Title: I Will Forever Love You, But Will You Love Me?
SakuraxYata
World: K: Return of Kings, AU!God
Age: Sakura: 18, Yata: 18
Current Time: February 14, Spring, 5:39
Word Count: 6127
Yata was standing there talking and having a grand time with Shiro, Kuroh and Anna. All of them were laughing and talking about the Valentine's Dance that would be held in just a few hours from now.
"I have to go you guys. I need to get ready, bye!" Anna told them as she waved them goodbye and went back to her dorm room. The three boys waved back at her and watched as her form was nothing but a blur.
"Well, I must say I'm a bit disappointed that there was no party for my return." A female voice spoke out. The voice was rich and just the ever so slightest, sultry. The three boys turned around to see a pink haired girl behind them.
She stood at 5'4, an inch taller than Anna, with long pink haired tied into a low side ponytail that rested at the right of her collar bone. Her bangs falling to her right side of her head. Her eyes the most beautiful shade of spring green ever seen. Around her neck was a black with a white jewel in the middle and a charm hanging off that looked like it could fit Loki's own charm on his choker. Her body dressed in a white form fitting long sleeved crop top with a pastel pink skirt attached to suspenders, her feet covered in pastel pink Mary Jane's.
They all looked at her in surprise, "Sakura-chan!" Shiro ran up to her short form and spun her around in a hug. Sakura hugged him back as well as he sat her back onto the grounds of the garden.
"It's nice seeing you again, Shiro-chan. I've missed your hugs so much." Sakura told him as she clasped her hands around his own. He gave her a grin that went from ear to ear. Yet again her gave her a bone crushing hug.
"Nice to see you again, Sakura." Kuroh gave her a warm smile and a hug as well.
"Nice to see you haven't changed much, Kuroh. Still have those pretty blue eyes." Sakura said as she stared into his piercing eyes. They had always been her favorite thing about Kuroh, well other then his body.
"Sakura." Yata gave her a blank look and a monotonous voice.
Sakura looked over to him and gave him a never changing smile, "Yata, long time no see. Well this has been a nice visit and all but if there is a party then I must look my absolute best."
"You're staying here?" Yata asked with wide eyes.
"Well of course. I can't miss my last year of high school for anything." Sakura told them as she waved goodbye just like Anna did. Yata bit back what he was going to say to her as she was already disappearing.
"Are you still mad at her, Yata?" Kuroh asked his friend with a look from the corner of his eyes. Yata didn't even need to answer as he took out a piece of candy and bit down on it hard, making the candy shatter in his mouth. Yata turned around and walked away as Shiro sighed out and went after his friend.
Kuroh looked at the two and then back to where Sakura had once stood. It had always been like this with the two of them. The 4 of them had been friend since they were young and over time Yata had developed feelings for Sakura. He had asked her out when they were 12, 6 years ago, she had blushed and said 'yes', it turned out she held the same feelings for him.
When they first started to date everything was well and dandy, but as the years went by she had started to change. Getting older, taller, more beautiful and soon enough she got 'tired' of him as she had put it. Soon enough their relationship became on and off, more physical than emotional. After 4 years, at the age of 16 Sakura had forever broken it off with Yata. Telling him that it was over and that he wasn't what she needed and that she growing tired of the on and offness and that she was getting tired of it and him.
At one point in their friendship Kuroh and Sakura had grown closer, she would find comfort in him and they had a relationship that didn't last for more then a year. They had agreed that it wasn't working and agreed to be friends, needless to say for the time span of her and Kuroh dating, Yata didn't speak to neither of them.
Back to Yata and Sakura, they were each other's first love, first kiss, first everything. They even had matching limiters, something that neither of them could ever throw away. Not because it was their limiter but because that was the first thing they had ever bought together and given to the other.
Kuroh gave a sigh as he made his way to Sakura's old room, she had some explaining to do.
…
Knocking on the white door Kuroh waited for her to open the door. A moment later the door was opened to reveal the pink haired girl in nothing but a towel. Kuroh's face quickly became red and he turned his back to her. She chuckled a little at his cute reaction, "No need to be shy, Kuroh. You've already seen everything so why so shy now?" She joked as she walked away from the door and he entered with his hands covering his reddened face.
"So what are you doing here?" Sakura called from her closet. This had been her dorm room before leaving school, everything was left the same.
"I came by to ask some questions." Kuroh told her as he coughed out a bit to rid of that embarrassing moment.
"Oh, ask away then." Sakura told him as she stepped out of the closet dressed in a pair of black shorts and a purple muscle shirt on. She sat down in front of him, as he was sitting on the couch she sat in the arm chair.
He gave her a serious look, blue eyes focused on spring green, "What was your real reason for completely breaking up with Yata?"
It was silent for a moment in the room. Sakura's spring green eyes once full of happiness completely washed away and a blank, dead inside look took over.
"I don't want to talk about this, Kuroh." Her once rich voice was now dark and empty.
"You have to whether you like it or not, Sakura."
"I don't if I don't want to. What I told him back then was all the reasons. I was getting tired of him, you know how I am. I don't like to be tied down to only one person. That's just not me." Sakura told him as she looked down at her lap. She balled up her fist in anger and sadness.
"I know you better than anyone, even better then Yata. And I know that what you told him wasn't the real reason." Kuroh gave her a hard look at her slightly shaking form.
"...He will never love me like I want him to…" Sakura told him, her voice shaking and in the lowest possible whisper ever.
"What do you mean? He loves you more than anyone in this universe."
"Really? Because the way he looked at that human girl says otherwise." Sakura looked up at him with the slightest tears in her eyes.
"What you mean Anna? You saw her? How long were you even there for?" Kuroh asked her.
Sakura pulled her knees up against her and leaned her hand on her knees, "I was there long enough to hear about the dance and to see the way you three look at her."
"What do you mean?"
"You know exactly what I'm talking about. All three of you are in love with her, helplessly in love with her no matter what you tell me I will always know the truth. Being the God of Love can have it's perks. It helps me not get my heart hurt." Sakura looked up at Kuroh with sadden eyes, so much pain were in those green eyes.
"What happened to you? When you were younger you used to believe in eternal love with Yata." The girl that he was looking at was not his Sakura, this girl was not the girl that helped people fall in love.
"I grew up Kuroh. I've been to the human world, I've seen their love. It's scary, Kuroh. Their love was so toxic and I guess it got to me." Sakura was breaking in front of him, she hated it. She was suppose to be the girl with the never changing smile and bright happy eyes, not the girl with the fake smile and dead eyes.
"What have those humans done to you in the past 2 years?" Kuroh walked over to her and kneald before her.
"They haven't done anything to me, they have just made me realize that love isn't eternal."
"But we're gods, Sakura. We have a longer time span then they will ever have."
"Why are you bringing these things up now, Kuroh? It's been two years since then, Yata has obviously fallen in love with someone else. She's changed him, he doesn't need me anymore. He never did because he was meant to meet her no matter what, Fate had already decided for him that he would love her and only her." The tear were falling from her eyes now. She didn't try to fight them anymore, they fell onto her hands, onto her knees and onto his hands. Kuroh's trembling hands.
Not once in his life had he ever seen her cry. Her tears were clear and running down her face. He felt so mad at himself for making her cry. He was so shocked that his body trembled, how could any of them ever let their Goddess of Love get to be this broken.
"You still love him don't you?" Kuroh asked her in a whisper, her eyes seemed to look even more hurt.
"I love him more then anything Kuroh. I've loved him for years. But when I turned 16, I was given an invitation to meet the Fates. They told me everything. He will never love me the way I love him." Her broken hearted voice began to tell him of the events that had taken place the night of her 16th birthday.
Flashback
It was her 16th birthday and she couldn't be happier. She had been given so many gifts from friends and family, more importantly the love of her life. They had been going strong for the past 6 months even though they had been on and off for a while. And she couldn't be happier.
"Hey Sakura, this came in for you." A female student told her as she handed her a white envelope with her name written in gold ink. Taking the letter from the girl Sakura opened it to reveal that it was an invitations to meet the Fates.
Her eyes widen as she read the invite. She was to meet them at midnight at the Old Temple. They would not wait for her if she was late. Quickly looking at the clock she saw that it was half past 11. She had 30 minutes to get there. The Old Temple was a temple in the Dream Forest, a place that people say you can never find. Well she had 30 minutes to find it.
After searching for 28 of those 30 minutes she had found the place. Running to the temple she had made it in just the nick of time. Right as she entered the Old Temple the candles on the wall came to life and burned brightly. Giving her light to reach up mid way up the staircase. At the top of the staircase were 3 thrones. One for each Fate.
The place became dark, the candles instantly stopped burning and the only light was from the light of the full moon. Taking a step back, a screen of smoke hid the 3 thrones from her sight before the smoke was gone and 3 beautiful women sat on one throne each.
The one on the left had long black hair that had curls at the ends. Her eyes reflected the color of the moon. Dressed in a short white toga with a purple shawl floating around her form. The one in the middle had mid-back long blue hair with pale lilac eyes. Dressed in a long cream toga with a gold shawl floating around her. And the last one on the right had the shortest hair, dark green hair with those moon like eyes. She was dressed in a knee length egg shell white toga with a green shawl floating around her.
"Goddess of Love, you have come." The one in the middle spoke, she had a very mature sounding voice, like that of one that gave orders.
"You have requested me, Fates?" Sakura bowed down to them in honor.
"We are aware that today is your birthday and you have turned 16, are we right?" The one on the right asked. She had a higher pitched voice, but still one of commande. Sakura gave a nod to her.
"Then as a birthday gift, we will tell you your fate with your lover." The black haired women spoke, she had the most nicest sounding voice. More mellow and lullaby sounding than the other 2.
Sakura looked at them with wide eyes, "Why bestow me such a gift, Honorary Fates?"
"As the older gods, we must look out for the younger ones. We will tell you this once and only once. Your lover of now will only hurt you if you keep on loving him. He was born to love another, another who is not you. No matter how much he claims to love you, he will only hurt you to be with his real lover. He will love a human, a human who will change him for good." They all spoke in unison.
Sakura's throat dried up, her eyes began burn with tears. She couldn't believe what they were saying, was Yata really destined to love someone other than her. But in a way she knew that it had always been like this. After all she was the Goddess of Love and through out there dating life, not once had she ever felt the 'eternal love' feeling go off in her when she was around him. Only one in a million couples had those, be them human or gods. She was sure that theirs would definitely be eternal. She was so in shock that she couldn't even hear the rest of the prophecy.
That night as she walked back to her dorm with a lost look and a dark aura around her, did she realize that eternal love was only meant for one in a million. She and he was not that one in a million. But that didn't mean that her love for him would ever die, no she knew that no matter what she would always love him.
After she had got back from her dorm, she sat in front of her mirror and looked at herself. She couldn't be around him knowing that he would never love her like she loved him. So she had decided to leave. To leave everything behind until she got everything figured out, or at least until she would be able to accept that he would love a human girl more then he would ever love her.
The next morning she had asked Yata to meet her in Zeus's Garden.
"So why'd you call me out here? You didn't call me out here to make out did you?" He gave her a devilish grin but she only looked at him with an empty bored look.
"Yata. I called you out here because I'm done with you. I'm done playing these games. I'm done being on and off with you. I want something real not this teenage love issue. I'm getting bored with you." Sakura told him, she even added a yawn, making her seem bored and annoyed with him. Making her seem like this break up, this final break up was nothing to her.
"W-what? I thought we were fine. What the hell happened in one night that made you change your mind!?" He screamed at her, his anger shot through the roof. His limiter vibrating, looking about to break.
"I'm leaving the school in a few minutes and I wanted to properly tell you this face to face. We are done. Whatever we had is gone and has been gone for a while now, you just haven't noticed. My ride's here. I have to go. Bye Yata." Sakura gave him one last kiss on the cheek before she ran to her ride. Yata just stood there in shock.
By the time her turned around to say something to her, she was already gone. But unknown to him that the moment she kissed him her tears, that she did just a good job at hiding were falling down her pale cheeks. So she ran, not wanting him to see those tears.
'I will always love you Yata, I just wish you would love me too.' She looked at him one more time before she couldn't see him anymore. Her tears fell from her face and she cried so hard. Not once in her life had she ever cried this hard, but with Yata she had experience things she never would have without him. For that was one of so many reasons why she loved him.
End of Flashback
By the end of her story, Sakura's tears were rolling down her eyes like a waterfall, never ending. Kuroh watched as his friend cried helplessly, he couldn't help her. This wasn't his type of thing that he could fix. But he had made this mess, and he was always taught to clean up his messes. The only thing that came to mind was to hug her. Hug her until she would no longer cry.
"I'm sorry I made you tell me this. I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry." He couldn't stop apologizing. Those were the only words that he could think of. 'It get better', that would be a lie. 'I'll be there for you if not him', that would be a major lie because even he knew that yes, he was intend in love with Anna. 'I'm sorry' was the only phrase that would be true.
"I love him so much Kuroh! I can never stop loving him! I'm a selfish being and I just want him to myself! I hate that human girl! How dare she take the one thing in this world that I love more than anything in life! I hate her, I hate her, I hate her! Why does she get to be loved by so many when love only brings me pain?!" Sakura cried out as Kuroh kept on hugging her crying and shaking form. It wasn't until then that she felt another pair of arms around her form. She looked up to find a crying Shiro holding her as well.
Kuroh had to let go off her and Shiro had replaced him, "I'm so sorry, Sakura-chan. I had always promised you that I would protect you and never let you cry again, not after what happened when we were younger. I failed at being your friend, worst of all I failed at being there for you. Please don't hate Anna, she didn't mean for any of this to happen. Please, please don't say that love only brings you pain." He gripped onto her body even tighter, his face buried into the crook of her neck. Her face stunned and tears falling.
"We love you so much Sakura. Even if it's just me and Kuroh, we love you more than you know. Even if Yata will never love you like you want him to, don't give up on finding the one that will love you." Sakura's eyes once again were filled with tears. Kuroh watched as the event played before him and could help but tear up as well.
"Thank you, thank you so much, Kuroh, Shiro. I've been holding in these feeling for so long. I'm glad you guys were the ones I told this too." Sakura thanked them as she pushed herself away from Shiro bone crushing hug.
"Now, isn't it time for you to tell Yata?" Shiro wiped the tears away from her eyes.
"You can never mention this to Yata. I don't ever want him to know about this, about the real reason I left him." Sakura told him and Kuroh with serious eyes, even if they were red and puffy.
"He deserves to know why you left him, doesn't he." Kuroh told her as he helped her up from the ground.
"It's better if he just keeps living on without knowing the real reason. It saves me from more tears and more heart break." Sakura wiped the remainder of her tears and sniffled any snot in her nose that threaten to come out.
"Bu-"
"No buts, now get out I need to get ready for this Valentine's Day dance. Also how'd you even hear all of that, Shiro?" Sakura asked as she shooed them out her room.
"You left the door opened a little and I just happened to be passing by." Shiro told them with a sheepish smile.
"Good going, Kuroh." Sakura gave him a half hearted glare and then a smile as they were out her door, "I'll see you at the dance, and really thank you for that. I needed that."
"Anytime, Sakura." Kuroh gave her a smile as she closed the door on them and locked it.
…
As Shiro and Kuroh walked away from her door, they began to discuss what had just happened, "...I know he still loves her. No matter what those Fates told her, I know for a fact that he loves her more than she'll ever know." Shiro told Kuroh as they gave one last look at her door before it was completely out of sight.
"It's obvious that he will always love her, I just can't believe she of all people can't see it." Kuroh mumbled out as they made their way to their room.
…
After closing the door behind her, Sakura slid down onto the floor back against the door. Bring her knees up her her chest she cried yet again. Her tears were tears of relief, like a ton of bricks had just been lifted off her shoulder.
"How did I get so lucky to have such good friends like them." She smiled as she remembered the fond memories of all 4 of them as young kids playing House because Sakura threatened to never talk to them again if they didn't. Or when they were young teens and had gotten caught spray painting on the wall of an abandon building.
Getting up from her spot on the floor she resumed getting ready for the dance that was being held. She had to first get rid of her red cheeks and puffy eyes.
…
Arriving to the ball room, Sakura was dressed in a long white halter dress with a slit going down her left leg. The halter part of her dress was made of lace and jewels. Her hair done up in a fancy updo ponytail. Her eyes lined in black liner with the slightest amount of makeup on her face. Her lips stained a soft red gradient look. She looked around the place, it was nice looking. Heart shaped balloons, roses everywhere, food and drinks on the side and students dancing on the dance floor.
Sakura smiled as people came up to her and would welcome her back, some would ask to dance and she would decline. Some even handed her roses. Next her was a pile of roses forming, it seems they enjoyed the holiday meant for her very much.
But it didn't matter because the one she wanted most was in love with another. The Fates had given her a curse than a gift. If she had never gone to the Old Temple, she and Yata just might had still been together. But instead she had gone and listened to what they wanted to tell her, from there her life became a huge irony. She helped give love, but never received it.
Looking around she saw Yata dancing with a white haired human, the human girl from before. The one that Yata would always love more than her. Looking at them she couldn't see what he saw in her. She wasn't as pretty as Sakura. She wasn't as tall as Sakura. She didn't have any curves unlike Sakura. But then again Yata never cared for looks, it was about the personality, hers' was probably better than Sakuras'. After all Sakura was a selfish being.
'I need to get out of here.' Sakura watched them one last time before she left the ballroom that she had just entered.
She didn't know that Yata had seen her from where he was dancing with Anna. From his view he could see the fake smiles in her face, the slight redness in her eyes even from so far away. The way her cheeks were just two shades pinker than normal. He had come to the conclusion that she had been crying.
But that didn't falter the way her eyes looked over to where he and Anna were, those once happy and alive spring green eyes were now looking at them with longing and sadness. He didn't understand why he was looking at them like that but it hurted him. And so when she walked out of the ballroom he couldn't help but follow her.
"Sorry Anna-chan, but I have to do something really quick." He gave her a wink and left, following the girl that had left him 2 years prior.
…
"Calm down, Sakura. He loves her and only her. You are a thing of the pass to him now." Sakura told herself as she breathed out a deep breathe of air. The moon made her seem magical, rare, and beautiful most of all fragile.
Yata was walking behind her and couldn't help but see one single tear fall and hit the white railing, "S-sakura?" She turned around and her eyes widen. She hurriedly blinked away the tears and quickly placed a fake smile on her lips.
"A-ah, Yata! What a surprise to see you out here! I was sure you were so occupied by that human girl that you didn't notice me. I guess I was wrong. So what are you doing here? Shouldn't you be dancing the night away with that human girl?" Sakura rambled on, hoping and praying that he had not heard her or seen that tear.
"You were crying just now. Why were you crying?" Yata walked closer to her. She backed away from his approaching form.
"W-what are you talking about? I wasn't crying." But her smile never reached her eyes.
His body came closer to hers, "Who made you cry, I swear I'll beat them up!" He yelled out in anger. Just like Thor he had never, never seen her cry before. Not even when they had first broken up, he hadn't seen her cry.
"...You can't yourself up." Sakura told him in a whisper. Yata looked down at her with wide eyes, ha-had he made her cry?
"You really should get back to the human girl, she seems to be an important person to you." Sakura gave him a bright smile as she pushed away from the white railing and tried to walk past him, but he had grabbed her hand before she could could.
"Did I make you cry?"
"I told you I wasn't crying, Yata." Sakura tried to brush it off with a laugh but her laugh was dry and that bell like sound, that beautiful bell like laugh that he always loved wasn't there.
"I made you cry didn't I?" Yata pulled her to him and forced her to look him in his eyes. He could now clearly see that her eyes had been puffy and red.
"It's nothing, Yata. Just let it go."
"I can't let it if you're involved in it! I made you cry and I wanna know why and what the hell was that?! Muttering to yourself that 'he will never love you'?!" Yata yelled with a fire in his eyes.
"You really wanna know Yata, you really wanna know? I was crying, I've been crying for the past 2 years. No more than an hour ago was I crying like a baby all because of you! For the past two years, I have cried myself to sleep every night knowing that you will never love me! That you will and have fallen in love with another that is not me! That you fell in love with a human girl and that she was able to change you and even though I've known you my whole life, I can never change you! You wanna know why I was crying right now?! Because I saw just how happy you are with her! How happy you can never be with me! How she made you smile with only a look! How I can never NEVER IN MY WHOLE LIFE TIME MAKE YOU SMILE AND LOOK AT ME LIKE THAT! WAS CRYING BECAUSE I LOVE YOU SO MUCH THAT YOU WILL NEVER KNOW! I WAS CRYING BECAUSE YOU WILL NEVER LOVE ME LIKE I LOVE YOU! I WAS CRYING BECAUSE YOU FELL IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE OTHER THAN ME! HOW YOU BROKE OUR PROMISE! I WAS CRYING BECAUSE OF YOU! IT'S ALWAYS GOING TO BE ABOUT YOU YATA!"Sakura screamed out to him, her voice going to loud to the point she felt that she would lose it. Her tears falling from her eye, yet again.
"Look at me I'm a crying mess just like before. It seems that coming back was a mistake and that I should have just stayed where I was." Sakura gave out a dry laugh as she wiped a stray tear from her eyes.
"I just can't seem to stop crying today." She kept on giving him a dry laugh and a fake smile on her face as the tears fell.
Without a warning Sakura was pulled into his arms, the arms that she longed to be held in. After not feeling his warmth in over 2 years she finally broke. Her smile breaking into an ugly frown.
"I love you not her. I may have some feelings for her but it's nowhere near as what I feel for you! What you said to me 2 years ago broke my heart and I'll be honest she helped me through the pain without even knowing it! Yes, I may have broken my promise to you but I don't care because I love you more then I can or ever will love her or anyone else!" Yata shouted to her stunned form.
He pushed her away and gripped her shoulders, staring into her endless green eyes, "I never stopped loving and I never will stop loving you!"
"Stop it! You love her, your love for me died the day I left! You will always love her, her and only her! You may not know it yet or you're just not willing to say it out loud but you've fallen in love with her! Fate has already decided that you will love her and only her!" Sakura screamed out as she tried to get out of Yata's tight grip on her shoulder.
"I love you and only you! Why can't you just understand that?! I was pissed at you for doing what you did, but knowing now that you've been crying for 2 years because of me makes me want to start this all over again. Not with her, not with anyone else, just you! Because you are the love of my life! Screw whatever the Fates said!"
"Yata, fate it fate just like love is love. You can't help it or change it. You and me both know that you don't hold the same feelings for me anymore." She whispered to him, her voice broken and dead sounding.
"On the night of my 16th birthday the Fates told me of how you will fall in love with a human girl. How you will fall for another that is not me. Yata, the Fates never lie. The next day when I had left the school and told you we were over, I was dying inside. I wanted to hug you and kiss you and tell you it was all a lie. I wanted to come back so many nights but I also wanted to be saved from getting my heartbroken by you even more."
"Screw the Fates, Sakura. They may know my fate but they don't know how I feel for you! I love you more than anything in this universe! I would give up my life to be with you! I don't care what they said! I love you Sakura! And I know damn well that you can feel it!" Yata grabbed her soft nimble hand and placed it over his heart.
Sakura stared at him with wide watery eyes. Suddenly that feeling was back. The feeling she got when she saw couples finding their true loves, she felt it within him and her.
"I love you Sakura and I will never stop loving you! No matter how many times I have to tell you that. I love you Haru no Sakura!" Sakura looked into his dark amber eyes. Slowly his grip on her other shoulder loosened, but he never loosened the grip on her hand that was over his heart.
She looked at him and then her hand and a small smile broke on her face. She came closer to him and let his body engulf her smaller one, "Yata. I love you. I love you so much and I don't care what the Fates say anymore because I know that for sure that you are the only one for me. I don't care if I'm the one for you because you have already stolen my heart. So please take care of it." She snuggled into his body heat.
She missed this so much. She missed everything so much. The way he smelt like burnt wood with a hint of cinnamon. The way her body molded into his perfectly. The way he would caress her body. She missed it all.
"You are the only one for me, Sakura. The only one for me in this lifetime and in the next and the next one after that. From now on please, just listen to your heart. Losing you for those two years made me realize just how much I truly can't live without you." Yata leaned his head down on her head. Their foreheads touching.
"I want to stay in your arms, now and forever. Please don't ever leave me, please." Her voice hoarse and pleading.
"I promise. I'll never leave if you never leave me." Leaning down he captured her red lips onto his and they shared their first kiss after 2 years. It brought back so many memories of their first actually kiss. It was sweet, gentle with just the smallest amount of roughness there.
"I love you, Yata."
"And I love you, Sakura. Never forget that."