Remus woke up uncommonly early with a stiff neck and an arm that pricked with pins and needles like the static on an old TV. Using his other arm, the one that was awake, he tiredly pushed his reading glasses back to their proper perch before glancing at the cause of his dead limb. There nestled in the crook of his arm was Kagome. She was blissfully asleep and unaware of the tug of emotions she invoked for the one who held her. He noticed the growing scrunch in the little girl's nose and prepared for her ear piercing wail but instead he was welcomed by an unfairly cute sneeze as she settled once more into sleep. The peace of the morning was broken by the door to the study being opened, revealing Sirius. In his hand was the blanket in which they had found her in all it's tattered glory, Kagome's embroidered name just barely visible, the corner peeking out of a fold.
"Perfect, thanks Sirius, my arm's gone numb" Remus moved to accept the blanket but Sirius shook his head.
"I've owled the orphanage," he said quietly, glancing quickly at Kagome before meeting his friend's blank stare.
"What?"
"Remus we have to let her go"
"You said you could take care of her. She is your responsibility, Sirius. This.. this doesn't feel right; it feels like a way out" Remus accused with slightly narrowed eyes, "you said-"
"I KNOW WHAT I SAID" Sirius cut him off with a yell startling both Remus and Kagome causing the latter to start crying. Ashamed, Sirius reached for the baby only for Remus to lean just out of reach, cradling and shushing her himself. Sirius returned his arm to his side quickly. Taking a deep breath he spoke softly, "I know what I said but this is taking care of her. This is the best I can do, I'm not… I'm not cut out for fatherhood and I would only make things worse for her"
Remus narrowed his eyes fully at the other man, "You say that. Keep thinking you're alone and you will be," He all but shoved the now calm baby into Sirius' arms, "I'll go pack her things" he spoke flatly over his shoulder as he walked away.
AN~
hey, so here's another chapter! just a psa, I do intend to have this story reach about 20 chapters ish so its a pretty short story and but its not over by a long shot (sorry about these short chapters :P)