I do not own Arrow or any of the characters in any way just the storyline. Everything else but that is owned strictly by DC comics, and the CW. Please enjoy, and please leave postive commets only thank you! This will also be my take on season 4. This is also my first story ever on Thea, and I've been thinking of doing this for a while now, and putting my own spin on her feelings after her revival. Hope you enjoy and as always please leave positve reviews only!
Bold - Hallucinations/Visions/Memories
Italics - Thinking
"My name is Thea Queen, a girl who went from being a spoiled little rich kid who got everything she wanted, to a girl who now had to fight for survival after everything and everyone in her life was taken from her. Now I fight beside my brother and his team in order to help keep our city safe from Damien Dhark, but in order to do so, just like with Ollie I had to become someone else...I had to become something else...
Previously on Driven To Murder - "You. You did this to me." Clenching my hands into fists by my side as a rush of anger began to flood through me flashes of Sara dying began to fill my already weary mind again as I clutched the sides of my head. "No! No! not again!" Shaking my head I tried to back away again as I now felt Malcolm's arms wrap around me. "It's okay," He said calmly and as I heard his voice I instantly began shaking as I pushed away from him. "Get the hell away from me you sick son of a bitch!"
"All I was-I was just a toy to you?" My voice shook as I spoke but I didn't look up at him. "You made me murder Sara. What that part of your so-called plan all along? What? were you going to make me murder my own brother too? Was Tommy dying apart of your plan?"
"Ollie...I..." I shook my head and began to tremble and shake against my big brother's firm but yet loving grip as he cotinued to hold onto me. "I...I k-killed Sara! Sara's dead because of me!" I saw the hurt lodged in Oliver's eyes as I began to sob harder now buring my head against his chest. "Malcolm dr-drugged me! I- I didn't know what I was doing! I'm so sorry! Please don't hate me!"
"Listen to me, you are the most sencere, most kind-hearted person I have ever know my whole life. You were the one who helped Roy turn his life around, and You were the one who helped me get through the hard times I was on the Island. When I was ready to end it all and give up, you were the one person that gave me strength to keep on going and to keep fighting. Thea, You may have half of my blood running through you but that doesn't mean you're still not a Queen. Speedy, you are the best friend and the best little sister any big brother could've ever asked for, and I know that if Tommy were here, he would agree with me." Hearing Ollie's words made me feel better as the visions of Sara and my mother began to fade from my mind now as a blanket of darkness now began to ungulf me causing me to collapse in Oliver's arms. "Thea? Thea!"
NOW...
Chapter 3 - Haunted
My vision was blurry by the time I had regained conciousness. Opening my eyes I found myself now lying down on a couch with a cold cloth on my forehead, and as I looked around to catch a glimpse of my surroundings, I noticed Lyla Diggle's wife approaching me carrying a tray of what appeared to be soup. "Good. You're awake." She said sweetly setting the tray down on the nearby coffee table next to me. "Oliver, she's awake now." I heard the sound of footsteps followed by the sight of Oliver as my vision now began to come back into focus as he wrapped his arms around me. "How are you feeling?" He asked quietly. "You feeling any better?" I managed a short nod just as I noticed the sight of Diggle walking in carrying his baby daughter Sara in his arms.
"You okay Thea?" He asked concerned. "Oliver said you passed out after your encounter with Malcolm. Want to tell us what happened?" I shook my head no in response just as I suddenly realised about Laurel. "Ollie, we need to find Laurel. I-I accidently hurt her." "What do you mean?" Oliver asked placing a hand on my shoulder. "Slow down Speedy, calm down." I drew in a short breath before continuing. "Laurel had a plan to take Sara's body to Nanda Parbat to use the Lazarus pit to ressurect her, and Laurel wanted me to help her, but just as we were about to go through with it, I began to have flashes of Sara dying."
"Flashes? You mean like memories?" Lyla asked as she took a seat on the couch next to me and began rubbing my shoulder as I nodded. "I think so." I replied. "Then the next thing I rembered was an overwhelming feeling of guilt that was consuming me, and I guess I had attacked Laurel because the next thing I remembered was someone calling my name and pulling me off of her. When I looked at her she was coughing and gasping for breath." Turning my attention to Oliver I said, "Ollie, I didn't know what was happening or what I was doing. I didn't mean it I swear."
Everyone thinks that I have it all
But it's so empty living behind these castle walls
These castle walls
If I should tumble if I should fall
Would any one hear me screaming behind these castle walls
There's no-one here at all, behind these castle walls
I felt Oliver's hand on my shoulder again as he whispered, "I know Speedy. I know you didn't mean it okay? We'll figure out a way to fix this alright? I promise." I then attempted to push myself up off the couch but Oliver held me back down. "Easy Speedy." He said softly. "John and I will handle this alright? Don't worry about anything just stay here and rest." "Ollie, I want to help." I protested while ignoring his pleadings in regards to having me stay put. "This is all my fault. Laurel is hurt because of me! can't just sit here. I-I have to do something!" "Thea please, for once just do what I say alright? John and I will take care of Laurel. We'll make sure she knows that it's not your fault okay? I promise."
I sat back down on the couch and sighed heavily as I nodded and watched as Oliver now rose to his feet again and looked at Diggle. "If Laurel is with Sara's body then that means she's at the Starling City Cemetary." Oliver replied softly. I watched as Diggle nodded in response as he leaned toward Lyla and whispered, "Don't worry I'll be back soon." "Keep an eye on Thea." I heard Oliver whisper as Lyla nodded in response. "Of course. Don't worry, she'll be safe here. Malcolm won't be able to get to her here." I closed my eyes and leaned my head back against the back of the couch drawing in deep breath after breath as I listened to the sounds of Oliver and Diggle's footsteps leaving, and the quiet cooing sounds coming from baby Sara, as I began to think back to thoughts about my own childhood.
Everyone thinks that I have it all
But it's so empty living behind these castle walls
These castle walls
If I should tumble if I should fall
Would any one hear me screaming behind these castle walls
There's no-one here at all, behind these castle walls
My first memory was the first time I had saw Oliver after he returned from being away from us for five years, the warm and loving feeling that I felt from my heart was the first emotional feeling I felt in a long time as I threw my arms around Oliver and told him how much I had missed him. I remember the tears that had filled up in my eyes I heard his voice whisper in my ear, "You were with me the whole time." My memory then began to twist and shift around me flashing back to my attack on Laurel and I opened my eys witha start and began to hyperventalate out of fear. "Thea, easy."
Nobody knows I'm all alone
Living in this castle made of stone
They say that money is freedom but I feel trapped inside it all
And while I sit so high up on a throne
I wonder how I can feel this low
On top of the world it's beautiful
But there's no place to fall
The next thing I felt was the comforting hand of Lyla on my shoulder as I turned toward her. "It's okay, you're alright." She said softly. "Just relax okay? John and Oliver will be back soon with Laurel alright?" I shook my head as it started to ache as the memories inside my head started to twist and turn. My hands flew to the sides of my head as the aching started to grow worse. It felt as if I was being electrocuted by a thousand volts of lightning, and as hard as I tried to will the pain away, in the end it all proved too much for me to handle. The flashes in my head surged through me like bolts of electricity. Each one worse then the last. I was being haunted by tortorous visions of those I care about, watching them all suffer and die by my own hands. Diggle, Felicity, Roy, Lyla, Baby Sara, even Ollie, My own brother. With one last attempt I shook my head and let out a scream of pain as my thoughts flashed back to the letter I had written to Roy.
I thought I could still be Thea Queen
but Thea Queen was trusting, and I don't trust anyone.
Not anymore.
Thea Queen was also weak, and no matter what it takes I will be strong.
Was everything that I had written to Roy true? I couldn't believe I had made a mistake in trusting Malcolm. After everything he had done, how could I've been so stupid as to let my guard down and trust a damn murderer? Then again it was like Ollie had said, I was half a Queen and half a Merlyn. The daughter of not just two psycopathic murderer's, and no matter how hard I wished to be normal, I knew deep inside my heart that that wish wasn't ever going to come true.
Everyone thinks that I have it all
But it's so empty living behind these castle walls
These castle walls
If I should tumble if I should fall
Would any one hear me screaming behind these castle walls
There's no-one here at all, behind these castle walls
"Thea! Listen to me! You need to snap out of it!" I could hear Lyla's voice calling me from a distance, as if she sounded far away now, but I knew she wasn't since I could feel her shaking my shoulders gently to get me back to normal. "Please, Thea, calm down." Lyla's voice was sincere and genuine but as the images of seeing her, and baby Sara hurt among the dead of those I cared about circling around inside my weary brain, a burst of anger now began to fill up inside me as visions of Malcolm flashed through my mind causing me to growl in anger like an animal, and the next thing I heard was a scream of pain and the squeal and a cry of an infant.
TOO BE CONTINUED...DUN! DUN DUN! What will happen next for Thea and what will become of Diggle's wife and daughter? Will Lyla and Baby Sara come out this unscathed? Stay tuned for more to find out. Chapter 4 Will be up as soon as I can get it. Hope you enjoyed and as always please review!
PS. The song lyrics in the story is called Castle Walls Solo Version by Christina Aguilera, which is another fantastic song as a tribute for Thea.