I'm sorry for not putting this chapter yesterday day, hope I will be forgiven.

I had finally decided to put my past behind me, and try to leave the life of a shinobi behind. Afterall I couldn't defeat Hanzo and my shishou died protecting me, because of me she died, because I was weak, NO! It wasn't because I was weak but more of the fact that I was afraid and scared.

When Hanzo of the salamander blasted me with his killing intent, I went weak at the knees, I had never been so afraid of my life of the beast that was Hanzo of the salamander, the man who was said to have defeated the three sannins at their prime single-handedly, the stories said that in his fight against the three sannins that he completely overwhelmed them, giving them no chance to recover, that he was like a hungry beast after its prey .

This man defeated the three sannins and I challenged him to a duel only to get cold feet at the first sign of killing intent.

I should have remembered that the three sannins didn't gain their title because of how valiantly they fought against Hanzo of the salamander, but rather they gained that title because of the fact that they survived that fight against him.

A naive young shinobi I was, thinking before acting, I attacked Hanzo of the salamander. I believed that my skills were strong enough to defeat him but I was dead wrong.

Flashback

I had just defeated another A-rank missing nin and I was feeling very good about myself because with that latest kill I believed I was finally ready to start hunting down S-rank missing ninjas and I knew the first prey on the list Hanzo!.

Defeating Hanzo will finally put my demons at rest, Hanzo the one who razed my village to the ground because we defied his rule, I wanted him to die.

My master has always tried to get me to forget about my revenge regime on Hanzo but in this line of work one never forgets , afterall shinobis would always hate each other .

It took only two days to get to the hidden village of rain, my hometown where I was born and it only took an hour to find where Hanzo was, I thought getting to him was going to be hard but instead it was easy, way too easy.

I should have noticed something wrong when I saw Hanzo alone sitting down doing nothing, I should have noticed something wrong when sneaking into his base was way easier than sneaking into my own room, I should have noticed the lack of guards that should have been with Hanzo. But seeing him there sitting so defenseless clouded my ninja instincts, I just wanted him dead and abandoning all ninja protocol I jumped down the roof to engage Hanzo.

When Hanzo didn't seem surprised at my appearance rather he seemed like he expecting a visitor, expecting me!, that was when my instincts came back with justice and all my rookie mistakes came back to haunt me.

Before I could even move, something slammed into my belly, said something was painful and when I could see through the pain, I noticed said something was Hanzo's foot kicking me, how did he get infront of me so fast .

The force from the kick drove me through 15 solid brick walls, I couldn't feel my spine ,I wasn't sure I even had legs anymore .

Hanzo was walking out from the shadows and dust from my flight, but my mind filled with fear transported me back to my childhood, on the day Hanzo used his trademark summon the salamander to eradicate my whole village in an instant, in my memory I felt so scared of him because to me he was the true boogeyman.

In an instant he had defeated me, in a second all my bravado and morale were shattered, in a flash all my skills amounted to nothing. So after all this while, I should have known he wouldn't grow stagnant, I truly was weak and I was going to die, in one last act of defiance I tried to stare into his eyes but what I saw there made me feel ashamed of myself, in his eyes were disgust.

He was disgusted at me and he told me so, he said that when he heard someone was looking for him, someone with a score to settle that he was expecting something, something more not me , a weakling that had no spine for punishment , killing me was mercy he told me and when he wanted to be true to his words, when I had already accepted my faith of death, someone stopped him.

Shishou! No!no! no no! She shouldn't be here, she shouldn't be here fighting him, she summoned a bushin to help me escape while she kept Hanzo busy, I tried to go back but with my legs dislocated and fractured it was impossible, the bushin didn't stop until we were outside Ame and whilst crossing over to the land of fire the bushin suddenly dispelled plopping me into the cold freezing waters dividing the land of fire and the land of rain, my legs were of no use in trying to swim and I feared the worst for shishou and before I knew it, I knew no more.

Waking up was not a good idea right now, where was I?, what was I doing?, oh that's right Hanzo was about to kill me and shishou she..., finally getting my thoughts back together something finally stood out where was shishou?.

I couldn't find shishou and looking around the room I was in, I didn't recognize it so I searched for said person it belongs to that was where I found Hakuna.

Hakuna Was a sweet old woman of 60 who lived alone near the border of konoha, according to her she was a retired ninja, a medic to be infact ,she said she found Me washed up in the river nearly dead and she took me in and has been nursing me for over two weeks. Two weeks!, shishou should have found me by now, the fact that she isn't here could only mean one thing she... She...she was dead. Because of my selfishness I had lost another person dear to me because of my revenge another loved one is no more, I cried myself to sleep and when I woke up I talked with Hakuna about staying with her for sometime, she agreed.

I stayed with her for over 6 months before I was ready to move on, I had made a decision within those 6 months that I would give up on my revenge but to do that and abide by it I would give up on being a ninja, no more would a loved one die because of my selfish regime for revenge.

When I told Hakuna of my decision she smiled at me and said just not to close my heart to people for one day these skills I now plan on throwing away might be needed to aid loved ones . I didn't get what she meant but she was old so I just agreed and left for konoha, I had heard it was a peaceful place and I was hoping that I would find peace there.

Getting to konoha was easy and given to the fact that for six months I have not trained as a ninja, my body loosed it's tauntness and I looked more like a civilian so getting into konoha was easy. I quickly took to life there everyone was so friendly and with the fourth hokage ruling the village was safe, I had been here for a year and I was finally ready to consider trying to let people into my life especially that pesky red haired demon woman who kept saying I was a cousin of hers, when the it happened.

The kyubi .

Thank you all for reading once again and don't forget review, it will help motivate me to write faster.

Yosh have a nice year.