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Confessions
Seek for the Sword that was broken:
In Imladris it dwells;
There shall be counsels taken
Stronger than Morgul-spells.
There shall be shown a token
That Doom is near at hand,
For Isildur's Bane shall waken,
And the Halfling forth shall stand.
Alina could no longer bare the silence and the looks of pity. She stood up quickly and unclasped her cloak and turned into a phoenix and flew up into the night sky.
"Where is she going?" asked Bilbo
"She does not want pity from any of you; she gets enough of that from Elrond as she puts it, the past is that she is no longer a servant of darkness, she is no longer Achlys." replied Gandalf.
Thorin walked back to the group "It's time we got some sleep, I'll take first watch." The rest of the company settled down for the night, Bofur put more wood on the fire before settling down for the night. Thorin picked up Alina's cloak and settled down for his watch.
A few hours passed when a twig snapped, Thorin's head turned instantly to the sound, Alina in the form of a dog came into view. She put her head on Thorin's lap he softly stroked her copper fur. She nudged his leg, he placed the cloak over her, she turned back into her normal form, and she laid her head back on to the dwarf's leg. There was a comfortable silence between them.
Thorin broke this "Why did you never tell me?"
She sighed "Thorn it's the darkest part of my past, and I'd prefer it to stay just that the past but it keeps coming back to bite me on the arse."
Thorin chuckled "It doesn't matter to me but I don't want you to suffer in silence Lina."
"I'm not suffering you annoying dwarf, yes I have night terrors sometimes but there is natural herbs that I always have on me that can give me a dreamless sleep. Thorn I was born in darkness but I chose the light as should you."
"You call this venture a suicide mission but yet you're still here. Why?"
"I'd never let you go to your death alone, Thorn never you mean to much to me for that even if we haven't seen each other for the last 50 years but that was my fault."
"Where were you?" he asked
"Here there and everywhere, I was looking for Thráin, I found nothing I'm sorry and Elrond had me teaching a ranger named Strider the ways of old."
"I didn't expect to hear any news after 60 years, my father is dead, and who is this Strider?"
"The future king of Gondor, he is last in his line if he perishes before the sword is renewed I will never find peace."
"Why do you long for death?" Thorin asked
"I have no reason to want to live, if I did then maybe I'd want to live but Thorn I have no mate and no children I would gladly call my own. I am so alone, it's ironic Alina means bright or alone and Achlys means darkness." Alina turned to look up at him
"My nephews are quite taken with you."
Alina laughed "They are children Thorn, could you see me loving them as anything other than that, my heart was stolen by another a long time ago but I never told them and I probably never will."
"Who?"
"That is my secret and I'm not telling you." She playfully stuck out her tongue at him.
He chuckled quietly but let it slide; he would find out who had stolen her heart and ensure that they were good enough for his Lina. He mentally shook himself she wasn't his and would never be, he was a child to her just like his nephews.
"Has anyone stolen your heart Thorn?" she asked quietly as if she didn't want to know the answer.
He sighed gently "The one who has held my heart for over 100 years will never feel the same towards me."
"Why?" She asked turning to look into his eyes he prayed to Valar that his eyes did not show the truth. "Is it an elf?" she joked Thorin missed the pain in her voice.
"Something like that." He answered turning away from the only one he could ever see himself being happy with. He turned back round when her breathing had slowed and she had curled herself closer to him.
When he was sure that she was in fact asleep he quietly whispered "I love you Lina, I always have and always will."
"I love you too." She mumbled in her sleep quietly enough for only Thorin to hear. His heart almost stopped and he dared himself to hope that they were her true feelings.
Two very mischievous dwarves heard their uncles confession, they both grinned at one another.
"I do believe Kíli we have our work cut out for us." Fíli whispered to his brother who grinned and nodded in agreement before falling back to sleep.
Alina awoke to find herself wrapped around a sleeping Thorin Oakenshield, she flushed red in embarrassment. Movement to her left caught her eye, Kíli was waking Bombur, and he felt her scrutiny he turned and winked at her before looking at his uncle then proceeded to wake the ginger haired dwarf. She shook of her cloak and transformed into an eagle and flew off. Kíli exchanged a look with his brother.
Thorin awoke at the loss of the warmth around his body. He sat up and looked for Alina.
"She left about 20 minutes ago Uncle." Fíli told him quietly
"Where did she go?"
"She turned into an eagle and flew off."
A screech from above quietened their discussion, four large trout where dropped in front of the fire before a large eagle landed in front of Thorin. He placed the cloak around the bird. Alina smiled at him when she turned back.
"Breakfast fit for a king." She winked
Thorin cracked a small smile which caused her whole face to light up. She began humming to herself as she gutted the trout. Kíli plopped down next to her on one side and Fíli sat next to her on the other.
"Will you sing for us?" Kíli asked
"I haven't sung for an audience for 65 years." Her eyes found Thorin who was feigning disinterest.
"Please." He begged
She laughed "Very well, we don't want a prince of the line of Durin to beg do we?"
She began to sing quietly then grew louder as her confidence grew her eyes never once leaving Thorin who wasn't looking at her but had his eyes closed listening to her sing.
"Heart beats fast
Colours and promises
How to be brave?
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall?
But watching you stand alone,
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow.
One step closer
I have died every day waiting for you
Darling, don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more
Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this
One step closer
I have died every day waiting for you
Darling, don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more
And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more
One step closer
One step closer
I have died every day waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more
And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more"
Kíli and Fíli saw the hurt in her eyes as she finished. They looked to where she was staring. Their uncle stood stiffly then began barking orders for everyone to start packing up. She dropped her gaze as a single tear rolled down her cheek. Kíli gave her shoulder a reassuring squeeze, her tear filled eyes found his. He drew her into a hug she quietly whispered into his ear
"Thank you, but don't tell him, he doesn't feel the same and my heart cannot take his rejection." She pulled away her eyes pleading. Kíli was torn he wanted nothing more to tell her the truth, but he nodded gently. She smiled softly then she gave the wooden spoon to Bombur as she moved towards the small stream to freshen up and remove the smell of trout from her long fingers. Bilbo quietly walked up to her
"That was a beautiful song."
"Thank you Bilbo, Lady Galadriel taught me it when I visited Lothlórien, she told me only to sing it when the one my heart desires is near, I have only ever sung it once before."
"It's Thorin isn't it?" He asked softly
She glanced at the King who was too far away to hear and nodded.
"Why don't you tell him?" he asked
"Dwarves only love once Bilbo and his heart belongs to another he told me that he had lost his heart over 100 years ago but they did not feel the same which is the cruellest joke the gods could play on any dwarf." He heard the sorrow in her voice for their leader; he nodded and slowly walked away.
Alina mounted Waeloren with a heaviness in her heart, the rest of the company noticed her lack of enthusiasm, the ones oblivious to the truth thought it was her confession which upset her, Thorin believed she missed her lover which he had no doubt was an elf but Kíli, Fíli, Gandalf and Bilbo kept giving her worried glances. Even Waeloren chattering away to her in her head could not lift her spirits. The dwarfs decided to begin talking about males and females they had taken as lovers over the years, Alina shut them out she did not want to know who Thorin had lain with.
Bofur called "What about you Alina?"
"I haven't taken a lover in 400 years." She answered honestly, Thorin turned to look at her, and he saw the truth in her eyes.
"What really? Why? And who was the last?" he asked
"Yes really, I never found anyone I wanted to be intimate with that wanted me as well and an Elf." Alina answered
"An Elf! Wow you have bad taste, why?" he continued
She laughed "He was gentle but there was no pity in him that everyone insisted giving me, well once you have tried one elf you have tried them all."
"Who?" Thorin asked
She raised her eyebrow and a smiled slowly "Not telling, I don't kiss and tell Master Dwarf."
"Is he your mate or was he?" Ori asked
"I don't have a mate and I never have, he was gracious but I never loved him, he despises me know because of my association with his son and dwarves, apparently I'm a bad influence." She smirked
"Did he love you?" Ori asked
She laughed loudly a that "No, he incapable of love, if anything the only thing he loves is himself he very rarely shows his own son the emotion, never mind me. Thorn do not worry about my loyalty, it will always be to you." She finally met his gaze.
"I expect no different." He snapped before turning back round
Those who were watching her saw her visibly deflate at Thorin's dismissal. Balin shook his head at the stubborn dwarf who lead them.
Alina slowly grew bored and took of her cloak and turned into a kestrel, she flew and landed on Kíli's shoulder and started pulling his hair and nipping at his ears. He shouted in protest and brushed her off. She proceeded to do this to the entire company. After Dwalin had threatened to stuff her, she moved to Thorin's shoulder and rubbed her head against his face. He sighed and asked quietly
"Are you finished annoying my company and have decided to annoy me?"
She let out a caw of defiance and nipped his nose affectionately. She settled comfortably against his neck and fell asleep. He chuckled quietly at the kestrel on his shoulder and led his pony towards where they were camping for the night.
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The song is a Thousand Years by Christina Perri and the poems are all works by J.R.R. Tolkien and sadly I own nothing but if I did my favourite characters wouldn't have died I openly sobbed in the cinema for 30 minutes and I am not ashamed to admit it!
-The Archfiend