Sirius returned home later that night exhausted. Even after hours of discussion with Lily he still felt torn and internally he argued over what he should do. On the one hand, he felt honor bound to care for Kagome on the off chance that she was his but his other side argued that they weren't cut out to raise a child. lily had been very...enlightening. she had tried to explain everything she could about what went into raising a baby and ended up scaring him half to death with all the ways Kagome could get hurt or sick. Dear lord, all the potential choking hazards alone were giving him a headache.
Sirius trudged down the hallway toward the study with the intent of sinking into one of it's plush cushioned chairs, preferably the one right next to the fireplace, and organizing his thoughts. He needed a plan of action, to decide once and for all just what in Merlin's name he was going to do. But of course, not even that small comfort could be afforded to him. As he opened the heavy double doors to the study he saw Remus in said chair by the fire with Kagome held secure in his arms and an open book resting on the arm of the chair, the two both fast asleep. A surge of something he wasn't quite sure of washed over him at the sight. He was getting attached and he knew it. He wanted the best for Kagome that much was certain. To give the best possible start to the giggling little baby that was wrapping him around her little finger with frightening speed. Now, though, a whole new problem had arisen. It was not longer if Kagome was his. It wasn't even if he should take care of Kagome. Now the question was, could he? And the answer was no. he couldn't provide her with the kind of parental insight that would be needed. Hell, he barely was able to change her correctly. It was painfully simple and straightforward, he simply wasn't good enough to be her father.
It was decided. He would tell Remus in the morning. He sighed, looking at the two of them asleep in the chair. He needed to pack Kagome's things and owl the orphanage.
AN~
hey yall! I'm backkkkk! sorry for not updating but these past few months have been really crazy busy for me. You may have noticed, but I redid the format of my chapters because I thought it would be easier to read it this way. anywho hope you like this update and Sirius' decision. as always review, like, and follow! I do read all your reviews and enjoy hearing your thoughts!