Shawn mentally slapped himself.
How could he have been so blind?
In all, his childhood hadn't been all the bad.
Had his dad been somewhat controlling and was always prepping him to become a police officer?
Yes. But, even though it's not what really happened, Shawn wouldn't be where he was without most of the training.
Sure his teens years were kind of messed up but what teen's weren't?
He had loving parents and a good friend.
How could he blame his dad all these years?
Now he wasn't here and he couldn't apologize.
He himself mentally ruined his childhood.