Disclaimer Oh how I wish I own Star Wars. I don't? Crap. Well, I do own Aviana and Kelsey so I'm content with that.

Chapter 19

Planet Ahch-To

Kelsey

"Are you sure you're not coming?" Rey asked me.

"Give me a few days before I head up there," I replied.

"Is there any warning that I should worry about? Could Luke be that mean?" she asked.

"Mean? No. Grumpy? Probably," I said. "I think you'll be fine."

Rey simply nodded as she started to walk away. She turned to face us one more time as me, Chewie and Artoo encouraged her to go. Once she continue forward, I heaved a sigh as Chewie growl at me in a soft growl.

"I don't know," I said. "I'm nervous myself."

I left Chewie and Artoo alone as I made my way into the cockpit. I could feel a flush of memories swarm as I tried to fight back tears. I can't believe my brother is gone. It doesn't seem too surreal.

I walked over to the seat and sat down. I buried my head in my hands as I let the tears fall. I know I needed the time to process everything but right now, we got a war on our hands and somehow in someway I need to convince my husband to come home and help us fight.

If he was willing to.

Now I bet you're wondering, how can I, Kelsey Solo-Skywalker be nervous about seeing my husband after all these years.

I wish I had the answer for that.

Our marriage had its ups and downs, I mean what marriage doesn't? I know I've made my mistakes and Luke made his but the fact he chose to up and leave Avi and I was something I couldn't grasp myself.

What will forever burn in my memory was the day he left it all behind. Including me and Aviana. But breaking the news to Aviana that her father left was the worst thing I had to do in my life. We made a promise for better or worse to be there for one another; especially what happened all those years ago.

How can something like this be fixed? How can I forgive someone so easily all this time? I know that last part wasn't the easiest decision to make but I know at somepoint is either forvie or be bitter for the rest of my life and I couldn't do that to my daughter.

His broken face. Luke looked pained and guilty at what he built, destroyed while Aviana was being held back by Poe. But the day he left was something I'll never forget.

How Aviana and I managed to survive without Luke was something that I don't think I've ever or will comprehend.

I bet you're wondering how on kriff can I forgive Luke after everything?

I'll be honest, it hasn't been easy. But in the end, I wanted to stick to our vows. For better or worse. And right now, we've endured a mix of better and worse in our marriage and I wasn't planning on giving up without a fight.

I let out a breath that I didn't know I was holding and leaned back in my chair as I stared out at the mountain of land and rocks in front of me.

Now the question is where do we go from here?

-LINE BREAK-

I slowly climbed up the last few steps. I leaned against the rock nearby as my left knee started to ache terribly. Even after when I got shot in the leg, I'll always have that stupid limp from it .Nevertheless, I continued on. I got to a clear spot when I saw a lone figure. I knew right away it was Luke.

It was inevitable but this had to be done.

When I saw him turn, I could tell he aged. His grey hair blowing over the place from the wind, he grew a beard but it wasn't ridiculosly long. As much as I wanted to run into his arms, I kept a distance.

"You shouldn't have come," Luke said.

"You knew it was going to happen someday," I pointed out gently. "I can't believe you have a beard."

"Kelsey, you're still the same beautiful self," he said softly.

"I wouldn't put past that," I said as I saw him come closer.

"Chewie told me about what happened to Han...I'm so sorry," Luke said.

I could only nod as I felt tears pricking at the back of my eyes. The thought of Han no longer here still stings and it' a pain that I wouldn't get over for a long time right now.

"Kelsey...Is Aviana..."

"No she's not here. And I don't blame her for not coming no matter how much I wanted her to come," I replied in a small bitter tone. I changed it to a softer tone when I said, "She's alright though. Luke..."

"You know why I had to leave," he said.

"Don't. Don't you even dare give that excuse. We both know we tried so hard with Ben," I said sternly.

"You don't understand."

I scoffed at his statement as I slowly walked over towards him a bit closer. Arms crossed over my chest, I gave him an unamused look.

"Oh really? Then try me. Because if I recalled, we both agreed to take Ben in to live with us. How were we supposed to know how powerful he got?" I asked with a snippy tone.

"He was my responsibility."

"We promised Leia and Han..."

"I was supposed to help him. To make him see the light side," Luke said in a sad tone as he looked at me. I didn't see anger. Just disappointment.

"At least you tried. If you didn't, he would've started way off than all of us think, maybe worse than what he did at that time," I pointed out.

"But Aviana tried..."

"And look what happened. She almost got killed," I snapped, not caring how my voice sounded. I didn't think Rey would hear us but that would be an understatement.

"Are you trying to blame me for getting our daughter hurt?"

"Of course not! I could never do that!" I cried out as I walked over towards a small group of rocks and sat down.

This wasn't how it was supposed to go down. I squeezed my eyes shut as I tried to prevent the tears from flowing down my face.

I heard his footsteps and he stood next to me as we looked at Rey who didn't know we were there. Maybe she did but didn't want to stop her training. I knew that we were to have this conversation. I think the last time we had this talk was before the attack.

Oh how I wish we would've found a different solution before everything blew up in our faces.

"Have Ava and Rey met?" Luke asked softly.

"From what I know from Han before he died, they did," I replied.

"Do they know about each other?"

"Highly unlikely. I don't think they suspect a thing about one another as far as I know. If Ava knew we kept this from her..."

"She's going to hate us. Correction, not just Aviana but Rey also."

"I know," I replied.

"I can't believe Rey came back," Luke said softly.

"I didn't want to believe it when I saw her. I thought I was seeing things all over again," I acknowledged.

Thinking about the situation now and how we handled it, I can't help but think that we could've handled this differently. I wished everything that we worked hard for us and our family didn't fall apart so terribly.

This was my only regret and I would think that Luke regretted this idea also.

"I hope Aviana can understand why we did this," Luke said.

"I hope so too."

But I knew deep down, we would both pay the price of keeping this huge of a secret from both of them.

And I wasn't sure if I was prepared for it.

A/n Heyooo.

So it's been a good while. Life got busy and I got a dog so she's been taking up my time a bit and trying to find balance with giving time to her and my cats. That's something. Plus entering my final year of college and work has been a hectic balance to say the least.

Okay enough of my problems right now.

Also shout out for this story being a bit over year old! Even though it's been a good while but still!

Next chapter will be the final chapter I know I'm bummed but I still plan on writing TLJ sequel when A. I have time and B. once I watch the movie again so I can remember what's going on since it's been a long time that I've watched it.

I do hope that some of you out there can leave me some love! I can't thank you all for your endless patience and support! Hope to update again soon!

Until next time,
Vicky