Chapter 30: Times, They are a Changin'

Tig had went to bed, leaving an annoyed and worried Liv to fend for herself. It was so unlike Juice to show up and to not return her phone calls especially when he said he was going to do something. Tig told Liv she was worrying about nothing and that Juice probably just fell asleep…he then went into a story about how they all used to sleep when the original club house was around so the boy could sleep through pretty much anything. It really didn't help but Liv humored her father and let the poor man go to bed, he was exhausted from his ride.

Liv tried to make herself busy with work from Red Woody, but she of course couldn't focus on anything so she decided to make a cup of chamomile tea and sit on the porch swing for a while. She had just finished her second cup of tea when she heard a motorcycle coming down the road. The motor finally cut off when it reached her driveway. She glanced up and saw Juice get off of his bike and amble his way over to her on the swing. Liv didn't bother to get up or greet him. She just watched him, he had a sway in his walk that he only got when he had been drinking, she could also smell it on him from several feet away where he had stopped and stared back at her.

Juice could barely contain his rage, all he could think about when he looked at Liv was how she had slept with Happy. How she loved Happy. It hurt him. "Waiting up for me?" Juice said with a slur as he stumbled forward slightly.

"No, Juice the world doesn't revolve around you. Why are you here?" Liv bit back as she stood up to go inside, her neighbors didn't need to be privy to this fight that was about to happen. She was of course waiting up because she had hoped he would show up but she was not going to tell him that.

"Why not? You are my girlfriend aren't you?" His tone was harsh as Liv walked passed him, he grabbed her arm.

"Let go of me Juice and come inside before you wake the neighbors." Liv said with a calm sharpness. She was surprised when Juice had actually let go of her arm and followed her into the house.

"Why did you fuck him?" Juice blatantly said as they got inside.

Liv whipped around and stared at Juice. "What are you talking about Juice?" She knew what she was talking about but she didn't know how he knew or why brought it up for that matter.

"Don't play fucking stupid with me, Olivia!" Juice yelled. Juice's anger was thick in the air and it made Liv flinch. "Why did you have sex with Happy when you were in Charming?"

Hearing Juice say Happy's name with such venom made Liv's heart hurt. "What makes you think we had sex?"

Juice slammed his hand against the wall next to Liv's head, the tea cup she was holding slipped out of her hands and shattered across the floor. "Stop answer questions with question!" Juice spit out. She had never seen this side of Juice before, it actually scared her but if Liv had learned one thing from her kidnapping you don't show your fear.

"Fine you want to know that answer, yes. Yes, I slept with Happy when I was in Charming!" Liv yelled back at Juice. "It happened. I thought you were dead!"

"Did you love him?" He was still angry it made it worse now that he had heard from Liv that she had slept with Happy. Olivia didn't answer him, tears just filled her eyes. "It's not a hard question to answer." Juice's brown eyes bore into Liv's, she could see all his irritation and pain. "ANSWER ME!"

Juice had never yelled at her like that before. Liv tried to walk away, but Juice grabbed her arm roughly and pulled her back to him. "Yes, Juice I loved him…I still do." Liv shamefully admitted to him.

"So when you showed up in my house in Charming sobbing, you were crying because of Happy weren't you? Did you use me that night to feel wanted?" Juice had a quiet venom in his voice as he stared at that woman who he had loved so much but at that moment he felt nothing but contempt for her. There he was that night an idiot who was so in love with this girl but she just wanted someone else. He was such a moron.

Tears fell freely from Liv's eyes as she tried to block out everything that was going on. Juice was the man who got her through the torture and the rapes. His face was the one that came to mind when she wanted to die and kept her going. This was not the face that was staring back at her. "We are such different people Juice. After everything we had been through how can we be the same people?" Liv asked. "How can you expect everything to be the same between us and pick up where we left?"

"You are not answering my question." Juice hissed tightening his grip on Liv's arm.

"Ouch, you're hurting me." She squeaked out as she struggled to get free but Juice's grip didn't let up; he continued staring at her with his furious brown eyes. "That night I ended up at your house in Charming, Happy told me he didn't want me. I never meant to hurt you…I never meant to use you." Liv cried releasing all the secrets she had left.

Juice snapped and threw Liv against the wall roughly, where she crumbled to the floor waiting for his next shot but nothing came because Tig had shoved him hard the other way. "Leave Ortiz because I would like nothing better than to have your blood on my hands." Tig threatened as he stood defensively in front of Liv who was starting to stand up. Juice didn't say anything he just stormed out of the house slamming Liv's door hard on his way out. Tig turned to Liv, who was trying to compose herself but she couldn't. She slid down the wall and cried loudly.

"You okay baby girl?" Tig asked as he sat on the floor next to Liv and took her into his arms.

"No. I am not okay." It was the first time, Tig had heard Liv say that. After everything she had been through she had been so stoic but his daughter was truly broken. He was about to say something to her but Liv started, "I never thought Juice would lay a hand on me."

Liv was stunned. Juice never showed his anger in that way before, nor would have ever expected him to. They had, had such a good day why had he snapped?

"Sweet heart there is a lot about Juice you don't know. I am glad I was here tonight." Tig held his daughter tightly. Liv very briefly made a note to find out what that "a lot" was.

"So am I, Daddy." The truth was she didn't know how far Juice would have taken his anger that night. He was tipsy and angry which doesn't make a good combination. She could deal with the anger because she had dealt with Happy's wrath but having Juice lay hands on her was far worse. It left her feeling defeated and broken. "Do you think he would have hurt me?" Liv asked.

Tig didn't know how to answer that question, he knew the violence that Juice was capable of but he never thought he would act against Liv. "I don't know baby. Let's just be glad you don't have to find out."

Liv let out a snort. She was glad she didn't find out how far Juice would have taken his anger. Olivia was glad she would be out of town for a while; it would give her time to think about everything that had happened between them and with Happy. She needed space. Okay what she really needed was to be single for a while. Liv had went from Juice to Happy and back to Juice again…she hadn't given herself time to get to know who she was after Marks.

"I am going to break up with him." Liv said quietly as she laid her head on Tig's shoulder. "It was unfair of me to not tell him about what happened in Charming between Happy and me. But then again how do you tell someone who went through so much thinking they were keeping you safe that you fell in love someone else?" Liv realized how selfish she had been.

"I think that is a good idea sweetheart." Tig smoothed Liv's hair down. "Do you want me to tell anyone about what happened here?"

Liv knew Tig meant Happy. "No. Just keep this between us for now. I don't want Happy…or any of the Sons to feel like they need to rush in and save me. Right now I just need to…" Liv didn't know what she needed to do, so she focused on something other than what had just happened between her and Juice. "How about we go for a ride in the morning dad? Maybe we could visit my mom's grave, I am sure that you haven't been there in a long time." Liv tried to change the subject.

Tig hadn't visited Aria's grave since her funeral. He wanted to remember his angel as vibrant and happy; not the woman that he read about in the diary Liv gave him. It broke his heart she went through so much pain and suffering because of him. His broken angel. "Of course, I would like that Liv." Tig stood up and held out his hand for Olivia. She was one of his greatest accomplishments, he was floored by her bravery, strength and perseverance. He knew that this Juice thing was just a little bump in the road for her and she would move on.

Liv stood up next to her dad, this was certainly not how she saw her day ending especially since it had started out so nice. Things between her and Juice seemed to be falling into place; it felt like they were the old Juice and Liv. She didn't blame Juice for his anger; he had every right to be fumingly mad at her, she had betrayed and lied to him. She was using him. Deep in the depths of her heart she knew she would never love Juice like she loved Happy. Happy was her freedom, her peace and her escape. Liv shook her head how could she still think about Happy like that? He had treated her so poorly her last week in Charming. But their last few moments together, his kiss… Liv tried not to think about it, she was already too emotional about what was going on in her life. She bent down to pick up the cup the broken pieces of the shattered glass.

"Leave it. I'll take care of it." Tig said quietly. "You should get some sleep. You'll feel better when you wake up and if not I can always beat the shit out of Juice for you."

Liv let out a small laugh. "Alright. I'll see you in the morning. We can go to the café and surprise Natalie. She is super excited to see you."

"Sounds good, baby girl." Tig kissed his daughter's forehead.

What the difference a goodish night's sleep could make. To her surprise, Liv woke up feeling relieved and refreshed. She felt as if a huge weight had been lifted off of her shoulders; it was just what she needed. Liv still felt the heartbreak of what happened the nice before but her sleep had dulled the pain. She had so much to look forward to and to keep her busy that she would find little time to dwell on what had happened. Plan number one, keep oneself as busy as possible.

"Hey kid." Tig smiled at Liv as he came down the stairs and sat at the bar. The smell of coffee had lured him from his sleep. He went to bed angry for Liv and woke up just as mad but when he saw her bright eyes that morning his attitude changed.

"Good morning." Liv pushed a mug of steaming hot coffee towards Tig. "Want to get breakfast at the café?"

Tig nodded as he was taking a sip of his coffee. "Sounds good." He said after swallowing his coffee down. "We can go for a ride afterwards. We can enjoy the beautiful scenery together." Tig treasured the idea of spending the day with Liv.

Tig and Liv pulled into the café; for Liv it was even stranger having Tig there with her than Happy. Happy had always given her such a sense of calm, nothing seemed to faze her when she was with him…well other than the man himself.

"So this is where you work?" Tig asked getting off of his bike, looking at the small building that looked as if it would fit into the town of Charming nicely. He liked its small town appeal already.

Olivia smiled proudly, she loved the people who had become her second family over the years€. They meant the world to her. "Yes, well part time now, thanks to Red Woody."

Tig had almost forgotten that Liv was still on the Red Woody payroll. "Oh that's right, still answering emails and stuff." He muttered.

"Yes. Come on." Liv pulled Tig by the arm into the café, where the familiar smell of grease and coffee hit Liv hard. Her stomach rumbled loudly. Liv made her way to Natalie's section and sat in a booth. "Big Jim makes great food, you can thank him for my cooking skills." Liv pulled one of the menus out from the holder and handed to Tig.

"Is there anything you would recommend for breakfast, Baby Girl?" Tig raised an eyebrow at Liv. The fact she hadn't grabbed a menu didn't go unnoticed by Tig, who though she was going to skip another meal.

"Hmm. The Highway Breakfast is really good, I think you would like it. And please don't look at me that way, I am getting the pancakes." Liv read Tig's face.

He smirked at her, she was just like her mother.

"What can I get you guys?" Natalie walked up to the table. Liv smiled up at her but the smile was returned. Natalie, wouldn't even look at her she was looking at Tig or the table. Liv's smile wiped from her face, something was going on with her best friend.

"Hey Natalie. How have you been?" Tig smiled at the blonde, who blushed slightly.

"I've been pretty good." Natalie tapped on her note pad and then looked up at Tig.

"I bet you are happy to have this one back home." Tig gestured his thumb towards Liv, who was staring down her friend who hadn't even glanced at her.

A slow and deliberate smile crossed Natalie's lips but didn't reach her eyes, "Yeah, I am."

"We'll have coffee and my dad will have the Highway and I'll have pancakes." Liv interjected with irritation in her voice. That is when Natalie looked over at Olivia. "Yeah, I am here too. Nice of you noticed." What the hell was going on with her? Liv wondered to herself.

"I'm sorry, Liv…I am just having an off day." Natalie gave Liv a weak smile as she turned to go put the orders in and get their coffees. When Natalie saw Liv and Tig walked in she prayed they wouldn't sit in her section but of course they did. How could she face her best friend after what she had done with Juice the night before? She had betrayed Olivia in the worse way possible and she couldn't forgive herself. Natalie didn't know how to act around Liv. She felt like if she looked at Liv the wrong way, she would know that she had, had sex with Juice. As great as it was at the time it was already eating Natalie's insides. How could she live with such a secret?

"What's going on Natalie?" Liv's voice was full of concern for her friend. She had followed Natalie into the kitchen area.

Natalie was startled by the sound of Liv's voice. She thought she was in the clear, that Liv would be too busy talking with Tig to want to talk to her. She turned around slowly.

"Listen, if this is about you telling Juice about Happy…I guess it was for the best." Liv said with tension in her voice. It hurt her that Natalie told Juice about it but the truth was bound to come out.

Nat chewed on her lower lip, "Um…"

Olivia rolled her blue eyes at her friend, "Please he didn't have to tell me. You were the only one in Charlotteville, who knew other than Big Jim and I don't see him telling Juice."

"I am really sorry Liv." Natalie spit out quickly, "He fed me drink and you know how I can get." She didn't know how Liv would react.

Liv let out an indignant laugh, "Yeah. Thanks for warning me. If my dad wasn't at my house, I don't know how far he would have taken his anger. Nat, I have never seen him so angry. It scared me. We are just so different than we used to be and because of that I am going to end things with him today." Liv confided in Natalie.

"I am sorry I didn't warn you. I mean I didn't…I'm sorry." Nat had tears filling her brown eyes.

"Oh god Nat. The truth was going to come out sooner or later. I guess I was just lying to myself when I thought that time away from Charming would make me forget Happy and stop loving him. The truth of the matter is, I still love him. I love him more than I love Juice." Liv shrugged at her admission. "I should get back to my dad." Liv looked over her shoulder. "We were thinking about grilling tonight if you want to come over." Liv offered.

"I'll see how I feel after I get off my shift." Natalie smiled at Liv. She was glad that Olivia wasn't upset with her for telling Juice about Happy but how could she ever be okay with what happened in the alleyway?

After breakfast Tig and Liv took a nice ride through the winding roads of Charlotteville and the surrounding area. They were gone all of the morning and most of the afternoon. When they pulled into Liv's driveway Juice's bike was parked in the driveway and he was sitting on the porch swing. Liv got off of the motorcycle and she could feel Tig's presence tense next to her. He was going to his overprotective father mode.

"Give me a second, Daddy." She turned to him and placed her hand on his chest, patting it.

"If he tries anything…." Tig said and continued but Liv couldn't hear him because she was already walking up the stairs to the front porch.

She gazed over at Juice and tried to read him. His face was blank and unemotional as he stood up from where he was seated. "What do you want Juice?" Liv asked.

"I just wanted to come over and apologize to you." Juice took a step closer to Liv, who intern took a step back. Trying to keep distance between them.

Liv raised her eyebrow at him, "Really? Maybe you should have thought about what you were doing last night before you got my best friend drunk and manipulated the truth from her lips." Juice's skin was crawling as he thought about how he had betrayed Liv in his anger. But Liv had lied to him, she had been lying to him every time he made love to her. He now had his answer to why she never told him she loved him, because she loved someone else.

"Liv." Juice closed the gap between them and tried to touch Liv but she shoved him back quickly.

"Don't touch me." Her body tensed and her voice was strained. "You lost your right to touch me when you threw me against the wall last night." She glanced back at Tig, who was moving towards them stairs and shook her head at him. He stopped.

"Please Liv, I am so sorry. I was just so angry." Juice was starting to plead with her. "We can work it out."

Liv frowned, "can we really Juice? How? I love Happy. He would have been the one I chose, if I had to choose. I am sorry Juice, I am just not the same girl you fell in love with."

"Olivia, please…I love you." Juice felt panicked, he couldn't see his future without Liv.

"I love you too, Juice." The truth was she didn't love him enough. "But I need to work on me…I need to go to Portland and find myself. I need to find the girl I have become. You never know, if it leads me back to you then so be it, but right now I think our paths need to separate." Liv stepped forward and kissed Juice's cheek. "Goodbye Juice." She said in a whisper as she stepped away from him and glanced up at Tig, who took the stairs quickly hoping he could get one punch in. He was aching for Juice to just give him a reason but he didn't.

Juice left Olivia's house feeling defeated. He had stewed over what had happened between them all night and wanted to work on things with Liv; he never thought he would get the answer he got from her. He had always thought they would be together but things were over between them, he had let his anger get in the way of the love that got him through so much. He hoped Liv was being truthful about seeing how things went between them down the road. Juice truly hoped that the distance between them would give them time to grow back together.

A/N: Jax is going to make an appearance in the next chapter! As will some other OCs that I am adding in. For all you Liv/Happy lovers out there….Juice is out of the picture for now…and Happy maybe making an appearance in an upcoming chapter. Enjoy and let me know what you think!