A/N: Special thanks to ItsHardIKnow for beta-reading this. You are a great help! Much love.
Thank you all for reading this. You are the best.
To CynDLou12: I don't see why you are surprised Tris is with the Kangs. Sure, the original plan was for her to stay at the shelter, but there was an instant bond between Vanessa and Tris ever since Tris found her and told the Candor lawyer her heartbreaking story. Tris's notes will definitely lead to changes, and it will influence her life in Dauntless greatly. More will be revealed in later chapters. There won't be much of an update on Marcus, since none of the two lovebirds is very eager to find that out. Details will come later on.
To the Guest who wondered about George Wu: in this story, Jeanine was stopped way before Four and Tris were even eligible to choose their faction. George, Amar and others who died in the original story are alive in this one.
To Fishes: I can't spoil this. :)
To the Guest who wants Caleb to trick Tris: in this story, Caleb isn't a worthless scumbag who would rather sell out his sister than accept reality as it is.
And I love all my readers. Big thank you to all.
Chapter 14
Tobias
My breathing is erratic, my heart is pounding, and my palms are sweating. My entire body is shivering. I'vejust passed the final test. It is over. Initiation is finally over. Tomorrow I am finally a member. I don't even care what my ranking is. I don't even care what job I'll be having. All I care about is that it's over, and, by tomorrow, I'll be reunited with Tris. It took me a little while to get used to the new name, but it suits her. It really does.
I am amongst the final few initiates to go through the fear landscape. I take a glimpse at Amar, who is waiting outside the examination room, seemingly just as nervous as I am. There are two more transfers and one Dauntless-born to go and then this year's initiation is officially wrapped.
"You did good, Four," he praises me, patting my shoulder.
"Thanks. I'm just glad it's over."
"You were better than Eric," he tells me. At that, I huff. I hate Eric. Ever since the day we met, Eric has been a pain in the ass. He knows exactly who I am and, since the Erudite reports came out about my father beating me, he keeps threatening me with exposing my secret. He must think I care much if people know that I am Tobias Eaton. At first I did but, after talking to Tris about it, I then realized there was really no way of hiding it. The moment she would come live here everyone would learn her name, which is my name basically, and know that we are married.
My whole life, I felt like a victim, but Tris made me feel like a survivor. Truth be told, I am only a survivor because of her. Before that, I was just Marcus's punching bag.
I don't have time to tell Amar how little I care about Eric, because George then suddenly appears breathless in the hallway to the examination room.
"Aw, did you miss me so much that you came down here running, babe?" Amar teases his boyfriend.
"Shut up," George mumbles, lightly punching Amar's arm. I chuckle at their PDA.
"Four," he speaks, his wide eyes now on me. Please, not again. Max has already told me he wanted me to become a leader if I ranked first. I don't know what my ranking is, but it must be high, "you gotta come with me to Max's office."
"George, Max already told me about the offer," I start protesting, and for a moment, he looks at me surprised. Maybe he didn't know about Max's offer. He then shakes his head, his eyes frantic.
"No, it's not the job. It's your wife," he finally tells me, and the moment I hear that, I'm already running.
Oh, God! What happened to Tris? Did Marcus find her? Did something happen to her?
"Four, wait!" I hear George shout after me. I sprint through the Pit, and instead of taking the stairs like I usually do, I take the elevator up to the Pire. George barely manages to slip inside when the elevator door closes.
"Damn, man!" He tries to catch his breath, but all I care about is Tris. Is she okay?
"I don't know who is scarier: you or your wife," he mutters absentmindedly, and I give him a side glance. What is that supposed to mean? But before I can ask, the elevator door opens and I can hear her screaming at someone.
She is inside Max's office, and several people have already gathered at his door. It is closed, but I can still hear her.
"Stop telling me to calm down!" she yells. "Don't you think that if I could, I would've by now?" I hurry to the door and swing it open. The moment she sees me, she flies into my arms, and I wrap mine around her. I look around to see both Max and Jack Kang, whom I met on Visiting Day when he came to pick up Tris, glance at each other before looking at me.
"What happened?" I ask no one in particular. Tris is shaking in my arms. Max shrugs, and Jack only says Tris should be the one to tell me.
Before Max leaves, he tells me to think now more than ever about his offer. I don't understand what he means, but I nod, hoping that Tris will finally tell me what is going on. The door to the office closes, and I am alone with my wife. I want to ask her to explain why she is even here, and why she is so distraught, but I am just happy that I have her in my arms. I start smiling, before I hear her sobbing. I pull her even closer to me, and whisper to her how much I love her, and that she is safe, that no matter what it is, we will manage it together, just like we always do.
When she still doesn't say anything ten minutes later, I get worried. I somehow manage to move us to the couch, despite Tris's death grip on me. Whatever happened must have scared her really badly. I sit down, and Tris sits on my lap, curling into a ball in my arms.
"Honey, whatever it is, I can't help you if I don't know what the problem is," I whisper gently. I hear her sniffing, and continue, "baby, you're worrying me. What happened? Did Marcus find you?" I ask, squeezing her a little. She shakes her head, and I release her so that I can move her face into my view. I need to see her eyes.
"Tris, sweetheart, please, you scare me," I croak truthfully. I've never seen her this way before.
"Something happened," she begins, her voice hoarse and strained. I knew it. "I didn't mean for it to happen." By now my mind's made up all kinds of scenarios, most of them about Candor men trying to steal my Tris away.
"I must have mixed up the dates," she continues, confusing me again. What is she talking about? "I just found out this morning, and I had to beg Jack to bring me here. Then Max said you were busy with some test, and I just flipped out," she keeps rambling on, without even looking at me.
"Tris, baby, you need to tell me what is wrong. Whatever it is, I promise we'll fix it together," I tell her reassuringly with a smile, but then she starts crying again. What did I do? What just happened?
"You're gonna hate me," she says, sobbing. What?
"No. How can you think that?"
"You're gonna leave me."
"Tris, I love you. I'm not going to leave you."
"It's all my fault."
"Whatever it is, I'm sure it's not as big as you think it is."
"I'm pregnant."
I open my mouth to say something, but then, I'm just stunned into silence. Pregnant? How did this happen? She had that shot. And we didn't have sex since the night before my Choosing. I don't understand. The door opens slightly, and Jack and Max enter, followed by Vanessa. I greet her politely, but, other than that, I can't do anything else. Tris is still curled up on my lap.
"Did she tell you?" Vanessa asks. I nod my head. But then I realize, she didn't tell me much.
"I don't understand," I reply honestly. Vanessa frowns.
"So, she is cryptic again," Vanessa states with an accusing undertone, "Tris, snap out of it! Gentlemen, can we have a moment?" she asks, looking at Max and Jack. The two men nod, and leave without saying a word.
"Tris, Tobias is confused. I know you are too, but you guys need to talk. You told me you were always telling each other everything," she urges, giving me a sympathetic smile. When Tris still doesn't say anything, Vanessa explains that Tris fainted this morning in the bathroom. Thankfully, both Vanessa and Jack were still at home when it happened, and took her to the Candor infirmary. The doctor who examined her told her she was pregnant. That doesn't really explain the pregnancy in the first place, but at least I am a bit smarter about it. Vanessa excuses herself, and gives me a sign to dig for my answers.
The moment Vanessa is out, Tris sits up and looks at me through a curtain of tears.
"I don't know how it happened. The doctor said it might have been because the contraceptive shot was wearing off. It must have happened the night before your Choosing, because I am ten weeks pregnant," she explains, her voice a little steadier than before. I just stare at her in shock. I still can't wrap my head around what I just learned. Tris is pregnant? We are having a baby? I can faintly hear her tell me more, but my mind is too focused on my own fears. Will I be a good father? Will I turn out like Marcus? Will I hurt my wife and child the way Marcus did? Will I be worthy of Tris and our baby? Suddenly, I feel her punch me, and it really hurts.
"Ow," I exclaim.
"You didn't even listen," she growls angrily, and tries to sit up, but I pull her back.
"Do you want to keep it?" I question her. I am terrified of both answers. No. That means she doesn't want my baby, and, honestly, who could blame her? Yes. That means I will be terrified my whole life about becoming like Marcus. There is a moment of silence between us before she speaks up again.
"Yes."
"Despite everything?" I ask her. At this she looks up at me, confused.
"I never said I didn't want kids. I just wanted to be in control of my own body and decide for myself. I also didn't want my baby anywhere near Marcus. But that doesn't change that I want your baby. This baby," she tells me confidently. Her eyes betray her concern, though, and I do as Vanessa told me, and dig for answers.
At first, Tris holds back, but then I remember the things she mumbled before she blurted out she was pregnant. I practically have to force her to answer me before she finally confesses her insecurities. I can't believe she would think I would leave her just because she got pregnant. It wasn't like I had nothing to do with it. But I love her, and as scared as we both are, we both want this child. I want it, if for no other reason than for the fact that it is part of her, and that is good enough for me. I would be lying if I said I never imagined my life with Beatrice by my side, growing old, watching our kids grow up, and picking their own paths in life. I am just scared that I will screw up. I am scared that I will be just like Marcus. At this, Tris slaps me hard across my face.
"If you say that one more time, I will kick your Dauntless ass silly," she shouts. The entire room trembles under her voice. Seeing her so determined, so fierce, so brave, I smile to myself. Tris will make a wonderful mother, and, with her help, I could be a decent father. But most importantly, she will never allow me to hurt her child, and that's comforting.
I crash my lips over hers, wrapping her in my arms, allowing her no escape. I didn't think I could love her any more than I already am, but I do.
It takes us some time to calm down after our impromptu make-out session. We talk about the baby, but mostly about how excited we are to be back together soon. She asks me when she'll be able to move, but I don't have the answer to that yet. Rankings will be announced tonight, but until the initiates pick their jobs, and get their own apartments, we'll all keep sleeping in the dorms. But just as I tell her this, I remember what Max told me.
"Does Max know you are pregnant?" I ask, and she blushes. She nods sheepishly.
"I didn't mean to tell. But I got so nervous, and Jack got on my nerves with his constant reminder to calm down, that it just came out," she tells me. I smile at her, before kissing her lips.
"It's fine. This makes more sense now," I say mainly to myself, but Tris heard me, and is now curious.
I tell her about what Max told me, that if I would rank first, I could be a leader. I tell her that I don't even know my ranking, but she assures me that I probably did very well.
"How would you know?" I ask her, amused.
"For one, I know you. Once you put your mind to it, and decide you want something, you usually get it." I stare at her incredulously. "Didn't you want me?" she asks teasingly.
"Every day since I met you," I respond happily.
"You see. And you got me. Besides, if Max offered you the job before the rankings were even out, it means that he has faith in you. But the real question is, do you want the job? And don't pick it because of us," she says firmly, putting her palm over her belly. I place my larger one over hers and try to imagine the little person that is growing inside her right now.
I know Tris wants to give me the freedom to choose something that will make me happy, but this job will mean more money, a better social status, and more importantly, it will mean that I can protect my family. Of course, I am doing this for them, both of them. I had felt so broken since my mother died. But then Beatrice came along, and I opened my heart to her, and she kept it safe, and cherished, and loved ever since. Nothing I could ever do would repay her unconditional love and loyalty. And now, she will give me a child; a child that I am both happy and frightened to have.
We discuss our options, and I see the determination in her eyes. She assures me that whatever I pick, she will support me. This is something for all of us. I don't know how good I'll be as a leader, but Tris showed me that I can be more than just what Marcus wanted me to be. He wanted me to be a leader, to follow in his footsteps. But this is different. I am not following him. I would be a Dauntless leader, something he will despise. I guess, the job has more perks than I first gave it credit for.
Whatever the future holds, I know Tris and I can manage every storm that comes our way. With her by my side, nothing is impossible.
A/N: So, yeah, they're having a baby. Happens. I'm sure this ain't the first story where they do. Not even my first baby story. I wondered if I should go this way, and decided it was a good fit. Also, who doesn't love irony?
Who is excited about a FourTris baby?
Do you think Tobias will choose leadership now that he is going to be a father? Or maybe a job as ambassador to the factions?
If you could choose, what gender should the FourTris baby have and why(optional)?
As always, I am very excited to read your thoughts.
Also, today I've posted a long overdue chapter for "Covert Operative".
