Bruises On My Heart
By: Riley
Summary - They always say you're nothing without your fans. There's truth in that. But some fans...some fans take it to heart and their idols become their property. Literally.
Prologue
So here's the thing.
I follow you.
I follow you online. I follow your videos. I follow everything you have to say. I'm your follower. But not just your follower, I'm your biggest fan. I take everything you say to heart because I feel that your words are truly genuine. You know exactly how to pinpoint what I'm feeling when I don't know how to express myself. Your songs saved me that way. They saved my life. I've been lost, broken, unsure of where to go, drowning and choking in the anxiety and the unknown, and your songs spoke to me as you felt the same way. I've been following your career since it started and I want nothing more than for you to see as much success as you deserve.
The thing is, I feel like I know you. As a person. So that we're much closer than a celebrity and a fan. Sorry, I know you hate that, to be referred to as a celebrity. But that's what you are. You're a celebrity. To others who feel that there's too much distance for you them to transcend, but I can. And we have. I'm so much more than you fan but at the same time, that's all I am. Your fan. And I will always be your fan. So I'll follow everything you do and support everything you do.
The thing is, though, you don't see me. You're engrossed in your own life, with your own friends, and working past the demons that haunt you. I can tell. I can always tell when you're sad or angry, I can see it in your eyes in photos and videos. I can see it when you act differently during meet and greats or when people run across you. You'd do anything for your fans, you always say, and that sets you apart from the others. So that when you are sad or upset and fans notice, they get worried or mad because you're not fully 'on' and I defend you all the time. They have to know that you're still a person. They quickly backtrack and say they don't mean to be rude but I think they get the point.
And so when the days comes that we meet, I'll be sure to let you know everything, all of this, and how much you've changed my life when I allowed you into it. And, hopefully, you'll allow me into yours.
A/N: Unlike a lot of my other stories that have my OCs in this, this one is focused almost entirely on Riley and Rhuben. Their brothers, McFly, Busted, friends, family, and managers are all just as important but it focuses on the two girls. I haven't done this style of writing in a while but for this story I've found it's the best way to write it.
Also, I wanted to explain why I'm doing this story in place of (for now, as I do think I can redeem it) What Happened To Your Band? As I've been working on WHTYB I realized I was getting stuck for two reasons 1) I didn't make it a standalone story and instead chose it to be a sequel to Down Goes Another One (which, as much as I enjoyed it, admittedly is rushed and showed I was coming up with ideas as I went along because Harry's issue basically came out of nowhere and didn't have much of a good ending) and 2) I treated it as a origin story when DGAO should've been, let alone not making an origin story in the first place.
For those that don't know, Rhu and I refer to stories where we introduce our OCs—or in this case re-introduce an origin story while all the others ones in that fandom are stories in their own right. In this fandom, upon retrospect, I didn't need to do that. As much as I cringe upon re-reading those stories (Ii still enjoy them, though as I remember the fun I had writing them) their origins were already explained within our first McFly stories Welcome To My Life and the now deleted No More Secrets, No More Lies (and our possible future upcoming co-write/re-write of those stories). Treating DGAO/WHTYB like one shouldn't have happened and I should've just treated it like it's own story; like this one!
Anyway, here's the first chapter to Bruises On My Heart, I hope you enjoy it.
Cheers,
-Riles