Disclaimer Blah, I don't own Star Wars. I do own Kelsey and Aviana. I'll have my mini thoughts about the teaser for the Han Solo movie below.

Chapter 18

Aviana

I didn't know how long I stayed in the shower getting rid of the blood, sweat and dirt off my body. It felt like a long time yet it was nearly twenty minutes after I got out.

Mentally I was exhausted. I felt physically tired but I didn't want to sleep. Emotionally however; I didn't know what to feel about everything.

After I changed, I sat at the edge of the bed and grasped on to the edge tightly. I wanted to process everything that happened. I couldn't believe my Uncle Han wasn't coming back when he and my aunt were about to be reunited for good this time even though it was brief from what I was told.

I almost fought and lost my life to my cousin of all people. I never thought I would see the day that it would happen.

And I couldn't forget that we finally have the pieces of the map to find my father and hopefully bring him home.

So yeah it's a whole lot to process all at the same time.

I remember how this all began. Well even before the Jedi Temple was destroyed it was the aftermath that's something I'll never forget. The day after the battle and the same night my father left was something that forever changed my life.

Flashback

"Ava?"

"He's gone." I said motionlessly.

"Who is?" Poe asked sitting down next to me. I didn't even hear him approach me.

I didn't answer at first as I stared at the rubble from the temple and the bodies around us. I barely got any sleep; no correction I didn't get sleep period. How can I after everything that's happened?

This wasn't real.

"My father...he's gone."

"Gone as in..."

"He left. My father always said that if something were to happen to the Jedi Order he didn't want to be found. I didn't think he would stick to his word," I said.

"Ava I'm sorry," Poe said.

I laughed bitterly as I stood up from my spot as Poe followed suit.

"I mean what father would go up and abandoned his family? My mother is lost, she doesn't know what to do and she tried to stop him but obviously that didn't work. Meanwhile he always told me to never give up. What a crock of lies that was," I said bitterly. "And my mother...god that's the love of her life."

I felt his arms around me body as Poe pulled closer to me. I didn't have the strength to cry. I couldn't. I feel numb. Empty.

A shallow of nothing fills my body as I try to understand what's next and how to even start going forward now that everyone I know is dead and my father is gone.

What are we going to do?

End of flashback

I rubbed my face and headed towards the bed. I sat down but even the thought of lying down didn't appeal to me. I didn't hear someone come in and it wasn't until I looked up and saw Poe kneeling in front of me.

I simply leaned into and he soon wrapped me up in his arms as I sobbed into his neck for the first time; letting my emotions out after everything I've seen and been through thus far.

-LINE BREAK-

"No change from Finn?" I asked my mother the next day.

"It was touch and go but he's going to make a full recovery. He just needs the rest," she replied.

I nodded as I bit my lower lip, dreading to ask my mother that one question but I knew I need to ask her.

"So I'm sure you're wanting to know if I was going to go bring your father back," Mom said.

"I've wondered but I think that it's a must," I said.

"Aviana..."

"But what?"

"It's not going to be that easy," she said.

"And why not and don't give me that 'you don't understand' crap," I said, not caring if I swore or not.

My mother then rubs her face as she tries to come up with some sort of explanation. But she and I both know that it wasn't going to happen.

"Your father may have been gone for a long time but...I don't know how he'll react to us, particularly me," she said sadly.

"He loves you and you love him how hard is it?"

My mother let out a long breath.

"Your father leaving devastated us, that broke my heart and after all this time, I don't know..."

"If you can forgive him? But I thought you did," I said.

"I do believe me but..."

"You don't know if he's going to help," I said, finishing her statement as she nodded.

"Now, this girl, Rey," My mother said, as we changed the subject. "Do you know anything about her? From what she told you of course..."

"Um, I met her in Jakku when I was trying to find Bee and she rescued me from Kylo. She didn't explain much about her life except she was waiting for her family to get her. I mean, can you imagine having that happen to you?"

I was expecting my mother to say something when I looked up and I saw that she had an unreadable expression on her face. Was it something I said?

"Mom?"

"Sorry, I just got lost in my thoughts," she said.

"Why did you want to know about Rey?" I asked.

"Just curious," she replied.

If she was curious, then why did she had that look that she was hiding something?

-LINE BREAK-

I stood outside the medbay a few days later as I watched Rey by Finn's side. He still hasn't woken up yet but the doctors are optimistic for his recovery still.

Arms snuck around my waist as I was met with a familiar scent of aftershave.

"Doctors say anything?" Poe asked.

"They're still hopeful for his recovery but hasn't woken up yet," I said, frowning. "My mother was acting strange before."

"Was it about finding your father?"

"No not really. She asked about Rey," I replied.

"And that's strange why?"

"I don't know. I guess the way she was acting about her as if she knew her," I said.

"Maybe she did," Poe suggested.

"But I would've known Rey back then and I would've recongized her now," I pointed out. "I don't know it just seemed a bit unusual."

"Maybe you should ask your aunt?" Poe suggested.

"Hmm, maybe," I said. "I'll be back."

I kissed Poe as I slowly made my way into the room where Rey and Finn were. I gave Rey a small smile as I stood at the end of Finn's bed. She was dressed in new clothes and today she was leaving with my mother to go find my father.

"Doctors say there's no change but he's going to make a full recovery," I said.

"That's a good thing isn't it?" she asked.

"I may not be a doctor but him in a coma it's way of him healing for now," I replied. "He's in good hands trust me on this."

"I know," Rey said. "Are you sure you're not coming?"

"No. I can't as much as I want to it's just...it's too hard," I said. "Don't get me wrong, I'm happy we found him finally after this long but after all this time, I don't know why he ran and even if I did knew, there's a part of me that's still hurt by what happened."

"I understand," she said softly. She turned towards Finn and stared at him for a minute. "We'll see each other again. I believe that."

She stands up and kiss him on the forehead. "Goodbye my friend," she said and we both left he medbay soon after.

-LINE BREAK-

After saying my goodbyes to my mother, I couldn't help but get a bit emotional. This is the first time in a long time that we're going to be seperated. But I know that she's going to come back.

And hopefully bring my father along with her.

"Now try not to run off too much, I don't want to have a heart attack." my mother said.

"You got nothing to worry about for now at least," I said with a small wink.

"Not funny. I love you," she said.

"Love you too Mom," I said as we hugged tight.

We pulled apart and she went over to my aunt and their shared something briefly before they hugged goodbye. I couldn't help but see that they were talking about something that I couldn't hear.

Soon Rey met up with my mother and they both headed towards the Falcon where Chewie and Artoo waited.

"Rey," Aunt Leia called out as the girl spun around to face her.

"May the force be with you," Aunt Leia said.

Rey gave a small nod to all of us as she caught up with my mother. Poe held me close as we all watch the Falcon take off. There was a part of me that was still hopeful that they can convince my father to come back to the Resistance and fight against the First Order once and for all.

However, I couldn't help but have a part of me wonder that there was something else going on and it had nothing to do with the First Order at all.

A/n Hmmm, another mystery a foot? Only a couple chapters to go!

Next chapter we finally see Luke and Kelsey reunite! How do you think that'll go down? Also the following chapter, Aviana makes a shocking discovery...

Speaking of Rey, my question for you all is do you think we'll finally know about Rey's family in Episode 9? Personally, I'm dying to know who they are I mean it's been a big mystery since TFA however if that won't be the case, then who knows.

Thank you all for your support and neverending patience! Hopefully I'll get back into the swing of things for the next couple chapters.

Until next time!
Vicky