"Hey sorry I'm late babe, we ended up with a late domestic call and we had to stay to finish up the paperwork." Eddie said as she kissed him and sat down next to him at the high top bar table. "That's okay I just got here myself." Eddie gave him a hard look.

"What are you doing staring at me Janko" he smiled as he looked over the appetizer menu. "We are getting married Reagan, I can stare at you anytime I want. You look lighter somehow, did you have a good talk with Henry" she asked as the waiter brought her a beer as well.

"I did. I thought you had asked him to talk to me when I first met him at Police Arlington." He said as he watched the highlights from the Jets game the day before. "He told me he didn't need you to reach out to him because he has known me since I was born, he already knew I was struggling with the shooting and my part in it." Jamie said as he looked over to her.

"Jamie you made a call and it was the right one. Ramos getting shot is not on you, it's on the guy who decided to rob the bodega and then take hostages." She said to him as she reached over and placed her hand on his knee. "This was one call, you can not make it change how you do your job"

"I know I can't do that, it's why I think it means I am not cut out to wear the stripes. I am a damn good cop and." He said before he is cut off.

"Stop right there. You are one of the best cops I have ever seen and you are the best person I know. Let me ask you something, what if we were riding together and we were first on scene. We do what we were trained to do and the Sergeant makes the same call. We go in to get the perp and save the hostages and." she takes a deep breath. "You are the one shot, like Ramos was. Would you blame the Sargent for making the call?" She looked him straight in the eye waiting for him to answer. "Well would you?" she asked again.

Jamie dropped his head. "No, no I wouldn't" he sighed.

"If you wouldn't blame a sergeant, why are you placing the blame on your shoulders now?" She scooted closer to him in her chair. "You take responsibility for everything Jamie and you place the blame on yourself. This was not your fault and you can not let the fact that an officer was injured change the way you do your job." Eddie said quietly to him.

"I get what you are saying Eddie, but it's one thing for me to know my life is in danger, I signed up for that, but to be in command, to have others cops lives in my hand it's almost to much to take. I finally have an inkling at what my dad and pops have had to deal with in their job when officers are injured or killed and I am really struggling with this." He took a drink of his beer. "While were at cop Arlington Pop told me that the number of officers I can help and save will outweigh the ones I lose. It made me think about it in a different way. I don't know if I will ever get used to sending people into danger"

"I would be afraid if you did get used to it, but Jamie your grandfather is right. The good you will do in your job will outweigh the bad." She laid her hand over his and squeezed. "Plus you do look really good in the stripes, I would hate for you to give them back." She smiled as she took a sip of her drink.

"Is that so" Jamie asked as he leaned over to kiss her. "Thank you for letting me stew and for helping me get my mind on right" he kissed her again.

"No thanks necessary. We have each other's backs always. Plus I can't take all the credit, Henry did get you to meet him after I talked to him at dinner" she smirked.

"What do you mean you talked to him at dinner, he said you didn't put him up to anything." Jamie asked perplexed.

"I talked to him when I went back into the kitchen after our talk, and I might have mentioned that I was worried you were taking the accident too seriously. He had heard a small part of our conversation and he asked if I would mind if he takes the lead. I agreed and he did what he said he would do, he set you straight." She smiled at him as she kissed him quickly.

Jamie shook his head. "I can't believe he played me. Made me think you hadn't reached out to him. Well if you had any doubt about being part of the family that is out the window now. You are definitely part of the family now miss soon to be Reagan.

She rose her eyebrow "What do you mean" she asked.

"Reagan family tradition of ganging up on each other. Two or more will pull together to help, prank, or guilt another member of the family depending on what is needed. You and Pop teamed up so I would say I have to keep you around now," he said as he stood up next to her as she sat in her seat.

"You definitely have no choice Reagan, you are stuck with me for life" she said as she wrapped her arms around his waist bringing him in for another kiss.

"So can we talk about the wedding for a minute?" she asked as he sat back down on his chair.

"You mean your wedding?" Jamie smirked. "Of course what you are you thinking about" he reached over and intertwined their fingers.

"I know we talked about it at dinner but I just want to make sure that you are okay with St. Angeles? I love the idea of being married in the same church as your grandparents and I know the family has been going there for a while now for church" she said.

"I would love to get married there and I want to thank you for asking about our family traditions where weddings are concerned, a church wedding is the main tradition we have and I love the idea of getting married where Pops and Gran did."

"So the next thing we should do is reach out to the priest to see what dates they have available. I can't wait to be your wife Jamie." She smiled and leaned over to kiss him again. She still couldn't get enough of his kisses. It seems like since they had finally admitted and acted on their feelings they couldn't get enough of each other and she wasn't sure if she ever would.

"I will talk to him on Sunday and we can start getting a timeline ready. I don't want to wait any longer then we have to before I can call you my wife. I love you Eddie." He smiled.

"I love you too. Feed me Reagan and then take me home" she said.