~~~~a quest to find myself ~~~~

It's been nearly four months since the kyubi attacked konoha, and rebuilding was going steady ,though a lot of debris and tell-tale signs of the kyubi rampage could still be made out a lot in the vicinity.

But the people were working hard to fix it, but with one third of the population dead it was coming up slow.

Most people were still mourning for their loved ones and you can't really blame them, four months is not really enough for one to be through grieving for their loved ones .

I felt so out of place here, the people where trying to get over their pain even though a reminder of said pain in the form of a baby was there to bring back that sad fact of reality.

And also they were trying to rebuild their home, so why did I feel out of place here.

Home a place where loved ones converge together , I didn't have that, so watching this people try so hard to fix theirs even after the recent attack was numbing for me. I had no place here atleast not yet, I had to leave this place, I had to leave konoha ,this place was the perfect place for me to startover but with the recent tensions in the air, it just felt suffocating. So I had to leave if for some time to gather my thoughts and know where I will go from there, I got my things ready to leave and perhaps see the world but this time not as a shinobi but as a civilian, perhaps maybe then I would find what I'm looking for but first I have one more last thing to do before I go.

Hey there, I'm sorry for never showing up at your funeral but it was really had for me to accept that someone like you was dead. You know you were so strong and cool even though you could also be dumb sometimes, always walking around yelling at the top of your voice daily.

I miss hearing you shout at me, telling me to stop acting all emo and not just me, a lot of people miss you.

You know you never did tell me your clan name and you did tell me what you were planning on naming your kid.

I don't know where you were buried but I hope this small altar will suffice if not then you will have to wait for some in order to kick my ass for it.

You were the first friend I made here, without you I wouldn't have been able to settle down here so easily, you made everything bright and you were a lot like an older sister to me, even though most of the times I am the one who acts mature.

I'm sorry for not looking for you, I'm sorry for being a coward, I'm sorry for not being there.

I know it will never bring you back but still I'm sorry.

Till we meet in kami's court Eh kushina Ja ne.

Walking out of konoha felt weird ,like I was leaving a part of me . I haven't lived here a long time but this place has grown on me. Sadly I have to leave it if only for a short period of time but I wouldn't come back here until it's been three years .

Walking down the pathway of the forest away from the village of konoha , in a quest to find myself.

I couldn't help but think that once again I was running away, that once again I was being a coward, running away spouting excuses whenever the situation doesn't favour me. I squashed down that line of thought and kept on walking, but deep down I knew that indeed I truly was a coward.