CHAPTER 4: MEMORIES & EMOTIONS

Madi:

I march through the woods, feet stomping into the dirt and the slight wind blowing into my face. I'm passing the big old oak tree for the second time today on my way back to Clarke.
When the car finally comes into my sight, i smile widely and start to jog my way over, the hessian bag of meat dangling from my fingertips by the handle of the sack. "Clarke!" i puffed as i came to a stop and stand hunched with my hands on my knees, trying to catch my breath.

"Hey Madi, you're back early." Clarke acknowledged with a look of fondness in her eyes. i stood up proudly and smilied. "i was lucky. I found food earlier than expected, and i had no trouble catchin' it at all!." i stated excitedy, eager to impress.
"well done." Clarke congratulated me with a wide smile. Than we both walked over to the car were Clarke started to make a fire as i prepared the Rabbit that i'd caught.
As We sit on the roof of the car, we eat, while the both of us are also looking up at the shining stars that sit above our heads, Thouands of hundreds of miles away into space.
"what was it like?" i asked randomly. "what was what like?" Clarke asked confused, i stayed silent as i watched Clarke look to the sky in realisation of what i'd just asked. "living in space?" she questioned. "yeah." i breathed, "i mean... you tell me all these stories about your adventures on the ground but you never really talked about the days in space leading up to it." i explained. "well.." i watch Clarke hesistate. "when i was up there, before we were sent down, before i was thrown into a cell, actually... i was happy. but i always felt like something was missing." clarke took a deep breath, "i watched old films of people playing a game called 'soccer' with my mom, dad, Jaha, and...Wells, he was my best friend." she sighed, i could see her fighting tears. i didn't want to make clarke feel worse, but i could not stop the question from working its way out and into the open. "what happend to them?" clarke smilied sadly. "you see, my dad discovered a flaw in the system. slowly but surely, the Ark was running out of oxegen. My dad thought the people had a right to know, he came to my mother and told her his plan. and then... she told Jaha. and my father was floated." she stated, a single tear finally slipping from her sad eyes. "what does 'floated' mean?" i asked quietly. "it's were they send you out into space with no oxegen masks or a tank. It's when they send you to die suffocating while floating in space." Clarke admitted slowly.
"that's horrible..." i said, Clarke sighed. "it was what it was." we sat in silence for a few more moments before i asked Clarke to continue her story. She reluctantly agreed.
"i also knew about the flaw. I'd overheard my mother and father talking about it. Anyway, i was than placed in solitary after my dads execution... i drew pitcures all over the walls in my cell. and then one day i was taken out of it. A wrist band placed on me. i woke up inside the dropship. I soon found out that Wells had gone and gotten himself arrested so he could be there with me. At that point in time i'd hated him, i'd hated him so much. And only because i had thought he was the one who told Jaha about my fathers plans to expose the truth about the oxegen flaw... since he was the only person i'd told...than shortly after i'd found out the truth, that it was in fact my mother who told Jaha. And we'd forgiven eachother... H-he was killed." clarke stared silently into the night sky tears streaming down her face, her eyes so sad i had to look away, but they were also filled with longing. longing for the chance to do over?. I inhaled deeply and muttered with my hand gripping her shoulder. "it wasn't your fault. i'm sorry that i made you tell me that story." i apologised. "no. it's okay Madi. i just...long story short, up there in space... it was beautiful when you looked out the window, and sometimes happy on the inside. but ultimetly, it was difficult, hard to the point were you can't hold on for much longer. Where you feel that you might break. but even though, there, i'll aways have a sense of home." Clarke stated.
"but down here it was, is better?" i asked, "oh, it was and still is difficult. Difficult in a way more difficult than life on the Ark had ever been. but we made it through. And i couldn't of done that without Bellamy. And now, even though i can't wait to see everyone again. i have you, Madi. And i am deeply thankful to you for that." Clarke smilied. I smilied back too feeling like i'd just been given the biggest award for Clarke feeling as if i am whats getting her through. When really.. She is getting me through."Based on the stories you tell and all, i'd say that Bellamy cares dearly for you. and that you care dearly for him." i smilied. "yeah... i wonder what he's doing now. and i hope that he's happy." Clarke replied.

Monty:

I awoke in the middle on the night, Harper next to me, Murphy and Emori across from us, Echo in the corner and Bellamy still no-where in sight. I get up quietly. Acting carefully as to not wake Harper or the others. And than i make my way out of the cave in search of Bellamy.
"Bellamy?" i called into the dark and endless night, "im here, Monty." came the deep reply from sitting ontop of a big rock to my right. "why are you still out here?" i questioned. " you need you're sleep." i then stated matter-of-factly, but all i got in return was silence.
"Bellamy?" i asked, "because i couldn't get myself to go back inside. Not after what happened with Clarke." Bellamy snapped. "okay." i breathed, i slowly shuffled over to the rock where Bellamy sits silently. "what are you-" Bellamy started to ask as i sat down in front of the rock at his feet, "if you're going to sit out here all night, than i'm going to do whats left of it with you." i stated, "Monty.." "No, Bellamy." i cut him off sternly, "i'm going to sit out here with you and there is nothing you can do to stop me." i huffed firmly.
After moments of silence i heard Bellamy mutter, barley above a whisper. "Thankyou..." in return i simply smilied and than turned my head so i could lay it back against the rock to rest it.

Raven:

I'm standing in the doorway of the cave as i watch Murphy, Emori, Harper and Echo gather their things to leave. Minuets earlier Monty had come in and woken us up than left again after grabbing his things saying he was going to wait outside with Bellamy. figures.
"come on guys, we don't have all day." i laughed.
Shortly afterwards we all walked out of the cave and were immedietly blinded by the sunlight. "morinin'" Monty chirped. "morining." I huffed. Monty chuckled and we all gathered together to continue our trip to the dropship. Our original home.
"were not that far away from the dropship now. Should be just around this corner." Bellamy stated after what felt like hours of walking. We turned the corner and came face to face with the wall that was built in what felt like another lifetime ago.

Clarke:

I slam closed the doors of the vehicle. Madi looks at me with tired eyes from within her ball of material which are being used for blankets.
"Are you going to come to sleep now?" Madi asks drowisly. "yep." i smile as i crawl in next to her, immedietly she huddles into my side clinging to me like a teddy bear. I smile to myself and absent-mindedly start to run my fingers through her hair while humming a song i heard long ago. One of which i used to hear my mother hum. And the one i hummed when i put Atom out of his misery. I wince at the memory. My mind started running through things i've lived through, good and bad. At about what seemed a hundred miles per hour.

I closed my eyes, hoping that sleep tonight would come easy, i was wrong.