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I'm getting dressed in dark jeans and a nice gray dress shirt when Santana walks in my room. I look at her and she looks so beautiful in a red dress. She silently hands me my black tie. I begin to tie it but my hands are just fumbling so she steps closer and grabs them, pulling them away from the tie. She begins to tie it while I just stare at her. All I want to do is kiss her. I know in my heart that I've fallen in love with her but for some unknown reason I ant get those words to come out of my mouth.
Without realizing what I'm doing I lunge forward and kiss her. We kiss for a moment before there's a knock on my room door and she pulls back.
She drags her thumb under my bottom lip, wiping off the lipstick before wiping a tear from the corner of her eye.
"Come in" She says focusing on my tie
Rachel walks in, "Hey, your dates are here"
I nod in acknowledgement
Santana nods as well and finishes fixing my tie before walking out of the room
"Everything ok?" Rachel asks me
"Sure" I shrug and pull on my shoes before walking past her and into the living room
"So" Rachel says as she walks into the room, "I was going to cook but I decided to take everyone out to dinner instead. The restaurant is just a couple blocks away. Can everyone walk that far?"
Everyone agrees and heads out of the apartment.
/
We get to the restaurant. It's a nice seafood place and we all sit down. Of course Santana is sitting across from me with her date Heather.
Quinn keeps glancing at me and San but doesn't say anything.
"So how is everyone's day?" Rachel smiles as the waiter walks over
"What can I get you all to drink?"
Everyone orders wine or martini, then it's my turn Long Island ice Tea please. I know it sounds wimpy but if you've never had one then you're missing out. It's made with all kinds of alcohol and squirt of Coca-Cola. No water. Trust me it's a super strong drink.
The waiter cards us all before going to get our drinks.
/
"Alright so I asked them what kind of games they had" Mike said, "And when the dude came back from the back storeroom he handed me a card to this place that's completely old school. I mean they have Pac-man, Super Mario and Duck hunt"
"That sounds awesome" Finn grinned and I nod.
Normally I'd been completely into this conversation but I just can't stop thinking about that kiss. It was amazing. I know that I am on the edge of falling in love with Santana and it's completely unfair to Chelsea. Chelsea is such a nice person and she's done nothing wrong and I'm an asshole.
After dinner Rachel orders 4 desserts; one for each couple to split.
Chelsea smiles and places her hand on my thigh. I try to smile but I can't.
We finish dinner and walk out of the restaurant.
Quinn grabs me and pulls me aside, "You have to do something"
I sigh, "What am I supposed to do?"
"You love her" She said and I'm kinda shocked but I stay quiet
"Fine" She said and grabbed my jaw jerking my head to see Santana and Heather kissing, "How does that feel?"
It's like someone punched me in the gut.
I close my eyes, unabe to keep seeing it.
Quinn sighs, "Britt, babe" She mutters pulling me into a hug
I nearly break down in her arms. I know I have to end things with Chelsea tonight.
/
We get back to the apartment and I pull Chelsea into my room. She thinks we're gunna have sex and starts to take her clothes off but I stop her, "Chelsea stop"
"What's wrong?" She asks concerned
"I need to talk to you" I replied and sit on the edge of my bed
She nods, "Ok whats up?
"I have feeling for someone else" I say and she freezes
"What? I thought…"
"I'm sorry. You're amazing and if I didn't have these feelings I'd be with you in a heartbeat but it's not fair to anyone"
"Do I know them?"
I sigh and debate on whether or not I should tell her. I decide that it's only fair for her to know.
"It's Santana" I mumble
She nods and sits next to me, "Does she know how you feel?"
"Kinda" I say
"Well, I hope you two work out" She smiles
"Seriously, how are you so damn nice?"
Chelsea laughs, "You can't help who you fall for, Brittany. I wish it was me but it's not so I'll let go. But I'm still your friend, got it?"
I laugh and nod, "Of course"
"Wanna smoke?"
"Fuck yes" I grin and grab my stache box.
I roll a couple joints and chill in my room talking about everything that's happened between me and Santana.
"So Rachel has no clue?" Chelsea askes me
I laugh, "Nope."
We hear a door open and shut out in the living room so I get up and go to my door.
"I'm gunna head out, Britt" Chelsea says getting up
"You sure?"
"Yeah, I'll get a cab and call you tomorrow"
"Alright, let me walked you to the door" I say as I loosen my tie some more
We walked to the door and she kisses me on the cheek before leaving. I take a hit from my joint and quietly walk to Santana's room and knock.
Heather comes to the door wrapped in a bed sheet and smiling.
"Hey, hold on." She says, "San"
"Who is it?" Santana asks as she walks over pulling on a bathrobe, "Oh" she mutters seeing me
I don't say anything I just nod and walk back to my room. I roll some more joints and lay on the bed. I'm still in my jeans, shirt and tie but I don't really care. I'm not mad at Santana at all I'm just…kinda heartbroken I guess is the correct term.
I hear a knock on my door and say, "Come in"
Santana walks in and shuts the doors before leaning back against it and crossing her arms while looking at the floor. I sit up.
"Hey" I mumble
"Hey, sorry about that"
I shrug, "No need to be sorry. You guys are together"'
"Where's Chelsea?" She asks but not harshly
"I told her about us and we decided to just be friends."
"You told her?" Santana asked, her head snapping up to look at me
I turn my head and look at her, "Yeah. You're really…important to me"
A tear falls from the corner of her eye and I get up. I wipe it away, "Don't cry" I mumble
She sniffs, "Britt, I..."
"Don't" I say quickly, "Whatever you want to say, just wait. I'm not sure I can handle it"
Santana sniffed and looked down at the ground
I sigh, "You should get back to Heather"
Santana nods and leaves.
I take off my pants and shirt so I'm just in boxers and a sports bra before climbing into bed. It doesn't take long to fall asleep.
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I wake up when I feel someone lying next to me. I open my eyes and see Santana.
"Am I dreaming?" I whisper
"Would you dream of this?" Santana asked
I nod, "Yeah"
She smiles slightly, "Well you're not dreaming. I talked to Heather."
I sit up, "What happened?"
"Well," She said scooting closer, "I told her that I wanted to be with you and that I sorry. She didn't take it too well but it ended things"
"I'm sorry it was bad" I say sincerely
"Just tell me that you'll be with me, exclusively" She pleaded
I smile and nod, "Of course I will"
She smiles and glances at my lips. I lean over and gently kiss her.
"Let me take you on a date tomorrow night" I say, "No more hiding"
San nods, "I'd love that"
"Good" I grin and kiss my girlfriend