Chapter 3: Is This What You Need?

3 Months Prior….

Juice was lying next to Liv watching her sleep, she looked so peaceful and innocent. He smiled to himself, thinking about how happy he was with Olivia. She was his angel, and she saved him. The night before, Olivia had showed up at his house in the middle of the night. They had fought about something trivial earlier in the night. He had been annoyed by the fact that she wasn't putting out it had been months since he had a piece of ass and she was annoyed by the fact that he was keeping his secrets from her still. So a fight ensued over something silly like a spilt cup of coffee or if the sky as actually blue. Neither of them remembered what the fight was about but they both knew they were angry at the other.

It was close to midnight when Liv timidly knocked on Juan Carlos' door. She couldn't sleep, she knew if she didn't get out what she had to say out she would explode and next time it wouldn't be a minor fight. Juice tucked the gun that sat in his nightstand into the waist band of his pants and walked to the door. He looked out the window and saw Liv's back, she was looking back towards the road. He took a deep breath, he knew she was there for answers, answers she deserved but he wondered if she would still look at him the same way if he told her who he really was. A cold blooded killer.

Liv bounced on the soles of her feet waiting for Juan Carlos to open the door. It was unusually cool that evening. She wrapped her arms around herself tightly trying to keep herself warm. She was about to give up and leave when the door opened. Liv turned around and looked to see Juan Carlos staring back at her.

"You're out late." Juice said as he stepped back letting her into his house.

"I couldn't sleep." Olivia said as she walked into the house, she had been there plenty of times but this time it felt different. Like something was going to change between them, either for the better or for the worse. She heard the door close behind her, "We need to talk." She said quietly as she turned to face Juan.

Juice studied Liv's face, she looked determined, but her blue eyes gazed at him with tentativeness like she was waiting for him to explode. She too had her secrets she kept from him but he never pushed her for them. He cared for Liv, he loved her if he was being truthful with himself but he didn't want her to hate him.

"Juan…"

"Juice." He interrupted her.

"What?" Olivia wondered why he had said juice. She wasn't thirsty and if she was she would need something stronger than juice. She tilted her head at him.

"Call me, Juice. That is what I've gone by for the last 8 years of my life." He replied as he walked into the kitchen. If they were going to have this talk he would have a beer. Liv stood there shocked that he had shared that much. She knew very little about his past. She knew he grew up in Queens with a single mother, later in life he moved to California and then to Washington.

"Here." Juice handed her a glass of beer just before he sat in a chair that was adjacent to his couch. Liv sat down on the couch. "I suppose you are here to ask me more questions." Juice took a big drink of his beer.

"I just want you to let me in. Jua…Juice." His name felt foreign to her, for months she had been calling him Juan or Juan Carlos. But to Juice hearing his name flow out of her mouth was like music to his ears. He was already starting to feel better.

"You don't want to know the real me. He is not the man that is here with you right now." Juice said quietly.

Liv got up from the couch and knelt in front of Juice; she took his large hands into hers. "The man that was your past has shaped who is here in front of me...I don't need to know about your past, I just want you to let me in. I hate seeing you struggling with your demons, please."

He looked down at her, her eyes were pleading with him. "I was a part of a motorcycle club in California. I crossed the president and I had to leave. They were my only family. I was lost without them, until you came into my world. You make me want to be a better man than I was when I was in California." Juice touched Olivia's face, the truth was he wanted to be someone she deserved because he didn't deserve her.

"I love you." Olivia blurted out. She instantly regretted it because she didn't know if Juice would respond to her the same way. She looked up at him through her eyelashes and could feel herself blush.

Juice didn't say anything he just pulled Liv up to him on the chair and kissed her. His kiss was passionate and told Liv everything she needed to know. Olivia let her hands run through Juice's hair. It had gotten long since he had been in Charlotteville. Juice moaned against Liv's mouth, he loved it when she ran her hands through his hair. It made him glad he had grown his hair out even though he missed his mohawk. Liv pulled out of the kiss and stared at Juice. His brown eyes were hooded with lust. She smiled seductively as she got off of his lap and stood up, pulling him with her. Juice pulled her back to him as she tried to pull him towards the bedroom. He kissed her again but moved his attention to her neck where he planted gentle kisses and light bites along her collar bone. Liv let out a quiet sign as she ran her hands under Juice's shirt. Those glorious washboard abs that she often dreamt about.

Juice surprised Olivia by picking her up and carrying her into his bedroom, he sat her on the bed and hovered above her. She pulled him to her so she could kiss him. She ran her tongue along his lower lip just before she bit it lightly. It seemed to have turned Juice on even more. He yanked at the hem of her shirt, she pulled back looking back at him with yearning in her blue eyes. She pulled her shirt up over his head and raised her eyebrow at him. "Your turn." She smirked as she scooted back on to the bed so she was leaning on the pillows, waiting for her show.

Juice took off his shirt revealing his extremely well sculpted chest and abs. Liv could feel warmth and wetness between her legs. Her breathing picked up as Juice crawled onto the bed and placed his body over hers. Liv wanted him more than anyone else in all the world at that moment; she wanted him to possess her body and soul. Juice moved his hand along the top of her bra. She wished that she would have worn something that was sexy but her plain white bra would have to do.

He didn't care, actually Juice didn't even notice the color of her bra. He just saw her breasts, the breast he thought were perfect. Juice freed one of them from her bra and brought his mouth to her nipple. He sucked gently at first but couldn't help himself as he felt her nipple harden in his mouth, he started to suck harder. Olivia moan quietly, Juice looked up to see that Liv's eyes closed and she was biting her lower lip. He freed her other breast and moved his mouth to that one and toying with her nipple in his mouth while his left hand massaged her other one.

Olivia thought she was going to explode right there. She marveled in the feeling of Juice's mouth on her nipples. He was still suckling on her nipple as she felt his hand move to the button on her jeans, she bucked her hips towards him slightly as he moved his hands into her pants. Juice didn't take his time he went directly for her sweet spot. She could feel herself blush has his hand took possession of her clit. He ran a finger down to her opening and smiled up at her after he felt how wet she was. He shoved his middle finger inside of her, she gasped loudly.

Juice couldn't believe how tight she was, he had only put one finger into her and she was tightly clasping to it. He couldn't wait to slide himself into her. He stopped and pulled off her pants. Liv watched him intensely. He wanted this to be all about her, granted he would get what he wanted too. He stared at her lying on his bed naked, he marveled at her beauty. Her hair was a dark halo framing her face; a contrast from her silky, ivory skin and piercing blue eyes. Olivia watched Juice take his pants off and release his boner. Liv bit her lip thinking about how she wanted him inside of her.

Juice crawled back into bed with her and kissed her beautiful lips softly. "Are you sure you want to do this?" Juice whispered quietly into her ear.

Liv looked at him, his face inches from hers. She nodded as he turned over and reached into his night stand and pulled out a condom, placing it over the length of his penis. He hovered over the top of Liv as she pulled him into a kiss grabbing tightly at his hair. She parted his legs so he could settle himself between them. Juice slowly slid into her, he couldn't believe how extremely tight she was. He gave her a second to adjust to his size before he started to thrust himself into her.

It felt like she was going to explode right then and there. Juice filled her up like Matt never could have. She moaned loudly as she grasped at Juice's back. She pushed her hips back at him. He moved fast and harder, she could feel herself slipping into an orgasm. "Juice." She cried out as her body exploded into an intense orgasm.

Hearing Olivia say his name in such a way, threw Juice over the edge. He thrust himself hard one last time as he came. He bend towards Olivia who was still marveling in the post orgasm bliss and kissed her softly. She smiled at him as he rolled onto his back; discarding the used condom on the floor. He pulled Liv into his arms. "I love you too." He said quietly to her. He was finally at peace with everything that had happened with SAMCRO and knew he would try to protect Liv with every fiber of his being from his dark past. They fell asleep in each other's arms blanketed in love.

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Bobby looked over at Olivia who chewed her lower lip nervously. She was Juice's old lady but that didn't give August enough reason to take her. He wondered how he had even know where Juice was since they weren't even able to find him.

"So you and Juicy boy?" Bobby said, he didn't want Liv to know that Juice was in trouble with his president. Then again maybe she knew, but then again when the thought about it why would she have told him who he was.

Liv looked over at Bobby, "He's the reason I am here, isn't he?" After she had seen Bobby's reaper tattoo she knew why she was there. It was because of Juice, it was because of his connection to the motorcycle club in California. His past had caught up to him and claimed her.

"Sweetheart, I have been racking my brain on that as well. It doesn't make any sense that you are just here because of Juice. August went a long way out of his way to get you." He rubbed his beard.

"I just want to be at home, I would give anything to be in his arms for one more minute." Tears fell down her face. "I want to feel safe." She stood up and paced the room. She was scared of what was going to happen to her while she was being held by these men. She did nothing wrong but loved a man who they didn't like and they carved up her skin. She touched the wounds just under the wire of her bra. She shivered as she thought about the man who cut her and the joy he took in it. The time he took as he slowly sliced into her flesh. He didn't care if she had feeling or if she felt pain. Wait, that was a lie, he enjoyed her pain. He smiled with pleasure as he carved into her skin. What sort of people did that?

"You're going to wear a path in the floor." Bobby said to Olivia after she had been pacing for a few minutes. He knew she was nervous but there was nothing to be done, they had to be resolved to their fate because he would not become a rat. He wouldn't give August or Moses what they wanted. "You know he is looking for you right now." Bobby wanted to give Olivia hope.

She looked at Bobby and nodded, she knew Juice wouldn't give up until he found her. She hoped he would search the ends of the Earth for her; Natalie would at least. "If he doesn't, Natalie will." Liv smiled thinking about her best friend.

"Who is Natalie?" Bobby asked trying to take their minds off of their current situation. He knew that something big was going to happen that day but he just didn't know what so he would work on making the last moments with her good ones.

"Nat is my best friend, we have been friends, sisters since we were little. She won't give up because I know I wouldn't give up." She thought fondly of her best friend. Natalie and Olivia had shared the other's highs as well as the lowest of lows. She was her sister in every sense of the word. They didn't need to have the same blood coursing through their veins to be sisters. Their bond was strong. "Who is looking for you?" Liv asked.

"My brothers. I am sure my eye and my fingers were delivered to them." Bobby held up his bloody stump. He knew that he would have to step down from the table now that he was missing his hand, he would no long be able to ride. Moses took his life from him so he would take Moses from him. Or SAMCRO would. Bobby caught a small smile creep across Olivia's lips as if she read his mind. "What's the smile about?"

"Well if we both have people looking for us, our chances are better." She sat down. "Right?"

Give her false hope Bobby. He thought to himself. "Of course sweetheart." He knew his time was running out. Jax and the boys needed to come through for him soon or who knows what else Moses would take from him or Olivia for that matter. He knew that they were doing their best to get to him. "I am sure that they are all out there looking for us."

In that 10 by 10 cell, Liv had found a small glimmer of hope in Bobby. "Thank you, Bobby." She said to him.

"For what?" He looked at her with some confusion.

"For giving me some hope, even if it isn't real, you tried and that is really what matters." She gave him a small smile as footsteps echoed in the hallway. She felt the panic start to set in she moved next to Bobby, who stood up next to her. He felt protective over her, he would keep her safe as possible as long as he could. She didn't deserve to be where she was, it was Juice that should have been there. "Please don't let them hurt me." Her voice was full of fear.

"Don't worry." He put his arm around her and pulled her close to him as the keys unlocked their cell. He started to worry as August Marks and Moses walked in with several other men.

"Let's go, were going to make a video for SAMCRO." Marks gave them a malicious smile as a large man grabbed Olivia out of Bobby's arms.

"No please," She pleaded as struggled to get free. "Bobby!" She cried out and he carried her out of the room. Bobby knew that things were not going to be the same; as Moses and August followed him out of the room.

A/N: Sorry if this chapter seemed short, hopefully the next one will make up for it. You also find out where Juice is. I know that the Liv/Juice action seemed out of place but I wanted to add it and that just seemed like a pretty decent spot to do so. From this point forward there will probably not be any flash backs…however I can't say…my characters do what they want. Ooh and I have decided who Liv is going to end up with…so stay tuned for that. The next chapter will probably come sooner than this one, I am just about finished with one of my other SOA FF, so I will be able to focus more on Liv and her story.
Side note…super sad there are only two episodes left of SOA…but yay its Teller Tuesday! Please feel free to let me know what you think, I love hearing from you. xo