Chapter 25: Heart to Broken Heart

The sun was shining and the day was warm, Tig thought it would be a perfect day to go for a ride and take Liv along. He wanted to spend some time with his daughter on his own without the distraction of Red Woody, the club or the two men she obviously was struggling between. He wanted to talk with her about her sisters, why Juice was excommunicated but most of all he wanted to introduce her to Venus. He pulled into Happy's driveway just as he was storming out of the house. Ever since Juice had come back from the dead, Happy had been in a foul mood. Tig by all means understood, Happy didn't like the fact that he had to now compete for Liv. As Happy got closer Tig saw that the left side of his face was bright red.

"What happened to you?" Tig asked him as he got off his bike.

Happy glared at him, yet another unpleasant mood. "Ask your fucking daughter." Was all he had to say to Tig, before he started up his bike and drove off.

That was not a good sign, what had happened to Happy making it official with Liv? Obviously Juice coming back in the picture put a damper on things but it wasn't like Liv was spending all of her time with him. And it wasn't like Happy to take things laying down. Tig shook his head and walked into the house.

"Liv?" He called out.

"I'm back here." She called out there was something different about her voice, something sad.

Tig walked to the back of the house in the bedroom where Liv was staying in was. He walked through the doorway to find Liv hastily throwing all of her clothes into a bag. "Olivia?" She turned to look at him, Tig knew she had been crying. "What did he do to you?" He instantly become the protective father.

"Nothing, it's just done. We're just done. I want to go home. I surprisingly found one of the prepaid cells and called Natalie she is going to head down here tomorrow morning and we'll leave to go home on Friday." Her voice was cold and emotionless.

"Why don't you spend the day with your old man then?" He was disappointed that Liv had come to her breaking point with Happy.

"I'd like that. Can we swing by Juices so I can drop my stuff off?" Liv zipped up her bag and walked past her dad and into the bathroom being sure that she had grabbed everything from Happy's. She didn't want to have to come back, she didn't want to see his house for a very long time. It held too many memories for her, most of them were blissful and filled with love; those memories broke her heart. Those were the memories she didn't want to remember.

"Is that what Happy's face was about?" Tig questioned Liv about the red mark Happy was sporting.

"He deserved it." Liv's palm still tingled from the slap. She still couldn't believe that he had hit Happy. She had never hit anyone before she had come to Charming, now she had got into a fight and slapped someone. She yearned to get back to the calm of Charlotteville, maybe she would find some peace there.

"Since when did my sweet little lady become so angry and violent?" Tig smirked.

"I guess Happy rubbed off on me…I take it you heard about my tiff with the girls at Red Woody." Liv didn't want to see another porn star in her life, and no one would really blame her since one sold her for money and two of them fucked the man she loved.

"Quinn told me. What happened baby girl?" He pushed.

"Happy, happened." Was all she said to her father. She didn't need to say anymore, Tig knew well enough that Happy had screwed the two girls and hurt his daughter in the process. This was why she was leaving, he was why she was leaving.

"Want me to take that for you?" Tig asked as Liv was lifting her bag.

"No, I've got it. Thank you though. Can we just get out of here, please?" She pulled the heavy back onto her back, thinking about her ride from Tacoma to Charming with the bag on her back. Another night of first for Happy and her, sex in his bathtub. Liv pushed the thoughts of how Happy made her body feel out of her head because he would never make her feel those thing again.

Liv knocked on Juice's door before she and Tig entered, "Juice?" Liv called as she started to take her bag off of her back. She hadn't talked to him about staying there but she was sure he wouldn't care especially after the night that they had shared. Juice rounded the corner fresh out of the shower, all he was wearing was a towel around his waist. Liv admired his body with a blush because her dad was standing next to her.

"Hey." Juice smiled. "Let me go get some clothes on, I'll be right back." He turned and went back to his room. He was glad to see Liv had come back, he didn't know what to expect when she had left so quickly that morning. He wasn't sure what was going on with her but she was hiding something from him. Juice knew that Liv would tell him at some point and he decided not to push. He walked back out to the living room when he noticed something hadn't seen before, a large duffle bag. It was sitting on the floor next to Liv. When he looked up at her she was chewing on her bottom lip. "Stop chewing on your lip and just tell me." Juice said quietly, knowing it usually meant she had something important or bad to talk about.

Tig looked over at Liv, he hadn't even noticed that she was chewing on her lip and that her cheeks were flushed. Then he realized something had happened between them last night. He wasn't stupid, people just thought he was because he was a tad bit crazy.

"Can I stay here, until Nat comes to bring us home?" She asked.

Juice walked up to Liv and took her face into his hands, "Of course, I wouldn't want you to be anywhere else." He kissed her forehead.

Tig felt the urge to shove Juice on his ass but he refrained. He never did that to Happy when he saw him with Liv after she told him how she felt about him. He was okay with the idea of Liv and Happy together; Liv and Juice plucked a bad cord with him. Maybe it was because he had seen Liv and Happy having a life together since Happy had asked if he could make liv his old lady. He wanted them to give him lots of grandchildren.

"Thank you, Juice. Nat's coming down tomorrow."

"Yes, she can stay here too." Juice smiled, he knew how much Natalie meant to Liv. "I guess that means we are heading home soon." Home…that word sounded so nice to him. Charming was no longer his home, it wasn't were his family was anymore.

A sad smile crossed Liv's lips, "Yeah, Friday. I'll let Jax know so he doesn't come hunting for you. Listen, I am going to spend some time with my dad today. I'll be back later." Liv gave Juice a small peck on the cheek.

"Alright, I will see you later." Juice said, he was sick of having to share Liv with the club. He was sick of not being able to be with her outside of his house. He could not wait to get back to Charlotteville, where he didn't have SAMCRO breathing down his neck.

Tig had taken Liv on a ride through the desert and towards Stockton. They pulled into a little diner. Liv got of the bike and smiled, that was one of the many things she was going to miss about being in Charming, riding on the back of a Harley. They walked into the diner and sat at one of the tables, Liv didn't know if she wanted to go back to working at the diner. She hated the feeling her body would get after a long shift, her feet would hurt, her back would ache and she would go home and fall asleep within minutes often times waking up still in her dirty work clothes.

"What can I get, you?" The waitress walked up and asked Tig and Liv. She was an older woman who sounded like she smoked a pack of cigarettes a day. Liv found herself thinking about how she could be just like this woman if she allowed her life to keep moving the way it was.

"I'll just have a coffee and cream." Liv said, she wasn't in the mood to eat.

"I'll take a coffee as well. And two slices of your apple pie with vanilla ice cream." Tig looked over at Liv who was frowning at him. "You need to eat too."

"I'm not hungry." Liv picked at her nails, truth was she had too much going on in her head and her heart to be hungry.

"You want to tell me what is going on?" Tig pushed her.

"Not really. I don't want to talk about it because it means it's true." Liv said sadly. Grateful the waitress arrived at their table with their coffees and pie.

"You know, you can talk to me." Tig looked directly at Liv.

Liv let out a quiet sigh, "No offense Daddy but I don't think I can talk to you about the problems I am having in my love life. It's too fucking complicated and well you're my dad."

Tig let out a laugh, "Alright sweetheart. But let your old man offer you a small piece of advice, listen to your heart. Happy can be an asshole and I get it he probably deserved what you dished out but give it some time if you want to be with him. If you want to be with Juice, fine."

"Fine? Is that all you have to say?" It worried Liv that he had nothing more to say than fine.

He sighed, he knew Juice hadn't told Liv about his past with SAMCRO and he didn't know if it was his place to tell her all of it. "Honey do you know why he was excommunicated?" Liv shook her head. "He betrayed the club several times, first time he was working with the police, giving them intel on SAMCRO so he could cover up the fact that his dad is black. The second time he told Nero that Jax had him kill someone that Nero cared about. He ratted out his brothers and the club." Tig held out on the fact that Juice helped Gemma cover up Tara's murder which then set in motion the events that had happened over the past few months. Juice was the reason Liv was raped and tortured, how could he tell his daughter that? She would lose everything.

Liv shook her head, this was not the Juice she knew. "He's changed or a least he had been trying to change." Liv now knew why Juice had been keeping his secrets, he didn't want to see the monster he was when he was in Charming. "It doesn't change things, if that is what you are trying to do. I am still going back to Charlotteville in a few days."

"Baby, I just want you to be happy. If it is Juice that does that then so be it. Marry him, have babies with him but don't do it because you feel obligated or you're trying to get back at Happy. You'll just be miserable."

Obligation, was that what Liv felt? No. Juice wanted to be with her and she just wanted…she didn't know what she wanted anymore. Her mind was mess. She looked up at Tig who was staring out the window with a smile on his face. Liv frowned why the hell was he so suddenly happy? Liv looked to see what he was looking at but no one was there.

"Liv, I have someone I want you to meet." Tig stood up, Liv's day was about to get slightly more confusing.

"Hi Tiggy." A woman with large breasts and a masculine voice said as she walked up and kissed Tig lightly on the lips. Then looked over and smiled at Liv, who realized she was transgender. "So this must be the beauty you have been talking about. Venus VanDamme, you must be Olivia." Venus held out her hand which was finely manicured and had French tip acrylic nails.

Liv took her hand into hers and smiled up at her, "Hi, and please call me Liv. Will you join us?" She wanted to get the story behind this.

"Of course I would, sugar." Venus slid into the same side of the booth Tig was sitting in before, Tig slid in after her. "I am so glad, I am finally getting a chance to meet you, I was afraid you weren't real and your daddy was just finding his pleasures elsewhere." Venus teased Tig.

Liv's nose wrinkled as the thought of Tig getting pleasures anywhere hit her brain. She shook her head trying to erase the thought, "Nope, I'm real." Liv glanced over at Tig who was beaming happily. "I guess thing were just a bit chaotic to meet before, plus my attention was being pulled elsewhere." Liv thought sadly about Happy.

"You are a beautiful girl. Take after your handsome daddy." Venus smiled at Liv and then ran her hand down Tig's face.

"Thank you. So how long have you guys know each other?" Liv asked.

"Oh what?" Venus looked at Tig studying him closely. He had been one of the only men who had looked past her biological gender and straight into her soul. He knew her for who she really was. "Six months or so."

"Yeah. Still remember you in that leather suit." Tig smiled at her. Liv was about to say something about he needed to stop but his phone vibrated on the table. He looked at it. "Ladies, I have to take this." He got up and walked out of the diner.

Liv pushed her pie around her plate, the ice cream had all melted causing a mushy puddle. "You okay, darlin'?" Venus pulled Liv out her thoughts.

"Is it that obvious?" A wry smile passed Liv's lips.

Concern flashed across Venus' face, "You're daddy may have told me about what happened. But you look like you had your heart broken."

Liv hadn't considered how she looked. She was still wearing the same clothes that she wore the night before, she was so angry with Happy that she hadn't thought about changing. Not that Venus would have known that. Liv could feel her sadness oozing from her, she didn't want to leave Charming but now it was inevitable; she and Happy had set that into motion with their actions. And there was really no turning back from that. "It's nothing some time won't heal." Liv lied to Venus as well as herself.

"Men are fickle beasts, believe me I understand, since I haven't always been this beautiful face sitting in front of you." Venus smiled.

Liv smiled, "God I am going to miss, California." She tried to change the subject she didn't want to think about men anymore. She was already mind fucked enough.

"You're leaving?" Venus asked, Tig hadn't told her this bit of news. As of a few days ago she was going to be staying in Charming. The whole reason Liv was upset must have been her leaving as well as the heartbreak she was suffering. Venus could read it on the Liv's face. She radiated sorrow.

Liv chewed on her nails lightly as she answered, "We leave Friday." She didn't want to leave but she needed to…she needed to get away from the violence, the porn stars but most of all she needed to get away from Happy.

"I'm sorry to hear that, sugar. How about I have your daddy plan a trip to come and see you once you get settled into your place?" Venus suggested.

That was so kind of Venus to say, it brought Liv to tears. "That would be nice. I'd really like that." She brought her hands up to her face and covered it, trying to hold in the sobs that were starting to build.

Venus moved to Liv's side of the booth and took her into her arms. She held Liv as silent sobs racked her body. "Shh, Olivia. It will all be okay." Venus was smart enough to understand that Liv's tears were not just about Charming or California but about a man. Those were the tears that racked bodies, she was heartbroken.

Tig walked back into the restaurant, he needed to cut their visit short, he was needed at Red Woody. When he got close to the table he saw Venus was wiping tears from Olivia's eyes, it made him love her all the more, taking care of his baby girl. Then he heard Liv's soft giggle, it was something he hadn't heard much of lately and he wasn't usually the one who got them out of her, it was Happy. Tig smiled at the picture of his two girls together. He loved them so much and was glad to see they were getting along.

"Ladies." Both of them looked up at him. "I am sorry we have to cut this short. I am needed at Red Woody."

Venus stood up and held out her hand for Liv who took it and slid out of the table. They walked out of the diner and waited outside for Tig to pay his bill. "Venus it was a pleasure meeting you. I'm glad my dad found you." Liv hugged her. Liv saw past the manly exterior and into the heart that beat within the body. She couldn't have been happier for her dad.

"Sugar, you are just as amazing as your daddy said you were." Venus kissed Liv's forehead.

"Please come and visit with him." She urged as Tig walked up.

Venus glanced over at Tig and smiled, "Of course."

Liv pulled her hair up into a ponytail, dressed pair skinny gray jeans and a mint green tank top and a pair of mint green heels. It was her last day in Charming, she wanted to look cheery even if she felt like her heart was being ripped from her chest. Natalie had been there for two days, helping them get everything together to go back to Charlotteville. Juice also met with a realtor to sell his house, all his ties to Charming had been broken or burned. He didn't see use in having a house in Charming because he wouldn't be coming back.

Liv stared at herself in the mirror before leaving the bedroom, she looked tired and defeated. The girl who stared back at her in the mirror was not the same one who was there just over a week ago, making plans to make Charming her home and to let Natalie live in her house. This girl was broken and confused, she lied to herself just to make it through the days leading to her trip home. She was hoping the distance between her and Charming would help her heal her heart. Liv had a hard time pretending everything was normal with Juice. He wanted things to go back to the way they were before they were taken from Charlotteville but things would never be the same between them even if Liv wouldn't have fallen in love with Happy. Too much had changed, Liv was a different person and so was Juice. They no longer had that carefreeness about them or their relationship. They would need to work on getting to know each other again and see how they fit together.

There was a knock on the bedroom door and Natalie walked in. "Hey, what time do you need to be at Red Woody?" She asked, Nat knew Liv was having a hard time with everything that had happened. Liv wouldn't talk to her about it though and it was heartbreaking to see her friend struggle alone. She was hoping that once they got home, she would be able to sit down with Olivia and find out what happened. Natalie only knew the basics and she had to hear that from Juice, who seemed to have no idea about Liv and Happy. Nat decided she wouldn't mettle in their business and that Liv would handle matters how she always did, she would tell them when she was ready to.

"Um…" This was really happening, she was really leaving Charming. "My dad is going to come and get me. I was thinking we should be on the road by 2pm. You know you are welcome to come with me." Liv offered hoping that Natalie would say she would. Liv hadn't been to Red Woody since everything that happened with Happy and the whores. She didn't want to risk running into him, she was still so angry with him but she missed him even more. A tear betrayed Liv and slid down her face, she quickly wiped it away as she heard a motorcycle pull into the driveway. "Sounds like he is here now." She walked out of the room like she wasn't on the verge of crying.

"Hey." Juice smiled at Liv. He thought she looked absolutely breathtaking. Her tank top showed just the right about of cleavage to leave the rest to the imagination. "You look beautiful." He pulled Liv into his arms and kissed her. Juice felt her distance and contributed it to the fact that she just had been betrayed by someone she had trusted and then had the shit beat out of her by Cartwright. He figured she was still shocked that he was alive after she had come to terms with the fact that she was never going to see him again. He hoped that the distance from Charming would give her the freedom she needed to feel like herself again.

"Ladies…Juice." A male voice behind Liv said, it wasn't her dad, it was Quinn. Liv stepped out of Juice's arms and turned to face Quinn.

She frowned more in confusion than disappointment, "I thought my dad was coming to get me."

Quinn shook his head, "Nope you got me, Pipsqueak." He smiled. Liv wanted to envelop herself in Quinn's calming nature. "You ready to go?" Quinn didn't want to be at Juice's any longer than he had to be. He knew what his betrayal had cost the club as well as Liv.

"Yeah." Liv grabbed her leather jacket off the chair but stopped to face Natalie and Juice. "Can you pick me up around two?"

Natalie nodded as Liv walked out the door with Quinn. She was glad to see it wasn't Happy who had come to pick up Liv. She didn't want to think about what would have happened if he saw Liv and Juice in an embrace.

"Hey, Quinn can we stop by the liquor store on the way to Red Woody?" Liv asked remembering she pretty much polished off Happy's expensive scotch. She would keep her word and replace it.

"Want to get too drunk to care?" He smirked as Liv climbed onto his bike behind him.

"I wish, it just makes it worse." Liv admitted to him. "Is Hap going to be there today?" She had such mixed feeling about seeing him. There was the part of her that wanted to see him so badly it hurt but then there was the part of her that was glad that he wasn't going to be there. The part that was saying to Happy…see I told you so, this is what you get for being an asshole.

"I don't think so. I think he took off to Tacoma after everything went down between you two. I wish things would have turned out differently for you, Pipsqueak. I am going to miss having you around." Quinn kicked his bike to life before Liv could respond.

With a bottle of scotch that cost far more than is should in hand, Liv crossed over the threshold of Red Woody for the last time in the foreseeable future. She took everything in, the sounds of people talking and laughing; the smells which was mingling aromas of cigarettes and sex and the warmth of the atmosphere. This had become her home and the fact that she was leaving crushed her, but she couldn't be around Happy, it was just too hard.

"Olivia." Chibs shouted in his thick Scottish brogue, Liv smiled at him. She hadn't known what to expect at her arrival. But everyone was pleased to see her and sad to say their goodbyes. All the members of SAMCRO showed up sans Happy, the porn stars that had been there when Liv first came to Red Woody showed up and even some of the Croweaters. She was touched by their outpouring of love but it made her heartache with regret.

Liv was sitting at one of the tables with Tig and Venus; she was the whole reason he couldn't pick her up. "What do you have in the bag, baby girl?" Tig pointed at the handled paper bag that she had sitting on the table next to her.

"Something that needs to get to Happy. Would you be able to get it to him?" Liv asked.

Tig nodded, "Of course."

Liv stood up, "I am going to go put it in my office so it is safe." She walked away from the table. She needed a moment to herself, she needed the silence to process everything. She walked into her office the room that had become so familiar to her throughout her stay in Charming. Liv's hand grazed the desk top, she opened up one of the drawers and pulled out a sheet of paper and pen.

Happy-
I hope that this bottle of scotch is sufficient enough to replace the one I drank.
I wish things would have turned out differently for us.
Thank you for everything you did for me while I was in Charming.
-Liv

There it was, her goodbye letter to Happy, she folded it and placed into the bag that held the scotch. She looked around her office and her whole being longed for the love she felt when she was with Happy. She wanted to feel that way again, even if it involved Tig walking in on her and Happy having sex. She would take that embarrassment over the painful emptiness she felt. Tears rolled down Liv's face and she placed her head on the desk and cried. A hand on her shoulder startled her and she flung up.

"Shit, I'm sorry." It was Lyla.

"It's fine, you just scared me." Liv wiped the tears from her face. "Saying goodbye sucks."

Lyla laughed. "It does. You know you don't have to go." Lyla gazed at Liv, in such a short time they had become such close friends. "Do you want to tell me what happened and why I have two girls who are scared of you?"

Olivia smiled with a bit of pleasure at the thought of the girls being afraid of her. "Happy fucked them. They had the audacity to talk about it so I could hear them. I snapped, I lost my fucking mind." Liv thought back to that day. "I told him that night that he was the one I wanted to be with. Happy told me he didn't want me." Liv bit her lip, "He sent me right to Juice. He wanted me, it was all that I could think about. I needed to be wanted. I slept with Juice that night." Liv confessed to her friend, it was something that she hadn't been able to even tell Natalie. "I suppose I wanted Happy to feel the same way I did when I found out about him and those sluts. But it only made me feel more like shit because I was selfish and didn't think about Juice's feelings and I shoved Happy even further away from me. Don't get me wrong I still care for Juice, love him even but like I said before, I am not the same girl who fell for him and he isn't the same man anymore, I've seen that more and more now that I have stayed with him for two days. I am hoping the distance from Charming and time will help us." Liv said sadly.

"So this is it? You're leaving." Lyla had tears in her eyes.

Olivia nodded. "I am. I am going to miss you so very much, Lyla." As she embraced one of the first people who made her feel welcome in Charming. Lyla knew what Liv needed before she even did.

"I am going to miss you too." Lyla pulled back and looked at Liv, "You know if you want to keep working for Red Woody, I would love to keep you on the payroll. I mean no one can answer only man dirty emails like you can."

Liv smiled at the thought of holding on to at least one part of Charming. "I'd like that." Maybe she wouldn't have to go back to the diner full time, it would make her transition back home a little bit easier for her.

"Good." Lyla put her arm around her and the girls walked out of the office.

"Will you make sure Happy gets that bag that is in the office? I asked my dad to but you know him."

"Yeah, I will." They walked back out into the bar area where Natalie standing at the table where Tig and Venus were sitting.

"Hey…you." Natalie smiled and then a flash of concern washed over her face.

"Stop Nat, please." Liv shook her head at her friend. She didn't need her to make her feel even worse. "Daddy…" Tig stood up and took Liv into his arms. "If anything good came out of this it is you." Liv said in barely a whisper.

"I know baby girl. I will come up and visit you soon. Remember I am only a phone call away." He held Liv at arm length and smiled at her through tears. "You have become the woman your mom wanted you to be she would be so proud of you. I love you so much Olivia Grace."

"I love you too, Daddy." Liv wiped the tears from her eyes. Liv bit her lip as she turned to the rest of the club, "Thank you all so much for everything. You're kindness will not be forgotten." She had already made her rounds earlier to say goodbye to everyone. All of them promising to stay in touch, Jax was already planning a trip to meet Liv in Portland with Wendy and the boys. She was glad that she was going to be able to keep in touch with most of the members. Liv took a deep breath and turned away from the people she considered her family and walked with Natalie out of the building.

"Did you get a chance to say goodbye to Happy?" Natalie asked before they got to the car.

Liv shook her head sadly, "No." She saw Juice sitting in the car with a hat on and he was slouched. He was trying to look as inconspicuous as possible but it really made him look more suspicious. "Let's go home." Liv said as she got into the car, tears streaming down her face. Juice's hand touched her shoulder and she put her hand on top of his. She was grateful for his support.

As they were starting to pull away Liv saw Happy ride past the car. Her heart stopped, she needed to say goodbye; she needed to see him one last time. "Stop the car! Stop the fucking car!" Liv yelled in a panic. Natalie stopped the car, thinking there was something wrong; she looked over just in time to see Liv jump out of the car and disappear around the corner towards where the motorcycle had just turned. Natalie knew it was Happy.

"Happy?" Liv slowed to a walk as she got close to him. Her voice as tentative and soft.

Happy glanced up, it was the one face he wanted to see but didn't want to see all at once. He had talked to Jax the day before and he had told Happy that Liv was moving back to Charlotteville. Happy understood that they were beyond mending fences but he had hoped she was going to stick around so they could try. "When are you leaving?"

"Now. I just wanted to goodbye." Liv couldn't control the tears that were falling from her face.

"That didn't take long." Happy's voice had a harsh edge to it.

"Please don't Happy. Just hug me and say goodbye, please." Liv pleaded with him.

Happy closed the gap between them and took Liv into his arms. Relief washed over them both, the stress of the week was gone. Liv sobbed hard into Happy's chest; that was where she belonged, she wanted him to tell her to stay to tell her he wanted her and they should try to work on things. Happy placed his gloved hand under Liv's chin and lifted her face so she was looking at him. Happy's sad brown eyes searched her face. Liv's eyes were puffy from crying and her face still bared the dark bruises from Cartwright's assault on her. But she was still the beautiful woman he had fallen in love with.

"Goodbye Olivia." Was all he said to her before he placed his lips on hers and kissed her. Liv grasped at Happy's back trying to get more of him. When they finally parted Happy fixed the necklace he gave Liv for her birthday before he kissed her forehead and walked away.

A/N: Hope you all had a lovely Easter. Sorry it took me a while to get this one out…I had a direction where this one was going and it went another way. Venus wanted to make a cameo. ;) As always, I hope you enjoyed and feel free to let me know what you think. Spoiler: The Tacoma Killer will be making an appearance soon! :D