Tommy followed Mary through the trailer lot and led him to the first trailer right off of the backstage area. Mary walked up the two steps up to the trailer door and knocked as he stood and waited a few feet away.
"Yeah?" Tommy heard from inside the trailer. Mary opened the door and poked her head in. He heard her mumble a few things before leaning away. She pushed the door open and stepped down the stairs.
"You can go in. She'll be with you in a few minutes. She's in the back getting ready. And good luck." Mary said with a cheeky smile before turning and walking away. 'Good luck? Why do I need luck?' Tommy shook his head for a second to clear his mind and walked up the two steps and through the door. He shut the door and locked it, hoping that nobody will come and disturb them. Tommy turned around to take in his surroundings. The leather sofa against the short side of the trailer, glass coffee table in front of it; a little kitchenette in the middle with a fold-out table, the bathroom and then the bedroom, taking up the last quarter of the mobile vehicle.
"Jude?" he called out as he sat down on the leather sofa.
"Tommy?" she called back through the closed bedroom door.
"Yeah, it's me." He replied, running his hand through his hair nervously. 'Why am I nervous? It's just Jude. Just because we haven't talked or seen each other for the last five months does not mean this has to be awkward, right?' He asked himself. A chill went through him as he noticed that her air conditioner was on and was running on full blast. He rubbed his arms, trying to warm himself up. He heard the bedroom door open and lifted his head to see Jude walk out, still wearing her ripped jeans and baggy hoodie. Her hair was longer, but still blonde, and still kept it a bit shaggy but nice. Tommy stood up and walked a few steps toward her, but before she could get away, he grabbed her shoulders and pulled her into him for a long overdue hug.
Jude kept her arms down at her sides as his arms snaked around her shoulders and down her back. As soon as her front side was flushed with his, he pulled away.
"What the hell?" he asked, as he pulled his arms away and put his hands on the zipper of the hoodie and pulled it down. Tommy pulled the zipper apart and pushed open the hoodie to reveal a tight white t-shirt covering a very round pregnant belly. "Jude?" he questioned as he looked at her face. She was biting her bottom lip as she was staring down at the floor. She then looked up at him with tears in her eyes. 'She leaves me in Toronto and then gets knocked up? Wait, what if it was the other way around? Was she pregnant before she left? Who's the father? Obviously it's not mine if she left me.' A thousand questions went through his mind as he stared silently at her.
"Tommy, we need to talk." She said softly.
"Damn right we need to talk." He said harshly, glaring down at her pregnant belly as if it were an obscenity. Jude walked over to the couch and sat down, pulling down the sleeves of her hoodie nervously. Tommy sat down at the other end of the couch and turned to her. She looked up at him as he glowered at her, his blue eyes hard and swirling with anger.
"Tommy, I'm pregnant." She started. She rolled her eyes to herself, feeling a little stupid. He obviously knew that. Tommy rolled his eyes as well, not hiding the fact that he was still angry and that it was a stupid statement.
"Who's the father?" he asked fiercely. Jude looked up at him as she put her hands down on her stomach and rubbed it gently as she felt a soft thud from the inside.
"It's your baby." She said as she looked him in the eyes. Tommy's eyes softened at her statement. He scooted closer to her and put his arms around her and pulled her to him. She laid her head on his chest as she snaked her arms around his torso. Tommy sighed deeply as he inhaled her clean scent, holding her tightly against him.
"How far along are you?" he asked softly into her hair.
"Twenty weeks." She replied. Tommy did the math in his head, returning to the night after Megan had kept her hostage. At the rehearsal space; on the floor, the couch, the chair, Speiderman's coffee table, and Tommy's personal favorite memory: Kyle's drumming stool.
Five months. Jude was five months pregnant. He was working day in and day out at G Major for the past five months, oblivious to the fact that the love of his life was carrying his child. He pulled away from her gently and pulled her face up to his, leaving his hands on her cheeks and stroking her soft skin with his thumbs.
"Why didn't you tell me sooner?" he whispered, pain showing through his eyes. Jude bit her lip as she looked downward. After a few moments and a few deep breaths, she looked back into his face with tears streaming down her cheeks and over his thumbs.
"So many reasons." Jude whispered back. She pulled away from him and took hold of his hands tightly. "I found out I was pregnant six weeks after I left. I had missed a period and was feeling really sick in the mornings. I was feeling really dizzy and lightheaded throughout the whole day. When I went to go see a doctor, she confirmed my suspicion. The first person I thought about calling was you. And then I got to thinking. I left you so I could be on my own. I felt that if I went back to you or asked you for your help, then I would be a failure. I felt pretty sure and satisfied of myself for standing on my own ground and being independent. That is until I talked to Sadie. She was telling me how selfish I was by not telling you, by keeping this miracle all to myself. She said that I would be a failure as a decent human being and as a mother if I didn't tell you, if I raised this child without a father. After I realized how thoughtless and foolish I was being, I decided to tell you. But then, I realized that this isn't the kind of thing you tell someone over the phone or an email. It had to be told in person, face to face. And I knew that you were coming here for World Instant Star. And then I started having ideas of Sadie taking you over to my house so I could tell you or me purposely on accident run into you out of nowhere. And then I found out that Karma was going to perform in the concert, and I knew that Darius would drag you here and make you support her. So I planned on finding you after the concert to tell you but then I saw you and Kwest sitting out in the arena watching me rehearse and as I was staring and watching you, my heart was just beating so hard with the anticipation of telling you that I had to tell you now. You had to know now." Jude had tears streaming down her face as she squeezed his hands tighter.
"You silly, silly, girl." He said with a soft smile as he pulled his hands from her and wiped away her tears with his thumbs. He was still angry, but not exactly at her. He was angry at the reasons of not telling, of her decisions and notions. But not at her. He was glad that she was at least telling him. Better late than never. He should thank Sadie later for talking some sense into her sister.
"What do we do now?" she asked sadly. He looked at her with a confused look and then realized what she meant. Was he going to stay with her in London or was she going to go back to Toronto with him? Were they going to get back together or live their lives separate with nothing but a child making them keep in contact. One look into her eyes and he knew the answer. He wanted to stay with her. In London. He wanted to be with her for the rest of his life. He had always known that but was always too stupid to admit it. And then all the mistakes he had made while they were together. He was a complete and total asshole not to realize what a fuck up he was whenever it came to Jude. She had her mistakes too; her not telling him that she was pregnant sooner was one of them. But she never did fuck up as bad as he did. His mistakes were always more painful than hers.
"What do you want to do?" he asked her softly, looking into her eyes and holding her face close to his.
"I want to be with you." Jude whispered as her eyes met his. She smiled a little smile as his lips broke out into a big grin. Tommy pulled her face closer to his. He felt her hot breath meet his skin as she parted her lips and exhaled breathlessly. Jude drove her fingers through his hair and pulled his face close enough to make his lips meet hers roughly.
Tommy's hands went from her face to the back of her neck and head, fisting her hair firmly. He parted his lips and slipped his tongue out, licking her bottom lip softly. Jude opened her mouth to accept him, moaning loudly as her tongue met his. Before anything could go further, Jude pulled away, but before doing so, she sucked his bottom lip into her mouth and dragged her teeth softly over his lip before letting him go completely.
"I need to get out there soon. The concert starts in twenty minutes." Jude whispered. Tommy nodded and pulled her into him again, holding her tightly. He ran his hands up her arms and down her back. She pulled away from him after a few moments and brought his hand down to her stomach through the open hoodie. His hand lay flat and still for a few seconds before he could feel something thump against his fingers. At that moment he knew that he could never leave Jude. Never let Jude leave him. From then on out it was the three of them, together. Forever.