Chapter 19: Home Sick

Liv stared at Happy as she tried to decide if she had actually heard him utter the words she had been longed to hear from him or if her mind was playing tricks on her. "I love you too, Happy." She said quietly into his chest. She enjoyed their intimate, quiet moments together. They didn't happen as often as she would like but when they did she saw a whole different part of Happy than he normally portrayed. She liked his softer side but she would take his hard side too.
"We should get dressed and head back out to the bar. I am sure Tig is going to be looking for you shortly, we do not need him barging in here again and seeing us like this." Both of them were naked from the waist down. At least Happy had his pants around his ankles; it was Liv who was left searching for her clothing. Happy pulled up his jeans and smirked at Liv, "Looking for these?" He held up her lacy black underwear.

"Yeah actually, I am." Liv snatched them from Happy but not before planting a light kiss on his lips. She quickly dressed hoping her dad would not be wandering back to the office to see how she was doing. "I would hope that my dad would have learned from the last time he walked in to my office when you were alone in here with me." Liv smirked at Happy as she started out of the office. She couldn't get enough of him or his body.

Olivia was feeling one hundred times better than when she first arrived at Red Woody. She felt as if a huge weight had been lifted from her shoulders. Happy not only told her he loved her but he proved it and now Pete would never be able to touch her again. It also meant she was one step closer to being able to go back to Charlotteville…back home. Liv frowned as she thought about it, as thrilled as she would be to be able to return home, how could she leave Happy? How could she leave her new family she had built in such a small time? She couldn't, not yet. She wondered if she was just feeling home sick; she missed Natalie and Big Jim and his family. Liv even missed working at the diner which is one thing she never thought she would yearn for. She wondered if she left Charming; would long for it and its people just as much as she did for home? Life was so much less complicated when she only had one family, in one location. Now she had her new family to consider as well. Liv shook off the thoughts and decided she would take things one day at a time because she knew from experience things could change in just a matter of moments.

Liv walked out into the bar area with Happy just a step behind her. She couldn't help but smile as she took in the site of the men who treated and protected her like a daughter or a sister. She watched her dad talk animatedly with Chibs about something. Tig turned his head and looked at Liv, concern flashed across his face as he got up from where he was sitting and walked over to her. As he got closer Liv saw that he had spattering of blood on his shirt like Happy did; a tell-tale sign he also had his hand in what happened to Pete. She had an overwhelming feeling of love towards these men, she couldn't help but feel conflicted about the day's events; these two men she loved so much, were murderers but they did to protect her.

"Hap?" Jax called from the chapel. Happy placed his hand on Olivia's lower back before he walked away. It reminded her of where he had been just minutes before, she bit her lower lip as she watched in walk through the door of the church. Her body was on fire for Happy.

"How you doing, baby girl?" Tig took Liv into his arms. His smell had become familiar to Liv, cigarettes, cologne and leather.

"I am doing better than I was when I got here." She squeezed Tig tightly. "Thank you, Daddy." She said in a whisper.

Tig looked down at Liv, "Baby, I would do it all over again if it meant you were safe. I will do everything in my power to keep you safe. No one will ever touch you again." He kissed Liv's forehead. He loved his daughter so deeply it could have bordered on madness.

"I get it now." Liv said as she parted from her dad. Tig gave her a confused look. "I get why you wanted me to stay with my mom and dad in Charlotteville. It wasn't because you didn't want me, it was because you loved me." He didn't know that Liv had struggled with the fact that he had given up his parental rights. She never had it in her to tell him she felt abandoned not only by him but by her mother.

"Olivia, I never wanted this life for you; your mother didn't want it either. You were supposed to grow up in a world that simple and uncomplicated. I hate that you were thrust into this violent world, I chose for myself. You do not deserve it." Tig and Liv walked up to the bar where Davis had already poured Liv a beer and had it sitting on the bar top for her. He knew her well. She flashed a thankful smile his way, he returned it with his own and a nod.

Turning her attention back to Tig. "Listen, a lot of things have happened in my life that were not supposed to happen. My mother was not supposed to become a drug addict and die. My adopted mom and dad were not supposed to die in a car accident on the way to my high school graduation. I beat myself up over this whole situation...if I would have just stayed at Juice's that night like he wanted me to then maybe I wouldn't have been taken and Juice would still be alive. Daddy we can't change things, as much as those things hurt and rip at our souls." Liv paused for a moment thinking about Juice and how badly it still hurt; that loss was one that would never leave her. "We move forward, grow and change. If a person can't do that than they are the ones who tend to live in their regret and sorrow and those are the ones like mom who take their own lives." Liv looked at Tig who was staring at her with amazement and awe.

Tig smiled at Liv, she had become such a beautiful and smart woman. Before Olivia came back into his life he had wondered what she was like. He had gotten some letters from Sasha as Liv was growing up telling him how she was doing. He had also received photos but everything had stopped once Liv got into high school. He never knew why the letters ended but they did and he would never know the answer, now that Sasha was no longer around.

"Liv, you have grown into the woman your mother wanted you to be. I couldn't be more proud of you and your strength." Tig's chest swelled with pride. How could his child turn out so stable after everything she went through at the start of her life? Plus she was a Trager, and Tragers tended to have a craziness about them. Although you wouldn't hear him admit that. He thought about it for a moment longer and realized that she was with Happy; she did have the Trager craziness. "Do you like it here baby?" He asked.

Olivia frowned, "I miss my home. I miss my freedom and being able to come and go as I please. I understand you want to keep me safe but I just miss it." A small smile spread across her face. "I actually miss my job." She shook her head. "I would take every family free Tuesday just to be able to be home for a few hours…to smell the familiarity of my house."

"You could make Charming your home." Tig insisted, he didn't know if he could let Liv to move back to Charlotteville after what had happened to her. Now that he had her in his life, was he willing to let his Angel's daughter go? "Your family is here now. You have me and Happy…and the club." He was hopeful that Liv would say yes, she would stay and make Charming her home.
Liv hadn't heard Happy come up from behind her, he stood there and listened intently wanting to hear her answer as much as Tig did. "Dad, I am so grateful and amazed by everyone in Charming but I am home-sick. I love you all so very much and I want you all in my life. But…" She couldn't find the words to formulate how she felt so she changed the subject, "…I know that Happy has told me now that his house is mine but it doesn't feel like mine…" Liv trailed off, thinking about what would happen to the thing that was going on with Happy when she can leave Charming. "I want my own bed, my soft, downy covered bed. I'm so home sick." Longing oozed out of her pores.

"Then why don't we go?" Happy's voice startled her, he had been listening in on her conversation with her dad.

Liv turned to Happy and tilted her head as she tried to judge what he was saying to her. "What?"

"Let's go, if we leave now we can be there by midnight. I have to head up to Tacoma for a few days, we could make a trip to Charlotteville before-hand." Happy watched Liv as she took in what he had said to her.

Liv leaped from the stool she was sitting on, "Are you serious?" She asked as she flung herself into him. "Yes! Yes! One hundred times YES!" Liv was so excited, she wanted nothing more than to get away from Charming and forget everything that had happened in the past few months.

Happy looked over Liv's head at Tig, who was smiling at her excitement. Happy lifted his eyebrows as if to ask him permission but they both knew there was no way that he could take back is offer now. "We just have to head to the house so we can pack stuff and head out after that."

Liv pulled back from Happy and smiled up and him broadly. "You are going to get so lucky tonight." She whispered so Tig wouldn't hear her.

"I am pretty sure I just got lucky in your office." Happy smiled against Liv's ear.

SOA SOA SOA SOA SOA SOA

The ride to Charlotteville took over 12 hours and Liv's body ached as she got off of Happy's Harley and stepped onto her cobblestone driveway. Home had never looked so good to her. Along the way she had called Natalie and asked her to hide her house key in one of the planters for her. She also swore Nat to secrecy about her visit, Liv wanted to surprise Big Jim and her diner family. That would have to wait until the next day because all she wanted to do was to shower and crawl into bed. Her bed.

Happy took everything in as he got off of his bike. Olivia's house was two stories and much larger than his own. He was pretty sure that his house would fit in the first floor of her home. "Nice place you have here." He whistled.

Liv gave Happy a tired smiled as she dug into one of the planters. "It was my parents. I grew up here." She pulled the key out of the dirt where Natalie had buried it. "Leave it to Nat to bury the key instead of just putting it under the planter." She brushed the soil off of the key and turned on the porch towards the door. She was shaking with excitement. She could not wait to walk through the door, to be home for the first time in months. "Welcome to my house." She pushed open the door and stepped aside for Happy to walk in before her.

It was dark but Olivia quickly remedied that after she locked the door behind them. She placed the key on the table next to the door where her purse and cell phone were still sitting. She ran her hands over her phone, it had been far too long since she had it. She picked it up from the place she left it before she went to Juice's house that horrible night and carried it with her so she could charge it. Liv took a deep breath and enjoyed the smell of home.

Happy followed Liv down a short hallway which had rooms on his right hand-side, he was sure Liv would give him a tour when she was settled in. He glanced at one of the walls that had photos covering it. He paused and didn't follow Liv as he looked at the photos that were hanging there. The one that caught his eye was of a little girl, who had to be Liv and the man and woman with her, he had only assumed were her parents. The shot had the two people tickling the little dark haired girl. She was laughing and seemed so carefree.

"I was six in that picture. It was taken on one of our family trips. I don't remember it but I love that picture." Olivia's voice startled him. "This one is one of my favorites too." Liv's fingers glided over the frame of a small photo near it.

Happy looked over to see the back of two little girls holding hands. They were both wearing dresses but that was the only similarity between the two of them. One of the girls had wavy black hair and the other straight dark blond hair. "You and Natalie?" Happy questioned.

A smiled spread across Liv's face. "Yeah. It was taken the day of my biological mom's funeral. She has been the most precious person to me in all this world since that day." She took his hand his hers and pulled him towards the end of the hallway which opened up into a kitchen and living room area. "Do you want anything to drink or eat? I honestly don't know what I have that would not be rotten though."

"Nah I'm good. I could go for a shower and some sleep though." Happy yawned. The ride had done him in, almost 13 hours on his bike and beating the shit out of Pete was starting to hit him hard.

"Mmm, a shower sounds so lovely." Liv smiled. She started up the stairs that were to Happy's left. "Do you want to shower with me or in your own shower killer?"

Happy relished the thought of showering with Liv. "We can shower together." He knew what he would like to do to her body but didn't think he had it in him.

Liv opened up the door to one of the rooms, the colors were warm and welcoming. "The bathroom is through there if you want to go and get the shower ready." Liv pointed to her left as she walked over to her dresser to grab clothes. She glanced up at the top of her dresser and there he was smiling back at her with his big stupid grin, Juice. Her heart dropped and tears threatened in her eyes. Olivia hadn't realized how hard it was going to be to be in her house without Juice. She felt a brief pang of guilt as she thought about how she brought Happy into her house. He would be sleeping in the same bed Juice had made love to her in. She ran her hand across the photo before picking it up and burring it in the bottom of her underwear drawer…just like her feeling of guilt, why was it she was alive and he wasn't? She sighed deeply before heading into the bathroom to join Happy in a very much needed and deserved shower.

A/N: Sorry that chapters have been few and far between lately, I have a new work schedule and it SUCKS! Bless Happy's heart for bringing her home. I am excited for the next few chapters but I cannot promise I will have them out next week…sorry. You will get to see both Liv and Happy in their elements…expect some conflicts!

Thank you all for your continued support and comments…love hearing from you all!