Tired"

Alex nodded, looking at the clock "It is late"

"I should go" Olivia said as she stood, all of a sudden the panic and fear returning at the blonde's words "I've taken your evening, you've got work and I've got work"

Alex stood, quickly taking the brunette's hands as she soothed "Hey, take a breath, no need to panic"

Olivia nodded, her heart still racing "Sorry"

"Stop with the apologies Olivia. You don't have to go, I have got work tomorrow but I can call in late, one good thing about working with a friend of my Uncle Bill's"

"I have to work though"

"Yes, but you can go from here""

"I don't have any clean clothes for tomorrow"

Alex sighed, she could tell that she wouldn't be able to convince the brunette to say and wasn't really surprised "Okay, can I drop you home though?"

"I brought my car" Olivia replied, before sighing "Thank you for the offer Alex, I just, I feel so drained, and I've shared so much, I just…staying, it's too much right now"

Alex nodded "We're taking this slow Olivia, I do have a perfectly good spare room, but I can see you're not ready"

"I'm sorry Alex"

"I know" Alex replied, wrapping the brunette in a hug and swiftly kissing her lips "Let me know you get home okay"

"I will" Olivia replied "Thanks for tonight, I hope you had a nice time even if I snotted over you"

Alex laughed, "I didn't mind. I had a lovely time"

"I'm glad. I'll see you soon?"

"You will" Alex promised "Take Care Olivia"

"And you Al"