This is a post-5x02 one shot. I loved that episode, and yet I keep thinking about poor Emma standing alone outside the diner, the Darkness keeping her away from all of those she loves and the home she worked so hard to accept. I imagined just a bit of a scenario to make that slightly less painful. Hope you enjoy!
"Dark Swan, Hot Chocolate"
She stands alone outside the packed diner, huddled into the long, black duster she wears over her equally dark dress, trying futilely to ward off the chill autumn air. Unfortunately, the effort is wasted when it feels the cold is coming from within her as well, wrapping subtly around her heart. Cozy, bright lights and the hum of chatter from her gathered family, former friends and allies, emanate in a soft glow from the windows of the little inn and restaurant, piercing the night.
The woman once known as Emma Swan, now the self-proclaimed Dark One, watches those she loves mingling, laughing, and embracing within impassively. If a person didn't know the tiniest nuance of her face, she would look unaffected, waiting for the best time to make her next move. However, as her thin frame, buffeted by the wind at her back, leans forward slightly, a hint of the yearning within her peeps through the harsh, immovable veneer. The former lost girl who had almost – finally – found her home nearly shows through the frosted, severe hair and barely glimmering pale skin for a moment, aching desperately to take a step closer, to be back inside, within the warmth of love and light, once more a part of something.
The Darkness slides back in smoothly, quickly, before Emma's human longing can fully take hold, purring with the thrilling tingle of so much magic at her fingertips, whispering that she does not need any of them. 'Look at them, going right on without you…' the insidious voice in her head reminds, until Emma finally recedes once more and it is the icy, impervious new magical villain who turns and begins to walk away – a solitary black shape against the backdrop of the dark, deserted street.
Suddenly, she stiffens at the sound of the bell above Granny's door jangling, a slam as it hits the frame again, and footsteps pounding down the stairs, onto the pavement, seemingly running after her. She pauses, body taut and vibrating with barely contained power, fingers clenched in tightly until her nails dig into her palms, forcing herself not to spin and immediately blast the newcomer off his or her feet.
Waiting, she is still and unchanging as stone until a small, light hands falls gently on her arm, and Henry speaks in the voice that pierced her impenetrable heart four years ago when he showed up at her door in Boston and refuses to leave her, even now. "Mom!" Henry pleads, voice roughly cracking with emotion as he clutches her elbow. "Wait, please…"
No matter how the beast within roars and tries to surge up in retaliation at her hesitating, Emma fights through it enough to turn and look on her son, a young man now but still beseeching her to listen and believe in him. Henry's mop of brown hair ruffles in the breeze as his eyes search her face, hope somehow still directed at her, his faith causing a lump to rise in the back of her throat where nothing else has penetrated.
"Here," Henry offers, holding up a to-go cup from Granny's that she hadn't noticed until then. "I know you like it with cinnamon…like I do. You must miss the hot chocolate." He tries a mischievous, knowing little smile, and Emma somehow feels a tiny echo of her own inching her own lips up at the corners.
Giving the barest of nods, Emma extends her hand to take his offering, careful not to let her fingers brush his – not wanting the chill that has taken her over to infect his warm heart and generous spirit. "Thanks, Kid," she rasps, struggling to force the words past a tightened throat and make them heard.
He shrugs, "No problem" his easy reply. They share a moment that is nearly casual, coming close to the easy camaraderie they have always had. But his earnest face sobers quickly as he catches her wrist before she can distance herself again and stares into her eyes unflinchingly. "I – I know you're angry…at Gramps and Grandma, my other mom…everyone. And you're hurt. You feel like it's too late…this is who you are now, and that they should have to pay. It isn't true though! I'm not giving up on you – and I'm not the only one, either."
She shakes her head, starting to protest, but Henry interrupts, not letting her deny his hope and his love…his Charming optimism. "I miss you, Mom," he adds wistfully, then plows on, "but I know you'll be back. Until then, enjoy the hot chocolate." With that, he gives her one last quick smile and dashes back the way he came, back into the warmth and light of the gathered citizens of Storybrooke.
Emma turns and continues the walk to her house alone. Raising the cup to her lips though, she finds one tiny tendril of warmth and comfort at first sip; the chocolate, milk, and spice of the cinnamon greet her tongue with happy nostalgia and sweetness. It solves nothing – and yet, for the briefest of moments, it thaws a bit of the ice that has encased her from the inside out. Maybe the real Emma is still in there somewhere, anxious to savor something as simple as a favorite drink and maybe – just maybe – find her way back out.