Chapter 9: Yu Gonplei Stei Odon
"Your Fight Is Over"
Jasper:

I grasp some nuts with my right hand popping them one by one into my mouth, i pick up another small hazlenut nut chucking it in the air and sucessfully catching it in my mouth letting a satisfied smile spread over my face.

"hey, Monty!" i yell, waving my hand, smile wide, catching the attention of my best friend Monty Green.

he smiles lightly back at me, gives me a thumbs up when he sees the hazlenuts im gripping in my palm, and continues on in the way he was going.

I am chuckling, again throwing the nuts into my mouth one by one, ending them all with a loud crunch.

it's just as i start to contemplate the rest of the day when i hear it, that loud, eye widening, glass breaking scream.

I jump in shock and surprise, and fall to the ground landing painfully on my back, howling in pain,
i try to peace together in my mind whos voice that is, but it was so familiar, so...Octavia.

as realisation hits me i pull myself up from the ground and start bolting from the ark,
as the people all around me look around as if that would give them the answers their seeking in horror and confusion, they won't know where to look. But i do.

I was with Monty when he gave Octavia most of the instructions of where to go and what to and what not to grab.

zooming through the gates i speed off and towards the scream that still haunts my mind, echoing around the woods.

"Octavia!" i yell as loud as i can, my heart pounds in my chest, the world starts to swarm, and fear takes its icy grip over me. What in the world could be happening?

Octavia:

All Madi was doing was standing and staring, but then all of a sudden somewhere in that silence and stillness, she whispered the words i had come to know off by heart.

"Jus Drien Jus Daun."

my eyes widened, is this the same Madi that i had talked to just hours before?
i have no time to consider my next move because before i know it, before i can even think about it she's barrelling right for me, and fast.

I let out a extremely loud, blood-curdling scream as her blade collides with my leg, drawing out my blood.
i hesitated, i didn't draw my blade. i can't draw my blade.
"Madi! stop!" i yell, as i grip my leg, pain throbbing through my leg.

I force myself to look up into the eyes of the girl standing ahead of me, the blood from my leg dripping from the dirty silver metal of her dagger.

she looks down at me with sadness in her eyes, but a firece anger hides behind them.

Its almost like shes fighting within herself trying to find herself to choose what side to be within. Anger, Revenge and madness? or Pity, acceptance, forgivness. Peace?

how sad...

Madi lifts the blade again, her breathing heavy and tears pouring down her face,
"Madi?" my voice quivers, and my mind runs a mile a minute trying to think of ways to get out of this situation.

"Madi, please." i beg, slowly pulling myself from the ground, pain throbbing throughout me, my leg, my head.

"think of Clarke, wouldn't she want you to be better than this? doesn't she?"
my voice jumps high pitched and i try to gain a specific train of thought.

I watch as her hands wobble, and the tears are continously flowing down her face, strands of hair stick to her mouth and cheeks. she looks red, like her temparature is boiling. she's hesiating, thinking. This could be the chance i get to get to her, to connect. Change her mind. To resolve.

"Madi don't do this..." i wanted to scream and shake her, tell her and make it clear that i'm sorry, so incredibly sorry.
But i can't say the words. I didn't want to admit out loud that i killed this girls parents. that i killed Madi's parents. But i have to. I have to.

"I am, so, sorry about your parents. In that point in time i didn't know that they had a child. And even if they didn't we should have found a better solution." Madi's body shook slightly at my words, her eyes filling with tears.

"i'm not going to fight you Madi." those are the last words i get out before suddenly, Jasper appears out of nowhere and once his eyes land on us, Madi holding a knife stained with my blood, tampered hair, tears everywhere.
Me, my sword in its holster, my leg bleeding, and bent lower than the other.

He stands unsure of what to do, i doubt this is what he was expecting.

His eyes dart from Madi to me and back and forth i can tell he is stumped, and has absolutley no idea what to do.

Madi hasn't noticed him yet, could this be another chance?...

Jasper:

when i entered the scene in the forest the last thing i expected was what i saw before me,
i don't know what to think,
i don't know what to do.

how can i help Octavia without causing pain to either her or Madi?
Madi has clearly already injured Octavia. And Octavia is refusing to fight Madi.

what has compelled Madi to go this far? she seemed just fine, talking even laughing with Octavia earlier... Something must have trigged something within her, and within a short period of time. What could it have been?

what do i do? what do i do?

things were going so well...

when i think back to the last 24 hours i try to think of any signs that say this was on its way, but i find absolutley none. Are we all just blind? seeing what we wanted to see?

or could this really have just of happened to her emotions? suddenly risen up?

I pinch myself in the arm, and flinch back in pain, confirmig that this in fact, is no dream.

there is not much time left...

I walk slowly towards them, my arms out as if signalling that i come in peace with no intent to cause harm. If only Clarke or Bellamy were here, they would have some way to help.
I really hope they are on their way.

"Madi." i say her name softly, but clearly an just loud enough for her to hear.

Madi:

"Madi." Jasper appears in the corner of my eye, what am i doing? i shouldn't be doing this. Clarke wouldn't want this, i'm not even sure i do.

This would hurt everyone so much...especially Clake, Bellamy and, Lincoln.

i had come out here of a spur of emotion, everything had been just fine.

I was dealing with the news, accepting. But then... I was sitting there, all alone. no-one around me.

Clarke was busy tending to people, paitents.

Bellamy was out talking to Murphy, thinking, planning.

And i was just...there. I had time to think, and i thought about alot. Why didn't they ever mention me to anyone? Why would they both risk their lives in a conclave and risk leaving me all alone. for good?

and then, as my mind was fizzing over, i saw Octavia. Just taking a walk, leaving into the woods probably to collect something, maybe even just taking a stroll. But it pushed me over the edge, all i could think is that she's the one that made sure of the fact that they never came back to me. And i followed her,

I cut her.

I've taken this way to far. I need to stop. So why can't i move?

"Madi?" jasper repeats, he's already so close. my arms and body are shaking, my lips trembling and my eyes watering over and tears spilling over the edges and pouring out. My arms hurt from holding the blade with Octavia's Blood on it for so long.

I close my eyes, taking in a deep breath, holding back on the temptation to just start sobbing, to crawl into a corner and say sorry forever and ever.
Can i ever be forgiven for this? Will i?

I don't know how long i had my eyes shut for but suddenly i felt my whole world tip and turn, my eyes snapped open, my gaze blurs and takes a moment to focus on the person carrying me in their arms. "Bellamy?" i croak, tears flowing. "But..." i start, silently, he turns around walking back into camp and carrying me with him.

Clarke:

After treating Octavias leg, i sigh, so many thoughts run around in my brain.

"...You'll be okay, just make sure you rest, take it easy." I order, Octavia nods and smiles sympatheticly, wincing as i tighten the bandage,
"thank you for looking after me. Is.. Madi, okay?" Octavia asks,
"she will be okay, at the moment she is just trying to get over the guilt of what she almost did to you. We all understand why she did what she did. And no one in the camp will try to do anything bad." I explain,
"thats good, Lincoln says he understands. And so does Bellamy, see as much as they love me. We all care for Madi. And i won't hold this against her...although, I do see a true warrior within her, she will just have to learn to resist acting based on emotion." Octavia sighs,
"it took you a while to learn that tatic." i smile, chuckling lightly, i can feel the exhaustion seeping in, making me start to become tired.
"which is why i'm not holding it against her, we've all done things, much worse things than cutting me in the leg, Wether it was based on emotion or not." Octavia pauses, "and even though we wish to take most of those things back, they still played a big part in who we are today." She finishes,
"indeed, some people in this camp were so diffrenet upon first arrival, and now look at them. And even though like you said, we may wish for it, but there is no going back now." I claim,
"And think, some people. The way things are now, the way they are now. May just be better than before." Octavia whispers, slipping off the table and limping to the doorway with my assistance, until i carefully hand her over to Lincoln who accepts her into his arms, with a nod and a kiss with his girlfriend.

I sleepily go to find Bellamy and Madi, successfully discovering them inside Madi's room.
Bellamy sits in a chair oppisite to were Madi lays, sleeping soundly in her bed.
hopefully tonight will be a good night and there will be no nightmares.

"Is everything okay?" i ask concerned. Bellamy looks up at me, smiling warmly.
He stands, slowly walks toward me, his eyes shinning, twinkling, staring straight into mine, he looks away from my eyes for a second and pulls my hand up placing his hand in mine, intertwining our fingers together.

He looks back to me lovingly,
"As long as your here to keep me centered, to help me and to love me. I'll be okay." i smile at him and his words,
"and it does help that Octavias well." he smiles,
"I will never let anything happen to the either of you, ever again." he kisses me, i can feel the love between us bursting in the kiss. Like bright fireworks going off in a clear and silent night.

A while later when he slowly pulls away, we take a moment to breath in eachothers air, resting our foreheads and noses touching together, before he moves and kisses my forehead, and leads me his hand never leaving mine into our room.

A/N so this chapter took ahwile, mainly because i had a case of writers block for awhile there, i didn't know what to do or how to go about it. But finally, Tonight, i sat down and put my headphones in, listened to music and just tried letting it flow. Of course there was some trial and error, but it really worked, :) I Hope you liked this chapter, and leave a comment! (only positive please. :))