I really need to get into the habit of writing regularly, I know.

A lot has been happening over the last couple days. Jane has been acting strangely. She's a lot meaner now. She just started acting different out of nowhere, with no explanation for it. I'm not sure what could have made her feel so harsh, but I won't be deterred by it. She tells me that I need to understand that Wonderland isn't real and admit that I was making it up all along. She now claims that she never believed my stories in the first place. But that can't be true. The kindness and understanding she showed me in my first two weeks here couldn't have been a farce. I'm not sure what's gotten to her, but I'm not giving in.

The first day that she snapped at me, I cried and went along with what she said. But that night, after a lot of thinking, I knew I couldn't give up so easily. I won't look like some foolish, unstable little girl. I've spent the last few days arguing relentlessly with her about what I know to be true. I don't care how bad it makes her look that she can't "cure" me. We both know the truth and she should have known better than to turn on me like that. Eventually she'll understand...right?

Also, I've been allowed to eat my meals with the other patients, without Jane or Belle's supervision. We've all been instructed not to talk about why we're here. Whenever I bring it up, the other kids practically recoil from the subject. They're afraid to disobey.

I suppose I should tell you about my new friends. Well, this first one I hardly consider a friend. He's positively the most obnoxious trouble-maker I've ever met. He's tried to convince me that his affliction is a highly contagious flesh-eating disease. What utter nonsense. His name is Peter, and he's my age. The only other thing I know of him is his reputation for pulling pranks and getting into trouble.

Peter's jokes have earned him a few smacks from Aladdin, who's the oldest of all of us. (He's 18.) I don't know what he could possibly be here for; He must be the nicest guy I've ever met. He kind of acts as a big brother to the rest of us, a mentor. He does his best to watch out for us. But I can tell he's given up on Peter at this point. I have heard a few stories about Aladdin occasionally helping Peter with his shenanigans. So sometimes, they're like partners in crime. But it seems that Aladdin's stopped participating in Peter's childish games.

Then there's Eric, who's also incredibly kind and friendly. I can't see anything wrong with him either. He seems very well-adjusted. Happy, even. Although, there have been a few odd moments. It's difficult to explain, but there are times where I think Eric's mind wanders to someplace else. I'm not judging him, by any means. If anyone knows what it's like to be submersed in a daydream, it's me. Eric is only one year younger than Aladdin, and the pair of them seem to get along the best. They actually seem like true friends.

Finally, there's Aurora. She's 16, one year older than me and Peter. Although she sits with the rest of us to eat, she doesn't seem to care for our company. It's not that she dislikes us, she's just...disconnected. She never attributes to conversation unless one of us directly addresses her, and a lot of the time she's just picking at her food or staring off into space. She's the only one of us who I can plainly tell needs help. The poor girl, though very beautiful- I've seen all the boys look her way more than once, but of course she pays them no mind- is obviously miserable. She always looks so exhausted and depressed. Looking at her is like seeing an animated cadaver sulking around. I've noticed that a few of the doctors and members of the security team mistreat her. I simply don't understand it. Despite her selective solitude, I like Aurora. Whenever she does speak, which is rare, she's perfectly nice. I hope she does get better soon.

So, yes, I have gotten to know some of the people here. But you already know that they aren't the patients I'm really curious about. Sitting around to meals with the other teenaged patients is all well and good, but I think it's time for a little adventure. I don't know how I'll do it yet, but I'm hoping to sneak upstairs to see the "dangerous" patients soon. I mean, how could the people running this place not expect me to go investigating what they've so purposefully hidden away? Now that's foolish. If they didn't want me to go upstairs, they simply shouldn't have told me it was forbidden.

I think my best chance is to go during free time. Or better yet, during the night. I'm not sure yet... I can't write my official plan out here. Someone could come along and read it whenever they want to. At this point, at least for the time being, I know I can't really trust these people. Jane has shown me that.

Whatever happens, I'll be sure to let you know about it.

Bye for now.