Chapter 8
Leonard sighed as he looked a panicked Penny. "Look Penny, I'm sorry I asked but from what you have been telling me you still care. Tell me right now if you don't." He yad to be straight forward with her.
Penny closed her eyes and looked at Leonard, knowing he deserved the truth and why she kept back peddling. "Leonard I do care for you..."
"Then why are you so scared to be back with me." Leonard asked calmly.
Penny saw his eyes where big and could see he was sincere. It took her a minute to make sure everything was going to come out right and Leonard would not over think it. "You are such a great guy. I'm sorry I called you selfish, I was angry with you moving on and I tried and failed. I am the one who is selfish trying to hide this pregnancy from you. Don't be mad at our friends okay. But being with you and when you said those three words to me I freaked out. Being hurt in the past affected our relationship and I hurt you. But I did not want to loose you. You became my best friend. Leonard if I stayed with you I would have said those three words back. Then we would have been engaged, and then married forever. Plus I need to learn to spell your last name right." She could not help smile at him as he did back at her. "And now being pregnant, no job, not knowing what will happen next between us just is scary. What of I am not a good mom? What if the baby likes you more? Leonard there are just too many what ifs." Penny hurried and wiped tears away as their food arrived.
Leonard took her hands into his and made sure she was looking at him. "Hey I am scared too. Being with you scares me too because for the longest time you were my dream girl and I already lost you once. But how about this, we take one day at a time and let me be there for you and take care of you. Move back with me until you find a better job. And if you want to go to school, I support you. But don't push me away anymore. I'm here forever Penny. When this baby is born I want to be involved as much as possible. Us being together will just be a bonus. I will never abandon you. Sheldon will just have to deal with it. As our sleeping arrangements, we are adults and can sleep in the same bed. If we have the urge, we have sex with each other but no one else. Whenever you are ready to take the next step I will be waiting patiently. We can do this together Penny because we have each other." Leonard looked at Penny hoping she would agree.
Penny squeezed his hands and nodded quickly. "Yes Leonard, you are right. You always know what to say. I promise I will try to be less scared as long as keep your promise."
Leonard grinned big at her, "I promise you Penny I will never leave your side through your pregnancy, I will always be on our child's life, and whatever we have between us I will always be there. Now how about we eat. I'm starving."
Penny chuckled and agreed she was hungry after having morning sickness earlier.